:(

[justkindasadallthetime]

No one prepares you for the grief you experience in your early mid and late twenties..

[justkindasadallthetime]

It’s crazy, you know? How you can carry something, someone, for so long that it feels like a part of you. Like that one hoodie you’ve had since middle school, frayed at the cuffs, stained with memories, but still a safety net. You convince yourself you need it, even when it doesn’t fit anymore. Even when it’s suffocating. And I guess that’s where I am.

[justkindasadallthetime]

It’s crazy, you know? How you can carry something, someone, for so long that it feels like a part of you. Like that one hoodie you’ve had since middle school, frayed at the cuffs, stained with memories, but still a safety net. You convince yourself you need it, even when it doesn’t fit anymore. Even when it’s suffocating. And I guess that’s where I am.

[justkindasadallthetime]

Sometimes you expect a lot from someone because you'd do that much for them. But you end up suffering anyway

[justkindasadallthetime]

We are strangers that share memories..

[justkindasadallthetime]

I never knew I needed somebody so badly.. until I was forced to live without them…



[justkindasadallthetime]

Actively working on trying to kick the extreme nostalgia..

[justkindasadallthetime]

The hard part isnt saying goodbye…It’s everything that happens after. It’s reaching for your phone. And remembering there’s no one to text. It’s hearing a joke and then remembering halfway that you can’t send it to them anymore. It’s the way your heart still looks for them in moments of silence or even the subtle smells. It’s also remembering the songs that they ruined the places you can’t go anymore because you don’t want the memory the heavy memory of them. Or even the empty side of the left bed that isn’t there.

[justkindasadallthetime]

Please just call if you miss me. It doesn’t have to be a huge philosophical conversation, it doesn’t have to mean we are back together. It just means you miss me like I miss you…

[justkindasadallthetime]

You made it impossible for me to trust anyone…

[justkindasadallthetime]

Missin you extra tonight. Wanted to call and catch up and confess my undying love for you. But took a shower and cried instead..

[justkindasadallthetime]

I’ve made some of my favorite memories with people I will never speak to again..

[justkindasadallthetime]

Human relationships are strange. Someone can become part of your everyday life so naturally.. sleeping beside you, eating with you, talking about everything and nothing, going places together, loving each other in all these small unspoken ways. Knowing what they will want from a restaurant or a coffee shop without having to even ask. Making sure you put the dishes away in the preferred way. You get so used to them that it starts to feel permanent, like they’ve always been there and always will be. Then one day it ends sometimes just by a sentence.. and that same person who knew every part of you is suddenly gone from your life. And no matter how normal the world keeps moving around you, there’s something heartbreaking about how someone can mean absolutely everything to you… and then just become a memory.

[justkindasadallthetime]

[justkindasadallthetime]

I’ll never be whole again..

[justkindasadallthetime]

Sometimes you expect a lot from someone because you'd do that much for them. But you end up suffering anyway

[justkindasadallthetime]

It’s crazy, you know? How you can carry something, someone, for so long that it feels like a part of you. Like that one hoodie you’ve had since middle school, frayed at the cuffs, stained with memories, but still a safety net. You convince yourself you need it, even when it doesn’t fit anymore. Even when it’s suffocating. And I guess that’s where I am.