Minors dni. requests semi-open for heated rivalry, NINAH and Backrooms (2026), inbox open. Age in bio please. I go by Gator or Johnny l, 20+, He/It/Xe, FTM, AroAce, MLM, ASD. I only write male or ftm reader. Mental health in the dumps, so expect less activity.
HELLO! I have a question! Have you seen DD:born again? If so, Do you ever plan on writing for bullseye? Bc oh that man...
i sadly have not seen it. i just havent really, been assed to watch a lot of marvel stuff for a very long time. Bullseye is very hot though, hes so strange I wanna keep him in a little jar with holes on the top, like a bug.
Im planning on seeing the new spiderman movie, but thats mainly cuz my sister and I always go see spiderman. Im crossing my fingers that peter is miserable in this movie.
These are some animal suggestions because I love weird or somewhat unknown animal! (This might be long sorry)
Hyrax, kinkajou, coatimundi, maned wolf, Willow Ptarmigan also known as an awebo bird, bat eared fox, binturong, red-tailed black cockatoo with the dark blue starry night wings, peacock tarantula, and harpy eagle is all I can think of for now
Have a good day/afternoon/night! 🦭🤓☝️🫶
Random batfam hybrid headcanons
I thought it would be funny to just imagine batfam members as some of these animals, so here we go.
I had a really fun time with Jason. Let me know if y'all have more animal ideas.
Bruce Wayne (Kinkajou)
Has a super long and flexible tail, as well as a long and flexible tongue. Has spots of fur around on his body like his chest, the base of his spine, his neck, etc. It's so soft.
Is extremely flexible, even as he gets older. Does need to warm up a bit after all these years and putting his body through so much stress.
Will use his flexibility in ways to tease his partner, wink wink. Both his body but also his tongue, wink wink.
Is pretty much strictly nocturnal, both because of batman work, but also because he’s a kinkajou. Does mean he can get extra grumpy and grumbly during the day though.
Has a massive secret sweet tooth. Will fuck up some jello or fruit. Would gorge himself as a kid because sweet treats brought him comfort, Alfred had to put a stop to it, introduced him to dried fruit instead.
Doesn't vocalize as much as other kinkajou hybrids, but there’s noises that have been pretty much worked into every member of the batfam. Specific chitters, purrs or hisses that they all know what mean, and then react to.
Dick Grayson (Peacock Tarantula)
I imagine as a tarantula hybrid, Dick would have a second pair of arms and sharper fangs. Think like the ones Miguel O’hara has in the spiderverse movie.
As a tarantula hybrid, Dick would have sensitive eyes when it comes to light, since they’re nocturnal, at least peacock tarantulas are. This does mean he is more active at night, which is useful for hero work.
This does mean that Dick can get a bit moody and grumbly during the day, and will huddle up in his ‘nest’, aka your bed, which is covered in blankets, pillows and webs.
And yes, he does produce webs, no, not from his butt. I’m thinking from his wrists like spider-man. The webs are not sticky, instead being more on the silky side.
As a peacock tarantula, Dick also likes being up high, so sometimes you’ll catch him just climbing the ceiling, or he’s crawling way up and away in the batcave.
As a last thing, I like to imagine that most spider hybrids, small or big, will do the defense postering when feeling threatened. It's something he had to train away for when they’re out patrolling. Will still do it if you surprise him.
Jason Todd (Willow Ptarmigan – Awebo bird)
At first most people assume he’s a larger bird, since bird hybrids aren’t as noticeable, like Dick having four arms and stuff. It becomes more obvious when his eye comb turns bright red during the spring.
His plumage does change color depending on the season, so during the summer his feathers are a brownish-red, and during the winter it turns white. It matches the white spot in his hair pretty well.
Being a willow ptarmigan makes Jason a lot more territorial than when he’s just a human. Crime alley is his territory, and he’ll chase away other bold hybrids who think they can take it spot. He's extra bad during mating season.
Jason gets borderline obsessive during spring, and hovers like crazy. He's always checking on you, chirping or makes the ‘awebo’ noise.
Won't admit to it, but has does displays for you before, aka strutting, fanning his tail and his eye combs, and will catch himself making low gurgling noises at you.
He's always so embarrassed about it, but you love it, because it shows he feels comfortable enough with you to allow himself to do such things.
He does nest, but not to the same degree as Dick. Something you can do for him, is to make a nest. Jason tries to act all calm and cool about it, but you’ll catch his tail fanning and his feet doing little struts because he’s all preening about his mate making a nest. Its adorable.
Tim Drake (Red Tailed Black Cockatoo)
As a cocktatoo, Tim has a crest. But he’s gotten really good at hiding it in his hair, since the black feathers mesh well with his dark hair.
The only person who can make his crest raise and puff is his partner, and mostly when you love on him so much that Tim gets distracted and overwhelmed. You can also do it by giving him other, ahem, surprises.
Cockatoos can be very loud, and normally Tim would be, but he was raised to stay professional and polite. Can get very loud though if he needs to, or if he gets very excited or angry.
Instinctively likes spending time with others, especially other birds. It can be a struggle sometimes because Tim will want to hang around Jason, and Jason gets all territorial and tries to dive-bomb him.
Has a strow jaw and enjoys nuts, can crack a walnut with his teeth without issue. Enjoys cracking nuts for you and feeding them to you, his plumage puffs up when you eat them.
Wants to act natural and cool, but he does get kinda crazy during mating season. Only when you two are alone though. Watching his tail fan and his little dances is kinda charming.
Duke Thomas (Bat eared fox)
Has really large fox ears, and will regularly joke that he’s ‘all ears’ if asked if he’s listening. Has incredible hearing because of these ears, and can track criminals much easier because of this.
Loves when you rub his ears, just grab em and scratch, you might get some fox chirps and chitters from him if you do. Will sometimes just make cute eyes and lean his head towards you for ear scritches.
Is nocturnal like most of the family, so he likes to stay up and spend time with the others. Isn't as moody as the others when he has to be awake during the day. Does like to cuddle up in a sunny spot at times.
Speaking of cuddling up. Duke, as a fox, likes to huddle up underground or just in hidden pockets. This means his bed is pretty high off the ground so he can build a ‘huddle’ under it. Aka a comfy blanket fort.
Is more used to letting out his hybrid halfs vocalization, since he grew up doing that. This means you’ll catch him barking, chittering, and yipping at times.
Grooming is one of his love languages, aka caring for your hair/fur/feathers/scales/etc, as well as you brushing his tail or doing his hair. Will sometimes nibble on you to work his scent into your skin.
Damian Wayne (Binturong)
Has a long and thick prehensile tail. Sometimes will just hang out with Bruce, and their tails will wrap around each other, it’s adorable. Also has long white whiskers that he somehow hides when he’s out as Robin.
Damian is pretty flexible too, both from training but also from being a binturong. Really great at climbing too, and will climb different things at the manor, or anywhere else hes comfortable.
Is nocturnal like most of the family, which just kinda goes hand in hand. Does not show his annoyance when he’s awake during the day. Will allow himself to curl up in your arms or rest against you though.
As a binturong, Damian likes to scent stuff, both his things but also people he cares about. Wants to act all disconnected and cold, but has scented every member of the batfam on multiple occasions, yes even Tim.
Does mean he scent marks you too, not that you mind. Loves when you scent him back, or let him borrow (steal) your clothes to wear. Gets even happier if you wear his in return.
He won’t purr much, but will do it with you and especially when you guys cuddle. Starts chittering and purring if you start scratching his neck fur. Will deny doing it, but keeps arching his neck at you wanting more.
Enjoys sharing fruit with his partner, it’s actually one of the most obvious signs that he has a crush. He will share fruit with people he trusts, but if he has a crush then it gets more obvious, especially mixed with other behavior.
Im not sure how swamped you are with requests so please dont feel rushed to finish this. Also hope youre having a good day? Night? Afternoon? Anyways, what about a male boyfriend who dyes their hair all the time (specific towards manic panic:]) but like how would the batboys react to that/how they would feel? :□
Batboys x male reader
Headcanons
It’s been a while since I've written about the batboys and just DC in general. It's good to be back (insert smirk emoji. Insert sunglasses emoji). Are they ooc? Prolly. Do I care? No.
Dick Grayson
I don’t really think any of the batboys would mind you coloring your hair, and neither would Dick.
He mostly just sees it as one of your quirks, and is curious about what color he’s gonna see next.
Expect him to joke about you coloring it ‘nightwing blue’ for his birthday, and will actually be pretty touched if you do actually color it ‘his’ color.
If you’re one of the people who starts coloring your hair when life is falling apart, then Dick knows that too, and knows that when the dye shows up, you’re gonan need more attention.
Jason Todd
Jason’s seen his fair share of dye jobs. He's seen professionally done work, and stuff done in a rank gas station bathroom, so you can’t surprise him, even if you get dye all over the sink.
He knows how to clean up blood, so of course Jason knows how to clean up hair dye too if need be.
Won't color his own hair, it’s too identifiable, but he does like to hang out in the bathroom with you when you color your own.
Has tried to color the white part of his hair though, more than once, but it never lasts. You might be able to convince him to let you color it temporary colors, if you’re cute enough (you always are)
Tim Drake
Honestly, doesn’t mind or care too much, if it makes you happy then it’s fine. Will spend time looking into different brands though, just to make sure what you’re using is safe.
Has caught himself doing a little too much research into hair dye and how to do it and treat it.
Like Jason, Tim likes to hang out with you when you color your hair. It becomes part of his schedule and something he too uses to wind down.
This means if you one day decide to just grow your hair out, poor Tim gets nervous and tries to figure out what changed. Only calms down when you say it’s just so your hair can breathe a bit.
Duke Thomas
Duke too has had his fair share of dye attempts, has even done it once or twice on himself, but not as much as he’s done it on friends or just people he knows.
Is actually really good at dying your hair. You suspect he’s somehow using his powers to get all the shades right when it comes to mixing and applying. He can also spot when you need to spruce up colors again before you do.
Actually came into the relationship with knowledge on hair care and how to keep the color vibrant, where? You don’t really know and you haven’t asked yet.
You guys have your own shampoo and conditioner, Duke is even sweet enough to put dye in your soaps when you need it.
His powers lets him see stuff differently, so he also enjoys your hair more than the average guy, to him you’re just so colorful and it’s so you.
Damian Wayne
Damian himself won’t color his hair, but he won’t mind when you dye yours. Do expect him to judge your choice of dye though, he won’t accept you using brands that do stuff like animal testing, or can cause cancer and stuff.
He's really good at helping you pick out shades and apply them. He'll huff and say of course he is, but you’ll catch him looking a little soft about it, because it’s something just for you two.
Your hair color is important to him, not the specific color or anything, but seeing you so lively and colorful lightens some of the pressure in his chest sometimes.
Does hawk on you about your hair care though, since he doesn’t want you to go bald. He won’t mind if you go bald, he loves your spirit not your looks, but if he can avoid it, he will.
hello hello hello!!!! i know that this is kind of old and so i completely understand if you're not interested in writing any more about it but i would love love to read more about broody omega shane x luca x male reader!!! you wrote it so well :)))) i love when writers use chirping or snuffling or crooning etc for abo stuff so much!!! but again no pressure!!! <3 <3 <3
More broody omega Shane Hollander (and some broody alpha Ilya)
Rambles
Now featuring more Luca. Did you guys know that Hollanovaas (Shane x Ilya x Luca) is my guilty pleasure? This can be read as romantic or platonic. Reader is also there.
You can read the other broody omega shane stuff here and here.
I’ve been reading a lot of mpreg and just straight up nursing fics lately so,,, I feel like it shows.
I like to think the entire centaurs play into Shane’s omega instincts. It's not talked about much, but they all know how the hockey world is, and can only assume the pressure Shane has been under all these years.
And well, who wouldn’t want to be scented and chuffed at by THE Shane Hollander. Plus, it becomes a bit of a running thing to see who Shane is herding that day. His inner omega simply has a keen sense of who needs extra care, or who needs to be barked at so they get medical attention or take a break.
I imagine that you tend to be the more chaotic out of the ‘pups’, aka you and Luca, so Shane can be seen staring you down and curling his lip like an overprotective omega with their pup.
This doesn’t mean Shane isn’t a bit too overbearing with Luca too, because how can he not.
Shane starts making omega noises at the team, but the ‘come here pup’ mrrps are just for you and Luca, most of the time. Shane’s done it once or twice for other members of the team, like Troy that one time he got really emotionally hurt during a game and needed comfort.
At some point, the team starts setting up temporary nests at the back of the tour bus. It's really just a pile of blankets and pillows on the back row, but everyones welcome to just cuddle up and relax. What can I say, sometimes you just need to be snuffled and licked by an omega who cares.
It helps in no way that Ilya plays along, and even enjoys it, to the point where Ilya’s inner alpha starts reacting like Shane. It's not as strong for Ilya, but he does start getting a bit huffy and opinionated towards the teams comfort and pack activities.
Now, imagine that it’s become pretty much tradition for Luca and you to go to the Hollanov nest when the team is on the road. They don’t even bother booking rooms for you two anymore.
Now, also imagine that it’s been a very stressful time for Shane lately. It’s easy to tell, for the team anyways, that Shane is hanging on by a thread, and he’s been trying to cope with the stress by being extra omega with the team.
Neither you, Luca or Ilya think about it much when Shane’s laid out in the nest, on his side and letting out little cooing mrrps and chirps, his pupils so blown his eyes look near black.
His scent is so thick it almost sticks between your teeth like taffy, and there’s a certain milky scent to it. Not like cows milk, but something sweet, like those milky ice cream bars.
All four of you start cuddling, and it takes a while for you to register that Shane is shuffling around. Luca’s the one that was caught in the omega’s arms, so you and Ilya can only watch as Shane starts shuffling Luca down.
At first you assume Shane just wants to curl around Luca like normal, because you’re still big and tall hockey players.
That is until Shane tries nudging Luca towards his chest, letting out thick purrs and little coos. And poor Luca is already so scent drunk that he can barely keep his eyes open, and just kinda accepts it when Shane coaxes his mouth open with a thumb.
And sure, maybe you or Ilya should stop it, but like... it’s both kinda hot but also kinda sweet, ya know? Nursing can be seen as a pack activity and all that, but it’s just never been on anyones mind since Shane hasn’t had pups yet.
Shane just seems so satisfied and happy when Luca starts suckling, kneading at Shane’s stomach like some kinda pup. You look back at Ilya, who just seems bewitched by it, and who can blame him.
Ilya tries to open his mouth to speak, to discourage it, maybe, but Shane grumbles at him, all dissatisfied omega, and the Russian shuts up.
It takes a lot more shuffling around the nest, but Shane gets settled on his back, with Luca lying on his left, still attached to his chest.
Your heart jumps when Shane turns his attention to you, making those same ‘come here pup’ noises. Sure, you should probably not but... well... Ilya doesn’t seem angry, at all for that matter, so maybe you crawl over and latch on too.
It all gets kinda blurry and melty after that. It's not like Shane produces a lot of milk, since his body has just started and all that. For the most part it’s just a comfort action, to stay attached and suckle, like a very intimate and intense pack bonding thing.
I like to think that Ilya’s own instincts are going haywire too, and he finds himself lying at the edge of the nest, his back towards his omega and (pups) rookies, turned towards the locked room door, like some kind of broody protective alpha from olden times.
And hey, omega milk can have a lot of good stuff in it, so it’ll be great for you and Luca on the ice. Except now neither of you can stop thinking about it, and find yourselves laser focused on Shane’s chest when the team is changing in the locker room.
The team isn’t weird about it. It's just pack stuff, ya know? Some even call it cute and joke about joining. At some point if you pay attention, you can catch Troy’s eyes lingering on Hariss’s chest in a similar manner.
I'd like to make a humble request of more yautja/yautja oc fics. I really like the way you right them. Reading them is always how I get ideas to write for myself
Sincerely, 🦭🏳️⚧️ anon
Yautja OCS (Paika and T’e’joal) x Chubby chef male reader
Headcanons
Hi guys, it’s been a while since I wrote yautja stuff. Meet Paika, the youngest brother of one of the other yautjas on this blog, Cahn’thih. You can read about Cahn here and here. I wanted to write poly yautja, so heres two.
Paika’s got sandy colored skin, and has various shades of browns and a bit of orange on his scales. T’e’joal is a swampy green with light and dark splotches, think like a wet forest toad, he’s also the bigger of the two.
Reader is a chef cuz why not. Gotta fatten your yautja up with human meals.
I like to think you meet Paika and T’e’joal at some point where humans have joined in space travel. Maybe they’ve even started trying to get along, or doing stuff like cultural exchanges.
One of the things humanity decides to share, is food. You just happen to be the unlucky fucker who gets sent to yautja prime, all because you have no family, no lover, kids or even a pet. So if you die, it won’t be a big loss for earth.
T’e’joal is the first you meet of the two. He lost his entire arm during a hunt when he was younger, and has developed a permanent limp because of a corrosive acid. Because of this, T’e’joal works closer to the less battle-based parts of society.
And yes I know yautja prime would have ways to fix these things, but this is my story. Let's just say T’e’joal have come to accept this part of himself.
T’e’joal is in charge of materials, food and distribution of said materials. This also means he’s in charge of you getting all the produce, fuel and cooking materials you way need.’
Having worked as a chef for many years by this point, also means you have a steel of spine and don’t take bullshit. This means you aren’t scared of insulting T’e’joal and his workers when they bring you less than acceptable produce, or ordering him to take stuff back and bring you ‘something worth your time’.
The few other humans that are planet-side still tend to treat Yautja with caution, so having you sneer at him and wave him off like a young blood makes T’e’joal’s blood rush.
T’e’joal finds it hot, what can he say, especially if you’re on the older side with salt and pepper in your hair and stubble. The yautja delivering to you all find it hot that you’re built thick too.
Paika and T’e’joal are already a couple by this point, so Paika gets to hear all about you. As well as catching your scent on T’e’joal, a musk that makes them both grumble and chuff.
You smell like musk, sweat, the cologne you wear, the food you cook and the cigarettes you smoke. It makes their mandibles itch, and Paika being the younger of the two, gets real hot and bothered by it.
I like to imagine you become a bit of a celebrity, at least by yautja standards, and maybe just with a couple of clans.
But a tall thick human who isn’t scared of even the most scarred warrior is like something out of an erotic novel.
I also like to think that having extra weight on your bones can be seen as desirable to some clans, maybe not yautja culture as a whole who prides itself on warriors. But to some, you are pure eye candy.
What you and T’e’joal have going on is more insulting each other and grumbling like old men, mixed with some flirting. The kind of flirting where people assume you two hate each other, but you wanna get in the others pants.
Or well, the few humans present assume this. The other Yautja can smell T’e’joal’s intentions, as well as the thick scent Paika leaves behind on T’e’joal when he has to visit your spot.
When you finally get to meet Paika your first thought is ‘cute’. He's still tall, but small for a yautja. You can look him in the eyes, which doesn’t say much as you’ve always been tall for a human. Paika on the other hand is short for a yautja.
He's younger than T’e’joal, and acts more like a breeder of yautja hounds. Apparently his brother is mated to a human, which is where Paika learned to compliment your eyes and ‘handsome jaw shape’.
He's kinda clumsy for a Yautja, which is to say, he’s graceful compared to a human. But it’s obvious he’s still green, where T’e’joal has seen a bit of it all.
They make a pretty hot couple, to you anyways. You’ve spent a couple of nights lying in bed with a cigarette thinking about how they get it on. Then you get so mad that you’re thinking about it, stub out the cigarette, and go to sleep.
It's not your fault that you, like most chefs, feel a deep urge to cook for people you care for.
So what if you start piling up meals and shoving them in T’e’joal’s arms, or keeping Paika’s favorite human dessert stocked. And of course you feel smug when you see them both preen at the food, Paika more than T’e’joal.
You haven’t had much time to get into Yautja culture on a deeper level. All you’ve really cared to learn is what not to do, so you don’t get killed, which maybe means you’ve kickstarted a courting display with the two Yautja.
You take it as smalltalk when Paika starts asking about your hobbies outside of cooking, ignoring how he droops when you say you don’t really do anything else.
And you get annoyed when T’e’joal starts taking away your cigarettes and picking on you about your health. He even offers to bring you to his clans healer, the one’s who’ve kept him alive and healthy all these years.
They both look so sad when you reject their care, because what can ya do, you’ve gotten so used to being alone and working with prickly people. Having someone care is weird and uncomfortable.
Behind the scenes Paika and T’e’joal are struggling to come up with courting gifts. Paika isn’t really a hunter, and T’e’joal can’t hunt anymore, at least nothing that will be an acceptable courting gift.
Its the human mate of Paika’s brother that gives them ideas.
Up until now, you’ve been cooking at a government-run kitchen, to be part of the whole cultural exchange of it all. But you’ve mentioned once or twice in passing that you’ve always dreamed of running your own restaurant.
So obviously these two fools start to look for ways to make this possible.
Long courtships isn’t out of the norm for Yautja, and grand displays like building you a whole restaurant isn’t either. Instead, the more traditional clans will nod their heads in approval at the sheer size and display of it all.
It just means you three get to grow a lot closer, and you get to feel smug when you see the two musclebound yautja start to get a little softer around their edges.
You take it as a badge of honor, to be able to fatten up yautja of all beings. And hey, maybe that’ll bring you new customers, the ones that find some softness very attractive and all that.
Paika and T’e’joal become more intimate in their touches, as well as staying close to you and bringing you small gifts. This leads to you being more open with them, though you still won’t go to the healer.
The first time you touch Paika’s dreads, the poor yautja almost passes out. Not that he would ever admit this to anyone, but Paika has been thinking about it for months.
You just kinda find them both cute, even T’e’joal when he flares his mandibles when he yawns. Or when they let you look at them closer, more curious than anything.
Hearing them both rumble the first time made you quirk a brow, thinking it was growling, until T’e’joal explained it was purring. You get a good laugh out of that, and then don’t think about it again.
Paika’s brother-in-law gets a good laugh out of all of this, because you’re oblivious to their advances. Not completely, but all the usual Yautja signs go right over your head.
That doesn’t stop you from developing your own feelings. Feelings have always been kept close to your chest though, and you don’t wanna be a homewrecker and all that.
It's through other casual Yautja customers that you learn that their people aren’t really monogamous, and some Yautja are in poly relationships.
This does add to your late-night delusions. Something you try to deny exists.
It takes a year, maybe two, for the restaurant to be done. T’e’joal and Paika called in a lot of favors from friends and their clans, but it gets built. The location was specifically picked so it could be frequented by both Yautja and human.
Days off are rare for you, but the two force themselves into your schedule on one of these days.
Paika is twitchy and quiet, which is strange for him. T’e’joal is tense, his jaw set and his mandibles clicking. Some part of you fear that maybe it’s his leg, or his phantom pains.
Until they get to the building. It looks like a mix of human and Yautja architecture, it’s a little weird but so pretty. And the sign as the name you mentioned in passing, a long time ago.
It's a name that has a deep meaning to you. Maybe it’s your beloved grandparents name, something from a book, a song, or just something that you came up with when you were 15 and full of dreams.
At first you don’t understand, looking at Paika and T’e’joal with confused and wide eyes. It makes no sense, what is this? How? When?
Paika finally snaps out of his fear and tells you everything, how he and T’e’joal have been trying to court you for so long, how they wanted to make the perfect gift, how they wanted to give you something you had always wanted.
Emotions were something you didn’t like to think about, better shoved to the side so you could focus on work and cooking.
But tears well up in your eyes, a sob tearing through your chest. The tears are not sad, instead it’s such a strange mixture of disbelief, love, confusion, and relief.
They both look nervous, hesitant in their own way. It's only when you laugh and walk over and kiss them both that the nerves melt away. Kissing mandibles is weird and something that takes practice, but you think it was pretty great.
T’e’joal is the one to give the tour, shooting off the dry mean jokes you two have shared all these years, when he shows that there’s room for all your gear and produce.
Paika is smug about the outside sitting area, happily showing you the human plants they were able to grow in Yautja soil. His chirping makes both you and T’e’joal kiss him, because he’s just so cute.
And after you three finally become mates, maybe the two can make you kick your smoking habit and go to the clan healer. Now you’ve got people worth living for after all.
honestly, all I have was mentioned in the protagonist x visitor reader post. He's still kind of a vague idea that i only play with when im bored and fantasizing.
I think bar guy from no I'm not a human would just pair so nicely with a twink reader. Maybe the reader is shy and a bit soft spoken, just the perfect kind of guy for bar guy to be smitten over and want to protect.
Bar Guy (Esenin) x male reader
Headcanons
I’m always so damn late to every damn fandom, but here I am, getting the NINAH brainworms when everyone else has already moved on.
Let’s say you’re an artist, or even a poet, since Bar guy is based off of Sergei Yesenin. But instead of writing dark and provoking work, your stuff is more based on hope and the positive.
You've always been soft spoken, kind and shy, which has made it very hard, even before everything happened with the sun and visitors.
You've always been short, skinny and soft to look at, leading to you being picked on a lot when you were younger, and being seen as lesser.
This is what leads to you and Esenin meeting each other, perhaps you grew up in the same rundown neighborhood, both excluded for being weird. You for being short, kind and warm, and Esenin, for being too tall, quick to anger and quite cynical, even back then.
At first what you two feel for each other isn’t romantic, but just a deep trust and care, because you’re all the other has, you know?
But as you two grow older, and it becomes clear that you aren’t just ‘feminine’ in your hobbies, but your preference too, Esenin becomes even more protective.
I don’t think there’s much room for soft spoken and shy queer poets during this time, but Esenin likes to see you smile, so he supports your work.
Before everything that happens in the game takes place, the two of you shared a small apartment. It's all you two could afford with the salary you both make, but it’s homey and warm.
The walls have art you’ve made, and the few pictures you two have taken over the years, there’s a family picture here or there, but you both don’t talk much to your families anymore.
I don’t think there’s a label for what you guys are, it’s too dangerous to put labels on it. But you’ll lean against his side, and Esenin will press a light kiss against the top of your head.
You buy ointments or other treatments for his aching joints, and Esenin will read your poetry, the stuff that’s a little too queer to ever publish.
I like to think he does enjoy your work, even if he isn’t really into poetry or art, he just likes seeing you happy. That’s not gonna stop him from being a little shit about it though.
After all these years you know he never means his comments though, taking it with a grain or salt, or even smacking him with your notebook and scoffing at him.
Protecting you would lead to Esenin being even more volatile or downright rude to other people.
He's harder to pick on because he’s so big and unnatural to look at, most people will simply ignore he exists. But you? You exist with a target on your back, being small, pretty and artistic.
He's gotten into many fights for you, even when you aren’t there. Maybe that’s one of the reasons he’s thrown out of the bar in the game. By then it’s too late to go back to your shared apartment, but it adds to his fear, knowing you’re alone.
He doesn’t talk about you to the protagonist, or anybody else in the house. Esenin is too used to keeping you close to his chest, protected and covered away from everyone.
The protagonist does catch him reading a notebook, that looks extremely small in his large hands. The writing is small and looping, something very pretty and planned.
It's poetry you wrote specifically for him, something you gave him when you guys both turned 18, because you couldn’t afford anything at the time.
It's also his most priced possession, and something Esenin guards like an angered long-limbed dragon.
It doesn’t help that he’s terrified for you, thinking about you all day and getting no sleep, worrying about your safety.
For one reason or another Esenin can’t go back to the apartment, so he spirals even faster than in the game. Maybe they hear over the radio that your apartment building is one of the buildings that was burnt down.
Of course, Esenin becomes very suicidal and cynical, ready to end it all if he could. Without you there’s no reason to stay after all.
During this time, and if he’s present, Wireface and Esenin will gain a weird kind of relationship. They can’t understand each other, but them both being queer is just kinda felt by the other, and your kind always watches out for each other.
Wireface being smaller and pretty reminds Esenin of you, which makes him feel a bit better, until he remembers you and feels crushed again.
Wireface tries to comfort him, in awkward small ways, because he too has a ‘friend’ he’s thinking about.
Then one night someone shows up at the door, wearing a knitted hat, an old scarf, a coat way too big for them and an over the shoulder back stuffed to the brim with paper and writing utensils.
The protagonist is on edge, as always, but you’re just... very cute and kind, even with everything going on. You even let him do all the tests he wants, and you thank him with some poetry that you ‘saw in a dream’. (think something strange and mystic, if this was really in the game)
You look worse to wear, thinking Esenin has been dead after checking the bar you heard he was at. When you discovered they’d thrown him out, you started sobbing and praying it wasn’t true.
In the end you weren’t allowed to stay there either, not that you wanted to stay, and you end up at the protagonist’s house.
You go to sit in the living room, because that seems most comfortable, only for your knees to give out when a familiar, too long figure it sitting hunched up on the couch.
Words are impossible to get out, so instead you just sob. It's such a familiar noise that Esenin immediately looks up, his eyes bloodshot from grief and exhaustion.
And there you are, alive, eyes puffy from all your crying, wearing his old coat, and carrying your most priced poetry in the bag he gifted you years ago.
The reunion can’t be something too extreme, but you two bling to each other, shaking and crying, you much more visibly than Esenin.
Wireface acts like he doesn’t see the small kiss you two share, he’s just happy to see that people like him still survive in these trying times. It makes his heart ache with longing but also resilience.
The protagonist doesn’t give a shit if you two openly kiss and cuddle, he could care less. He only cares about you two not being visitors.
It would be kinda funny if your presence made the protagonist just... calm down a little. Not a lot, but he’s willing to listen to your latest piece. It’s as warm, hopeful and loving as always, and it gives a bit of light in these dark times.
Esenin would be jealous, but he knows that’s just who you are, always so nice and welcoming. Accepting of others and their strangeness.
I do think you sit curled up in Esenin’s lap most of the time, the two of you just holding on to each other, and talking quietly together.
And you become close with Wireface too, having an easier time understanding him. Not because you speak his language, but because you’re willing to look silly when it comes to using your hands and body to communicate.
Esenin just thinks it’s cute, but he never says it out loud, maybe even making a few comments about you, which just makes you huff at him and pout.
I'd like to think you two have a good ending, just for my own heart, but we also know how ninah works. No matter what ending though, you guys die or live together.
I read amab reader because I'm trying to learn how to properly write it as well as mlm fiction. This is one of the best amab readers I have read thus far. The emotional roller-coaster I was on reading this...
