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I’ve got all of these thoughts running through my head and maybe if I can get them all out I won’t go crazy.

You threw me down every chance that you got and still I miss your hands around my neck. Maybe I am jaded now since I cannot even force myself to trust anyone. Everytime they reach out I’m afraid they’ll let me fall just like you did.

I wasted no time at first, running straight for someone new and I realized I’ve done it again - Why can’t I wait? Why can’t I enjoy my time alone?

I met him. He was sweet and gentle, I let myself get a little too attached. In no time flat, he’s turned into you. I’ve learned my lesson - so I’m turning loose.

I always find myself in the same place. I’m too damn nice, even to people I don’t know. I’ll keep bending over until I finally break and then hell will have no fury like me.

I know that revenge, as sweet as it sounds will never come. Yet, I will seek it ever so.

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I wanted (you) to die

I noticed you stole my razors

The dull one wont make me bleed

So I sit in the shower, head between my knees

The water burns as hot as I can make it

Praying it melts off my skin, stripping away all the scars you left on my body and the fingerprints you left on my heart

Maybe without them I can feel truly naked.

Make me feel as vulnerable as you left me.

On my own

No place to go

Because you were the one who really ever felt like home.

Your words ring in my ears

You said you’re only trying to make me understand

But there is no fucking wisdom

In the lies slipping through your teeth

I just fucking needed you here

So I wouldnt feel like putting myself six feet underneath

The ground that you fucking threw me on

Choked me until I couldnt breath

Baby please

Im so fucking sorry

I didnt mean to destroy you

I only wanted your attention

And the way you used to look at me

The way your glare used to tease

My heart into thinking that you were in love

But all this time you were confused

And now I’m the one that has to choose to stay or leave

This psychotic love behind

You had me blind

I just miss you

And all I wanted was to kiss you but I guess you didnt know

That I was wanting to say my last goodbye

As you clicked away on your fucking keyboard

Ignoring my every “I’m bored”

I just needed to see your fucking smile

The fucking grip you always have on my wrist when you sleep.

Please just pick up the phone

Tell me im not alone

I dont want to die alone.

I dont want to be here at home

Without you

I miss your morning gaze

Into the window

The one our laughs and our moans used to ring through

Maybe one day you’ll know

Everything I did for you

When you’re doing it for someone else

And they hardly even notice

-vileanatomy 11/17/15

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Kiss me forever, On the parts of my skin, That hide my secrets, Soothe the ulcers, Threatening to rise above the skin, Be good for me, Lay me to sleep at night, Suck your thumb and stroke my hair, Soft white cotton, On the edge of your underwear, I just want to run my fingers across it, As you kiss my temples, And tell me it’s ok, Help me sleep tonight sweetheart, Tell me a lullaby, I don’t want to hurt you baby, I want to make it alright.

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