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28. she/her. see my pinned post for more info or check me out on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/JustAlliHere

[justallihere]

Hi there! Welcome - I'm Alli (she/her). I like concerts, books, and science. My favorite color is pink and my favorite band is Fall Out Boy. At this time I'm writing fics for The Empyrean (Fourth Wing) series, but someday in the future I might expand that list. Thanks for joining the chaos!

Most of you probably know me from AO3 by the same username. Below you can find my entire masterlist of fics as well as some frequently asked questions. If there's something you'd like to know that isn't addressed below, my ask box is always open 🫶🏻

✨ masterlist:

storm in the quiet (E)

Xaden/Violet, arranged marriage AU, 342k words, complete

It took only a few minutes for Violet to figure out what purpose she served. No one said it out loud—not yet, but they’d get there—but they kept throwing out words like formalizing alliances and uniting two groups, and she understood. Violet was a sacrificial lamb, and Xaden Riorson was the wolf, and her slaughter would be their marriage.

(find sitq deleted moments here, here, here, and here)

all resistance wearing thin (E)

Imogen/Garrick, one shot set in the sitq world, 7.3k words, complete

It was a dangerous thing to be alone with Imogen Cardulo.

dead on arrival (E)

Xaden/Violet, Bones-inspired modern AU, 111k words, complete

Violet Sorrengail is a forensic anthropologist good with only one thing: dead people. Their bones speak a language only she can hear, but the living aren't quite so easy to understand - particularly one FBI Agent Xaden Riorson, who does everything possible to get under her skin. When an unexpected murder victim washes up in DC, the ensuing investigation brings them closer together despite her every effort to stay away, and she's forced to decide if the careful distance she keeps around her heart is really worth it.

it's hard to say "i do" when i don't (E)

Xaden/Violet, one shot, 14k words, complete

There were plenty of ways that Violet Sorrengail would’ve preferred to spend the Winter Solstice. Marrying Xaden Riorson was not one of them. She supposed it all worked out, in the end.

simmer (E)

Xaden/Violet, one shot, 4.1k words, complete

The night that Tairn began channeling to Violet, she didn’t stumble upon Xaden in the snow. She found someone else to take care of her, and when Xaden realized, he was less than amused.

violence in my veins (E)

Xaden/Violet, one shot, 4.1k words, complete

The Riders’ Quadrant had something of an obsession with piercings. The only person Violet Sorrengail knew without any was, of course, Xaden Riorson. Or so she thought.

invisible in a violet sea (E)

Xaden/Violet, one shot, 2k words, complete

“It’s just me here, love. Tell me what you need so badly, Violence.” There was something about the way he said the private nickname in this context, with his voice low and husky, that made it feel entirely different from every other time he called her that. Like it was reverent and special and it, like her, belonged only to him. “You,” she said. “I need you, Xaden.”

void of all composure (E)

Liam/Violet/Cam, one shot, 2.8k words, complete

Liam Mairi figured it couldn’t be that hard to keep Violet Sorrengail out of trouble. Unfortunately, he didn’t account for the fact that her version of trouble was Cam Tauri, and Liam was certainly going to go down with her.

flower bud in concrete (T)

Xaden/Violet, pregnancy fic, companion to somehow i still love you more, 7.5k words, complete

There was nothing Violet wanted more than to complete her family with Xaden with a child of their own. It took longer than they thought, but the wait was worth it.

somehow i still love you more (G)

Xaden/Violet, kid fic, companion to flower bud in concrete, 800 words, complete

Xaden’s favorite time was the middle of the night, when his wife slept peacefully and he got to hold his daughter and watch the snow falling.

come together, come apart (E)

Liam/Violet/Xaden, one shot, 12.4k words, complete

Following the battle at Resson, Violet felt out of control in the wake of so many lies revealed. Xaden and Liam offered her a way to take some of it back.

✨FAQs:

Do you have an update schedule?

Nope. Fanfic is a hobby for me—I have other responsibilities and a full-time job. I write because it’s fun, and in order for it to stay that way I write and post as I’m able, and sometimes I step away for a week or two to maintain my own sanity. Unless I specifically say it, I promise my fics aren’t abandoned just because it’s been a few days or even weeks without a new chapter. Please don’t ask me about updates!

Do you take requests for fics?

I do not. I write things that I love or am inspired by. Trying to conform to specific requests kind of sucks the joy out of writing for me.

Can I write or draw something inspired by/based on/in the same universe as one of your fics?

Yes. Please just let me know once you post and link back to my work in some way!

Can I bind your fics?

Yes, for personal use only. You may not commission any third party that would make a profit off binding the fic to do the work for you. You may not sell bound copies of my fics. Everything I’ve written has been done for free, as my own personal love letter from me to fandom. Keep fanfiction safe and legal. And send me pictures—I’d love to see your finished projects.

Can I translate your fic to another language?

I would be honored! Please keep all translations to AO3 only and use the “this work is a translation” feature to link back to the original. I do not consent to my work being reposted to other sites in any way.

Will you ever write your own book?

I'd love to one day! I have lots of ideas floating around at all times, even though I don't talk about them much. I promise if I ever publish any original works, you'll know.

Will storm in the quiet have a sequel?

Nope.

✨ other info:

Find some of my favorite book recs here

Some great Fourth Wing fic recs here (my own faves and a lot of other good ones that I missed in the comments)

If you’re interested in what I might be currently reading, click here

[skyfallscotland]

for anyone who loves a visual:

(620 loft & garden, at rockerfeller) in my opinion, it's perfect for them!

14 months, 170k words, at least 10 scoldings from my physical therapist, and that’s a wrap! thank you so much to everyone who came along on this ride, whether you liked the ending or not, i appreciate you being here and i will see you next time 💖

[flightlesssbirbss]

the u.s. women’s hockey team should get to throw rocks at the u.s. men’s hockey team and also beat them with hammers and baseball bats i am so serious rn

[justallihere]

i wish all the hockey fans following me a very not stressful day 🫶🏻

[justallihere]

who in the pitt writers’ room is on ao3 lmao

[justallihere]

jesus christ they’ve got langdon in a fucking saw trap free my man 😭

[justallihere]

i love the olympics i’m about to be cheering for countries and sports i’ve never once thought about in my life

[justallihere]

Bestie did you watch the pitt? If you did, what did you think?

Love the Pitt!!!! Big big huge fan of the Pitt!! I am a long time lover of medial dramas and I just love how raw and real this one feels, and I love the format and all the characters and the patients. I cried my way through most of s1 and I’m really having so much fun with s2 so far. Like genuinely it’s some of the best tv I’ve watched in a really long time highly highly recommend

[justallihere]

Hey! I want to start by telling you that Storm In The Quiet is my #1 favorite Fourth Wing fanfic of all time. I love it. It's my comfort fanfic and I have re-read it multiple times. At the end of the chapter in which Xaden and Violet get married, you mention the consent issues. I have a lot of thoughts regarding that scene and just generally the whole tension around autonomy and agency that the forced marriage brings up. I don't know if you are interested in those thoughts at all. I mean everything from a place of love and support and hope that I don't come across as unfairly critical because in truth, your fanfic is and has helped me to emotionally process these characters and part of what I write below is my ongoing attempt to find the emotional closure I need with these characters, lol. So if you're interested, my thoughts are below but if you don't want to know my thoughts just please delete this message before you read any further. I would never want to write something to an author that in any way discouraged them from writing, so please really just delete it!!

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So, even with that end of chapter note, there is something that has always bothered me about the interaction where Xaden asks Violet to consent to the kiss and she says yes. I am re-reading the story again right now and I can finally, I think, articulate it, and it is this: Violet can say "yes" in that moment, but IMO she cannot actually consent because she is being coerced and acting under duress. The kiss isn't just a kiss, it is the kiss that will finalize the marriage that she is being forced into. As you point out, she has no choice, her agency has been taken away. What Xaden is looking for here feels more like performative consent, not real true meaningful consent. And I hate that Violet lets him off the hook. Even though I know she is attracted to him and is interested in kissing him, I wish she didn't let him off the hook ethically. Like she could say something like, I can say the word yes, but you know that I am being coerced, which means I can't actually consent, but you have to kiss me unless you want your treaties and plans to fall apart, so kiss me and live with the knowledge that you've kissed an un-consenting woman.

I know this is obviously much longer than what she did say in that scene, but I hate that Xaden gets to leave the ceremony feeling like he respected her. Maybe I am so sensitive about this because I am a sexual assault survivor, I don't know, but as I've been re-reading this story the consent issues have come up time and again as things I wish Violet would have been more direct about. She's direct with Liam about it, when she points out to him that she didn't give up everything, it was taken from her and this was not her choice. And I know she knows that Xaden knows this and that he is unrepentant about it. But I hate that she doesn't take every opportunity she can to point out to him that he has and continues to violate her rights. In some ways, I would love to see an AU of your story in which Xaden eventually concedes to Violet and gives her the divorce she wants. And Violet would of course fight for their cause once she found out the truth, because she's a good person, but it would be HER choice. Of course even in your story it's her choice, no one can force her to use her powers. But it would just feel better to me if, at the point Xaden realized he was in love with her and would literally let Aretia burn for her, he could find it in himself to let her go because how can he love her and continue to have the weight of having violated her autonomy and agency weighing over him if they are going to have a real relationship.

I also wish she was more direct and confrontational with him and with Liam about their lying. For instance, in the scene where Liam asks if she can be friends, I wish she would ask him point blank, are you lying to me or hiding anything from me that directly impacts me, because if the answer is yes, how do you suppose a friendship would work? I really think she could be more confrontational with Liam, in a friendly way, and that he could be forced to face his ongoing role in enforcing Violet's compliance. I bet in some ways he would have a harder time than Xaden with the guilt of what he's done if he were confronted about it a few times. She does confront Xaden about things, but there are times she concedes where I wish she would push him more. Like after the coronation when she's going back to Basgiath with Liam and he is telling her not to avoid Liam. He points out to her that this is bigger than her now, her crown will make her a target and that it's important that she do what he's telling her to do. I wish she would just say, To you, it's important to you, Xaden. I'll start listening to you and doing what you say when you are honest and stop lying to me. Until that time, I will be responsible and make decisions for myself based on the information that I have, which is how I've conducted myself for the past year and kept myself, and you, alive. I think Violet could put every effort into being a good queen while not conceding the issues around her choice and autonomy, and that she doesn't appreciate continuing to be treated like an object they've acquired.

Again, she generally does a really good job with these things in your story. But there are times when she concedes when she could continue to confront them about what they've done to her, and I wish she would. Of course she only has so much energy and sometimes it's just easier to not fight, even when she has no intention of listening to him. I get that.

Those are all my thoughts. I hope you take them as I intend them: as an avid supporter grappling with some complicated themes.

I love your writing and have read many of your fanfics, but often I start one and then just go back to this one because it feeds something my soul needs. Thank you for your writing and thank you for reading my note.

I think consent issues in forced/arranged marriage are unavoidable. I’ve always done my best to acknowledge that they’re there, but I’ve also done my best to keep the characters in character with how I approach them throughout the story. Their backgrounds and the world this fic is set in greatly impact how they interact with each other and their thoughts on the marriage, and I don’t think you can fully talk about the consent of it all just in terms of Xaden and Violet and what they’re asking from each other and giving each other in turn. There are so many other moving pieces that are putting Violet into this position—Tauri, Lilith, Melgren, the dragons, the venin, even Poromiel and their relationship with Tyrrendor are driving forces behind the Navarre/Tyrrendor alliance that ultimately leads to the marriage. So just saying “Xaden did this” and “Violet didn’t do that” ignores the rest of the chess board moving all around them and all their motivations for what they do or don’t do. 

But to narrow it down as much as possible and speak to what you’ve written, I’ve talked before about how this story and these characters are driven by love, in all its forms, and that’s the lens I’ve used to make these character choices. Xaden and Violet are the same in that they both draw very careful lines in the sand, and they mark out what they are willing and not willing to do to protect the people they love. 

To your point about Xaden feeling good about asking Violet for consent for the kiss—that’s kind of the point. That fits his character to me. He prides himself on respecting women, respecting Violet in particular in whatever way he can, and by asking her first before he kisses her and hearing her yes, he gets to tell himself that is a line he didn’t cross, whether or not that’s true to anyone else. And Violet says yes partly because she does want to kiss him, and partly because she doesn’t know when to stop giving up pieces of herself for the people she loves. She was raised in a family of duty, of obligation, of honor. Even if she was given a different choice, she still would say yes because to her this is how she protects her people. It’s a price she’s willing to pay if it means no one else will have to. 

And to further that idea, Tyrrendor becomes hers from the moment she arrives. As soon as her feet touch the ground, she loves that place and those people. Her and Xaden manage to agree on that much—that it’s really about innocent people who can’t protect themselves. That’s why she “concedes” to Xaden and Liam on points you’d like her to fight back on. To her it’s bigger than her feelings, it’s bigger than feeling betrayed or sad or pissed off. There is an entire country that is now her responsibility, and she won’t walk away from it. Her and Xaden talk about that a couple times, because once he realizes how much he loves her he would whisk her away without a second thought, but she won’t leave the fight behind until it’s finished. 

And Xaden would never let her go without him. He tells Violet and the reader who he is several times. He tells Violet after she finds out about the venin that he doesn’t regret any of his choices because he got her. He tells her when they’re looking at the stars on his birthday that he is awful and selfish and he doesn’t care that he is. He won’t give her that divorce. It’s not who he is.

I understand that our lived experiences will always shape our view of the media we’re interacting with. I’m so, so sorry for what you went through; I don’t even have the words for that. 

But I think, in the gentlest and kindest way possible, that what you’re asking for here would be a different story and different characters. There’s nothing wrong with that—it’s fanfiction, nothing is ever wrong—but it also doesn’t really line up in my mind with the motivations of this specific Xaden and Violet. 

I also don’t approach my writing through the same moral lens that I do real life. Like, yeah, objectively, everyone in this fic is a pretty awful person. No one should ever put up with this behavior from someone they love. But they’re not real, and the choices they’re making I made up in my head for fun, and I think the fact that they’re morally gray and toxic and possessive is fun and sexy. So. 

That’s my two cents! Thanks for reading and for taking the time to send your thoughts. Please know I mean all of this with all love and respect 🫶🏻

[justallihere]

Just wanted to let you know that I have just started DOA because I need Xaden and Violet in my life after finishing OS and let me just tell you that I absolutely adore it. Your writing style is phenomenal and so easy to read and it’s everything i need for my hollow heart❤️ don’t stop writing!

Thank you so much!!! 🥹

You sent this a couple weeks ago so I hope by now you’ve finished and you had a fun time and you’re not mad at me like everyone else was when finishing it 🫶🏻

[justallihere]

i have a brand to uphold @skyfallscotland

[justallihere]

my one piece of advice for fic writers is that sometimes people will comment on your stuff and miss the point so entirely that you have to laugh at it. just go lol. lmao, even. and then move on

[station18908]

Re-reading your own fic is wild.

Okay, that's a really good sentence. Typo. Typo. Huh, did I write this? It's actually not bad. Typo. Hm, I would cut out that part now, but it kind of works. TYPO. Oh, this part is really good. That is the wrong word, wtf? I'm enjoying this more than I thought I would. ANOTHER TYPO? FFS.

[justallihere]

current forecast is giving me hives for anyone curious this should be illegal

[justallihere]

santos asking robby in the promo for next week if they like al-hashimi is so funny and endearing to me, like yes that is papa pitt and his pittlings and they require his validation

[justallihere]

happy acnh update to all who celebrate!!

[finefeatheredfabler]

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