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[k1nd3r]

I moved in with my boyfriend a few days ago and IMMEDIATELY got sick this is HOMOPHOBIC AS FUCK

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I have to scream about this somewhere. Bought an oxballs brand pig hole (small) and Jesus FUCK. It gave me THE most intense and definitive internal orgasm I think I've ever experienced.

I cannot stress this enough to people: if you have a pussy, try anal toys in there if you're curious. AND ALSO try toys + vibration. Every p spot plug I've ever used in my cunt has felt fucking amazing (and dare I say better than ANY g spot toy I've ever tried.) Plugs + wand vibrator are also insane because the vibration travels through the toy in really interesting ways.

I'm gonna be reeling from the shit I just experienced for a while holy fuck

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True Romance

[k1nd3r]

Reposting on my new account

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Statuesque

Gonna try posting my art here too, in hopes my account doesn't get thrust into the shadow realm

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Softish launching a new account for writing and art! Follow me there if you'd like, I'll be being stupidly gay

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Me: I'm a cool regulated human adult guy who has many interests and a job and I'm so normal

*thinks about being tenderized, crushed under a boot, and used as boy furniture by my boyfriend*

Me: I'M A COOL REGULATED HUMAN ADULT GUY WHO HAS MANY INTERESTS AND A JOB AND I'M SO NORMAL SO SO NORMAL

[k1nd3r]

Really didn't have falling in love on the bingo card for...well....this life tbh but here we are

[k1nd3r]

Blindfolds are a godsend holy FUCK

[k1nd3r]

I'm coming on one year now after finally getting involved in kink community in my city (after an awful attempt in my hometown and a decade of solitary practice) and I have learned so gd much in that year.

I am a RAGING masochist. Like pain is pleasure. I love it. So so much. I love how it feels and I love taking it for people. I love when someone loves seeing me react and take it. It's just great it's all great.

Also i am so much more confident in myself when it comes to my taste and experience with kink now. I'm still a bit fresh when it comes to IRL experience but, I am confident in how I communicate and generally what I like. It rly feels like the world is my oyster tbh, finding people to explore and develop repertoire with has never felt this easy before.

Also finally getting to explicitly build out a dynamic with someone and give my submission in the ways that feel safe and validating to me has been an insanely cool experience. I feel so validated for all the toxic doms I told to fuck off when I was first coming into my submissive orientation. Like I was right, I made the right decisions. I didn't settle for bullshit and now I have the opportunity to finally build something really beautiful with someone.

UGH ugh I'm just. I'm very happy with all of it. I'm so glad I finally came back into the community.

[k1nd3r]

Lies down I am visiting family for the weekend and it's nice but also I am so horny and stupid I can't stop Thinking of Situations aaAAUUGHH

Also feels very funny to be posting to this blog, in my old bed, while I'm in my thirties, knowing that over a decade ago I was posting horny bullshit on this same blog in this same room lololol

[k1nd3r]

TMI but I'm gay and annoying I'm gonna get fucked six ways to Sunday by my smoking hot boyfriend today after work and I'm on cloud nine about it

[k1nd3r]

Time for TMI post

Realized tonight that because of my piercing I can actually wear a cock ring 👀 like the kind that are silicone and cinch 👀👀👀👀👀

Also had a tens unit shock the fuck out of my dick tonight and holy shit

[fragranticareviewers]

[k1nd3r]

Update I have not gotten off in three months. Self imposed. I'm going a bit insane but it's like, so much time has passed I can't just quit now

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I was described as "Top Bait" by a friend of mine and tbh I will be riding that high for about a year

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I'm tipsy and have dumbass new years optimism so I'm gonna gush here.

This year started worse than any time in my adult life (6 months of excruciating psoriasis flare ups, endless depressive isolation due to my skin and general depression, bad new job after quitting the one that was killing me, car broke and had to buy a new one after dropping thousands on repairs, hospitalized due to sepsis, months of recovery from that infection...) I truly spent the first half of this year thinking about ending it every day.

By tonight tho it couldn't feel more different... I'm healthy again for the most part. My skin is fucked but I've accepted what I can and cannot handle pain/management wise and am less critical of my appearance. I finally found community among the kinky fuckers in my city and have met some of the most genuine and lovely people I've ever met in my life through that community. My job pays incredibly well and I am finally settled into my role. I finally got my hysterectomy/cystectomy and am healing well from that already with less chronic pain jabs. I sort of kind of have someone I am seeing (???) or as much as you can do that when youre a relationship anarchist tbh.

Idk. Just very grateful feeling rnow. Very much so

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I forgot to gush about this here but AAAHH I FINALLY GOT MY HYSTERECTOMY!!!!

With this I can pretty confidently say I'm done with surgery/medical intervention when it comes to transition! Really feels like I've crossed a finish line to me ahh. It's amazing 🥹

I'm two weeks out from the procedure and recovering well! Obviously still achy but I can't wait to be back to 100%. Not fucking for a few months is gonna be hard but, It is well well worth it ahhh

ALSO during the process they found out I had massive dermoid cysts that were likely the cause of my debilitating cramps and chronic pelvic pain for the past....15 years so. Got those removed too! I'm so excited, I already feel better, like there's a pressure I never noticed before in my body that's just gone finally. They were larger than the ultrasound showed even, one was 8cm in diameter and the other 10cm 👀💦 Fucking insane....

Anyway! Wanted to share some good news here to the few people still kickin it