30 Days of Otherkin - Day 1
DAY 1 ~ What is your species?
Alright, this is where probably the most complicated part comes up, so I guess it's good we're clearing t up early. As it says in the small "about me" blurb on my page, I' part of a multiple system. What I mean by that, exactly, is that I was actually diagnosed with MPD (multiple personalities disorder - before it was widely replaced with DID) and have lived an up and down life surviving daily with a mental disorder, which is not glorious and is not "fun."
Now that that's been said, my species are a range of different things because I'm fragmented and, essentially, am made up of several different people. Some identify as 'kin of some sort, some don't. Some believe in reincarnation, some don't believe even in souls, some just don't give a shit. Like any group of people, we each have our own views and beliefs and they don't always match up.
As far as 'kin related stuff goes, the people that associate heavily as some form of 'kin and post regularly online are Iris and Xeden (myself.) Iris is a type of what I guess you could call vampirekin, but he's quite a bit more complex than just a vampire. He's from a line called the Domineari, which were hybrids between a master vampire and their line's founder who was a type of nephilim (human/angel hybrid.) The nephilim race that initially bred into the Domineari's creation is called the Aisling and no, they're not related closely to angels or angelkin or whatever at all. they're basically glorified, shiny humans with a superiority complex and an egotistical "better than you" view towards things they consider lesser - things that need to feed on humans to survive. things like vampires, demons, even things like werewolves, etc. fit into that category and the Aisling have made it a habit to hunt such things for sport.
The Domineari are a branch off from the Aisling that was formed when, despite the odds, a master vampire managed to change an Aisling - which had been thought to be impossible until then because they have a much higher threshold against vampiric powers than normal humans would. The Domineari became a tainted linage and in essence acted as the Aisling's dogs until they were mostly wiped out. Iris is a successor to the Domineari line (one of the last) and he generally hates most people so it's not like his family name is going far riding on his unfortunate shoulders.
Iris himself doesn't always 100% believe his own story, but it's what he has to explain himself. He - like many of us - question the legitimacy of any of it. It could be 100% madness, we've all thought about that as a real possibility. I personally believe that any 'kin should consider that they may be wrong. Doubting yourself is sometimes healthy. No one is all-knowing and no one should just assume that something is true, even if that something is a story you've told yourself. Are we wrong about who and what we believe to be? Possibly. But that is our issue to contend inside and no foreign influence will determine our identities for us.
As for myself, it's another story of similar magnitude. To spare you all from details that even I sometimes have a hard time understanding, here's what I am plain and simply: I have no name for it, so I have come to refer to it merely as a "chimera" because of the many aspects to it that don't line up with one thing or another. Most easily, think of me as a hybrid of many things with tenancies that are akin to being an odd mixture of Fae (Unseelie Sidhe), Incubus and some form of shapeshifter. I have a different form that is much more true to myself (a large canine-like animal) but it's nothing I have ever found another like, so it's hard to explain what I am. Honestly, I don't even know.
Reading this, it does all sound a bit crazy. I understand that. Anyone who thinks this sounds like a blurred line between reality and wtf fantastic crap is definitely not going to be seen as being mean. I understand fully how strange it sounds. Unfortunately it's a part of me. What part, exactly, and what its purpose is, I may never know. However, I have had countless times of doubt and for me - for us - this is our truth. Seeing as I am able to function in daily life - hold a fairly demanding job, live on my own, etc. - I have come to the conclusion that it is what it is. It's not causing any interruptions in my life and I generally keep my otherkinnity to myself and the few who know. It's my belief, my identity. Anyone who doesn't agree or thinks I have some screws loose is perfectly entitled to their opinion. The bottom line is be polite and I will always be happy to return the favor. I may be opening myself up to a mess, but I am willing to answer any asks sent my way. I'm still very new to tumblr, so please forgive me if this seems jumbled or mixed up. I promise, I'm trying!!
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