shamepain

writer, living with an unclear purpose but watching F1

[k1tteng1rl]

Looking for a beta reader

I don't know how to start this, but it's really my first time trying to find people to read my stories and get feedback on it, since I started writing I always wanted one, because I like the idea of being able to understand another person's point of view about writing.

Lately I'm having a hard time proofreading the stories myself because I proofread them in my original language (Spanish) and then translate them into English (something that takes a lot of work and makes me wonder if the story is translating minimally to what I want to express after all) plus I'm wanting to write a lot more than a thousand words and develop my ideas a bit more now that I have free time before I start my classes. In the end it gets a bit confusing not having someone who can guide me in the translation and at the same time start to get more involved in the plot of my characters.

I understand superficially how Beta's work, however, since I am about to come into contact with this type of reader for the first time, I would like you to bear with me if you plan to interact with this post to find out more about what I wrote.

For now I'm focused on writing stories about Formula 1, you don't need to understand much about this sport if you are not a fan since I didn't touch too technical details during the stories. Anyway, it would add a lot of points to it if you are a fan. :)

[k1tteng1rl]

this is so 😭😭😭😭

[k1tteng1rl]

when you try to transfer your fanfic that you wrote on paper to your phone and suddenly you're too lazy and depressed to do it + the fanfic starts to sound like crap while you're transcribing it

[k1tteng1rl]

i hope not being too greedy but right now wish receive a long comment saying something sweet about one of my stories but i'm always too lazy and all my fics are old and no one is gonna read something recent until i publish something and-

[k1tteng1rl]

i was prescribed sleeping pills today!! i'm not happy because i shouldn't have these kinds of problems at 20, but it's okay, i guess I'll gradually fix all the damage i'm doing to my body :p

[k1tteng1rl]

i'm writing a max verstappen x lewis hamilton fic and it's really inevitable that their stories will be about angst; it's a law, a fact, and something that comes naturally

[k1tteng1rl]

the cosmic horror of a writer is writing on paper because somehow your ideas flow better, suddenly you have ten pages full of text and you have to transcribe it word for word to your phone.

[k1tteng1rl]

i've never received a gift on AO3 even as writer after years of being there and it only proves that 1: i don't know how to socialize 2: i disappear so much that nobody remembers me there

[k1tteng1rl]

desde que uso a mi amigo como lector beta para una historia de F1 que estoy haciendo (Max x Lewis) creo que mis ánimos para escribir mejoraron exponencialmente, ya intenté buscar lectores beta acá pero se siente raro para mí porqué soy demasiado tímida y todo es muy formal (algo de lo que no me quejo, por cierto) pero creo que a veces uno solo necesita que le digan es buenísimo esto que escribiste amiga y ya fue 💜 igual me gustaría intentarlo de nuevo y buscar un lector beta, eh

[k1tteng1rl]

Nuevo capítulo disponible de mi historia 4344, les invito a leerla. <3

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[k1tteng1rl]

¡Nuevo fanfic!

Pareja: Lewis Hamilton x Franco Colapinto.

Sinopsis: Franco se mantiene al margen con respecto a los sentimientos encontrados que tiene por una de las figuras más grandes del deporte, Lewis Hamilton.

Pero esto solo terminó por consumirlo por completo, incluso negándose a aceptarlo en su lecho de muerte.

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[k1tteng1rl]

por si a alguien le interesa, voy a estar escribiendo un fic angst 4344 durante está madrugada y me gustaría poder escuchar opiniones después de no escribir por tanto tiempo. si alguien quiere leer un poquitito de mi locura y darme su opinión hábleme JAJA

[k1tteng1rl]

I've been going through a tough time and today I was frustrated because I wanted to write something and I couldn't. So I decided to write it on a piece of paper and then I had a big "click", now I have written a full sheet of 4344 angst story.

[wander-the-dark]

By the way, fanfiction isn't the place for reviews or criticism.

When you're a published author, it's like you're preparing a meal in a food competition. You expect a rating and to be told what worked and what didn't to improve your craft and embark on your career.

When you're a fanfiction author, it's like taking some of your free time to enjoy the process of baking cookies and then offering them to someone to be kind.

If you take a cookie from the plate, you don't spit it out and tell them it sucked.

Unless the writer asks for your opinion, you can keep it to yourself.

Adding this to clarify, and you don't have to agree with this by any means, I cannot force you to, but the reason Ao3 and Fanfiction isn't the space for criticism and ratings...is that it is a fan space created by fans for fans.

It isn't school.

It is a space where people with the same interests can congregate and enjoy the same fandom.

When you think about commenting on an fanfic authors fics, don't think if it as fishing around in your pocket to give them a compliment.

Compliments are nice. Most everyone likes compliments.

"I like your character development."

"You paint wonderful imagry."

Those are comments that are compliments. Speaking for myself as a fanfic writer they're nice, but they're not what my fan heart craves.

I want engagement with my readers.

The best comments I get aren't talking about my skill as a writer, but what just happened in the story because you and I (the reader) are already fans of the world created.

Comments like:

"NOOOOOOOO!"

"Did she actually just do that?"

"EXCUSE me?!?!"

None of these comments are compliments and none are critical. They are emotionally aligned with the story. They are engaged and with this engagement we create a little community in this tiny little space we get to call ours.

I cannot stop people from saying cruel things, but I can inform those people of the "dangers" so to speak when people treat fandom spaces like Ao3 as if it's Goodreads.

Writers, who write for themselves and offer it to you out of kindness, can decide that if people are just going to spit out their cookies they don't need to post about them anymore and that is how fandom spaces die.

If you don't like the flavor of cookie they made, or you're allergic to one of its ingredients...don't eat the cookie. Put it back for someone else to enjoy and then go find the flavor you do like.

[k1tteng1rl]

hiiiiiii, i just wrote a short fic of 4433, i would like someone to help me with the english grammar:') would anyone like to be my beta reader?

[k1tteng1rl]

Honestly, with the amount of detail Lewis's suit has, you could say he's a bad liar. That man slept next to that suit for more than a month, for sure. 😭

[k1tteng1rl]

this powerful diva