Dietitian JPN PCOS Journey & Reflection

Memoir of my journey, struggle, success, failure and reflection in dealing with my weight, my figure, my illness, and my road to recovery. #PCOS #PCOSAwareness #endometriosis #PID #IBS #JennyPinglingNg #weightstruggle #Fitnessandhealth #Metabolicsyndrome #Focus #Lifestylechanges #Hypochondroplasia

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UPDATE TO MY HEALTH CONDITION AND PLAN OF ACTION

I have been in pain (bowel, Intestine/rectum, ovarian, uterus) for the past 5 months since I started my new diet in March to control my blood sugar to avoid getting diagnose with Type 2 Diabetes. (My blood sugar went down 2 pts by the way - from full blown Diabetic to Pre-Diabetic towards beginning of Diabetic). From that time and now, I have under went test (MRI/Sonogram) to determine the possible cause of the pain and stress on my body. As always the findings are speculatory. But from deduction I probably have PID (pelvic inflammatory disease), IBS (Irritable Bowel syndrome), Endometriosis, fibromyalgia, and I already know I have PCOS (polycystic Ovarian syndrome), Metabolic Syndrome, Central Obesity, pressure palsy, Hypochondroplasia.

After further research, it seems the body works in a catch 22… everything is interrelated causing a domino effect. I am so tired from all this … truly exhausted from physical pain for the past 30+years. If it’s not this then it’s that… too much for my poor body. I was telling my mom, the only time I truly felt my best health was when I was in Suriname with my master healer. To go back to those days would be so great… maybe one day!

If you are still reading, then you are the lucky ones - I am your test subject, so you don’t have to be one… If you have similar issues like me, then you are in the right blog -

From my research I have learn in order to treat my health problem it’s a multi discipline chronic approach. No one cure for it all. It’s interrelated, just like the symptoms and the illnesses are interrelated. The body can heal itself when given the correct approach, nutrients and tools. Like my master says, it’s a slow moving process but doable.

I have learned- I will need to follow three diets approaches - Mediterranean Diet (best diet for most people), Low Fodmap diet and Anti-inflammatory diet. Follow me on my journey and share yours. Being a Dietitian Nutritionist, due to my lower body pains, I am quite afraid to eat food in general but I have learned, I can’t starve myself either - that will result in a negative effect of slower metabolism (mine is already a snail) and will cause hunger pains. Not wise, which will lead to increase cortisol, hormonal imbalance and creation of more fat cells, leading to more obesity which causes the fat cells to excrete more estrogen into the bloodstream causing more hormonal imbalances. I also can’t have too much raw foods such as salads - cause that cause inflammation and increase gas build up- nor too much high fiber items like Chai seeds. I think that is the beginning of my digestive gut problems. I need to heal my gut and my kidneys. The stagnation of blood in my body is causing me pain and also lack of nutrient absorption. Nutrients not going where it needs to go. Cells can’t repair and regenerate- the pain of the Neuro impulses firing is the cause of the blood stagnation.

Besides diet, the next step - is exercise, heat therapy - sweating, and massage therapy - acupressure massage to open the lymph nodes so blood can pull the nutrients into the cells.

Only problem here, not everyone know the pressure points - besides my master - it is very difficult to find another with the same knowledge and experience. I know the point because my master show it to me, but very difficult to self massage those points. I can only rely on my massage roller, balls and then some masseuse that knows the points.

Thirdly, my master says we need to slowly put in nutrients in our body - so that’s with herbal therapy - I have seen my herbalist for over half a decade. She has now retired but her daughter taking over her role. The herbal tea although bitter and often not enjoyable has been keeping my body stable for the past 6+ years… I believe in its healing power because the MRI/Sonogram results show me that it works. From having numerous cysts on both ovaries to only one on my right ovary. That is the attestation to me that it works. But now my MRI shows a different story - so now I need to do more…

My master say Ginger is the best food - drink Ginger Tea helps blood circulation…

It seems there is a lot I need to do - to be honest, I am a little saddened I need to go through all this - but at the same time, I think God gave me this life challenge for a reason. I need to try my best to complete the mission…

There is always HOPE for a better tomorrow.

Next post, I will discuss the exercises I am committing myself to do daily in the morning and the ones I will do at night time…

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New Treatment Modality

I have been feeling like shit recently due to stress, overworking and my physical fall injuries. This has affected my mood, emotions and overall happiness. The hormonal changes, high cortisol and insulin resistance is not helping the situation either. It’s seem my IG/FB and TiKTok is spying on me as it keeps showing me ads of products that target my issues… so I have decide to give it a try… purchased Nectar Calm for my cortisol problem and will be ordering Soursop bitters for my insulin resistance problem. I will keep everyone informed of my progress, product review weekly. I have also started doing calorie counts for accountability. I know my main problem is not truly food but really hormonal, stress and lack of sleep. I really wish I could live in the same city as my master healer so I can truly be healed from the inside out - secret - everything starts with the gut and blood circulation including errors in DNA /RNA sequencing and replication causing tumors which lead to cancer.

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Some interesting thoughts my sister shared and my response. I thought I would share here…

"According to Psychologists, there are four types of Intelligence:

1) Intelligence Quotient (IQ)

2) Emotional Quotient (EQ)

3) Social Quotient (SQ)

4) Adversity Quotient (AQ)

1. Intelligence Quotient (IQ): this is the measure of your level of comprehension. You need IQ to solve maths, memorize things, and recall lessons.

2. Emotional Quotient (EQ): this is the measure of your ability to maintain peace with others, keep to time, be responsible, be honest, respect boundaries, be humble, genuine and considerate.

3. Social Quotient (SQ): this is the measure of your ability to build a network of friends and maintain it over a long period of time.

People that have higher EQ and SQ tend to go further in life than those with a high IQ but low EQ and SQ. Most schools capitalize on improving IQ levels while EQ and SQ are played down.

A man of high IQ can end up being employed by a man of high EQ and SQ even though he has an average IQ.

Your EQ represents your Character, while your SQ represents your Charisma. Give in to habits that will improve these three Qs, especially your EQ and SQ.

Now there is a 4th one, a new paradigm:

4. The Adversity Quotient (AQ): The measure of your ability to go through a rough patch in life, and come out of it without losing your mind.

When faced with troubles, AQ determines who will give up, who will abandon their family, and who will consider suicide.

Parents please expose your children to other areas of life than just Academics. They should adore manual labour (never use work as a form of punishment), Sports and Arts.

Develop their IQ, as well as their EQ, SQ and AQ. They should become multifaceted human beings able to do things independently of their parents.

Finally, do not prepare the road for your children. Prepare your children for the road."

My response:

Very true … and as the psychology goes - EQ, SQ, and AQ is more important than IQ. It’s who you know in life and not what you know that takes you far in life - in addition, to foster good relations with many different people in society one first need to have high EQ in order to develop SQ. As for AQ - that’s depends on how much determination one has and how much God helps oneself to reflect and overcome adversity. Not all adversity is overcome-able. Some are more challenging than others - and if no one reaches out a hand - it’s hard to overcome. Hence it’s good to have a strong positive optimistic network of people around oneself, instead of sourpuss killingtons. IQ - is sometimes innate and born with and sometimes its acquired through life experience and learning - but in Asian culture, the emphasis on this is too much - as next generation parents we need to be more forward thinking … in truth, I feel it’s the extracurricular and the life experiences outside the classroom academia that shape our life - from my own experience, it’s not school that prepared me for the real world, but rather the extracurricular activities, clubs and organizations in school that prepared me.

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Reflection time: Haven’t blogged in a while because I have been so busy with work. But one thing I have learned, we need to be thankful and feel blessed for what we do have and for each new day of being alive! I know it’s hard at times. Nothing in life is ever easy and having physical pain doesn’t make it any better. Then I go back and think of a famous quote - “I complain for having no shoes, until I met a man with no feet.” There will always be others less fortunate, more busy or more stress than myself… we need to look at the positives in life and focus less on the negatives.

Recently, my body has been under a lot of stress and feeling lots of pain due to carrying my daughter, carrying her stroller up and down the stairs and from lack of sleep due to my exhausting work schedule. But thank God I have my Mom’s help. But mom recently been feeling tired and weak herself. She has an upcoming eye surgery and overall she hasn’t been sleeping well and just probably overall exhaustion like me. But we need to be grateful that we are still alive, have a roof over our head and still have money to buy food.

Many changes happening, but not a lot of time to adapt. I hope in the coming months, my health will slowly get better. Now doing something I learn call Somatic exercises. Actually, I have been doing it for a while, just didn’t know it’s call that until now. It really helps with the aches and pains.

My baby daddy complains too damn much which is starting to get on my nerves. Maybe it’s due to the war in Russia or from everything happening with COVID and the increase crimes in NYC or his late work hours. But whatever it is, as a man, he needs to man up and stop complaining so much to me. Especially since it is me who is carrying most if not all, the weight of this small family of ours. I am so overly exhausted sometimes I would fall asleep on my train rides home from work or I am so preoccupied with thoughts, I can’t even put myself to bed at night. I need to remember what I preach… let’s not worry about tomorrow, when tomorrow problems will be tomorrow and instead live for today. Let’s do that! God bless!

Did I mention the book I was writing, got deleted and missing from my notes app on my phone due to lack of space on my phone. If anyone knows how to retrieve it back, please let me know. I am quite sad from this predicament.

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In a lot of pain again… always on the right side lower abdominal region near the ovarian area and from front to back. So much pain last night that I didn’t even get any sleep. When I put and lay on the side putting pressure on the region it feels a little better. What could be the cause? I have done every test imaginable and so far they found nothing wrong. Only test left is surgery but I don’t want to do that. From a series of deductions it is probably endometriosis. So far, I haven’t eaten a lot of dairy products or soy products recently, so why is the pain getting worse at times? Anyone else have this problem and can shed some insight into my condition? I am hanging by a thread. I am tired of Always being in pain. Need help!! Any advice?! Wish my master healing was here. He would know how to massage the pressure points and advice me. Feeling hopeless at times. My period just finished. Is my hormones acting up again ??

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I haven’t written a post in a while. Here is some updates … my daughter is now 6 months old… woo hoo! Yay!!!

In other news, I have learned beside my brain tumor that I was diagnose 4 years ago with pressure palsy. Apparently I am My neurologist Dr Jade Hon only pressure palsy patient that’s why she remembers me. Sigh… The disadvantage of being short… seriously it sucks. So far these are my diagnosed health conditions… Dr Hon said a lot of my pain and numbness might be due to nerve problems. I believe it. Most probably can be resolved or alleviated if I get skinner. So I guess that will be the new life goals for the next 5 years… health and fitness with my daughter …

脑膜瘤 meningioma

遗传性神经病伴压力性麻痹 Pressure Palsy

多囊卵巢综合征 poly cystic ovarian syndrome

子宫内膜异位症 Endometriosis

妊娠糖尿病 Gestational Diabetes (resolved)

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Me and my beautiful daughter!!!

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Sleep Training Baby at night time …

To read more : https://www.thenewbasics.com/en/book-excerpt/sleep/

Sleep

Sleep

Between Two and Four Months

In 1994, when Tribeca Pediatrics first opened its doors, we recommended that parents begin sleep-training their babies at around the age of four months. However, to the universal comfort and sanity of our patients, we have discovered that sleep-training is even more effective if begun at two months. Of course, it’s your decision when this process begins and how you choose to tackle it. But our years of experience, and the testimonials of our well-rested patients and their parents, have convinced us that this is the most effective, healthy time to begin sleep-training.

If you enjoy the cuddling or at least don’t mind the fact that Lucy wakes up at night, please skip to the next age group below. If, on the other hand, you feel sleep-deprived and want to handle the situation, I’ve broken the process down into three simple steps:

1 | Put Lucy in her crib at a reasonable hour (while she’s still awake, if possible). The best time is when both of you have had a chance to interact with her for a while after work.

2 | After the bath and the songs, kiss her good night.

3 | Come back the next morning at 7:00 A.M.

I have just heard the collective gasp of thousands of parents: “Are you out of your mind?!” Bear with me. I know this sounds drastic, but it’s the only way to get Lucy into the habit of soothing herself rather than relying on you. It’s true that the first few days she’ll soothe herself to sleep by crying, but eventually she’ll sleep just like, well, a baby. The first night she’ll cry two to three times, for twenty to thirty minutes (you’ll feel like crying too); the second night she’ll cry less; and the third even less. By the fourth night, you’re home free. Done.

REAL QUESTIONS FROM REAL PARENTS

What if I can’t do it?

Again, if you don’t mind waking up, then you don’t have a problem, and Lucy doesn’t either. But as much as I’d like to tell you her sleep patterns will get better, trust me and trust my experience, they won’t change on their own.

How long can I let her cry?

Until she falls asleep. It can take an awfully long time. If you last only twenty minutes, you’re teaching her to cry for twenty minutes before she gets her soothing.

Can I at least go touch the baby or kiss her, even if I don’t feed her?

If you do, she’ll see it as a tease, become more upset, and cry even longer because she won’t understand why you won’t feed her. Babies know nothing of moderation.

How do I know the baby isn’t hungry?

She is hungry. But she does not need to eat. After any three- or four-hour fasting period, she’ll be hungry. You’re hungry in the middle of the night, too; it’s just that you learn not to eat because it’s good for your belly to take a rest. Well, it’s good for hers too.

What about a little water at least?

Only if you want to wake up every couple of hours to give her water.

What about a pacifier?

Same thing.

Would it help if I gave her cereal before bed?

It’s a myth that porridge before bedtime helps a baby sleep, since it will be digested in the few hours to come. The same goes for topping off a feeding with a bottle of formula.

Can I feed the baby to sleep?

You can, but it’s better not to. Consistency is important, so why would you nurse Lucy to the edge of sleep at 8:00 P.M. but not, say, at 2:00 A.M.? It’s a habit you’ll have to struggle to overcome, and since you’re doing so much struggling as it is, you might as well struggle completely and be done with it. Also, if you’re going to struggle, I assure you that things will look much more dramatic to you at 2:00 A.M. than they will at 8:00 P.M. And most of the crying is done early on.

How long will Lucy sleep at this age?

Ten to twelve hours. Straight.

Without eating?

Without eating.

Can I go to her early in the morning?

Again, if you’re going to struggle, struggle all the way. Babies are notorious believers in the take-a-mile-if-given-an-inch philosophy. If you give Lucy attention at five-thirty, she’ll start looking for you at five. If you slide back to five, she’ll test you at four. And so forth. Hold to the schedule, on the other hand, and she’ll learn to put herself back to sleep in the morning hours.

Aren’t I traumatizing the baby?

At seven in the morning, you’ll be surprised to find a happy, smiling baby who loves you and loves to see you. And you’ll be rested and happy too. More to the point, your own smiles during the day won’t be as forced when you are no longer a zombie.

How about nap time?

Don’t worry about nap time. Once Lucy learns to sleep at night, daytime napping will be a breeze.

Is it really this easy?

As I said, after a few days of this, Lucy will sleep through the night. And if you wake up, it will only be because you’re surprised that you’re sleeping so well. But make no mistake: Be prepared for three or four brutally hard nights. It is never easy to let your baby cry. But once you start, stick to your guns; if you give in halfway through the process, you’ll only make it worse.

How do you know all of this?

I learned the hard way. With Abeline, our first daughter, my wife and I took turns on 2:00 A.M. Lullaby duty. I spent many nights walking around the loft with Abeline in my arms, singing any French lullaby that my sleep-starved brain could conjure. I wasn’t sleeping well at home and even less at work when I was on call. And I was probably just like you, thinking that if she woke up, she was calling us. At ten months, we were so exhausted from soothing her that we finally let her cry it out. Within a couple of days she was sleeping through the night. You’d think we’d have learned our lesson, but we hadn’t. With our second daughter, Nora, we made the same mistakes (tending to her every nighttime peep) and later resolved it the same way. It only took us six months to wise up that time. With Fanny, our third one, we let her cry herself to sleep early, just like I told you, and it worked like a charm. She’s a perfectly secure little kid who can fall asleep fine on her own. By contrast, Abeline, who got the most soothing before sleeping, still needs her head rubbed every once in a while to get to sleep, just like in the good old days.

I’ve also learned from the hundreds of sleepless parents to whom I’ve suggested this method. They initially look at me like I have two heads, but at the next month’s visit, they show up with broad smiles and tell me, “That was torture for a few days, but we’re so happy we did it!”

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Time for a Change and Shift

I think it's time for a change. I am tired feeling exhausted all the time. My body is telling me I need to actively make big changes to improve my health. It's slowly killing me. Dragging myself to work each morning, feeling restless and sad/depressed.  So I need to have some accountability in my life choices and have a work-life-balance.  I will need to decide what is important in my life and give up some things. The problem is, my mind is often preoccupied with so many things. So many life goals and desires. So many activities I wish I could be doing.  During my awaking time, I am suffering. Overthinking!  But this need to stop and actions need to proactively start to manifest into reality.   Starting off, I need to start to change my life schedule. Starting with changing my sleeping pattern and hours of sleeping.  I need to give myself quality sleep. Like how my ASMR videos are helping others with my calm voice. I need to start proactively giving myself this type of ASMR for myself and go into a state of trans.  Starting with trying to create a 9:30pm to 5:30am sleep schedule. I will push myself to do this 5 days a week on Monday to Friday.  On the weekends I can extend the sleep schedule to 11pm to 8am. I need to function on my own time and not on the basis of matching someone else's time. For so long I had always tried my best to match my boyfriend/significant other/ or lover's time schedule. And frankly I have learned, it doesn't work for me.  It causes me more harm than good. And are they appreciative of my efforts?  I don't think so. At least I don't feel they are. So now, the time for compromise is over. They will need to mash with my time schedule.  So lets start with the shift in sleep pattern. So on Monday to Friday, I will try to train my body to wake up at 5:30am, get ready and leave my house by 6:30am.  Walk to the N train station by 7:30am. Let's do this for a week and see how I feel.  On the weekends, I will sleep at 11pm and wake up at 8am, then get ready and leave the house by 9am to take a long walk along the beach or neighborhood.  Eat breakfast and then come back before noon to start the rest of my day.  Let's try this for two weeks and see what happens. These changes they need to be slow, steady and progressive and I need to be accountable for my choices. I will start this starting Today after work. I hope, I can put this plan into action. I will force myself to. No point putting it off to tomorrow. When I can do it today.

As a reminder -  I will write out my schedule:

Monday to Friday – Sleep at 9:30pm and Wake up at 5:30am Saturday and Sunday – Sleep at 11:00pm and Wake up at 8:00am

Monday to Friday – leave house at 6:30am and walk to N train station (arrive by 7:30am); take train to work. Saturday and Sunday – leave house at 9:00am and go walk, exercise, and eat breakfast. Return back home before Noon.

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For some this pandemic has made many people very motivated about their Health and well-being and has propelled a lot of people to get healthy and in-shape. My bro is an example of this. He had a health scare back in Thanksgiving of 2019 and since the pandemic started he got himself a home gym and started working his way to the shape that he is now. I can truly say he is in the best shape of his life.

For others, such as myself, this pandemic has really made me realize how utterly helpless and useless I am. If you have been following my blog you would know all about my life struggle. Well, this pandemic just made me see how utterly useless I am. My health hasn’t gotten better. In fact, after taking two dose of the COVID19 vaccine, Each time, I had huge adverse reactions. Having all the negative reactions listed by all and in addition amplifing my own health issues and pains. In particular, my right quadrant abdominal/ovarian/intestinal pains that seems to radiate from the front to the back. These days it seems to include the whole front intestines as well as amplifing my lower back pains. I am starting to be concern that it may not be so simple. I am starting to question whether I have inflamed intestines or worse, tumor or cancer in my intestines or a busted appendix. Would that be possible? Beside my ovarian cyst, what else could be causing me all this torture and pain. How can one cyst cause all this problem? It has to be more to the story. Is there?

Literally in tears 😭 from the pain, lack of sleep, lack of peace... I said to my mom and grandma that I can’t take this torture anymore and that it be better if God lessened my suffering and take my life sooner than later. Upon hearing that, my mom lashed out and said I caused all this suffering on my own because I am stubborn and that I did this to myself starting from my college days to my time living alone in Queens during my internship and beyond. That my lack of sleep and my intense lifestyle over the years caused my own downfall. Could she had been right? Did I cause this to myself. I had suffered my whole life with this. Starting from age 9 until my first diagnosis of PCOS in my early 20s to Now in my late 30s, it seems the problem and pain just keep on escalating to a point of no repair. How do I repair this damage. Mom and gramps thinks I need to change my sleep habits, sleep more at night time and wake up early in day time and exercise more. Lose weight and strengthen myself like my bro did. If it’s only that Easy. In a full month, if I am lucky, I only feel well, truly well ... one week in the four weeks. It’s that bad and sad.

Then my mom and gramps started telling me about their own struggles/pain and their own menstrual struggles during their young adult life. Listening to it, it was like we three were competiting to see whom had the worser life and the worser pain. It seems all three of us had it bad. Three generations of pain and suffering. One generation after the next. It seems they had lived longer than me and endure more than me and from their story, their pain far exceeded mine. Is that possible? I am at the point of pain that I just want God to take me back to heaven now. They told me, they had it worse and even in their struggles they had not prayed for early death. So they looked at me... especially my grandma and said, you are the youngest amongst us and have lived the less, how can you hope for death when you should be hoping for long lasting life. In Chinese she said, men (humans) should pray for life and survival and not for death. Then grandma said, when at the age that she is now (late 80s/early 90s), she has not once pray for death but for continue life. She said life is short and one must walk the road and path and God decides when our time will come. Basically, my mom and grandma is telling me, I have no business hoping for death when I have so much life to live at 37 and it’s up to me to make my health better. To start each day and strengthen my own body. Cause in the end no one can save me except for myself.

They are telling me that I need to look after myself because no one else will. Then mom said, with my health, no man would want to be with me. Who wants that burden. She is right about that and I have long known that. That’s why I never expected anyone to fall in love with me, to want to be with me, nor do I want anyone to bear my burden. It’s my own. Only someone whom truly loves me beyond measure would sacrifice to take care of me and be with me. I don’t think In this world that person exist. Everyone is selfish in their own way. I truly wish someone like that would come along. But I doubt it. Nor do I want nor need to burden anyone else that doesn’t want to be burden.

In short, I will try my best to make myself semi healthy if not fully healthy. My grandma is right, I have no business asking for death. It’s not my time. When it is my time, God will let me know. If you know my story, you would know, many times, it seemed like it was my time as I was in dangerous situations, but God saved me each and every time. I guess it wasn’t my time yet. Maybe I haven’t suffered enough. Maybe I haven’t learned enough. Maybe I haven’t done all that God needed me to do or see. Maybe it’s not my time yet. When it’s my time, I guess I will know. Until then, I guess I need to live, persevere and not give up hope. Not give up on this life that Dima tells me I need to hold onto.

I pray God to give me the courage to face and battle this pain and this suffering. I pray that my angels look after me and soften my burden and pain. I pray that God bring and gives me mercy. I pray that I can become the strong person that everyone thinks that I am. Afterall, I am an empathetic person and as such I can feel others pains and suffering. I can see through others emotions, facades and lies... it’s a gift and a curse, but I can empathize with almost any one and can walk through their shoes.

I just wish, someone out there can empathize with me and Walk a day in my shoes and understand exactly how I feel and provide me some type of comfort. I wish one day, I can get the same feeling from someone, the way I make others feel. This Aura, Dima call it... I wish I can receive it too.

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Is there a difference?

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For the first time... I am showing my body images... was there any change in progress from D0 to D12? M1D1 159#; M1D15 158#

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The start of something new... So I have decided the physical pain is not going to break me. I decided to fight back... This is my new journey of health and fitness. Also in a later post I will touch upon my aggressive herbal therapy treatment I have decided to commit myself on for 6 months. Let's do this...

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August 17, 2020

The pain is so unbearable... It's been three days of this constant right quadrant, lower intestine, ovary region pain... I have long suspect besides having PCOS with right ovary cyst that I might have endometriosis and/or fibroids. The worst part is there is no true way to diagnose it unless I have a laparoscopy surgery, which is a last resort if need.

These few days has been horrible. Usually worse at night time when I am lying on the bed. Usually it's a little better when I am sitting up. But overall it's horrible. So horrible that sometimes I wish I was dead. So I don't have to deal with the pain. I have work today and this week. So since the pain doesn't seem to dissipate I have to finally give in and take pain killers, otherwise I can't function at work. So it's Naproxen or Acetaminophen for me.

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草决明, Catsia tora Linn

The best thing to use inside a heating pad for heat therapy because of its medicinal properties. Master Wei sifu said ... Nothing is better than this seed.

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Tuesday, February 18, 2020

Time here seems to go so slowly. When there is not much to do and each days task takes hours to do due to the inconvenience and lack of supplies and equipment then every day seems kinda meaningless. For example, if we had a laundry machine and dryer, we could have laundry done in an hr or so. But since there is none, we have to work double the amount of time and hand-wash small amounts of clothing each day. It has come to a point that one does not even want to wear so much clothes and instead just wear a few articles of clothes and thin fabric clothes as to not have to work so hard to hand wash them. 😔 sigh ... Even preparing and making a meal is a whole days affair.

Anyways, I had food poisioning yesterday... had to use the restroom all night from 3:30am after having stomach ache. Had the runs 5x and then after I took some meds and use some ointment on my stomach region and forehead and went back to sleep around 7am and then woke up at 10am; did I start to feel a little better. But now I fear to eat any of the food. I ate white rice congee due to fear. I so fear unsanitary conditions. In this country that is an understatement. Not good ...

Today is Day 6 since I been to Suriname. Flew here on February 12th; arrived midnight on February 13th and today is February 18th. Since I have been here Master Wei Sifu has done 3 and a half treatment sessions on me. He has done over 10 sessions for my mom. Each day my mom gets a little better. She is slowly walking and standing with some strength and can walk a distance of 30mins. As for me, I am slowly feeling a little less tired. The treatments hurt a lot but at least it’s not like how the master’s student was doing it for me. Although the results from the student was faster but that was cause he did it forcely where I was screaming and crying. While the master does it slowly and gradually so I don’t cry and minimal scream. I am hopeful he can help me improve. Let’s wait and see... there are still three weeks.

Yesterday, I went exploring on my own and walked 4hours. It was very dangerous as there is no sidewalks. I walked basically in the same path on the road as the cars against traffic so I could see on-coming traffic. At night time it was especially dangerous as I did not have any light blinkers. I don’t think I will walk that far again. In the map it says it was close and not far at all. Per google maps it is a 30min walk one way, but in reality the walk back and forth took me about 5hrs. Maybe because of the lack of sidewalks and also because I had stopped to take photos and went into two supermarket. 😔