First Gen Chronicles.

Julia Karen. 25. ♎️🇰🇭 ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 youtube.com/xlilmisjuliax

[jul-bunny]

butterflies are lucky...

they get to go into hibernation until they’re fully formed.

they don’t have to feel growing pains.

[jul-bunny]

lol, can’t tell if I'm depressed because of my new BC, or its just the seasonal depression kicking my ass.

[jul-bunny]

lowkey it felt therapeutic to say FUCK MEN in a house full of men, wow.

[jul-bunny]

Im tryna peak @ age 25 tbh lol

[jul-bunny]

so glad i havent peaked yet.. LOL sheeeesh

[gaiasgaurdian]

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You are growing. Sometimes that includes backslides and regression. Treat yourself with kindness and gentleness during these times. You still deserve love. Remember this.

[sportsfemme-deactivated20170529]

[adventures-in-poor-planning]

i’ve heard a lot of people talk about the EXCELLENT potential of a high intelligence/low wisdom dnd character (i.e. an brilliant academic who keeps setting their dumb ass on fire because they always store their wand in their back pocket)

but i’ve not seen any posts about the equal potential of a high wis/low int character (i.e. someone incredibly perceptive who gives deep and meaningful reassurance to their friends and then 5 minutes later asks what a can opener is)

[briarpatch-kids]

[jul-bunny]

its just scary seeing the generational trauma unfold in the younger cousins of my big ass family.

ive noticed all the cousins after Gen Z are becoming less talkative, less responsive, and less social. i just KNOW its because of our generational trauma man...

it literally broke my heart tryna figure out how to save my bb cousins before it becomes too late.

[jul-bunny]

horror...

and for sure rom-coms.

[jul-bunny]

Some days I get into these really insecure moods.  i doubt myself, and I start comparing.  Then I go to sleep.

The next morning, Im blessed to be in a different mental state and I give myself a pep talk:

 “STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO OTHERS! You are your own individual, and you need to own it even on your bad days.  Some little girl is going to be out there inspired by you living your truth -- even if it goes against conventional beauty standards.”

I mean... some of my coworkers and friends have already shared with me that theyve been inspired (from my social media posts) to live their truths and started doing things to build their self esteem. Only a handful of people, but thats more than enough for me. If I can inspire any of God’s creations to love themselves a little more than last year, then my work isn’t in vain.  I want to BREAK these negative connotations that the beauty industry have shoved down our throats. 

ANYONE can be beautiful.

[jul-bunny]

im starting to feel my intelligence fading away the more i get comfortable at my dead-end job. my brain isnt as sharp as it used to be and i feel like its because im getting older.

but also i feel like because im around ppl too much that would rather make you feel bad for having your opinion. so instead of giving me a moment to gather my information or giving me just 5min to google about the topics we're discussing they just give me an L.

on the other hand ppl im around would rather not debate about stuff because it takes too much energy. they'd rather talk about stuff that doesnt really stimulate the mind. maybe they're scared of saying the wrong thing? which is okay... to not know and google in the middle of the conversation??? im realizing im surrounded by alot of elitists and its hella fucking triggering. instead of educating me in a way ill understand, youre gonna look down on me?

then again i cant blame other people for my actions. i have to be the one to take initiative for my education on any subject.

idk... i just miss being understood, even if my position contradicts the other's pov.

[jul-bunny]

honestly, ive noticed that ive become colder and less open to be vulnerable with everyone in my life after this past year.  some times it scares me because i liked who i was when i was able to put myself out there.  now i dont put much effort in socializing and im getting comfortable in that.

on top of that, im not as willing to overextend my help (although healthier to do so). however when people need my help, as long as it doesn’t debit from an already low energy source, i’m always willing. my insecurity now is that i don’t initiate the help like i used to.

i don’t want my heart to be hard and cold, but i don’t know how to stop it.

[jul-bunny]

No more ill feelings. Just.... peace ☺️

[jul-bunny]

Honestly, Tumblr can be big again if it just went back to how it was before Yahoo bought it out. Deadass, Twitter is the new Tumblr these days.

[jul-bunny]

Recently God has been taking away alot of things that brought happiness and comfort. I can only trust in Him that what's taken away has served its purpose, and new chapters are starting.

Im both scared and anxious, but I cant lose the faith. "what will be, will be."

[ramenjesus-deactivated20121014]

[arsenicbutterfly]

https://open.spotify.com/track/5NMa4Z4rtWqyt6VN7h2bpo?context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A37i9dQZF1DX4dyzvuaRJ0n&si=E_5eacsjQGSY6-82Zq87iA

ILLENIUM - “I Care - Intro”

I love that the conversation behind this track is a fragment from The Breakfast Club, when all the kids are venting to each other the sad reality of the segregation that exists in the school between the popular kids vs the misfits and how their new found friendship may not last beyond the Library walls. And Allison delivers the iconic line of: “When you grow up, your heart dies.”