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lucu dah, mak w lately suka bahas berbau kematian gituu. trs at one moment, mak w bilang "kalo mama udah ngga ada, jangan lupa kalo abangnya pinjem uang dikasih, bila perlu dia ga minta dikasih" sambil senyum ketawa" gitu deh, she said in funny way but her tone is serious, she meant it. dia ngmg ini udah lebih dari 3x dlm jangka waktu yg pendek.

sepele ya? tp kalo dipikirin lg, kok jadi ada certain meaning di dlm kalimat itu. ibaratnya even at her last breath yg diinget abang w.... kayaaa huft gatau deh w emg lg emosional aja... jadi sedih aja sih rasanyaaa kayakkk knp seolah" bertumpu pada w... trs w harus bertumpu pada siapa... i dont wanna be strong all the time...

dari kecil w selalu punya beban yg berat di pundak w, dan sepertinya beban tsb akan w bawa terus sampe w dewasa nanti. cape? bgt. namanya juga tuntutan hidup. its like never ending.

kykkk w paham mak w lebih percaya dgn w terkait urusan finansial, krn w pny self-control yg kuat dari abang w, w jg termasuk independent woman yg berdikari, yg pny pendidikan tinggi shg bs pny salary yg menjanjikan. dibanding abang w yg hakikatnya jadi kepala keluarga dan menafkahi. mrk melihat; IF i get married, w dinafkahi dan w pny pegangan uang juga dr gaji itu. tp its not abt that.

trs jg pas masih remaja keliatan, w super duper frugal living, hemat no. 1, cuek lah kalo dibilang pelit atau perhitungan, toh w anak akuntansi juga, ive no bf, jarang jajan, jarang belanja/ beli barang, kalo beli ya yg termurah, termasuk gaya hidup hemat si gue. dibanding abang w yg super boros, yolo, dan konsumtif, ntm dia dr smp pny pacar jadi yaa uangnya pasti buat pacaran even tho dia tetep ngasih mak w yg setimpal tapi ttp aja gaya hidup dia teritung boros.

the fact that my mom more worried abt my bro is so devastating to me, as her daughter. ky seolah" w pasti bisa, pasti kuat, pasti tahan banting, pasti pasti dan pasti. pdhal kan w juga manusia biasa, gua gak sempurna layaknya abang gua, gua juga perlu to be worried gak cuma abang w. kayanya perlakuan spesial itu cm buat abang w, just bc he's a man. sedih ya, ekspektasi dari seorg ibu itu anak perempuannya juga harus kuat.

ekspektasi itu yg bikin pundak w semakin berat. w tau w bisa, w tau w pasti akan berusaha semaksimal mungkin utk bisa, tapi kalo terus-terus dituntut scr gamblang/ implisit dgn kalimat" spt itu. pundak w jadi terasa semakin berat. dr w sndri pasti akan mengupayakan itu semua, tp kalo diomong beban itu jadi terasa nyata.

seolah-olah im the daughter they should not be worried abt, the daughter whos strong all the time, the daughter who fixes everyth, the daughter whos their life savior, the daughter who get their shit together, the daughter who get anyth under control. if they were drowning, im the one who rescue them. n if i were drowning, did they even know? sometimes w hanya perlu di-reassure kalo w boleh capek... w ngga perlu jadi hebat, w ga perlu jadi kuat krn mrk selalu ada di sisi gua, gua ga perlu jadi ini itu, gua hanya perlu jadi diri gua sendiri di dunia ini... tapi rasanya itu mustahil.

gua gamau selalu jadi kuat... gua gamau selalu jadi rescuer.. gua gamau selalu jadi tempat andalan org-org... gua cape. gua capek, gua capekkk. gua capek jadi org yg selalu diandalkan, gua capek jadi batang penopang org-org. for once gua mau jadi rapuh.... gua mau ditolong... gua mau di-rescue... gua mau jadi org to be worried abt, org yg selalu diperhatikan kondisi n keadaannya, org yg selalu dikasihanin. tolong kasihanin gua sekali aja. 😔

#joy yaps

emoomoo

Okay I don’t normally step into fandom discourse but I gotta say something (this will be about the HBO show the Gilded Age).

People saying the problems between Marian and Larry are the miscommunication trope are off base. This wasn’t miscommunication, Larry lied. I am a huge Larian shipper and understand why he lied, but he did in fact lie to Marian’s face hours after he asked her to spend the rest of her life with him. The simple fact that he did that is in fact enough reason for Marian to put him through the wringer. If I found out that my partner said they were going to a nice steakhouse with some old college friends and found out from someone else they’d actually been at a strip club, I too would be pissed and question everything about our relationship. AND Larry knows all the shit Marian has been through with the men in her life letting her down and he didn’t think twice about ditching her for a bachelor party. And again, all of this within hours of proposing to her.

I hope they work things out but I hope Marian makes him work for it.

#the gilded age #series yaps

sapphicstarfish

Watching Theo call Lizzy his and “my Lizzy, my Elizabeth” after they literally just had sex and a midge of romance, and with her not even saying “I love you too” was gross to me, i don’t carrrreeee. This whole show is about women being treated as property and not having a voice and I’m supposed to find that romantic?? A man she’s barely spent time with claiming her as his with no actual spoken reciprocation for this so called “love” he feels for her.

Seriously??? SERIOUSLY??

#the buccaneers #series yaps

i love don draper as a dilf but i hate him as a father. two difference things can co-exist.

apa ya, theres two type yg w suka dari karakter yg daddyable. 1) hes being hot daddy (simply married, having family, wealthy, charismatic, proper outfit, energinya bapak" bgt pokonya). atau 2) hes being a literal present father, yg penyayang, yg sabar, yg soft, yg gentle, yg emotionally available, yg affectionate, yg aware, yg jiwanya lovely, gak takut be vulnerable.

#joy yaps #daddy issues

through-the-looking--glass

this is probably tmi but idc: im getting to be the age where I'm starting to think that men being good with kids it's reeeeeally hot and it's dangerous bc i also have a breeding kink but i don't have my life together and can't afford a kid but breeding kink and men that are good with kids 😩

this was totally NOT brought on by seeing edits of finn bennett as olly hatton in prisoner

joyfuldelight

UGHHH RELATE, w ga punya breeding kink tapi tiap ngeliat seleb crush gue main role daddy tuh rasanya NYESSS meleleh 🫠🫠🫠, ky comforting, warming, atau curing smth inside me gitu. sekecil seleb crush w foto bareng sama anak" aja tuh ngeliatnya WOW jiwa daddy issue w lgsg meronta-ronta, kegantengannya auto bertambah +++1000. mkny gue tuh paling gabisa bgt ngeliat yg seleb crush yg daddyable atau papable

mkny w suka baca fanfic domestic bliss esp yg daddyable, soalnya tuh rasanya curing, jadi pengen punya bapak kaya dia, kehadiran n kasih sayangnya bisa kita rasakan dgn membaca, gentle bgt, emotionally present, mengayomi bgt, affectionate, subtle bgt lah perilaku" kasih sayang antar bapak n anak

tp kalo looking back to reality gue sbnrny gak mau punya anak krn responsibility nya gede bgt (pernah w bahas juga), tapi somehow w suka BGT ngeliatin bapak" di reels atau tiktok kalo lagi momong anaknya wkwkwkwk, gatau kek men whos good w kid is another level, trs kegantengannya jadi bertambah, pas nonton curing gttt lho wkwkwk

gatau ni fenomena apasikkk

#joy yaps #daddy issues #celeb crush

sometradernameddjo

sometimes babygirl is a 33 year old man

#joe keery

snoopyracing

joe keery on the set of tame impala’s ‘loser’ music video last year via caitytakesphotos

#joe keery

novelconcepts

Okay, so Forbidden Fruits is obviously very camp, very satirical, quite silly in places, but I genuinely love that this is at its core a story about lonely women. Like, it is so clear that these people are so alone and that’s why they come together so forcefully and with such toxicity. Cherry has lost her entire family. Fig was the weird girl without friends in high school. Apple is so very, very queer and angry, living out of her car. Pumpkin is trying to move through grief. Like, yes, this movie is wild and wacky and a spiritual successor to Jennifer’s Body, American Psycho, The Craft, Mean Girls—but it’s also weirdly one of the most honest depictions of female relationships I’ve seen in a minute. How easy it is to get obsessed with the first people who seem to see you. How easy it is to fall into the gravity of people who will tell you how to be your best self. How those rules will consume your true identity and replace it with conformity. How you can’t really survive that.

#forbidden fruits #movie yaps

vintage-bentley

So tired of seeing TIMs and their bootlickers make fun of women for being “scared of dick”. It shows how little compassion they have for women and girls in this misogynistic world.

The fact is that dicks have been used as a weapon against women and girls for as long as we can remember. Men have raped women and girls with their dicks. They’ve used their dicks to forcibly impregnate women and girls. They’ve used rape, and consequently their dicks, as a weapon of war against women and girls. They’ve found joy in flashing their dick to unsuspecting and unwilling women and girls, whether that be on the street in a trench coat or online via unsolicited dick pic. They’ve threatened women and girls with their dicks—in fact, many of the “trans women” whining about their dicks being viewed negatively are posting about how much they want to rape women and girls they call “terfs”. They’ve used their dicks to violate the corpses of women and girls. They’ve written countless myths, stories, legends, films, etc. And created countless art pieces where women and girls are raped with their dicks. They’ve used their dicks to torment homosexual women and girls with “corrective” rape.

Men and their dicks are the worst nightmare of women and girls: we commonly refer to what men and their dicks do to us as “a fate worse than death”.

It’s not that women and girls are scared of dick for no reason. It’s that we come from a long line of women, stretching back to the beginning of time, who have been terrorised by men using their dicks as weapons. It is so insulting and cruel to reduce this reality to “just being scared for no reason”.

It was men’s choice to use their dicks as weapons against women and girls. It’s their fault that we now view them as such, and it’s their responsibility to not blame us for responding to their actions, and to instead fix the problem themselves.

#joy agreed

stancypilled

“i love you nancy and hope you feel the same”

#steve harrington #nancy wheeler #stranger things

stancypilled

Steve and Nancy had the potential to become one of the most beautiful love stories ever written on television, and I genuinely think Stranger Things wasted that.

What made them special was never that they were perfect in season 1. They weren’t. They were messy, immature, and both made mistakes. Their breakup made sense. That’s exactly why their story felt real.

But the thing is: even after everything, the feelings never truly disappeared.

Season 2 separated them. Season 3 barely gave them scenes together, yet even in those small moments, you could still feel that Steve would do absolutely anything for Nancy — he literally risked his life to save hers. And then season 4 happened — the season that reminded everyone just how much chemistry they still had. Steve admitting that he never stopped loving her changed everything for me.

I know Nancy and Jonathan cared about each other, but their relationship always felt more like a safe place built around shared trauma than a lasting love story. It made sense for that point in their lives, but deep down, Steve and Nancy always felt unfinished.

And honestly I don’t think Nancy ever truly stopped loving Steve either. I think she buried those feelings after Barb’s death because loving Steve became tied to guilt and pain. But season 4 made it so obvious that something between them was still there after all those years.

That’s why it hurts so much that season 5 never followed through on the buildup. The Duffer Brothers created something incredibly powerful between them again, only to abandon it completely. Steve and Nancy could have had such a beautiful full-circle story, two people who grew up, changed, made mistakes, and still found their way back to each other.

And no, Nancy ending up with Steve would not have made her “less independent” in my opinion. Choosing love does not erase a strong woman’s individuality. If anything, it would have been Nancy finally accepting what her heart had been trying to tell her all along.

I’ll never stop believing that Steve and Nancy were meant for each other and never forgive the Duffer Brothers to be honest and I don’t care how many people hate on this ship, I’ll go down with it lmao

#stranger things #series yaps #steve harrington #nancy wheeler