2 rows and 3 desks away

I guess this is just another crush letter blog, to a boy across the classroom who always cracks a smile on my face and gets me sooo.. confused sometimes I just need to write it down. I hope you one day know...

[justacrosstheroom]

Could this be true?

There is something about you that makes me move towards you. 

I’ll put down my barbed wired walls and tell the battalion protecting my heart to call off fire.

All of my scars and my brokenness are masked, so that I can be of service to you.

My inner voice is saying this is blind faith but I want to believe.

I’ve done the hard yards. Done my own deep healing.

So when I see you stuck in your anxious mind.

It makes me want to run over all your cracks with honey and soothe you like Aloe Vera.

Tell me where the world left you bare and I will dress you up in warm polyester.

I don’t love you yet but I care deeply.

I have enough love for the both of us.

So tell me is this true love or am I fooling myself?

[justacrosstheroom]

I'd take it back

Not sure whether I'm tasting Otto or Francisco's lips.

 All I know is that I wish I hadn't done all of this. 

I can feel their lips and they're touching everywhere but my hips. 

They’re kisses are on my neck and no-one ever told me this is not the way to move on, but this is the way I’ll go.

They mess with my hair but I won’t let them mess with my head.

I know to fall in love I need connection and emotion but I won’t let them know that.

So I remain detached kissing strangers and I’ll continue to make this mistake.

My father always said there was plenty fish in the sea and I learnt this lesson first-handed from the best.

I’ll remain bottled up, just like my father.

 But I wish I hadn't chosen this route.

I wish I hadn’t hurt you like this. But patterns don’t just rewrite themselves.

 I had to hurt you before you would hurt me.

Now I know I can never go back and I don't know who I'm suppose to be.

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter #18

Dear you, I never realised how much of a comfort you are to me... If this were my childhood you'd be my favourite blankie and as other monster jerks pushed by scaring me you'd be my shield keeping me safe from their mean taunts. You understand me and  you listen and do the right things. Your comments mean alot to me sooo... when you defend me and tell me I'm worth more than what they've all been saying I am, I want to cry because if I'm really more than that why can I not get you to see that I need you more than she does.

Love from; The  girl who needs a blankie.

[justacrosstheroom]

"We can't both be acting cool because then whose gonna build the bridges? "

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter#17

So today I popped in my music and wow! all the memories that came sailing with it had me falling in love with you all over again. I wish you were here right now but I won't cry because I know you believe me to be a brave & strong girl who can hold her own, but I only do it because I don't want to disappoint you. I want to show you that maybe... just maybe you can't stand being alone another daay. Love from: the girl who is just a friend.

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter#16

Dear you, Lately I haven't been able to have a decent conversation with you because my mind seems somewhere else. When you speak to me I seem to always retreat to "what?" or "huh?" as if I'm a robot but it stops me from saying something stupid. They are the only words that come into my mind when you speak to me. I can't believe I use to just think of you as a friend, I want to be more than friends... now why can't you see that? From: The girl you've been friends with for forever.

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter 15#

Dear you, My heart cringes when I see you talking to other girls, you make them laugh and my heart sinks  cause I know I'm not the only one falling for you. Why are you so innocent to the fact that you're a girl magnet. I wish you were mine. From the girl: Whose jealous

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter14#

Dear you, You deserve a name of a superhero because the way you speak to me seems to take all conscious thoughts out of my mind. Where did you learn that power from? The things you say to me always boosts my day even if it is just a small hey. You make me the most clumsiest person in the world but I love every moment with you.

From:One of the girls you open doors for.

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter#13

Dear you, I saw the sun catch in your teeth and flash me a glint and I nearly died wow! I'm sooo... hooked Sometimes I wish I could just run up to you and wrap my arms around you, But I know, I know as you always tell me life is never fair. I saw those girls flaunting their styles trying to catch your attention and I felt ugly in my jeans and sweater, but your eyes seemed to be elsewhere talking to me. Your humor makes me senseless and I clatter around trying to find my ground with you. Where do I stand with you?

 From: Girl wonderstrucked by you.

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter#12

Dear you, hmm... I'm glad to be starting another year and hey! you're in most of my classes!!!... maybe it's fate. Do you know what I'm stuck on? I'm still stuck on the conversation we had last Friday. If I knew better I would of thought you were flirting with me but you do it so casually it seems natural. When you said my name I was shocked, why would you wanna talk to me? but then I remembered we were "friends" ... lets hope I can change that, haha. Your sooo.. casual about everything, how do you do it? I was nervous as hell walking beside you. I was obsessing bout everything my hair, my face, my teeth etc... gaaahh... thats only something you can do to me. You were on the other side of the fence not even working up a sweat. You're too calm for your own good. You're driving me crazy.

From the girl: Standing beside you paranoid.

[justacrosstheroom]

The summer holidays are nearly over! can't believe I survived.

[sacred-l0vee]

I always fall for the boys that I can never get.

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter#11

Why is your smile so daang contagious?

 right now in my bedroom I’m smiling like a complete jerk…

 Thanks for cheering me up,

 I really needed that.

 Your definitely a stream of light on this dull town.

I think I won’t be able to wipe this smile of my face for awhile.

I wish I could just step out of my hard shell and tell you that I need you.

But now all the memories that we’ve had  are coming down on me and I’m once again wishing you were here beside me.

 I can’t figure out which is worse sitting here missing you or rejection.

 Do you know what you’re teaching me?

I’m learning from you that  in order to gain something you have to give something. 

 But I’m sorry for those times where I seemed to be burning all the bridges we had up,

 because I’m just the stupid girl who always ends up wrecking everything

 just because its not in her comfort zone.

So thank you for being you.

 Love from: The girl building new bridges.

[justacrosstheroom]

You can get a blog, a fake name or pretend to be someone else but in the end... the feelings will never go away.

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[justacrosstheroom]

Letter#10

I watched you walk away like any other day but this time I wanted to chase after you... I wanted  to tell you the truth because I'm sick of holding it in, I'm sick of playing this game I'm sick of acting like I could care less because I can no longer try. I WANT YOU but I can't see past my pride. Love from: The girl playing games.

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter#9

Everyday passes the same, it's the same over and over again. I'm losing track of the days... I've been hoping you'd look at me and your heart would skip a beat, I've been whispering for you under my breath to look me in the eyes, but we're both screwed because we're both avoiding whats right... Love from: the hopeless wreck

[justacrosstheroom]

Letter#8

Stupid, stupid ,stupid. talking to you today had me realising how much you make me feel I'm stupid for getting so excited about it. But I like it when you look at me. ITS AMAZING when you look at me, My heart flutters, Its sooo...cliche but true. My cheeks warm up and I'm glad to say  I'm one of those people who can hide behind my skin colour because without it I'd be turning red  as a flame. I might look calm and naive on the outside but seriously inside a parade is going on. When you pay attention to me it makes me believe I'm the only thing important in the world. You have me believing in complete myths but I'd pick them over the truth any and everyday. Please think of me tonight  just even a quick thought, I just want you to acknowledge me Just this once... Love from: The myth living girl.