trauma is the root of all my problems

this is a vent blog so a general tw for all of my posts. I'm an adult. call me it/its

[justadamagedindividual]

hi. this blog is for vents and displaying the less publicly palatable aspects of my mental health. tw for negativity, self hate, addiction, and self destructive habits. I hope to also reblog a lot of art, edits, and aesthetic posts but we'll just have to wait and see

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[justadamagedindividual]

just logged into my journal app for the first time in a month and they deleted all my posts in the update. 4 yrs of my life. just gone

[justadamagedindividual]

A doorway that's in between

Wasn't me and it wasn't you

The airplane rewrote our histories

Of freeways left to go now

Hysteric screams coming out of the window now

Blessed arms that hold us tight

Freezing cold and alone

Skeleton left the closet for a little while

I slept all through the day

All through the night

All through this year

All through this life

[sleepinforest]

[heavensghost]

Why can’t I cry about this?

[justadamagedindividual]

Slipping

Strings attach to my skin

Invisible, several, tugging

The gentlest pull, a whisper really

Come with us

My body doesn't belong to me

Just some ghost

Here, or there, or not here

I'm slipping between

I dream about falling but

Never crash landing

I kiss the ground

Then fly away again

Every morning my lungs drown

I sip the smoke

Hope that some air

Gets through too

The strings pull

The body flickers

Ground heaves upward

Lungs split in two

[justadamagedindividual]

My new apartment is shit and I'm stuck here for 14 months

I have to get a new job bc I need health ins and I had interviews today that I thought went well at the time but now I can't stop overthinking everything I said

Eating makes my stomach hurt so why do I even bother

I peeled all the skin off my thumb but it wasn't the good kind of pain. I want to cut again

I'm not sleeping well and I'm just so so tired

I've been incredibly productive the past week w my move and looking for jobs plus working full time but when all that is done I'm left w nothing

I lost two friends in the last two months and the ones I have left barely talk to me

I just feel bad

I want to cry but that only happens for me abt twice a year. I could only be so lucky

My back is still hurting every day. It's been six months since my injury. Is this just my life now? Chronic pain always?

I don't live walking distance to a park anymore

I want to break my 9 month sobriety streak

I was going to quit smoking when I moved lmao

I just feel bad

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[bluefingertips]

this shit made my head hurt more, but yea i agree

[mitskistanacc0unt]

felt

[infact-a-fag]

mood

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