constellations

constellations in her eyes.

[guiltygirl]

i’m scared that i’ll never be anything special

[juhelious-blog]

배달 : @tzuchu​

“Your French is fine, I think.” She nodded, briefly, popping a finger past her lips as she pushed herself up on the counter, chewing on the edge of the nail as she always did, even now, when she was stressed: explanations did stress her out, mainly because she’d never been any good at it. “It is, but… if you’re going to order pancakes in a restaurant, you’re going to get the chunky ones, you know, the kind that goes well with maple syrup, that sort of thing.” She attempted, dropping her hand as soon as she realized what she was doing and letting her fingers lace together in her lap, in an attempt to keep them still: it wasn’t particularly effective, because where she blocked the fidgeting, it only moved on in making her wiggle on the counter top, almost as if she was trembling. “So, when I mean the thinner ones, I say crêpes, because that pushes any doubt about which ones I mean out of everybody’s mind… no? Plus it gives me the chance to be fancy and show that I can roll my ‘r’’s. Which… of course I can. I mean, I’m a Mandarin speaker. We do the same.” She pursed her lips together at the other’s comment, arms coming to cross over her chest. “Trust me for a moment here, they’re going to be yummy, if you’re just patient enough! And if you aren’t, I’ll send you to hunt down your own food!” She stuck her tongue out, childishly, then reaches out to gently swat at the older’s arm. “Shh! The batter did nothing wrong to you, and if it’s dead, we gotta pay for a funeral, because there’s no one else here to do it. You don’t want to have to pull out the money for that! Now sit down and wait already, or I will have to try and beat you up too–”

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  “  is it, really  ?  my sister always used to mock my accent whenever she tried to teach me some more about it.. and yes, she’s the ‘more successful sibling’, i have to admit that.  ”  and speaking of french lessons, she seems to be getting one right now. no complaints are made and surprisingly, boredom is not creeping on her just yet. for some strange reason, the time juhee gets to spend with her friend always seems to end up feeling like a break time, a break from everything that’s been stressing her out throughout the previous week, day or even hours. it has that effect on her. why  ?  that’s yet another thing the student has to find out on her own. or perhaps not. why would she need the answers for everything. plush lips part in an attempt of speaking again, but given tzuyu’s actions, she simply reaches out, slender fingers aiming for the younger’s wrists, but before she could do anything, the other comes to realization herself.  “  you’ll ruin them.  ”  juhee scolds her, the tone of her voice laced with a hint of harshness that’s only meant to make her friend realize the consequences on her own action------  which are very well known, probably.   “  .. just another way for you to show off a little, that is.  ”  and that, everyone, could be the much shorter version of what tzuyu just tried to say. with her plush lips stretched by a playful smile, juhee leans against the counter, fingertips tapping the hard surface as she remains focused, dark orbs fixating the younger’s visage.  “  i’ll take care of its funeral, that’s for sure. i have thought of a special, very special place where it can rest forever.. or until the trash is being taken out. and i’d personally take care of that, too. ”  both brows arch at the exact same time, up high and surprise is written all over her face only a few moments later.  “  eh, beat me up, too  ?  would you, really  ?  but something tells me that there’s not quite much hold you back from doing it..  ”

[juhelious-blog]

배달 : @sunnaee 출처 : click !!

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  “  because this is what this so called pretty little head does..  ”  juhee mutters, but she does make sure that the sound of her own words is barely audible at the moment as the earlier dramatic act turns into pure embarrassment and nothing else. the pale skin of her cheeks is now tinted with a delicate color, the subtle blush refusing to disappear anytime soon.  “  i do that quite a lot, don’t i..  ?  the mood changing and all. i mean not quite the mood is the one that’s changing in these situations, but the reactions that i am giving.. sort of. it’s weird. maybe i am weird.  ”  and this is how the silly girl seems to be sinking------  more and more into her own thoughts. with her brows slightly furrowed, she glances up at her friend, plush lips pursed as if trying to concentrate on something when, in fact, there is nothing to focus on at the very moment. “  anyways.. are you coming with me or  ?  i might end up being late for work if we waste more time discussing my reactions. then you can spend more time around the hotel or go home. i know you’re living near, so you can’t back out of this.  ”  a playful smile graces the brunette’s lips, innocent eyes staring at the other’s face before pulling a cute act on her------  the eyelashes fluttering thing. but not before adding a cute, charming twist to it, obviously.

[juhelious-blog]

"I love you. What? No I don’t. Forget I said anything."

배달 : @cttysrk출처 : click !! 

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  too busy for life at the very moment.  yes, that would be a very embarrassing status that shall be written all over juhee’s forehead. with her gaze glued to her laptop’s screen, she’s not quite aware of her own surroundings, not to mention her friend that’s facing her from the other side of the said laptop. not much eye contact is happening, either, as the student is way too focused on finishing her essay and have it sent to her teacher. tough tasks, very tough tasks. but all she knew, regarding sekyung, that is------  was the fact that she had to answer this phone call, but apparently that one got to an end several moments and the poor guest had to deal with the not too comfortable silence for quite a while now. a silence shattered by the tapping of her fingers against the keyboard.  sudden words fill the room and for a good couple of moments, juhee cannot even process the piece of information. what is she saying------   is she still talking on the phone with her friend. it surely was worth checking the matter, so curious, dark eyes fixate the other’s visage for a brief moment before letting her gaze slide back to the screen and the never-ending amount of lines displayed on it. but wait. there’s no phone in sekyung’s hand. and mind you, her expression seemed quite.. serious, a hint of nervousness mixing with that, in case juhee isn’t all that wrong.  “  was that for me  ?  ”  now the student is ready to spoil her friend with all of the attention she’s been endowed with. not only because of what has been said-------  even though, yes, that does play an important part. “  why so reluctant about that  ?  i hope you know how absolutely precious that was, by the way..  ”  at this point, she’s forced to bite back a smile, the laptop no longer in the way as she places the device next to her, right on the couch.

[juhelious-blog]

" this is the busiest day of the year for phone sex "

배달 : @ybouu출처 : click !!  ❪  accepting  ❫

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  “ phone wh------  please, do tell me that this is just something you’ve noticed recently and not something you’ve been doing yourself.. these days. ”  can this be the moment when juhee’s impression of bora will change forever. can this be such a crucial moment for the friendship that’s keeping the two of them together. no, no way the student would find her friend any type of way simply because such a piece of information slipped out. intentionally or not. each has the right to occupy his free time the way they like it and who is juhee to even judge someone else. one brow is arched, head tilting to a side just when curiosity starts creeping on her, plush lips pursed while waiting for an answer. the thing is------  she’s not even the type to enjoy knowing such intimate details about her friends, but what can she do when her life is lacking that kind of stuff anyway. curiosity killed the cat, as they say. but there’s no risk that needs to be taken either way. moments later, juhee places both of her hands on bora’s shoulders, her expression dead serious as she looks right into her friend’s eyes.  “ am not judging, you have my word on that. ”  no, she’s nowhere near dropping the act, dark orbs fixating the other’s visage for a good while, slender fingers subtly massaging the shoulders she’s holding on oh so firmly. or as firm as she can. and truth to be told, there’s not much strength when it comes to her petite figure.

[vaememes]

♡ VALENTINE’S DAY (2010) SENTENCE STARTERS.

“ my closest relationship is with my blackberry, thank god it vibrates! ” “ when i was a kid, most of the advice that my dad gave me was crap. ” “ there you have it, folks. young love. ” “ valentine’s day was a massacre in chicago where lots of people were killed. ” “ i don’t feel comfortable taking my shirt off in public. ” “ love is the only shocking act left on the planet. ” “ if you’re ever with a guy/girl that’s too good for you, marry him/her. ” “ i shut down my playerness from new years to st. patty’s day. ” “ i need happy, i need romantic, i need love, and i need it from you. ” “ i would crawl over cut glass to take you to the winter formal. ” “ dude, he’s from indiana. they only celebrate love your cousin day. ” “ did you even consider marrying me? ” “ when you ask a girl to marry you, do you want her to just consider it? ” “ then there’s the whole thing with my parents’ horrible… ” “ oh don’t tell me, that’ll take the fun out of guessing. ” “ i can’t stand the idea of some jerk hurting her, i just can’t. i can’t. ” “ what’s the greatest love song of all time? ” “ i’ve never had an inkling before. i wasn’t sure what to do with it. ” “ what do you do with the flowers? ” “ you don’t step in to love, you fall in. ” “ apparently everyone and their mother felt that way but nobody had the guts to tell me. ” “ have you ever seen someone fall head over heels in love? it’s ugly, bro. ” “ love doesn’t exist unless you acknowledge it in front of other people. ” “ unfortunately, the truth makes everything else seem like a lie. ” “ it’s not about defiance, it’s about what a man will do for love. ” “ that is a really weird way to talk to your boss. ” “ this is the busiest day of the year for phone sex. ” “ you know, i’d like to say yes. but… i don’t know if i can afford it. ” “ when you love someone, you love all of them… ”

[juhelious-blog]

❪   ♡  i wanted to apologize for my inactivity for the day. i got really tired and then i ended up with another one of those horrid headaches, so i wasn’t able to do much after i got back home. i am really sorry. i owe a few replies which i am going to take care of tomorrow  !!  until then i’ll be on aim for a bit. i hope you all had a better day than mine, though.  ❫

[juhelious-blog]

FILM NOIR ARCHETYPE

tagged by: @cttysrk ❪  thank you, lovely bub  !!  ❫ tagging: @cosmqs ; @dvlvm ; @jnsomin ; @ybouu ; @jinyis ; @geuyi ; @ameliae ; @jihnq ; @sunnaee ; @kaikarie ; @mccnrver​ ; @kaorizono​ !!

you’re the: the good woman.

key characteristics: conventional, nurturing, nonthreatening, realistic, loyal. 

while many may go after you for being boring, you have achieved something they lack: a place in the conventional world.  what this means is that you are capable of maintaining the illusion of safety, a beacon that calls friends and family to you in their time of need. your caring attitude makes you an asset to all who befriend you, and your realistic outlook keeps them from flying into dangerous situations unguarded. you will work hard to eliminate temptations from your life, and the lives of those close to you.  

film recommendations: out of the past, the big heat.

[juhelious-blog]

❪   ♡  i’ll be taking my leave for the night, so if you’d like to drop your aims below.. i’d be extremely grateful for that because lonely juhee needs more friends  !!  it doesn’t matter whether they’ve been interacting before or not. everyone’s welcome, i promise.  ❫

[juhelious-blog]

배달 : @jihnq

❪   . . .   ❫  He breaks down into an anxiety attack with his frown deeper than ever and his breath choked in the midst of his throat – leaned forwards by slightly just as if there is something pulling the middle of his chest onward the floor, the boy seems remote (as if out of the reality, out of comprehension) albeit, inside of his conscious there is a panic alarm ringing in tones that are deafening and duressing.

               ❛ – … oh– ! ❜

He wants to scream, to weep, to vanish into the thick air which suffocates him but he barely whispers his distress. Anything… anything but this. This is too much to bare – he needs solace, he needs to return to his ‘normal’ conduct and wear the aloof mask back onto his face yet it is painted with luridness that is way too manifest to be misinterpreted. He’s disregarded the storm and that was wrong of him — why hadn’t he listened to his mother’s pleads and stayed home that day? Bad, very bad of him … now he is being punished because the trepidation he’s gathered these weeks is nowhere near enough and now he must suffer; he must panic and be filled with dread.

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  nature and its sometimes beautiful, some other times wicked ways never fails to impress or terrify and juhee doesn’t fear anything more than what cannot be controlled. people------   they are so little, so insignificant when facing such phenomena and the ways they react; those are so various. it’s either impressing.. or heartbreaking. the image that’s present right before her eyes is a lot to take in, especially for someone like juhee who cannot stand seeing anyone in pain. whether it is physical pain or any other type of pain, that cannot be tolerated. from her point of view. so despite the loud noises coming from the other side of the glass wall of the library, despite the infernal noises from inside the library, too, the student manages to keep her calm------  to an extent, that is. her heart trembling in fear and worry. questions mean nothing in this situations, but perhaps a kind word can make a change.  “  hey. look at me.  ”  the soft tone of her voice is immediately overshadowed by the loud alarm and suddenly, that large space they’ve become quite familiar with in the past two hours and the previous few times these so called studying dates happened, seems a lot smaller, as if trying to suffocate you, as if trying to make you panic to an extent that calming down is just a very nice dream.

                  “  please..  it’s nothing. nothing’s happening. these storms.. they do not last forever. just take a deep breath in and it will pass before you know it.  ”  in normal situation, juhee would consider herself someone who knows how to comfort people, how to calm them down and talk to them, but give this sort of situation, she’s quite lost herself. slender fingers reach out for his hand, the one that’s gripping onto the fabric of his own shirt oh so tightly and with a little bit of luck, the grip loosens up until the moment when she’s able to hold the said hand in between her own. every now and then, dark orbs check the surroundings, making sure that those in charge around the place would eventually come and lend a hand, perhaps keep everything under control, but nothing seems to be happening just yet. that can only mean one thing------  he’s her responsibility. at least until everything gets back to normal. it’s easier for juhee to see in jinhong a younger brother that she never had and it’s even easier for her to feel the need to help him in this situation, but the problem is.. she keeps repeating the same thing in her head. over and over again; help him, just do it. but how. just how.  “   people here will make sure that we’re safe until the storm is over and then we can get you back home, i promise.  ”  she goes on about the exact same thing, but what else can be said. lies. comforting lies should do for the time being. but.. in fact, who knows for how long they’re stuck in there. chances that they’ll be able to get home anytime soon are limited and that’s an obvious truth.

[juhelious-blog]

배달 : @aekure

‘Right!’ she agreed immediately, fingertip pressed against her phone screen to further show her what the items looked like as she scrolled down. ‘It’s a little see through yeah, since it’s supposed to be just lace or silk you know, it’s more like.. a crop top combined with a bra, but it has zero support.’ June was an absolutely fashion lover, despite her occupation she’d done some research in various fashion items such as this one. Of course she wouldn’t wear one in public, though she owned maybe two or three pair of the set bralettes, there’d never been an occasion right for her to wear one and so they’d merely been rotting away in her closet. The moment her head turns to look at the other, she notices the red tint along her cheeks and chuckles softly, she must’ve understood what June meant when she used the words special occasions. June herself, was quite young but not at all oblivious to things like those, she had an open mind– though being quite shy in general she felt a little less shy talking about things like such.

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  one thing is clear and that is.. juhee is not completely unfamiliar with fashion and whatever comes with it. yes, she may not be keeping up simply because the latest trends never manage to catch her attention, nor she has the necessary money to properly keep up with everything that is new, but as a arts student, she has her eye formed for everything that’s visually pleasing. such as the clothing item that’s been presented to her just now. silk, lace, pale or strong colors, everything’s nothing, but pure fascination to her, so it’s normal for her interest to grow visibly when it comes to this one ‘new’ piece of clothing. the more june speaks, the more she sinks into her own thoughts, as if making a mental note of how she could possibly mix the so called bralette with any other clothing item.  “  besides the so called special occasions that you mentioned..  ”  and there, she makes a pause, playful eyes searching for her friend’s before offering a still shy chuckle------ but she’s visibly much more comfortable compared to the moments from just earlier.  “  i think i’d like to see some of those. in real life, you know. maybe buy a set  ?  i knew these savings will come in handy sooner or later.  ”  muttering to herself, the student purses her lips, pleading eyes suggesting a wish that’s not been spoken out just yet------  but would a sudden and very random shopping session be allowed given the rather hectic schedules of her friend  ?  that’s something that juhee needs to find out on her own in the next couple of minutes, preferably. 

[juhelious-blog]

배달 : @tzuchu​

She has to press her hand against her mouth to stifle a chuckle as red blooms into Juhee’s cheeks - it would be disrespectful to continue laughing at her, but Tzuyu doesn’t mean any harm by it… it’s merely that she can’t help herself. It’s amusing, to her, who’s always teased on TV, because, for some reason, whenever a camera is around, her cooking, that’s decent at the very least, with occasional bouts of greatness when inspiration strikes, turns into an inedible, uncoordinated mess. “Juhee-yah, you haven’t been paying attention!” She scolds, good naturedly, clicking her tongue as she smooths her hands down the freshly scrubbed fabric of her apron, stepping forward to take the bowl from the other girl. “It’s crêpes, not pancakes! The French would shudder in horror if they heard you using the words interchangeably!” Granted, she doesn’t care a fig about what the French would dislike, or terminology, but somehow, she’s taken a liking to scolding the other, playful though it may be. “It is, because that’s all I have in the fridge right now. This, strawberries, whipped cream, and tomatoes. For anything else, it’s grocery shopping… so shh, be a good girl, let the batter rest and raise, or we’ll have nothing to put strawberries on!” She nodded, as if to strengthen her words, setting the bowl down again, on a different counter. “Don’t touch it!”

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  “  but isn’t that.. isn’t that the french word for ‘pancakes’  ?  my know knowledge may be limited, but i think that i’ve gotten that one right, at least.  ”  or not. juhee could be terribly wrong about the said matter, but little she minds it and little she cares as for the time being. they’re baking, after all. this is not some of those boring french lessons, that is. no harm to the way the student is thinking, especially her thoughts regarding french and its complicated, wicked ways, but her ability of learning new languages seems to be vanishing whenever this one particular one is brought up. and yes, the moment she has in which she sinks into her own thoughts coincides with these few seconds during which she seems to drift off, dark orbs fixating what------  the wall right in front of her. but she finally snaps out of that state as she shakes her head, vigorously, that is, to make sure that she’s back on track with everything.  “  strawberries work just fine with whipped cream.. it would be like a very cheap fruit salad, but i am sure that this would actually be edible. compared to the..  ”  juhee pauses right before clearing her throat, preparing herself to emphasize the word that’s just dying to slip past plush lips.  “  crêpes that we’re struggling with oh so much.  ”  if anything, that weak attempt of a french accent is nothing, but embarrassing. and she knows it. she knows it so damn well which is exactly why the student scrunches her nose up, one hand reaching out to have its slender fingers massage the back of her neck oh so slowly.  “  i’ve given up already..   that batter is dead to me. dead, i am telling you.  ”  and there she is, curiously peeking at the bowl that’s subtly being taken away from her.

[raichuus]

ig: jjangda

[juhelious-blog]

제목 : @cttysrk

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  a very quiet weekend, not much to do and some money to spend on little nothings. that surely must be one of the greatest combinations. at least to an extent, that is. especially when it comes to wasting money on things that are not needed------  or food. juhee’s biggest enemy. as a self proclaimed healthy eater. but there’s the thing, who can even resist fried chicken. the order has been made quite a while ago, so everything that’s left to do is.. to wait. waiting and waiting, the student cannot seem to find anything that could possibly distract or entertain her, so instead of anything else, she starts wandering around the apartment, the little kitten------  their visitor from a few days ago, following her footsteps one by one. until the exact moment when the door bell starts ringing, the sound itself earning a gasp from the girl who’s now making her way through the hallway and straight to the the door.  one hand on the door knob, the other one fixing the messy, dark locks of hair before opening the door. finally. and what a familiar face welcomes her from the other side.  “  oh shoot..  ”  the girl mutters to herself, a sweet, yet guilty smile gracing her lips within seconds.  “  the chicken wings are for my sister------  ”  perhaps that’s enough to stop her friend from scolding her for once again ordering the food that she pretends that she dislikes.  a weak excuse given the fact that it’s very well known that she’s all on her own this one particular weekend.  “  come on in.. ”

[juhelious-blog]

배달 : @dvlvm 출처 : click !!

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  “  it said that the dish has to cook for about fifteen minutes, but i didn’t know how..  ”  explanations are of no use now that the window is already fogged with smoke and even the smell coming out of it is enough to earn a few coughs from juhee.  “  should we start over  ? though i don’t think we have much time left..  ”  the realization is enough to sadden the student, brows furrowed as she peeks at the oven, lower lip jutted out in an unconscious act that only betrays her great disappointment. the only and so called rule of the event that juhee has been invited to was to bring something that she could serve the others with and even since, she’s been way too excited over the idea of cooking the dish herself. with the help of a dear friend, that is. and that’s exactly why she insisted on bringing dylan with her, at the party organized by her co-workers.  “  ahh.. what do you think  ?  i think we have two hours left, but then we have to get ready, too.  ”  the tone of her voice is another factor that betrays her disappointed state as she’s not moving an inch away from the said oven. 

[juhelious-blog]

❪   ♡  thank you for 102 followers  !!  i know that numbers do not mean anything, but it’s a really nice surprise to see that so many people followed me in such a short period of time. now i’ll be taking my leave for a bit, but when i’m back, i’ll finish my replies and if you’d like to.. you can still drop your aims down below. still looking for more people for juhee to befriend.  i’ll make sure to add you as soon as possible, in case there will be anyone. see you soon  !!  ❫

[juhelious-blog]

배달 : @aekure 출처 : click !!

❪   * ♡ ;    ❫  throughout the explanations that are given on the matter that juhee herself brought up, her face is not particularly expressive. quite blank, if anything. not because she is not interested, just because her attention span will always be an issue to the student and that’s just her way of focusing as much as she can humanly do. a brow arches, giving away a hint of interest and curiosity, but then certain words are being mentioned and her eyes widen within seconds, mouth agape for a brief second before closing it again.  “  wait, that’s.. a type of bra  ?  ”  now how can juhee, a girl, not know anything about the said piece of clothing. oh bother. but the longer she pays attention, the more interested she gets into the item. dark orbs fixate the screen of june’s phone, plush lips pursed------  another act that betrays her curiosity and interest.  “  ahh.. those are really, really cute.  ”  before she knows it, a hint of redness graces her pale cheeks at the sight of the so called bralette, teeth chewing on the inside of one of her cheeks.  “  special occasions..  ”  juhee mutters to herself, gaze still glued to the screen as she goes through the few pictures that are displayed there.  “  they are quite.. they reveal a lot, i mean.  ”  she seems to be at loss of words now, the tone of her voice unsure now as she glances up at her friend.