and if you wanna go to heaven, you should fuck me tonight
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BASICS:
Name: Julie Ribeiro
Age: 22
Pronouns: She/Her
Sexuality: Unfortunately strictly dickly
Occupation: Bartender
Likes: red lipstick, pastel colours, caramel macchiatos, compliments, skinny dipping, blankets, tarot readings, snow, ice skating, candles
Dislikes: boys, football, long walks on a beach, ikea, rollerblading, windchimes, thunderstorms, hiking, daisies
Julianna Anita Ribeiro was born on February 23rd, 1999 to Adrianna and Paulo Ribeiro. Their first and only child together, they did not have much but they did everything to give her the world. Julie’s life started out in a trailer park, her mother was a former Miss America, now just a stay at home mother. It had always embarrassed Adrianna that she never became more- she foolishly married for love and this is what she had. She poured everything into her daughter, teaching her how to master a pageant, learning to smile before learning to talk. Learning proper poses, this girl was gonna be her gold mine. Tiaras on her head, learning the proper stride of a pageant queen as she managed to make her first steps. In the eyes of her mother, Julie was gonna be everything Adrianna couldn’t be.
Her father was a truck driver, distant, barely around to comment much or contribute to her upbringing. Julie found herself constantly trying to get his attention when he was around, showing him the new pageant moves her mother taught or crawling into his lap as he watched a football game. Paulo did his best to be a good father, but constantly being on the road, it was tough to have the energy to contribute much then small trinkets here and there. Julie took the gifts as a sign of love and this is what would carry on to adulthood. Paulo Ribeiro passed away just before Julie’s 11th birthday, a widow-makers heart attack apparently. Julie was devastated, but instead of getting time to grieve- it was like a switch went off in her mother. Adrianna got a job as a waitress and was more than ever determined to make Julie a winner. For the few pageants she was in as a kid, she only ever made it 4th or 3rd, that was gonna end now. The Ribeiro family are winners and Julie was the daughter of a former Miss America after all and she was gonna make a star.
Julie was put on fad diets, her mother imposing a complex on food for her. She was forced to worry about calories and knew the calories of things off the top of her head by time she was 12. While also training Julie for pageants, Adrianna was on the hunt for a new husband- each man she brought home was more useless than the other. Then Steve came around, and he was sweet but he couldn’t hold a candle to her father. He was soft, he made sure to be home for dinner, he was a trash collector. He let Julie’s mother walk all over him and she suspected that’s what her mother liked most about him. With the arrival of Steve, Adrianna was free to focus on her main goal- making Julie a star
Puberty came around and Julie noticed how people looked at her, she was a stunner and thanks to years of training from her mother- she knew exactly how to use her looks. She finally won her first pageant at 14 and made enough money to get out of the trailer park and into a real home. Whatever was left of the prize money just went back into the pageants. Winning was a high and Julie did not plan of falling from this, she was a winner now and no one could take that away from her. She won every pageant that she did after that, having a whole closet in room dedicated to affirm how amazing she was.
Julie dated the hottest guy in school, she was tambourine girl for a band. She did anything to have eyes on her, even tried cheerleader for a short stent but realised some of the stunts were too dangerous for her face- biggest part of her money maker. She joined drama club instead, being on stage was a thrill and it gave her a chance to be someone else every now and then. The validation of being the hot girl, getting the hot guy, landing majority of the leading roles in the plays, it was almost as sweet as when her father would shower her with love and affection as kid. Granted nothing could replace what she lost.
Julie was good at hiding her anorexia and bulimia, she played around with food a lot, she let her magnetic personality run things- people would barely notice that she never seemed to be stuffing her face but all things must come to an end. Julie collapsed at school and ended up in the hospital for a month, her mother covered it up stating she was dehydrated and just needed to stay in the hospital. Whether anyone actually believed that- Julie didn’t personally care. Soon after her being let out of the hospital her boyfriend would find his way there. She tried to play the role of the supportive girlfriend like he played the role of supportive boyfriend but she just couldn’t stomach it much. She just didn’t love him enough or at all. The two broke up and Julie decided she didn’t care much for attention from boys, they were easy. She could twirl and they would fall over themselves. She was hanging around old stomping grounds, the trailer trash life she left behind when she had her first affair with a married man. It was so much better being with an older man, someone who knew what he doing. No struggle beard, the smell of whisky on his breath, the validation of her beauty, it all seemed to fill the hole that her daddy left behind.
Julie got into Cal Art for acting, it felt right and she was used to pretending enough in her life she might as well get paid to do so. Plus getting away from this played out town would be a nice reprieve. That’s where she met him though, her 3rd year professor who taught a film class. Maybe it was because he wore the same cologne as her father, maybe it was because he gave her extra attention in class, maybe they spent too much time together. But it happened, another married man under her belt. This time it was different though, she fell in love with the man and when it all came crashing down he blamed her and she got kicked out. It was embarrassing, what the hell was she supposed to do? The only option she had was to crawl back to her old stomping grounds, back to her mother and Steve and her half brother. She wouldn’t dare tell the truth though, she would say it was the wrong path when people asked her why she was back. Acting- what was she thinking? Complete waste of money.
Julie has been working in Gigi’s Cabaret for a year now, after trying out a waitress gig and then the less savoury bar, she found her footing in Gigi’s. The tips were great, she got a long with the girls, and there were plenty of men who made pretty good bed fellows. Julie has a sugar daddy that she meets with twice a month to help upkeep her lifestyle now she has moved on from pageants but not from the feeling that she felt from her glory days.
Extra Extra Extra:
Julie is apart of anonymous online ED group to help keep her on track but she still struggles with food
Hates her stepfather, not because of anything he’s done but because she just doesn’t respect him
Has a younger half-brother who is 9 years old
No idea what she wants to do with her life but knows she needs to marry rich to get out of this town.
