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I had this blog since '14. So excuse my childishness.

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02.01.2020

I dreamed of you. Finally, when I asked to come with you, you held my hand. Will you come and get me now? I love you, Tita. I miss you so much. 😢

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My gay babies

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Why?

Why do I have a sickening ambiance whenever I’m with my family. Aren’t these people should be the one who makes me feel at home and relax during my stressful days? Instead, they’re the very reason I despise the idea of family.

Erase that. My aunt, grandfather, grandmother and sister are the only people I consider as my family. They make me feel at home at all times. I’m always grateful for them.

My aunt should have been our mother. I don’t need a father though. But it will be genetically impossible.

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It’s 2019 and I am way past of this situation. Eventually, I have learned to live with it. Learned to understand how someone can be patient and understanding to their significant other even at times that they’re unreasonable.

My Aunt was my hero growing up. She was a dad and a mom at the same time and took responsibility of me and my siblings. I am thankful for everything that she has done for us. She left for heaven to live eternally with our creator. It’s been two years and here I am still living with grief - but I know she’s always guiding me to live my life even without her. I love you, Tita Cynthia. 😘

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Why?

Why do I have a sickening ambiance whenever I'm with my family. Aren't these people should be the ones who makes me feel at home during my stressful days? Instead, they're the very reason I despise the idea of family. Erase that. My aunt, grandfather, grandmother and sister are the only people I consider as my family. They make me feel at home at all times. I'm always grateful for them. My aunt should have been our mother. I don't need a father though. But it will be genetically impossible.

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Kobato

I'm halfway through the entire season of Kobato. I'm not so sure how many times I tried holding back my tears while watching this and I'm also not sure if am I just too emotional, or that gingko tree scene was really heartbreaking T.T Really, Kobato? Do you really need to sing to make it unbearable -______- So far, the anime's been treating me well despite of me-being-emotional-with-kobato's-pureness hope this won't disappoint me in the end. 

EDIT: 041714

I've finished watching Kobato, I cried so much on the last five episodes. The anime is version is obviously lacking some stories from the manga---I decided to check out the manga since I can't get enough after watching episode 24---It's such a shame how they rush the ending -___- But yet, I can't complain, despite of the rush ending it still made me happy in the end. 

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My babies are here!!

After 7 business days of waiting--patiently-- I got these babies in perfect condition! Oh the smell of the new mangas. Since I already bought the first two tankoubons, I decided that I will collect both versions---japanese and english translated ones---so I better work my ass off so I could afford paying the shipping fees and all all the shiznits. 

Of course, the first real kiss. squeals inside.

This Yuzu-offering-pocky-to-Mei-but-Mei-chose-to-eat-what-Yuzu-has-in-her-mouth picture is my second favorite next to the Yuzu-carrying-Mei picture that I posted before. 

Not bragging. My proof of purchase just so people won't think that I grabbed those photos---sorry but I haven't learned how to make my own watermark.---

Thank you Saburouta-sensei for Citrus!!! ^^v

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Random

I just read YP’s QC version of Chapter 9 yesterday. And I know, Saburouta could offer us one heck of a story, Saburouta still has something up on his sleeves – Obviously, since they just released the second volume of the manga –. Some may say that its a typical yuri love story. Yes, some part of it. But let’s all be honest, when it comes to love story you can’t avoid cliches. What makes it special is the plot and twists of the story that makes someone cringe on their seats while reading every chapter. Citrus never fails to break my heart. It’s not just once I caught myself day dreaming about the next chapter—I know, it creeps me out sometimes how often I do this.— Well, thank god for the fanfiction writers who keeps me busy and entertained, seriously their talent.. I don’t know how can someone possessed it -______- Kudos to the folks who are writing Citrus fanfics!!!

So again, this is just me rambling. I just finished watching an asian tv series, about an alien and an actress. It made my heart flutter so much I decided to read Citrus again. I don’t see any relevance either.  ^^

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grade school

Earlier today, I decided to search some names of my classmates when I was in grade school, I lost contact to all of them right after graduation.. Well, being someone who doesn't really care about friends, no doubt I didn't stay in touch with them -- Yes. I'm a socially awkward person even when I was young. ---  I admit, It made me sad seeing them still being friends with each other, I want to be a part of their circle, life with them are much simpler and fun compared to my life when I stepped in middle school through high school.

Now I'm wondering, how my life would be if I went to a co-ed school with my elementary friends, instead of an exclusive all girls school.

Some will say "Life goes on so don't dwell in the past" but you can't really help but wonder how will it turn out. 

But, contrary to what I've just said, I guess I'll just go to what I quote. I won't dwell in the past and just make my present fun and worthwhile :)

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Frozen (2013)

Kristen Bell | Idina Menzel

Quick Review: I'm not even going to bother to summarized what the plot is, we all know it, or if you don't, Google is a vast place for information. 

First reaction after a few scenes: Seriously, when Anna was singing "Do you wanna build a snow man?" I found myself holding back my tears. After a few scenes of her and Elsa playing with snow, you can see how they only need each other to make their world go 'round

Plot and Climax: Predictable. But.. It melted my heart in the end here's why..

What I liked the most about the movie: The story focused with Elsa and Anna's relationship, not with some mushy cliche love story between the princess and the prince. Of course, Anna ended up with Kristoff but really not the main turning point of the story --- and that's what I liked best -- They did not solely based the story on romantic love alone. 

In a nutshell, I liked the movie since it's not a mediocre love story about princes and princesses. ^^v

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CITRUS!!!

Today I decided that I will order Citrus. I'm done paying my phone bills so I have a budget for my beloved manga collection. As a comeback -- Jeez, really. Sorry for being a weirdo -- I will celebrate for keeping up with my bills by rewarding myself with some yuri goodness -_____- :))  

xx JS

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12:15 am 03/22

Looking at the bright side of things.. 

So I’ve been itching to download some asian drama series these past few days. I want to re-watch some shows that I enjoy as an adolescent teenager when I’m just starting to understand the concept of being with the opposite sex. Now that’s nostalgia! It’s not a moment just so someone could say the word “nostalgia”. (People these days are pretentious.)

Well, I managed to register on this website where you could download ALMOST all the Korean, Japanese and Taiwanese drama that you have watched growing up. (I was born on the year 1993, and was able to enjoy them 2005 onwards, so suit yourself.) 

WHAT MAKES THE WEBSITE SPECIAL: Kudos to those people who contributed and dedicated their time to encode, subbed, ripped and uploaded the videos, I may say that the website does not let the torrent just die when some bastard start downloading them all and stop when it finished instead of seeding for a few weeks. They don’t let the efforts of the good samaritans go to waste.  So, Torrent Etiquette, that’s what I liked best on this website. Of course, if you upload something on the torrent it means that you’d like to share it with the people who shares the same interest. That’s why they say “Seeding is caring”.

Tricky part about the torrent site: It’s not everyday they let anyone register on it. YES, you can’t download if you’re not registered. and YES, I got in on my first try. You need to seed or else your account will get banned. So Good luck! :bd

Hit me up on ASK BOX if you’d like to check out the website. Not sure if I could advertise their website without their permission. ^^v

-JS. 

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Why do people escape reality? Because it hurts too much to see it fall apart right in front of their eyes. I'm sick of being judged without even knowing what really happened. All I know is. I ONLY DISTANCED myself and shut people off my life just to protect someone and not make this issue bigger. But, I guess this is how life fucks you. Well, at least I'm not lying to myself. I'm not in the wrong here. Yes, I'm selfish but I never lied to anyone. I didn't even speak a word of it. 

You all ought to know that if this ever happens to any of my friends. I will never turn my back on you. I'll do the right thing, Yes. But I will never ever turn my back on you all. 

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Morning.

Rare times where I get up in bed at 10 am. I usually woke up at 4 am. Probably stayed up too late. I feel exhausted.

-JS

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Frustrated.

I accidentally logged on to my old facebook account (most probably because of my frustration with the new phone that I forgot to think clearly while typing) – sighs.

Updates about old friends, people I regret not getting to know better, people I only recognize by their faces stumble upon me. I tried browsing further — I was not ready. 

Hours before the facebook incident.

I just finished talking to my sibling about the problem that we are having, laughing about something irrelevant with the subject does seem make the mood lighter – livelier I might say. Thought I’m not matured enough to be satisfied to know how they are doing these days, I thought I needed a news flash, big deal enough to make someone proud for me to consider that it is worth my time to talk about. Maybe as you grow older seeing people you care about go on with their lives despite the problems can really make you smile, so little things, can make that much of an impact.

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So facebook. I have posted about this person on my previous blogs – another websites. The unrequited love, The almost lover, and.. I don’t want to continue this anymore, it frustrates me a lot. I’ve been exercising my ability to act as if I’m asexual – lack of sexual attraction, or romantic love for my understanding. This is actually harder than you think, trying to hold back although you want to react on something, they even labeled me as the don't-say-or-cover-her-ears-when-we-talk-about-stuff of the group, as if I’m a child that you can’t talk about dirty past experience. How naive. Just because I don’t talk about it and I don’t show any interest on the subject means I lack the experience. Frustrating, however my fault, still not sorry.

Again, don’t mind me. I’m bored – or I’m not, I won’t even bother typing and pouring out my feelings if I was. I just needed something to remind me of this day. 

JS

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Android phone:

Updates are too annoying

Aside from manga reader app is free for unlimited downloads, play store updates a lot, again, annoying. 

In a nutshell, annoying

Don't mind me. I'm bored.

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Due to DDos attack that made kickass dysfunctional, I was able to download all the torrent files that's been piling up for years since I can not decide which show, what document, what script, comics and yadda yadda yadda should I download. I'm having mixed feelings here. Should I be grateful that I was self-productive or I rather say that my computer has been productive on downloading things or be dejected that the website is.. no, please no. just make another proxy domain and make it work -_-