delightful doe

trauma blog. they/he/it. my attempt at coping. ⚠!this account is triggering!⚠

[brokenflicker]

something i realized over the years is that despite wanting to kill myself, i don't actually wanna die. far from it actually. i want to live. i want to experience all the things i always wanted to do. i want to see the world. i want to look in the mirror one day and say "im happy i stayed". i want to get better. i want to live a life free from the shackles this mental illness has kept me in. but sometimes that darkness in my brain just overtakes that hope for a better future and all i'm left with is the thought that it will never get better.

— i want to live, but not like this.

[guitarplayermrs]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[cptsdradio]

[6broken6wings6]

This disorder will be the death of me

[imakeartwheniwanttodie]

Trapped in my own memories

[thejournalingrat]

4/4

Don’t reupload or change my caption

[small-but-mightyy]

[6broken6wings6]

[6broken6wings6]

[haleyincarnate]

No one could have prepared you for what you went through. 

[6broken6wings6]

[victim-or-survivor]

i was so LITTLE. it almost never bothers me anymore but sometimes it hits me out of nowhere, how small i was, how young and helpless. i was a CHILD. i wasn't even a teenager yet. i see pictures and my heart breaks for that little girl who carried something so heavy with her—who reached for the light and cried in relief because she thought it was over. there is no vengeance for that little girl. she is still somewhere, haunting the halls of my veins, praying for the bad things to end. ruining the life of the girl who came after her out of spite. and me. grown now, on my hands and knees in the dark, picking up pieces of broken glass with my fingers. cleaning up the mess. tucking the little girl into bed. trying to live a life where none of this ever happened.

[dogoccult]

[dogoccult]

[6broken6wings6]

You deserve the love and kindness you give to everyone else.

[ojibwa]

i rlly hope it gets easier soon bc i am fucking losing my mind

[pinkcatminht]