you want to cook crystal meth?

[dangerknocking]

          ❛  forgive me, but unlike you, i have an actual family and children that rely on me to financially support them, so no, i am not willing to put my life or their lives on the line again to work with someone so DERANGED and volatile. you were the one who suggested beginning our own distribution arrangement, remember? the market is OURS to control. with your connections and my business pricing model, we’ll cut out the middleman and make twice as much as we did before.  ❜

[justajunkie]

          “hey, i need financial support too. just ‘cause i don’t have KIDS, don’t mean i don’t need anything. i suggested it, but i DIDN’T expect you to turn into some deranged and OVERBARING person. my fuckin’ mistake. good. with the amount of fuckin’ work that’s being put in here, we BETTER be making twice as much. at the damn minimum.”

[justajunkie]

i want to be here, but my muse is also like ?? wtf r u writing ?? so i need to do a rewatch

which i plan to start this weekend once christmas is over with so just deal with me being shitty until then

[justajunkie]

could you ever seen jesse with a man? if so, could you ever see him with walt?

could i ever see jesse with a man? yes, absolutely. i don’t think it would be something he would get into lightly, especially not openly to begin with. he would be very much in the closet (mickey milkovich 2.0) and he would be very aggressive/confused/unsure of himself because he doesn’t know how to handle it.but yes, i definitely see him with men because of his personality. i just... feel like he needs a dominant figure, and i think that was what he had with jane and somewhat with andrea. he needs guidance and someone that will help him. in all aspects.

( also, jesse pinkman is a total power bottom don’t u fight me on this ) ( but he’s also a complete submissive at the same time??? i like both whatever )

moving on to walt. i’ve written fanfiction about them, i’ve read a fucking ton of it... but do i think they could be together? 

maybe. i’m not entirely sure. it would be hella dysfunctional like their current relationship already is. walt would be possessive and overbearing & i think jesse would hate it, but he’d also love it without admitting it. they would drive each other insane, but then they would be at a point in which they only had each other. which would make it even worse. 

idk. i just see it as a thing that would happen, then would continue happening without either of them acknowledging it - until walt does, by being a total ass about it because that’s who he is. it wouldn’t be concrete, or normal. it would be messed up and emotional and... yeah.

 i don’t think jesse would ever want to be in a relationship with walt, but i also think it would depend on the timeline as i could see it later in the series with the dependency between them.

[nicholashoulty]

Yo 148, 3-to-the-3-to-the-6-to-the-9. Representin’ the ABQ. What up, biatch? Leave it at the tone!

[dangerknocking]

          ❛  FORMER hapless junkie. my apologies. have you honestly learned nothing over the course of our business partnership together? the market for methamphetamine requires exactly the same type of cardinal approach with added gumption and HEED to enmesh with our clients’ needs. so unless you have a better idea that doesn’t involve dealing with another psychotic distributor that tries to murder us, we’re doing this MY way this time.  ❜

[justajunkie]

          “whatever, man. at least fuckin’ try to get it right. no, it doesn’t. you just seem to fuckin’ THINK that it does, so that you can feel superior over them or some shit— which, go for it. just don’t act like a LITTLE BITCH when it goes wrong. you’re only gonna have yourself to blame for it this time, so i ain’t gonna complain. i am gonna tell you that it’s fucking POINTLESS though. they want meth, not a fucking corporation... or whatever you have planned.”

[dangerknocking]

          ❛  and you think i’m out here busting my ass with some pathetic lowlife junkie in the middle of the desert just for the hell of it? patience, jesse. the methamphetamine market has never seen a product as chemically pure as ours; we can and we will SEIZE it, but first we need an organized and detailed business model to assure the success and maturation of our dealings above our inferior competitors.  ❜

[justajunkie]

          “i’ve already told you that i’m NOT a junkie! how many damn times do i have to repeat myself on that?! you talk about drugs like it’s a normal business, and it AIN’T, mr. white! customers - those pathetic lowlife junkies ya’ like to criticize - they don’t care about fucking business models and all that bullshit! it’s METH. this isn’t rocket science.”

[justajunkie]

            “is this some sorta’ FUCKIN’ JOKE to you?              i’m trying to earn a livin’ here, man.”

[justajunkie]

when you start a breaking bad rewatch and miss jesse so much it physically hurts

[justajunkie]

showttime:

           “Well do me a favour and get off your ASS and help me out here,              two heads are better than one but I’m happy to settle for mine              and your HALF a brain.” He has to pull the phone away from his              ear for just a moment, and taps it twice against his forehead —              of course Walter couldn’t have picked a professional to be his               partner; they were damn lucky he was their lawyer. “I’d prefer it              if you WERE sleeping together, maybe it’d make this crap easier.              Oh come on, Jesse. Don’t be such a baby.”

            A scowl tips down his mouth at Saul’s words, even though the man             isn’t there to see it himself. He can just wish he could kill someone             through brainpower alone. Maybe one day it would come true… “Ha,             ha, ha. You’re hilarious Saul, did ya’ ever consider changing career             paths?” His eyes roll to himself. “You’re DISGUSTING – you know             that? I’m sure you’d love to get your hands on that wrinkly ass, that’s             why you’re always so damn insistent of FINDING him all the time.” He             does laugh then though, a snort more than anything.

[justajunkie]

showttime:

           “Yeah well y’should. The guy’s like a greasy teenager hitting his             rebellious years and thinks breaking curfew is the greatest high             in life.” It was DAMN frustrating, you couldn’t exactly make a few             calls and spread the news of a missing Meth cook. Not to mention             Walter had pretty much been there done that already. “It might             surprise you, Pinkman, but I thought his partner might know where             he is. I know, it’s a far fetched assumption… call me crazy!”            

            A scoff is sounded down the phone, a threat of amusement clear             in the noise. Jesse ignores the fact. “Well maybe he’s gettin’ some             ideas from that kid of his, how the fuck am I meant t’ know?” He’s             already eyeing up the cigarette packets to his right, wonders how             long this conversation will go on for. It’s all people want to talk to             him about, as of late. Walter White, the great Heisenberg. Jesse             can’t say he’s a huge fan of it. “You’re talkin’ about us as if we’re             fucking or something, Saul. I ain’t keeping tabs on him, and I ain’t             gonna be starting that either. You want him? You fuckin’ find him.”

[showttime-blog]

             ❝  Clearly his taste in women is the same as his taste in lawyers :                   only the very BEST… with just the right amount of dirty!  ❞    

[justajunkie]

              “JESSE !!” his client’s name was spoken with forced joy, an attempt                to lighten the otherwise poor topic. He’d been playing Where’s Walt                for the past two hours. “So—” an awkward pause; the wave of his                 hand to swing him into action didn’t help, “—Seen The Great Walto?                The disappearing man of the moment?”

for justajunkie

              Silence follows on the other line, and Jesse wishes he could               say he was surprised by the topic of conversation. Everything               in his life seems to revolve around WALTER now and it is               starting to drive him CRAZY. “I don’t know, Saul. It’s not like               I keep a damn leash on the guy.” He hasn’t spoken to him               since yesterday and it’s been a R E L I E F; the thought of               them needing to cook at the back of his mind. “You’re the               one who knows how to track people, why don’t ya’ do that?”

[justajunkie]

sad noises because i miss jesse

[justajunkie]

i really miss jesse and i wanna do some things asap so just... idk, hit me up if you wanna do a thing??

[justajunkie]

thebitchmom:

           only a shrug- that’s all she offers him. being alive should be shrouded in            romanticism but for skyler white, it’s deserving of a small gesture and a            second huff on her newly lit cigarette. she’s not sentimental in the least            bit, not anymore. however, there’s a pink elephant in the room reminding            them both that while they might still be alive, walter is not. he’s dead, his            remains buried in a cheap grave that is ruined with graffiti. no family will            visit him there and no friends exist to make up for their absence. 

“ you’re breathing, yes. but who cares? “ 

           the way her lips curl upwards is almost cruel. it should create a smile but            there’s far too much malice for it to be considered something as kind. it’s            not directed as jesse. it’s directed at the ghost who haunts them both.

“ does it matter? “ 

who cares? that’s definitely a question that runs through his mind for a long moment. no one, is the obvious answer to that question. jesse can’t act like it’s not true, either. it isn’t like he has anyone who cares about him. they’re all dead. it’s a thought that startles him to his bones, rattles through him like a bullet has gone off. he can still hear the sound of that night ringing in his ears; too many gunshots to remember.

          “i care.”

it’s pathetic, but he’s not going to be a shell of a man now that walter is dead. he isn’t going to stand there and act as though he cares what skyler thinks. walter may have claimed her, her life, but she won’t allow the dead man to do the same to him, from beyond the grave. he got out for a reason.

          “it matters to me.”

[justajunkie]

i haven’t abandoned this blog. i just have the enthusiasm to do nothing right now. sorry, guys!!

[justajunkie]

hey babes!! i haven’t abandoned this blog i’m going to a convention this weekend so i will be back on tuesday

but i’m also contemplating making a harley quinn blog so we shall see what happens with that