♥Jukie♥

Hey, I'm Julie, (Jukie to my close friends) I'm 35 I love my family friends my rabbits kitty and maryjane The most open I get is on tumblr I dont know what I want out of life yet I believe in true love I just havnt found it yet. Wanna know anything else? Hit me up ♥

[jukie1989]

Feeling ugly inside and broken. Why can't i feel whole? Why do I feel like I destroy everything I touch? I thought I was better than this. Let myself down again but worse did I let down the person who is my world down by my selfish actions?

[jukie1989]

"Isn't everything wonderful now?"

I feel my inner child kept quiet for so long trying to burst out. Triggered and tired of being silenced and needing to be heard and healed. Why is it always angry and sad here? Why is there always so much yelling? Why am in a emotional battlefield I shouldn't be a part of? If I'm better, smarter will it all stop? Am I to blame? I want to escape. I don't like it here. How can I escape? Why do I feel like a tool or a bargaing chip just shuffled among all the chaos? Please stop fighting!! Will I become them? Angry and lashing out or weak never standing up for myself or the ones I love and should protect? Will I ever feel normal or like I belong somewhere? I need quiet. The music only drowns it for so long. The voices in the past still haunting me in the present except now they morph into a mix of my own. I can't let it define me. I'm me. Idk who that is entirely yet. I'm terrified to find out because of the charade I was forced to put on for so long. I will find me. I'm worth it. I deserve peace and happiness. I will repeat it over and over in cycles until all of me feels and believes it. One day I will be complete. But until than I find peace in how far I have come from my past and learning and growing. I'm not my past. It dosent define who I am or more importantly who I can be.

[jukie1989]

"Prescious"

Let's look at the definition of the word; "greatly loved or treaured, of great value and not to be treated carelessly."

This was our relationship when I was a child. I looked up to you. I wanted to be wherever you were. You taught me morals and I hoped I could grow up to be as amazing as you were to me.

But you left me. And I understand what the reasoning was now. I told you how our relationship changed. How I didn't want us to become strangers. How much I feared to death of losing our relationship which already felt lost to me. You promised me it wouldn't happen. But it did. You proved to me years ago how I ranked on your scale. I told you how much darkness I felt inside and I was afraid of succumbing to it like I did before. What did you do when I was brave enough to share this with you? My last effort of trying to reconnect. You told me to push my feelings aside. You made me feel like I didn't matter. My feelings and I didn't matter. I felt my inner child cry out begging for you to see me again. You looked the other way. You are a stranger. You don't accept boundries. You don't listen. Am I invisible to you? Or only convienet to you when you remember your past life before you found your pretty shiny new one? Disguarded. Never good enough. Precious you say? Not anymore.

[jukie1989]

Even though it's later than I usually like to post Happy Birthday to my favorite guy Jon Moxley! I Hope you had a wonderful birthday. You make each day of my life bright with watching what a great husband, father and wrestler and all around human being that you are.

[jukie1989]

So I was at dynamite live tonight and for any wardaddy fans. This was how the night ended after off air. That wink and smile though *swoooons*

[jukie1989]

dominik mysterio turns heel.

WWE live audience: noooo shock why would you do this?????

Me: laughing evilly and happily like the judgement day

"I'm so proud of you sweetie"

[jukie1989]

I just want to take a second to thank paul levesque for all that he gave us. He had an amazing career. He accomplished everything in the ring a wrestler could dream of. He helped so much with behind the scenes as vice president and making with NXT. He gave us so many laughs and omg moments. Thank you sir. Please take the time to take care of you now and be there for your family. Well wishes.

[jukie1989]

So I've come to a conclusion. I always am in love with the crazy ones.

*Jeff hardy

*Jon Moxley

*darby

*sting

*cm punk

*eddie kingston

*Santana and Ortiz

Its Like I enjoy getting gray hair lmao

[jukie1989]

Jeff Hardy: I saw all the memes I know they loved that I danced. I must dance in the middle of the ring in the middle of my match

Me: thank you jeff

[jukie1989]

When daddy William regal says "I don't care who started it! You both say sorry and shake hands or I'm going to kick both your asses!"

[jukie1989]

They say fuck you we have matching purple bandanas! We came to fight! Let's fucking go my purest boys! 🤠💩💜

[jukie1989]

Oh I'm supposed to be shocked mjf did this....maybe if I didn't already call this last week when I knew his sob story was a manipulation towards punk to put his false security.

[jukie1989]

I get so excited when mox comes out with pre murder wiggles!!!!

[jukie1989]

There be alot of thirsty bitches excited about this cm punk and Jon moxley tag match and all I can say is: "I am also one of these thirsty bitches"

[jukie1989]

I do not need to see Dan Lambert two times on my TV in one night. Once was more than painful enough.

[jukie1989]

There's an archer in my boot.....

[jukie1989]

So glad to see mox back. He looks AMAZING, and happy. The promo legit gave me chills and hit home with me. But he always has with me. Welcome back Jon we about to fuck up demons and anyone else who tries to get in your way! ❤