I know I had my issues...
But you said you wanted to work on them
It was a hard couple of months, I know
Anytime, during our fights, when I would offer to break up
And remind me that I said breaking up shouldn't be a consideration
Okay... I won't say it again
So we will stay together no matter what
You went out with your friends
"I'll be home around ten-thirty, eleven o'clock."
On top of the fact I hadn't heard from you since you left
And you would usually check in on me
You knew what you were doing
I slept on the couch that night
And could even smell the alcohol emanating from your body
I refused to talk to you in such a state
And you retreated to the bedroom
The next morning you gave me something
All but a text apologizing for not communicating properly
I said, "no, you didn't communicated at all"
And then the smallest thing
But was the biggest thing
"I don't know what's wrong with me"
I never thought anything was wrong with you...
That's when my world started to spin
The way you texted about me
The way you texted about her
Was so vastly different...
How could you say any of those things—
When you told me you loved me?
When you said you wanted to work on us?
When you said you didn't ever want to break up?
You completely invalidated everything
Everyone knew for so long except me
Your doubts, your feelings, your flirting
Banished all the reminders of what we once were
And, of course, you used my anger against me
You kept reiterating how unsafe you felt with me
Yet I was the one who was truly unsafe
You kept insisting on how mean and cruel I could be
Yet you were the meanest and cruelest of us both
And stayed silent when I pointed out your behavior
It's hard not to blame myself
To wonder over and over what I could have done differently
But it's not hard to know how much of a liar and coward you were
You're probably still talking to her
Your victimization believed by all your friends
Your intentions supported by your sister
It's funny how you turned to her for advice
When you criticized her character constantly
She's convenient when you want validation, huh?
But it doesn't concern me anymore, does it?
You got what you wanted now
I hope she was worth it...
Any outcome comes with its own pain and consequences
No matter how much it hurts
If you couldn't do what you needed to do when we were still together
Why would I trust you to do more?
Why would I trust you to move mountains
When you couldn't even kick over an anthill?
So this pain, this heartbreak, I will strive to never feel again
And only I have the power to make sure of it
So with a heavy heart, shaky voice, and blurry eyes
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