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i’m naomi. 25. she/her. lesbo. jerm livestream suicide enthusiast. my main is juroguro.

i mainly post j + jIud + strma and others in their circle. i'm actually delusional about j and talk about it a lot, sorry. regardless. everything i say is a joke and not real <3 begone haters and minors and ldwig ahgren

making cool stuff before we're all dead: ♡

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choob archives! pt 3

DO NOT SHARE OUTSIDE OF SICKOBLR/TWT

pt 1, pt 2

miscellaneous comments:

something about this is very sad to me :( "the rejected one that doesn't know he's supposed to be changing colors" ... just like my ch00belette :( frown

this was a major one i already posted previously, but ashley does know about this previous account.. which makes it likely that she also knows about the ch00b account. which means... :))).. rubs hands evilly

i like ketchup murder :) "this is a gay long responce" cute :P also wanted to note that str is not out on this account at all, or maybe didn't realize he was gay yet.. frown. no interactions with jin either

steva saaarg'es :P more proof that this is him ig lol

another previous old username.. i couldn't find anything with this username but also i didn't look too hard, so this is another thing i'll look into more in the future..

and this is a conversation with fangfingers. which happens very frequently on this account! gee, i wonder if this will come up in the future. stares at you with my big traumatized eyes. "i could attempt to help you out or something because you're you." blinks my humongous bloodshot traumatized eyes at you.

. actually. let me go back and check for some other comments from him on this account. we'll return to this later

this is NUTS 😭 so presumably this was before he was miserable and suicidal and (in my wildest dreams) sh-ing. but i love him. such a bitch :D!!!! "stop cutting yourself unless you plan on being a blood donor" is going into my personal dictionary

old journal entry + abouts on this account via wayback machine :( still into rammstein and einsturzende neubauten back then, hehe :3. also his art is his favorite, hehe. and d2 being his fav game at this point in time.. like jemmy :((( cute

this was his signature also :3 as you can tell, his xD random food was pudding LOL

cute :( he is so cute on the lorddeme account especially :(

other stuff:

at this point i decided to also look through the ni1chts account through wayback machine using the old url format.. i think this is not new to some of u but it was new to me. and. ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

this is the most tragic thing ever ever ever. he is so fucking dissociated and numb that he isn't even fully aware of how depressed he is :( and referring to michelle as his sister again.. ugh :( soso sad

i also wanted to direct your attention to these clubs at the bottom of the message too:

yea. yea :( yeah....

yeah :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((. i am so sad. i am so so so sosososo sad forever. sad sad sad for the rest of my life.

also this!

gore galore :3

heheheheheheheh........ inchresting :3. no emo-riffic wrist cutting </3 fucked up..

this are his abouts also :3 cute. another nichts curry :( UGHHHHH. + he is eight :)

this literally made me start crying when i saw it. he makes me so sad. i love you choob :( i wish your future was colorful. i wish..... :(((( frowns forever

i think we already saw this although it's gone now with his account.. :( also jin's message signature!

and in a later post, here's another club he's a part of :((((((((((((((((((( sigh......

rolls around bleeding :))))))))))))))) cute!!

this is maybe my favorite art i found.. urghhhhhhh

URKKKKKKKK. :JGUNPOINT:. OURHHHHHHHHHG.....

another rword + :3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im not sure if hidden by owner means that the commenter hid it or that str hid it.. either way :( jin........

...and i've hit the image limit again, lol. more to come! (maybe today!)

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you are an absolute hero because i would rather blow my brains out than relive the cringe of mid 00s dA lmao

LOL that's fair. my favorite aesthetic era is the early-mid 00s so i'm living my best life rn :3

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Dunno if you saw but during the last 4Horsie stream they mentioned potentially inviting J03l to stream with them since V1n is gonna be gone for a while and, even if I know this might not happen at all because of timezones shenanigans and J03l not really liking streaming with people he doesn't know (would be fine if it was just with V1n and Jrm ofc, he's a little shy it's so cute...), that would be sooo awesome... Just V1n introducing his boyfie to his other (fuck)buddies hehehe we need some real J03l and Str interactions after that one raid that happened... >w>

i did see :3333 that should be fun... for whatever reason i can't make myself get into joel at all (i'm trying, there's just something unappealing about him to me.. im sorry joelfuckers) but i do like his streams with j :3.. delusionally im hoping that lud makes an appearance, which absolutely will not happen, but i think squeex subbing in could be cute :33. i am excited for more joel and str interactions though :3.. his pool of boyfriends is expanding :)

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Oh my god the archive stuff makes my heart hurt so bad he reminds me so so much of myself at that age. I’m the same age as him now so I see so much of myself in him, being OBNOXIOUSLY gay online but being afraid to be irl, even the lying abt your age online thing bc you want to seem more mature or bypass age restrictions.. cringe lol random humor… I could see him looking at the tf2 yaoi threads that would crop up on 4chan later lol. what a glimpse into a bygone era… thank you for all you do in preservation. 🙏

ikr :((( i feel so so much for him, everything about choob and strjin is so relatable while being so so SO tragic to me :( i love my cringe loser fag.. i need to save him from himself </3

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"and then he said you should be up there too" + dust of a wimpy kid meme

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just do porn

[hocceius]

where would rpf be without the character of nondescript hotel room

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choob archives! pt 2

DO NOT SHARE OUTSIDE OF SICKOBLR/TWT

i'm not gonna re-explain everything, so check out the first part here if you haven't already :)

new accounts:

okay so. this was such a jumpscare for me. imagine you spend like four hours straight skimming through comments on an account choob interacted with a handful of times looking for other comments. and you see this

HUH!!!!

first thought i had was, oh, that's a weird coincidence! surely there's no way that our etal is the same person. i don't know much about him but he didn't really seem like a cringe mid 00s deviantart user to me. surely not.

and he doesn't really seem like the photographer type either?? right??

and, the account was deactivated + wasn't archived, so i couldn't find more on it.....

jk. thanks @sterjin for lending a helping hand :) i was formatting the urls in the wrong way to get older results on wayback machine (username.da.com (old) vs. da.com/username (new)), so we found:

Art - community of artists and those devoted to art. Digital art, skin art, themes, wallpaper art, traditional art, photography, poetry / pr

this! okay, cool. but still, surely this is not OUR alan eta1yx. surely

never mind LOL. i mean, this is (afaik) the only instance we have of his full name. so it could just be... a very weird coincidence that there are two independently existing eta1yx's named alan who are in the same age group... but i really doubt it lol

so we do have proof of str and etal following the same accounts (i found two instances), but im still cautious to say they actually knew each other bc there are no direct interactions between the two. the accounts they were interacting with were somewhat big, but not very big, so it's not like everyone on da was interacting there.. ultimately, i just think it is a weird coincidence (for now. unless i find more evidence lol)

unlike str, all of his posts/comments that i could find were pretty normal, like this one ^

i'll include another new account i found on this post!

as i was going through all the accounts that favorited choob's art (which took just as long as you think it would lol), i came across lorddeme (posted previously)

LordDeme on DeviantArt

LordDeme is an artist on DeviantArt. · Artworks: 42 · Followers: 6 · Likes: 32

(cute icon :3)

which had these comments attached:

which i thought was a little strange, but i figured it was a friend's account.. but i was noticing that the art style was very similar to choobs. and then this!

which confirmed that this def was a previous account of choob's. and also this

which i don't know how i ignored in the first place LOL. i was going through these accounts pretty quickly tbf asdfgh

i'll put other things from this account in the comments section because i feel like i'll run out of room on this post to post everything. but i love this account.. so much of his early art (potentially his first da account :( ) and lots of him talking about early high school life and being cringe and silly.. aww :((

still have to do a deep dive into this account as well.. as well as etal's account too.. mamma mia. much to come!

miscellaneous comments:

okay so. here's a really fun thread from one of his forum posts:

choob directly saying he's gay (again). also i am still thinking about "i'm sorry some guy in africa got lonely" re: hiv/aids 😭😭. just really a gold set of posts

:))) thinking of boston-era strma.... my poor jealous clinging boy </3 (and neglectful evil boyfriend)

his attitudes around sh and suicide always crack my up. there's another instance of this later lol

even more proof that this is his account, not that we needed more lol

choob flirting with another friend :)

another rword

just him being cute :)!

other stuff:

okay. so the discovery with etal's deviantart url made me realize that i could also check strs accounts using the old url formatting.. some of this stuff i think was previously posted elsewhere, but for whatever reason i didn't try to do find it myself previously.. so some of this is probably not new to you, but i'm putting it here if u haven't seen it before :)

old email :) cute. reminiscent of lorddeme lol

interestingly, choob went back to update his account moving post at some point to the one it is now (his n11chts icon used to be a black heart for a while :) cute)

also, i love his old message signatures :) choob will DESTROY you with FACTS and KNOWLEDGE

that's all for now! see u in part 3!

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choob archives! pt 1

DO NOT SHARE OUTSIDE OF SICKOBLR/TWT

okay so. this is going to be a series of long posts that probably won't be organized in a very reader friendly matter, but i'm doing my best. this is the end result of over a month of attempting to make a full (as possible) archive of posts from strs deviantart accounts following him deactivating n11chts. (spoiler, i did not even get close to finishing this task LOL. more will come in a few months likely) there was WAY more that i missed in previous discoveries.. which is unsurprising, because following up on *every* lead took me, again, all of my free time for a month+.

i'm just going to include notable discoveries in these posts (there are many), but whenever i complete organizing my archive, i'll post that on my blog as well.. that will probably not be for a while though. considering that i've only done a deep dive on the ch00belette account (as well as some tangential leads).. and there are six or so(?) more to go. and potentially even more. :")

you likely will not understand what i am saying if you haven't read my previous posts on the matter!! part 1, part 2, part 3, miscellany. it is a lot to go through, but if you are a true mentally ill person, it is worth it, prommy.

tl;dr: what i'll be covering in these posts are:

several previously undiscovered accounts of strs (and eta1yx???)

a lot of fun lore! and him being a cutie pie :P

str being even gayer than previously known

the fact that ashley KNOWS.

a concerning relationship he had with a really creepy fifty year old man. that is maybe grooming. allegedly. (alleged by me)

and much much more!

anyway. enjoy part one below

okay. im going in chronological order of my discoveries for the most part + adding headers for some organization, so sorry if this jumps around a lot. i wish tumblr let u add more pics to a post so this wouldn't be so all over the place...

new accounts:

one of the main strategies i used to find new content was going through the list of people following or followed by str. the first discovery i made was strs myspace account, which i found through looking through jin's myspace account...

https://myspace.com/999q (it won't let me make a pretty link for this)

(also im sorry i won't be censoring jin's last name anymore because i won't in my archive since it is everywhere and y'all probably know it anyway. obv don't do anything with it)

there is nothing interesting on this account (myspace was barely preserved, unfortunately. if anyone knows how to recover stuff, i would really appreciate it!). but i did find something interesting linked on his profile:

MySpace Profile - HURRA!! comic, 26 years old, Male, SOUTH AMBOY, NEW JERSEY, US, HURRA, HURRA!!

there was a page for hurra!! and thankfully it was archived!

don't know why he was lying about his age but he was LOL. (also i don't think south amboy is really a doxx.. he has said this (at least indirectly) on stream)

another instance of str using his last name :(.. + remember the kissing boys incident? even more proof that it was (somewhat) a freudian slip. because his aim would be a direct way for us to find out he was kissing boys lol

this made me sad :( a lot of his friends didn't even care about his gay little comic... :( thinking again about him saying that jin was his only friend..... :((((((

miscellaneous comments:

i found some new stuff looking through forum posts choob made, including this one. which is just silly to me. it's a bummer that he deleted all his journal posts on previous accounts bc he loved to yap ;(

boyfriend :(

more miscellany from choob's forum posts:

:( cute.. choob going on his religious society rants and jin being like :3 liar liar u love me so much!! :( cute

sigh... :( there will be more of this in my next posts but.. makes me so sad. it's so fucked up going thru these old posts knowing he's still in the closet literally twenty years after this... :(

im wondering how much german choob actually knew, or if this was just a bluff :P

choob username lore :).... female form.. ughhhhhh

now, here's a big one. i posted this previously (i think) but it's still........ arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

there's just. so so much. like, from jins bl reading + watching, i always assumed choob would be into it too, but we didn't have direct proof of it.. and then here's str being like yea i love yaoi but there needs to be more graphic porn! "being very gay" .... AUGHHHHH

much in this post!! so he has his friend keep his bl for him.. likely so mommy wouldn't find out :P but also she probably knew about jin, so... but it seems like the stuff he owned was pretty smutty lolol. also i love the implication that he's dropping out of school to pursue a career in table tennis LOL. i guess his real life career of playing video games on the internet sounds just as unattainable though lol

i wonder how much time he spent at hot topic :)

dad lore.. (the journal post is from freakresponse, which, as u can see, is one of his closest da friends + irl).. i love how genuine he's being here :(

i don't think i included this in previous posts since it wasn't relevant, but jin's sister died :( and it's really sweet and sad seeing choob call her his sister too... really emphasizes how close they were :( makes me so sad that his parents weren't supporting him then... ugh (more of this to come later as well!)

"go draw some sexually confused teens" is a great line

"i'm jealous of people, very" + using that jealousy as motivation to win.. :))))) im thinking about kim.. :)) and how weird he can get about monica lately. thinking thinking thinking...

:( he's the baby...

so depressed :(... :))))))) "i dont really want to be alive" ohghhh my beloved little emo boy :( cute. he gets so personal in this person's comments (same person as freakresponse + black-maple-path iirc) so they must have been really close.. :))

there are many instances of this that im leaving out, but he's such a bitch :D hehe. he's barely changed :P

another rword

just him being cute :3

other stuff:

i don't know why i never looked at this closely when i was first going through choob's account, but... this is in his favorites.

the most horrible thing about this is that it literally looks like. j and choob :( when they first met..... ughhhhhhhhhhh....... as if we needed more proof that he was strs type :agony: ....

anddd i'm already out of space for pics lol. to be continued in my next post! hope u enjoy this for now :)

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do you think jrm is hurting for money after all of his medical bills and that's why he turned hype train back on and was talking about how much money he was offered for spon deals in the offline chat?

no, he's (most likely) a millionaire lol. i do think he is greedy and regretting not selling out earlier <3 and also really likes the attention (and money) from the hype trains. ultimately im sure he has a ton of disposable income to fuel is gambling + stocks addictions, so he can dip into that if medical stuff is expensive lol

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j slipping up and using gorefag slang on stream. i...................................

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he lovesss getting spoiled with subs

that was so special.. getting showered with money and her going !! oh this is just too much!! oh stop it... noo don't give me $500 haha you guys are too sweet :P maybe i'll turn on cam for you since you're being good 😉 aww yea you earned an extra hour of the stream.. i should do this again! goddddddd i need to BITE her

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I’ve been a bad girl daddy

Okay go kill yourself honey

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i love tossing money at my whore