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17/08, my diary kinda personal

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Intro

08/17

I post abt my life and opinions. mostly diary rant tho.

I don't have anything I'm particularly interested in. but I fw sewerslvt/cynthoni and porcelain dolls.

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last night I dreamt of giving birth and having a baby boy 💔

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I blame takumi ichinose.

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procrastinating by gooning

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almost cheated on my boyfriend in my dream y'all I love him why would I do that 😓😓😓

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why does consent feel important to my boyfriend except when I don't want something.

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my boyfriend is so quick to tell me I don't understand his pov when I don't think he has even tried to understand mine

most of the time I understand where he's coming from too but I just don't agree with it? idk maybe I don't understand him.

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is 17 the new 13 or why am I feeling so shitt omfg

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it's the boyfriend and the way you can't sleep because of it

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I always forget you can share photos here.

my Mary Janes came today. mom wanted to try with the dress. it was perfect I think. my sister took these pictures cause my mom wanted to sent some for my grandma that i don't talk to cause she kinda mean. im not mad tho she can talk to her. that lady is very lonely.

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I have a boyfriend now and he's nice but sometimes we argue or maybe it's just a normal conversation but he's a bit aggressive in his words while conversing but I don't think he means to and I might just take things wrong.

I wish he never asked me to be his gf. I couldn't say no cause we already acting like a couple so it doesn't matter if he calls me his gf or not and it's honestly easier to tell ppl he's my bf.

I haven't had a boyfriend since middle school so I'm kinda scared and both of us don't know what we are doing so there's a lot that needs to be said and boundaries to be set.

he asked me on 26th. it's only 29th. I hope we last atleast a month. I do like him but i wish I could love him someday.

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is 17 the new 13 or why am I feeling so shitt omfg

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I hate boys

I've had a great life for the past 3 years just chilling a little eating disorder at times but that's ok. Nothing has given me this much stress and made me cry this much. like I'm SERIOUSLY considering on sh cause I feel so shit and I haven't done that since I was 14 like what is going on. why is this bitch so powerful and how did he do that.

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lek texting him like an annoying little bitch cause that's what I am 💔

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i haven't had a childhood where 2 adults would scream at each other and I'm lwk scared that it's gonna happen soon. I'm 17 and need to grow up but I'm so scared

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i always forget to shave my armpits

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yesterday I held a hand of a boy and tell me why I lwk like him now.

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I'm so upset.

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this was so reasonable but I don't even know which part was I so upset abt like it wasn't that big of a deal but at the same time it was soo reasonable