Kane M Alexander

25. Beta. These streets breed wolves.

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Tsuga could tell that Kane didn’t like the nickname, which amused them more than anything, but they just fished some sunglasses out of their bag and put them on casually. “You’ve never heard of grounding?” they questioned. “Of course not. You young, modern humans have no idea how important it is to be connected to the earth.” they rolled their eyes, giving a sigh as they laid down on the grass. “The earth has subtle energy that flows through it. Back in the day, humans used to sleep on the earth, or walk barefoot, and were more connected to the earth. It has a lot of health benefits. But, of course, humans prefer to sleep in beds and walk with shoes these days. You’ve lost connection. It’s unfortunate.” they rested their hands behind their head. “As a faerie, however, this is the healthiest thing for me to do. Lay on cool grass. Let the earth’s energy comfort me.”

He grit clenched his jaw, trying his best to remain calm while essentially being called stupid. He was desperate. And he was under the impression Tsuga was wise. “A friend of mine always tells me I should meditate. Is it the same kind of deal? If I take my shoes off and sit with nature and....ground....is that the same idea?”

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She hummed thoughtfully in response as she reached for the pot of tea to refill her cup. “Is it because of some wolf thing?” She asked curiously, with a slight tilt of her head. She could sense that he was a wolf—the massive amount of energy surrounding him outed him as one—and though it might be rude to ask him such a question, she was genuinely curious. Werewolves were quite fascinating to her.

“Uhmm...” he chuckled, thinking of how to answer the question. “Yes and no. I’m a fairly new wolf so I’m still getting used to things. But I also wasn’t a fan of crowds much as a human either. But I don’t think all wolves are against crowds. “

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She smiled a little as she saw him get a bit closer as she stayed close to the edge of the bridge. “Exactly, I’d rather have those memories in my mind rather than having them in a picture that might go missing”

He smiled lightly, nodding “I’ve never kept pictures. Not that I don’t get why people do. I guess I’ve just never had anything be so amazing I felt I needed to keep it with me forever. “ he shrugged, oblivious to the depth of his statement. 

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Giving a soft sigh. “Constantly giving up on yourself is tiring, Kane,” she muttered softly. Dropping her hand looking down. “I’m going to get ready for bed,” she looked back to him, kissing his cheek. “I’ll see you in the morning. I‘m cooking waffles for everyone,” she gently patted his knee. “You can stay if you want, if you need the company but Jo will wake up around three am,” she smiled softly.  

He sighed, watching her go with a nod “Thanks. I’ll come back in the morning. “ he nodded, leaving the house. He waited in the backyard, watching the window to she and Jo’s room until they were securely in and the lights were off and everyone was asleep. Then he did a few rounds around the house before taking off, walking back towards the woods.

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The Weight

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“Fuck, you’re a kid Kane,” she growled, moving towards the root, her slick hands grabbing it. Pulling herself up she climbed up fairly easily, pushing herself up on the ledge of the crevasse, giving a slight huff, she tugged her shirt up over her head ringing it out, tugging at her tank-top a bit. Grumbling before she stood, walking away from him. Pacing for a moment she looking around finding a nice area to sit. Brushing her hair back, crossing her legs, she rotated her neck, her eyes closed as she took a deep breath before relaxing.

He sighed as she came up. He knew she was right, he wasn’t even remotely trying to deny that. Kane knew he was a kid. It was why he refused to get close, why he refused to live with her, why he refused so many things. Because he still had growing up to do and had absolutely no guidance as to do it. He stood, finding her quickly “Yes, Holly, I am. I am a kid. And that is precisely why I refuse to do this. Because you have a child of your own already, you have no business having to look after another one. So just....let me figure this out. I’ve always managed to figure things out on my own, I can figure this out too“

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“Really, because you keep calling me Holly,” she uttered, crossing her arms after she stood with him. “I know you pretty decently Kane,” she moved towards him. “You need to sort your feelings out sweetie, and not lie to me, I know when you are lying,” she stared at him.

He stiffened, looking down. He slipped his hand into his pocket. Some time ago, Alec had stolen the silver dagger with which he used to harm himself. BUt since the alpha left, Kane had acquired a new one. The sizzle against his palm as he wrapped his hand around it in his pocket was calming, intoxicating. It was the only way he knew to handle himself. “Calista, it doesn’t matter. Whether or not I had feelings for her, and I’m not saying I do, it doesn’t matter. She has a kid. We’re betas in the same pack. It’s just...it’s not going to happen. “

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“Hm,” Jay looked down. He was memorizing a blade of grass, trying to ignore the thoughts in his head. “If he hasn’t come back yet, I don’t know that he will. Werewolves are loyal to their pack, to their own kind, you know? It’s…bizarre if one leaves. Especially an alpha.” he glanced up at Kane. “Yeah, it’s hard work for purebred werewolves, too. To learn to control ourselves, I mean. I think some have it easy because they have better temperaments but I’ve always been a bit hyper, very protective. Still, I have good control at my age because I was surrounded by an amazing pack. I’m very grateful. I hope you find someone to help you, too. A lowly omega like me couldn’t do much.” he picked a blade of grass, then flicked it into the air. “Oh. Really? I thought…Holly, I think her name was, said you two lived in a house together. She invited me to join you, but I didn’t want to. Um. You know, not now.”

He shrugged, chuckling darkly for a second. “Yeah. I have no idea what I’m going to do about it. But I’ll figure it out eventually. No worries. I know hiding out in the woods might not be the best solution, but it’s what I’ve got for now. “ Kane shook his head at the mention of Holly “Oh, no. I don’t live with her. She wants me to but I just...I don’t want to. The main reason being I don’t feel comfortable with the baby in the house. I’m sure she’ll convince me eventually, but not now.”

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The pixie rolled her eyes, gently giving her head a shake at the male’s reaction. “You are a literal, hot-headed drama queen. Calm the fuck down.”

“You know what, blondie, you’re right. I’m a hot headed drama queen that could dismantle your limbs from your body in a matter of minutes if I so chose, so let’s not test it, shall we? Because I’m really trying to not be a monster right now. “

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If you’ve notice my replies have been sparse, it is mostly due to my laptop. I haven’t quite discovered what the issue is but it can only last so long with the gifs before it just gives up. Hopefully I will figure it out soon. Until then, bear with me, and I promise I am not intentionally leaving out or forgetting replies, I will get to all of them as fast as I can!

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Slowly slipping her hand under Joanna’s back she slid her back into her crib quietly. Making sure she was in the right position. Before sitting back next to Kane, biting her lip as she looked down. Looking back up to him, she gently stroked his cheek. “You just have to find something to fight for, Kane, it will come in time.” 

He tensed, pulling away slightly from the touch. “What am I supposed to fight for? I’m not that noble, Holly. And fighting for myself is not an option, I’ve done that long enough. My resolve is tiring. “

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The Weight

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“You may think it’s silly or stupid but it works, Kane. It fucking works!” She stated back angrily as he scoffed. About ready to send a fist his way. Huffing she crossed her arms. “You know what, instead of knocking something you haven’t tried before maybe try it, obviously whatever you’re doing isn’t working,” she stated back harshly. “We’ve all nearly killed someone, whether it was our own kind or a human, or another species, the anger in werewolves is real, and you exhausted every fucking effort to control it!” She yelled now, clearly her own anger getting the best of her.

Blinking slightly as he ran off, she growled, slowly following after him. Giving him time to cool down as she followed his scent. It took her awhile but she was at the edge of the crevasse, staring down into the darkness, listening to the water, listening to him as she hummed a bit, before slowly standing stepping back a hundred feet before running towards the edge falling down into the cold water. Closing her eyes, holding her breath for a moment she slowly swam towards the surface. Taking a small breath, running a hand over her hair brushing it back.

When he heard Holly crash in the water behind him, he grabbed onto the root, climbing up as quickly as he could, pulling himself up at the top. It was the fastest he’d ever made the climb. But now that he was up here, he wasn’t sure what to do. He had no doubt if he decided to run again, Holly would find him. That much was inevitable. And though every part of him wanted to run to the cave he had decided to make his temporary home, he didn’t want to let the other Beta in on that information just yet. So instead, he simply sat down on the ground, looking down at the pit and waiting for the angry blonde to emerge. 

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“I am sure he had his reasons, but– what he did to you and Holly both leaving you with out an alpha was not a good move. But that means you two need to stick together more now, you’re family,” he murmured. Blinking as he turned away from her. “Wait,” she sat up looking down at him, her lips curling. “Do you have feelings for her?”

“I don’t have a family, Holly. I never have, I never will. “ he stiffened, moving to stand up “No. I don’t have feelings for her. I don’t have feelings for anything. “

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Tsuga was surprised that the werewolf was submitting to their attitude so easily. Huh. Most werewolves just snapped back, and Tsuga could recall multiple occasions where they had gotten into altercations with werewolves, but…this one was different. “I don’t give a fuck where you go, pup. You can stay there. I’d prefer to sit on the grass, anyway. It’s grounding.” they said as they crossed their legs and lowered onto the cool, green grass to sit. “You nervous, pup?”

He stiffened at the nickname. Pup. How he hated that. True or not. But he had a perception of Tsuga around town. He saw them as old and wise, calm and collected. And with very little guidance in his life right now, that is exactly what Kane wanted. So any chance to talk with them, attempt to pick up  on some of their wisdom he was going to take full advantage of. His right hand balled into a fist, squeezing tightly, trying to force himself not to get too annoyed as the pet name was repeated. “No...” he stammered again, cursing himself internally. He cleared his throat, looking down at Tsuga “Why do you say it’s grounding? What do you mean by that?”

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“I used to.” She answered with a smile. “I quite like the aesthetic of this place—very soothing and homey. Plus their tea is almost as delicious as my own.” She raised her near empty cup in a small salute to the establishment. “I get the sense that this is not your usual place—what brings you in here today?”

He chuckled “No. Not my usual place at all. I was just looking for a change of pace. This place looked relatively empty. I’m not...in the mood for crowds. “

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Tsuga was a bit annoyed to see the other figure sitting there. They recognized him as one of the werewolves that ran away with Holly occasionally, and needless to say…well, they didn’t care. Tsuga didn’t know him well enough to make a judgment, but they quickly snatched their bag off the park bench.

“Do you often sit where people place their items?”

Kane jumped when the bag was snatched, recognizing it’s owner immediately. He stammered, something that was unusual for the wolf. “I’m sorry. I didn’t even notice it was there. I’ll...” he began gathering his own things, which consisted only of his bagged lunch “I’ll fins somewhere else. Sorry. “

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“Well sometimes taking pictures isn’t for everybody,I rarely even take selfies anymore. It might,just have to find it”She said before a small laugh escaped her lips. “Exactly,I believe that it’s more beautiful to see it with our eyes rather than through a lens”

He nodded, moving a little closer to her. He felt relatively calm, though he was still being hesitant, he didn’t feel he needed to space himself from her quite so much. “You can’t take pictures of everything. Some memories you need to keep just in your head. “

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The pixie immediately noticed a shift in the male’s behavior. Without giving a second thought, she grabbed her things and lifted one eyebrow, her mouth just slightly ajar as she carefully crafted out her words. “No, don’t bother. Considering I just moved my things to make more room for you, I figure you could probably share like a nice person.”

He laughed, though it was not out of humor. There was something dark in it, a sign of how little control he had over himself “Keep your stuff there, I don’t care! I don’t give a shit where you put your stuff!”