[galesunshine]

[kadajh]

"What would I do without you?" From Yazoo.

𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

"Hmm...?" That was a sound of reassurance in his ears. Not only that but Kadaj turned to look over his shoulder only after the presence entered before his mental occupying space before Yazoo does. He's gotten better at being able to identify who the visitor is just by presence alone. Sometimes the remnant himself wonders if their search for Jenova was really worth it in the end. Surely, the others had fears and doubts too. What would they think of him? Perhaps that's why the one who created them weren't so concerned over them. Perhaps he knew he was more of a desirable by her over them already. The stinging sometimes becomes a little bit more than what he could bare. Sometimes it frightened him with how different and yet, still manage to be the same as Sephiroth. It didn't help how much he often came to randomly come show him things as he'd often not know the reason for it. Were it not for reasoning enough for his obsessive need for control. Turning around Kadaj would blink as he listens and he doesn't take long for it to sit within his mind what's really being said. Timidity suddenly comes to threaten him--he'd fail entirely to emulate proper emotion behind it, if he hadn't smiled. It's embarrassing that he doesn't know exactly how to counter it the statement. "That's funny." He's not making poking fun at him. It's more of a surprise than anything else. "I wonder that same thing. What would I do without the both of you? I'm the leader. I should know these things. You'd be surprised."

[charmymemes]

𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

feel  free  to  change  any  pronouns  or  subjects  (or  reverse).      tw  for  blood,  death  and  physical  violence  mention.

‘  is  it  complete?  ’

‘  who  are  you?  ’

‘  who  is  this?  ’

‘  why  are  you  bleeding?  ’

‘  what  would  i  do  without  you?  ’

‘  do  you  feel  alright?  ’

‘  what’s  your  name?  ’

‘  why  do  you  hate  me?  ’

‘  do  you  want  something  to  eat?  ’

‘  aren’t  you  supposed  to  be  someone  important?  ’

‘  did  you  read  it  yet?  ’

‘  can  you  help  me?  ’

‘  why  do  you  act  so  weirdly?  ’

‘  what  do  i  do  with  someone  like  you?  ’

‘  you  awake?  ’

‘  can’t  you  tell  left  from  right?  ’

‘  how  dare  you?  ’

‘  can  i  have  a  word?  ’

‘  why  didn’t  you  fight  back?  ’

‘  can  you  stop  interupting  me?  ’

‘  why  are  you  here?  ’

‘  what  happened?  ’

‘  haven’t  you  said  enough?  ’

‘  why  are  you  still  ___?  ’

‘  why  don’t  you  shut  up  and  be  quiet?  ’

‘  what  did  you  dream  of?  ’

‘  why  are  you  yelling?  ’

‘  how  could  you  say  that?  ’

‘  is  that  mine?  ’

‘  why  did  you  turn  out  this  way?  ’

‘  are  you  talking  to  me?  ’

‘  why  won’t  he  date  me?  ’

‘  why  did  you  hit  him?  ’

‘  why  are  you  crying  yourself  to  sleep?  ’ 

‘  are  you  serious?  ’

‘  who  did  this?  ’

‘  will  i  regret  this?  ’

‘  do  you  promise?  ’

‘  is  that  mine?  ’

‘  am  i  dead?  ’

‘  can  you  stop  moving?  ’

‘  is  he  looking  at  me?  ’

‘  does  it  hurt?  ’

‘  how  did  that  happen?  ’

‘  what’s  the  weather  for  tomorrow?  ’

‘  are  you  in  love  with  me  yet?  ’

‘  is  it  that  important?  ’

‘  want  some?  ’

‘  was  that  an  accident?  ’

‘  what’s  the  deal  with  you?  ’

‘  who  do  you  think  you  are?  ’

‘  can  i  ask  you  something?  ’

‘  why  don’t  you  leave  then?  ’

‘  how  could  you?  ’

‘  is  this  all  you  can  do?  ’

‘  why  is  this  here?  ’

‘  how  did  you  get  in  here?  ’

‘  is  it  freezing  to  you?  ’

‘  what  are  you  making  tdday?  ’

‘  are  you  lost?  ’

‘  has  it  been  that  long?  ’

‘  how  could  you?  ’

[mirria1]

Sephiroth laughing at Kadaj when he asks to meet Jenova is the funniest shit.

Plot twist: “Sephiroth” was “Mother” all along.

Kadaj: “Where’s Mother?”

Sephiroth: “ I AM Mother.”

Kadaj: “...What?” ._.

Rufus: *Appears* “A good son would’ve known.”

[kadajh]

cloudvii​:

Cloud doesn’t let his eyes lose track of Kadaj as the creature circles around him. He’s unstable and unhinged - this almost animal-like curiosity he’s showing could change at a dime’s notice. There is something familiar about it too - he’s seen it before, just a different manifestation of a manic-like behavior. It’s remembered in Sephiroth seven years ago, down in the ShinRa Mansion basement were he watched him fall into madness.

His arm, sick and rotting from the Geostigma that lay beneath his sleeve, pulses in pain. A familiar tremor shoot through his skull. Cloud fights off giving it a reaction that’d give a predator any reason to see weakness in its prey as his teeth clutch and his heart pounds. He doesn’t have to guess who ‘her’ is. He’s been down this road before; had hoped to never be down it again.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” An answer that runs a high risk at infuriating Kadaj. But he doesn’t; it is the truth that he’s speaking verses some clever word-play like was the option for others. He hasn’t ‘heard’ Jenova since this fall into the Lifestream and unionizing with himself. Why was as good as anyone’s guess… If any information existed about it, it may’ve been destroyed in Hojo’s lair.

Oh, but even if that voice no longer hummed lovely into his ear ; her presence couldn’t be ignored. HIs life was forever altered with her cells in his system ; his chains would never be truly opened.

Well, he’s lying and Kadaj knew that much. It doesn’t stop him guessing and being eager while awaiting the results. It’s strange. So very, very strange. Through everything that he’s seen through Sephiroth’s memories, the way that Cloud responded to such a call (if he could call it that) told him that much. Now the question comes. Whose being watched?  Of course Sephiroth knew it all. From the insanity down to the very last bit drip or everlasting drive. He the very man who was hurled into the broth of mako that ought to have held his death. What was the point of this? That lingering thought seemed to be melting away second after second. What was it about watching others experiencing some form of torment, be it physical or mental, that’s inevitably satisfying? When you weren’t on the receiving end, of course. Slowly reaching to draw all over his lips a smile is shown. “It’s Geostigma” gesturing with his head, it being his arm. Brilliant green blues details instability. It distracted him from his own uncertainty. “Isn’t it..?” Kadaj finished. The whirling of the sort stops. He’s satisfied now...How long? How long would that last? The important questions started to flood in his head and his brow would raise. It’s not a mocking sort , but a show of interest. Jenova cells and the Geostigma fighting against each other in one body. Tsk comes as though to dismiss Cloud’s well being all together. Poor Brother. “But that’s not what I meant. What interests me more is that she speaks-- even if you may not understand, she understands you. Mother’s even willing to forgive you. If you’d just respond to her.” Something about his words seemed as though it were a mere test and challenge all wrapped in one.  However even as he is aware of the strings held over himself he knows that eventually he’d be cast off eventually. He, Loz and Yazoo when they were no longer needed. Sephiroth made certain that he knew that. He constantly spoke to him and showed him things that he didn’t understand why, or what the importance of it was.

[roleplaymemesandsuch]

I don’t want you to be gentle. I want you to rip at my clothes, bite at my neck, and scratch at my back. I want to feel your frustration in the way you push me, and I want you to be as desperate for this as I am.

Unknown (via roleplaymemesandsuch)

[wrenhavenriver]

The nightmare returns. As long as you exist, the nightmares will come again and again.

[kadajh]

If You Were A Deity, What Would Be Your Domain?  

Trickery and Darkness You are the divine incarnation of darkness, trickery, and deceit, and of all things concealed and impermissible. You lurk in those deep-delved and far-flung places beyond the reach of inquisitive minds and prying eyes, and you shelter outsiders and empower those forced to dwell in the shadows. Mortals often spurn you or brand you as an evil deity due to your association with criminals and plotters; however, it would be more truthful to say you represent a natural antithesis to the status quo. Those who most revere you—thieves, revolutionaries, forbidden cults, and secret societies—merely seek to challenge the established order and reveal its cruel imperfections. Your mythological equivalents are Greece’s Nyx and Hermes, Scandinavia’s Loki, Eurasia’s Veles, and the Navajo’s Coyote. Tagged by @oflockhearted​ (thank you ♥ ) Tagging:Steal it and tag me.

[kadajh]

lemondrop-rhi​:

Doms that mock you for being turned on >>>

[kadajh]

s-talking​:

@kadajh​​​​ 

𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆,  then  everything,  even  the  smallest  thing,  becomes  a  problem.  in  order  to  survive,  the  citizens  of  midgar  are  constantly  forced  to  sink  to  their  lowest  ────  stealing,  lying,  cheating  &  begging  ────  just  so  they  can  push  through  to  another  day.  the  sickness  doesn’t  make  it  any  easier  for  them,   as  due  to  the  wide-spread  of  geostigma,  death  has  became  quite  the  common  occurrence.  but  oh,  if  they  only  knew  what  horrors  hide  among  the  stars  to  which  they  pray…. 

at  3;40 pm,  in  the  middle  of  midgar’s  city  square,  a  clap  of  crimson  thunder  suddenly  strikes  the  central  fountain,  &  the  sun,  much  like  a  dying  candle,  slowly  fades.  this  unnatural  explosion  as  well  as  the  darkness  of  incoming  blackout,  grips  people  by  complete  shock.  they  instantly  freeze  up  &  watch,  unsure  how  to  even  react  as  more  &  more  crimson  thunders  strike  in  succession,  illuminating  their  faces  of  fear.

alas,  a  single  red  beam  is  finally  formed.  it  travels  from  high  above  to  the  shattered  fountain,  only  to  gradually  crack  &  viciously  split  at  very  centre  by  hundreds,  if  not  thousands  of  ungodly  hands.  they  desperately  scratch  &  grip  at  electric  edges  with  their  pitch  black  fingers,  bit  by  bit,  widening  the  sizzling  gap  that  ever  so  slowly  opens  like  a  maw  ────   sending  the  entire  crowd  into  a  state  of  panic.  people  that  once  watched  &  observed,  are  now  screaming,  running  for  their  dear  lives  all  the  while  beating  lumps  of  flesh  &  blood  pour  from  between  the  sea  of  hands,  covering  the  concrete  in  breathing  horror…

         giving  birth  to  the  one  who  does  not  belong  in  this  world. 

only  then  do  the  horrific  hands  slowly  retreat,  sliding  back  into  the  crimson  void,  allowing  for  the  maw  to  shut  &  the  sun  to  gradually  return,  pouring  it’s  warmth  ‘pon  stranger  that  still  sleeps.

Tragic, wasn't? Even as an onlooker, you'd be able to guess and tell that this planet had taken a plunge and quickly began falling away to disappear within the cracks, hiding away from itself. Ah, but where does all the pieces fit? When did it begin fall away from being far beyond recognition? It was all very odd...and interesting. History had a habit of repeating itself. What was all so interesting about this? Knowing everything and all that he did, Kadaj felt like it was such a short time that he is to process it. But there was a mastermind he could thank for that But yet, still, he feels there was far much more he could learn--so much he doesn’t know. Repetitively, a numerous amount times there were examples shown just how far, and how low humans would sink in order to survive. Evidently enough, they were the ones who started it all. Poisoning themselves, killing themselves to climb and rise to the top. They started the decaying process. No wonder mother wanted to take control of what she lost and revitalize it. She wanted it to flourish, to live once more. That idea and those desires matched his own. She deserved that right to reign. Humanity at best is should be treated as the disease that is--in such a state. It found new ways and continued to find even more ways of reinventing it’s delayed destruction. Making itself sick for years and decades more to come. Taken away from his thoughts that always seem to intrude his daily life, it’s questioning that an inkling of calmness opened the way to him. The remnant is not phased by this noise, nor by the sudden reveal. Hmm, he mused ever silently to himself. Not too long now. It would take more than a slight change of the altered scenery, the tearing away of the sky to stir him. In a way, if anything terms itself to describe it---well, Kadaj needed time to decide of what he sees now and how he makes him feel. The thunder rumbled through him long enough to welcome an awe inspiring chill. From start to finish, he watches this once lacking scene shift and become something more interesting. As he stood, Kadaj couldn’t help the smile. It’s an eerie one in a way he began desire a shred in semblance of it. He liked being witness, a subscriber to shock given to those who lived in the slums. There was a reason he’s Sephiroth’s callousness and hatred personified. The more he bothered to deny it, the more he realized he’s more like him than he first imagined. Maybe much moreso than Yazoo and Loz. These humans were right to scream at what they saw. They could do nothing but attempt to run and fritter away; that’s all they could do. They failed bettering themselves of being capable of else. Once again, this remnant is....more pleased. He is...interested and wanted to know more of what in which this beast is capable of doing. He didn’t care of the measures, nor the extremities that he needed to take. The color of blood shed placed a color splash in this otherwise, bland world of waste, decay and pile of walking flesh, and ruble that it is reduced to. Shinra being the blame--they were masters for claiming and robbing others of their lives. The way that it wrote and spread across the pavement brought him joy. Finally, something much more interesting to settle his nausea that was not currently mankind. Blue green opened once things suddenly began to cease. 

“Oh..?” His voice falls into a bit of a silence where only his own ears notices it As though he’s taking to himself. “...You don’t intend to run away on me now. Do you?” Where there is disappointment, there is now wait as the planet returns to what it was before this chaos made it interesting.

[kadajh]

“I can tell there’s something going on with you.”

Life Is Strange meme.

"Since when have you become a part of the planet? Who are you...? " Kadaj tried to understand exactly what was that she meant. Though it might be worth mentioning that neither of them had known a thing about one another, he does nothing to hide his irritation. The audacity. It's reasoning enough behind it to say that being the entire reason for the oozing irritation within his discourtesy. Does she know in even the slightest way possible of how he questions himself and the individuals around him? How curious he is of everything? It's strange. So very, very strange to be told what he needed to know, and still--- "....Something's...going on with me? Hm. I haven't considered much about that."

[kadajh]

“Where are you going with this?”

Life Is Strange meme.

That's opening Pandora's box. One and the same. He and 'Brother'. However as one may, or may not perceive it the same. Kadaj almost felt insulted. It's a twisted anguish. Almost even more so of a twisted joy to watch details come in full swing. How does she bear it? She gave him new life and he rejected her. She loved him. And she seemed to love Sephiroth even more. That turns his bile bitter and it hurt. But at the same time, it brought him an even greater awe. His questioning and uncertainty, anger and disgust--Clouds, not his own. No, that just would not do at all. And still, sometimes he finds no obligation in acting as his mouth piece. He circled him. Almost in the same way a curious animal might. One that doesn't aim to attack. The same way it wishes to quench and fulfill it's curiosity. The rush of static charge, a deafening noise comes. Only a language that could be understood by 'her children' is spoken to him. Now as he stops, he understands. Gesturing to his ear as he spoke, he's merely, but verbally channeling Sephiroth. Perhaps visually at a moments glance and flicker, too. Slit pupils dilated and he's smiling once her speech ceases. Realization reads over him. "Do you hear her? Of course you do! I hear her! Why don't you answer...?" He didn't feel obligated to answer. Why should he? Jenova's cells must have brought them where they are.Kadaj felt it and he wouldn't dare deny it. Well, it's useless to fight against her. "Answer."

[kadajh]

“Luck or not, I have officially cheated death.”

Life Is Strange meme.

"What's so difficult to believe about that? I have witnessed before my very eyes of a man rise up from the ashes, lived to tell about it. I've had the truest pleasure of claiming the front row seat." Kadaj spat it out even before he has the time to realize and question exactly why he'd spew details like these in the first place without hesitation. There was no written rule suggesting otherwise that he shouldn't have. Looking onto her, eyes of green and blue were wild and bold with wonder, perhaps awe and questioning. Tapping his chin and his head felt to a tilt. A playful smirk comes to write over his visual guise. Maybe there was an odd charm to the mystery that he and her both currently were unto each other. She did seem a bit out of place in contrast by comparison of this parts. He doesn't sense that she were an experimentation. Not like those crafted by Shinra. "A truly incredible experience, wouldn't you agree? Tell me, what's that like? Being reborn after death?"

[kadajh]

“How can you stand there and say these things?” //hello!

Life Is Strange meme.

"It doesn't take much effort to speak the truth. The sooner you accept it, the better..." Biting and unfortunately, unfiltered with how he chooses to speak. He may have not been properly introduced to her, but through Sephiroth's thoughts and memories he knew her. So, this is woman brother was so infatuated with. It was interesting, really. So, puppets did have feelings after all. Or were those manufactured, too? "He was right to set the world ablaze," an exaggeration, he knows. And by he, Kadaj means Sephiroth. "...Mankind, humanity. It's all garbage....It's no wonder he wanted to make it disappear."

[kadajh]

“I thought we were in this together.” From Yazoo.

Life Is Strange meme.

" Yazoo....?" That sound in his own tone comes at a price of slight surprise and uncertainty though he attempted to mask it with a smile. A feigned one. However, turning his head and gazing over his shoulder, a touch of wondering and inner questioning comes to show itself written all over Kadaj's face as his eye contact leveled to meet with the other's. It was odd. Knowing a man's thoughts, knowing when he's near. Knowing how far away that he was. Knowing the face, but never knowing him personally. Sephiroth was an interesting man. Yes, he was. It was all satisfying in a twisted keen sense in theory. It's odd how he doesn't have to be present in order for Sephiroth to show him things. So, he's a center piece? That's how it feels. The question was why? Sometimes he wondered had Sephiroth showed the other two things as he had with him.

"It's nice of you to worry about me..." another smile pulls to tug at his lips. This time, a genuine one. "I'll not wander far. If that's what you're concerned with."

[katesmemes]

feel free to change any pronouns, etc.

“The day’s finally here.”

“We’ve been through a lot in that time.”

“You know that I care about you.”

“I just want what’s best for you.”

“I’m cool with a hug if you are.”

“I can’t believe you’re here.”

“It’s always better to give an honest answer.”

“You don’t need to worry, really.”

“Luck or not, I have officially cheated death.”

“I’m surprised you got outta there with both your hands.”

“I can’t believe you’re doing this again.”

“I’m loquacious, goddammit. It’s charming.”

“It’s really nice to have you here.”

“Where are you going with this?”

“I don’t think it helps to recap all the gory details, you know?”

“So you’re saying you want me to lie to cover your ass?”

“She is the best thing to ever happen to me.”

“What the fuck is wrong with you?”

“Oh my god, look at your face—”

“Why do you give a shit?”

“Oh god, were you there, too?”

“I get so worked up thinking about you with him.”

“Can I buy you a drink?”

“I can tell there’s something going on with you.”

“I don’t expect you to believe me.”

“You’re fucking with me, right?”

“I have no idea what’s going on with people half the time.”

“I’m here for you. Don’t forget that.”

“You wanna tell me how you got out here?”

“What the fuck did you just say?”

“Fuck those guys.”

“It’s not your job to keep it together.”

“How ya holding up?”

“He could bring a smile to my face even on the worst days.”

“I should get an emotional support dog, but, like— for other people.”

“My job is to keep people safe, and I failed.”

“Oof. That’s a lot of blood, huh?”

“You’re stuck with me now.”

“This is like a bad dream…”

“Oh, that sounds like a nice idea.”

“No one will be disappointed in you for being you.”

“What is wrong with me?”

“When did I become such a fucking monster.”

“Why couldn’t you just fucking listen?”

“I don’t need to take this.”

“I know you tried to do the right thing.”

“It’s always flattering to see how much you care about me.”

“You know I’m spoken for, right?”

“I wasn’t mentally prepared for that at all.”

“You’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met.”

“I really wanna kiss you right now.”

“I think I can figure it out.”

“Don’t make this hard.”

“What’re you so scared of?”

“I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“I know you’re used to looking out for yourself.”

“I want to help you.”

“[Name], why are you sad?”

“What’re you doing?”

“You don’t have to do this.”

“I made a mistake… The kind of thing that you can’t undo.”

“Go to hell.”

“I suppose I’m proud of you for trying.”

“It’s going to be okay, do you understand me?”

“I am going to be okay.”

“You don’t think you missed anything?”

“Did I miss something?”

“I want you to make me a promise.”

“You have to be strong.”

“This is going to suck so bad.”

“You know that’s not how it went down, right?”

“Keep your voice down.”

“Despite what you may believe, you do not know everything.”

“Don’t fucking touch me!”

“It’s okay, it was just an accident.”

“I can’t do this.”

“You need to be honest about what you see.”

“No one gets to tell you what you’re worth.”

“You can change the world.”

“What the hell happened?”

“Sometimes, when we’re hurting, the people we lash out at are the one who are trying to help.”

“How can you stand there and say these things?”

“I believe you. Of course I do.”

“I don’t want any more of this.”

“All I know is everything falls to shit when you’re involved.”

“There’s something wrong with you, and now there’s something wrong with me.”

“I can’t help you, I’m sorry.”

“You believe me, right?”

“Why are you doing this?”

“I thought we were in this together.”

“I thought you cared about me.”

“Maybe I wasn’t strong enough.”

“Can you ever forgive me?”

“How can I ever trust you again?”

“I’m not used to getting to decide what I want.”

[kadajh]

Tagged by: @beznahxntress​​ BOLD all that applies to your muse.

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