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you've reached the end of me

[justletmejumpalready]

[justletmejumpalready]

I cried

Today.

Because I'm not sure

If I'll be here

Tomorrow.

[justletmejumpalready]

No one will ever read this.

But that's chill with me.

I'm in the darkest place one could ever be.

One where monsters crawl, and heartbreak lurks.

People hate you, and all your quirks.

Thoughts of death loom on a loop.

As you stand outside the group.

I'm alone. With my mistakes.

Pain gives, happiness takes.

Left with my hauntings until I die.

I just curl up, and cry, cry, cry.

[justletmejumpalready]

My tears are the crushed pieces of hopes and dreams seeping out of the windows to my soul.

[justletmejumpalready]

Have you ever made decisions that are so detrimental to your existence you don't know if you have the right to be alive anymore?

That's where I'm at.

[justletmejumpalready]

REAL TALK why these peeps out here on TikTok pretending to have Tourette's? Just 'cuz Billy Eilish has it, doesn't make it something to start pretending ya'll have. Having a neurological disorder isn't the newest fad. 🤦🏼‍♀️

[justletmejumpalready]

My family: *peacefully watching the holiday fireplace channel while chatting*

Me: *imagining my enemies as each log, slowly becoming ashes*

[justletmejumpalready]

New Year: What is your resolution?

Me: *looks at 2021* *looks to 2022*

Me: To not get fucking murdered?