Just My Mere Emotions

Just Mere Emotions Emotionally Charged Words Heart filled with overflowing feelings~~~

[rosesforrei]

That today I’m presenting myself with a gift. My peace. My freedom; to no longer dream and wait for you. That yes, I also deserve someone who truly likes me too.

Roses For Rei

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It’s always amazing how much of a drama queen you are for a guy. Funny how irritating you actually are when you over react and still make it look like you weren’t. You know, those little weird things you do. They keep me entertained. They make me smile. They actually, truly make me happy. You know, those little things, those little bits of antics make up the little big million things why I love you.

Million Little Things (Roses For Rei)

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She never asked, never wanted it solely, not in any way got greedy. Haven’t dreamed for you to be hers. All she ever prayed for was for you to get the loved you have always deserved. In your eyes she just wasn’t.

Roses For Rei

[rosesforrei]

But being selfish was also a thought

An idea she dared to entertain

A foolish state of want was subtly felt

She kept wanting you to herself

Her Affection 3/5 (Roses For Rei)

[rosesforrei]

She believed in humanity

She loved people she believed

She lived for people she loved

She was happy for how she lived

And happy meant loving you

Her Affection 2/5 (Roses For Rei)

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But her basics were grateful and never self indulgent

She knew people had their wings

Fascinated she knew

She loved you more

More than her happiness

She understood

She loved you more

Her Affection 4/5 (Roses For Rei)

[rosesforrei]

She loved you more

She knew to let go

Let go and see you soar

Her Affection 5/5 (Roses For Rei)

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She either thought

She was okay believing

Never knowing it could be deceiving

Teary eyed, she was always realizing

Her Affection 1/5 (Roses For Rei)

[rosesforrei]

Sometimes I wish I can allow myself to dream farther, to go wild with hopes, to crave more than just what I can have, to be selfish enough to want something all to myself. I wish I can allow myself to fully admire you, to love every little bits of you.

Roses For Rei

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Her

You know how cliche characters are.

Bright. Fun. Loving.

She was that.

Annoying to be honest.

She had that extra weird smile.

Way too happy she can’t pass as pretty.

To her precious people

She had the saccharine affection.

To people she barely knew.

She served the spicy stew.

She was all too smart

Entertaining to listen to

You’d think she knows a lot.

But ignorance was her bliss.

True enough she knew nothing or just less.

But people grow, change and go on.

She kept her basics

But she picked up some shades too.

The brightest smiles bring in the darkest hues.

She wasn’t cliche.

She was blinding. She was crazy. But she was still loving.

She was that and so much more.

Worth the love actually, honestly.

[rosesforrei]

Nothing makes me feel more alive than loving you. Yet nothing makes me feel lonelier than knowing you’ll never feel the same

- Roses For Rei

[rosesforrei]

I keep wanting to believe that all the time spent loving you were never a wasted moment in my life. I hope that when I look back I won’t feel any regret over anything. So I’ll keep believing, I’ll keep loving. You may be a fantasy but my love is real.

Roses For Rei

[rosesforrei]

For those brief moments that we shared I had formulated a lot of questions directed against my being: - Was it a shared moment? - Did it really happen or was it my subconscious working it’s way in a reality like dream? - Are you real? - Since when did it get to be like this? - I mean how is it even possible to feel like this? —This strong urge to know you, you as being you and not just what you let people know of you. — This claustrophobic kind of panic of wanting to be alone with you. —This delightful longing I have in my chest that can only be quenched once I find you and see you. - Do you remember me? I was that all over the place human because I could not concentrate on a single thing knowing someone like you was there. - Do you even know me? - I mean do you even know I exist? I have gone in circles asking myself a myriad questions, only to find out I was merely denying you. Your life, existence and presence. Your impact against my own self. I was scared, I was terribly frightened. All these because I knew I was about to drown in an abyss of solitude. A happy solitude of believing in love that I only discovered in you.”

Denial (Roses For Rei)

[rosesforrei]

It was either He loved someone else Or I never deserved him.

- Roses For Rei (via rosesforrei)

[rosesforrei]

I can’t barely remember. How it came to that point. Can’t turn back. Can’t deny. Can’t say goodbye. My head was heavily clouded. Nothing else was there. Nothing but you.

Roses For Rei (via rosesforrei)

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“But true love isn’t for everyone. But I do hope it’s for him and mine. If not in this lifetime then perhaps on our next.”

- Roses For Rei (via rosesforrei)

[rosesforrei]

I lay awake wondering how he could fathom knowing he destroyed someone’s faith, hope and view on love.

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