моя любовь никогда не умрет

Napisala sam dosta priča u dosta svezaka u dosta soba u koje više ne ulazim.

[userboxer]

[ultravioletna]

Jednom sam se toliko posvadjala sa svima

sa onim sto mi je u glavi

i sa onim sto mi je u nogama

i bezala sam dugo

trcala sam zaista brzo

ali sam bila sve bliza tome od cega bezim

bezala sam od bola i nikad mu ne bih pobegla

secam se da me je tu noc toliko bolelo

da je jedini nacin bio 

da te pozovem i kazem ti koliko me boli sto nisi tu

nisam pozvala

plasila sam se tvog glasa

plasila sam se ravnodusnosti koju nosi tvoja boja glasa

kada god mi cujes ime

jer to je ono sto je iza nas sada

prasina

i nisam te pozvala

poslala sam ti poruku 

govorila sam ti o tome kako bih se sklupcala uz tebe

da si sada tu 

i zahvalila sam ti se sto postojis

minut kasnije iskljucila sam internet i nestala sam

nisam nestala onako kako sam zelela da nestanem

jer bi to podrazumevalo

odlazak od svih sa tobom

A samo je od tebe trebalo da odem

I provela sam jednu dugu noc na terasi

Pitajuci se zasto je moralo biti ovako tesko

Zasto su dva tela prestala da disu jednobojno

Zasto su nas stizali monolozi

I zasto vise nismo disali jednobojno?

Toliko me za tebe veze

A toliko me od tebe i udaljava..

I jednom sam se toliko posvadjala sa svima

Da si ti na kraju dana

Opet jedini koji me nikada izdao nije..

ultravioletna

[queen-with-goals]

I wish the person who I reblogged this from happiness, good eyebrows, and clear skin.

[ellawritesstuff02]

SOMEONE REBLOG THIS FROM ME PLEASE

[wide-eyes-empty-mind]

It’s a life sentence

It’s not tiny clothes

Small meals

And blissful smiles

It’s rotted teeth

Broken nails

And endless sorrows

It’s cracked lips

Dry mouth

And the smell of starvation on your tongue

It’s headaches

Dizziness

And aching joints

It’s isolation

Missed events

And ruined holidays

It’s fading friendships

Missed calls

And disappointing those who care

Its not a diet plan

It’s a life sentence

[kaokolfild]

Lately I can't find a peace, I used to feel the rush

[bavilju]

a što moramo na kafu kupi mi čokoladno mlijeko ali samo jedno hoću da pijemo zajedno uzmi me za ruku povedi me na mjesto sa kog se vidi čitav grad pričaj mi kako su se upoznali tvoji kad si mamu prvi put vidio da plače koliko voliš teletabise zašto nikad ne makneš tu skroz uvijenu trepavicu koliko me voliš zašto te strah od morskih konjića pričaj mi koji šlag najviše voliš jesi li ikad jeo pijesak i šmrkao cedevitu hoćeš li sa mnom sve to da probaš ja sa tobom hoću hoću da me grliš i nosiš po gradu dobro, znam da sam teška ali samo dva metra volim da te blamiram volim kad se smiješ volim kad si dosadan volim kad me smaraš volim kad mi pričaš pričaj mi o nama.

[anorexicqueer]

i wish i could go back in time and never skip that first meal, never take that razor to my arm, never smoke that first cigarette

i wish i never started the chain of events that lead to where i am now

i wish i could change the past so i wouldn’t be the mess i am today

i thought they would be one time things, something i would do once or twice and the forget about

but here i am years later with scars all over my body, with weak lungs, with an even weaker body

i wish i could fix my past mistakes

but wishes never did seem to work for me

[ultravioletna]

nista nije..izgubljeno?

Ako te pozovem u pola 2 nocu  i kazem ti da sam izgubljena i da cu uskoro ostati na ulici, jer se previse svadjam i jer imam dugacak jezik  pa ce mi ga moji roditelji skratiti na svaki nacin i ti budes tu iako su prosli meseci od kad nismo zajedno znaj da nista nije izgubljeno. Ako slucajno, ali samo slucajno svratim do skole kada znam da si ti zasigurno u njoj  a pre toga napravim matematicke formule  i teoreme kako bih bila sigurna da mi neces pobeci na tih 5 minuta  i opet te vidim i kao pravim se da to nisam ocekivala i pricas sa mnom, kao sto brat prica sa sestrom i gledas me, kao sto muz gleda zenu u vencanici od pre 10 godina kada se udala za njega i idalje je gleda isto znaj da nista nije izgubljeno Ako te pogodi dezintegracija i postanes nem i dezorijentisan ispod koze ce ti se zavuci jedan cvet toliko velik  da stvori nove univerzume i da ti omoguci da ovom planetom hodas sam sssh… nista me ne pitaj ja cu ti biti ispod koze neces znati da nisi sam ako budes znao, nikada neces nauciti da zivis svojim plucima ja cu svakako biti tu samo ti necu ispunjavati zenice a dokle god je tako  znaj da nista nije izgubljeno. I na kraju dana, duso kada mislis da si usamljen medju toliko ljudi sa kojima si svakoga dana i dok ti njih vidis u sivoj boji  a znas da volis jedino plavu ja cu se opet pojaviti kao detalj na tvojoj kosulji  u plavoj boji  kao privezak na tvojoj ogrlici u plavoj boji kao otkucaj srca na tvojoj levoj strani u plavoj boji i opet, eto, sreco nista nije izgubljeno.

ultravioletna

[crna-barbika]

“Prestacu da te smaram i bice ti zao.”

—

[13-missedcalls-deactivated20210]

Prestala

[suprotnost]

I to davno

[em1tza]

fala kurcu da jesam

[kaokolfild]

Necu vise nikad.

[belog-grada-crna-princeza]

neki od ljudi koje sam upoznala u toku dve hospitalizacije u mentalnim ustanovama

decko koji je pokusao samoubistvo ugljen monoksidom i koji eksira tursku kafu dok je jos vrela i isti je sheldon cooper.

devojka koja je bila na heroinu sest godina, silovana vise puta i pokusala da se ubije skokom sa krova… ali ima najlepse plave oci koje sam ikad videla i zna da isplete svaku vrstu pletenice. i omiljeni slatkis su joj ledene kocke.

decko koji ima problem s agresijom i mrzi sebe zbog svojih psihoticnih epizoda… ali niko nema topliji pogled i zarazniji smeh od njega.

sizofrenicarka koja je sve vreme bila vezana za krevet i pevala ruzica si bila. a opet, kad ti se obrati mozes da se zakunes da ti gleda pravo u dusu.

covek koji je sve vreme samo vristao i posle vezivanja i pretnji lekara. nemam nista da kazem za njega, ali sigurna sam da smo se svi tako osecali nekad.

devojka sa granicnim poremecajem koja je sebi drzala noz na stomaku pred bivsim verenikom i histericno se smejala… ali kad otpeva “dvoje” od nevernih beba prodje te neka jeza kroz celo telo.

alkoholicarka koja je uvek imala besprekorno namesten krevet i mrzela tracarenje.

depresivan decko koji nikad nista nije jeo ali je uvek umeo da primeti kad nisam okej.

devojka koja ima panicne napade ali ume odlicno da slusa i oblaci se kao da je sisla sa fashion week-a.

oni su mnogo vise od dijagnoze. oni su cudesna ljudska bica. samo sto vi odbijate to da vidite. jezim se kad cujem rec “ludaci”. nikad necete razumeti koliko patnje ima u njima. u nama. a opet tu smo i borimo se, uprkos svemu. jebeno pokazite malo postovanja…

[kaokolfild]

Potrošila sam sve želje na tebe.

Uzalud.

[aljoharaabdul]

i can cry in six languages

[inritum]

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

[ghostdog07]

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

[deathklaue]

YOOOOOOO

I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS

LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL

IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

[doryishness]

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS. 

[victoriaringsinyourears]

I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT 

[lenshade]

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

[themixedbagofwhat]

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

[wodkat]

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

[acstiel]

THE BOY I FELL I LOVE WITH LEFT TO TRAVEL THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD AND HAS BEEN GONE NOW FOR 3 MONTHS. WE HAVENT SPOKEN SINCE BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO MAKE HIM FEEL TRAPPED TO ME AND NOT ENJOY HIS TIME SO I WAITED FOR HIM TO CONTACT ME FIRST. I SAW THIS ON A PARTICULARLY LOW DAY WHEN I WAS MISSING HIM SO MUCH I CRIED FROM THE PAIN, GUYS I REALLY LOVE HIM, SO I THOUGHT MEH WHAT THE FUCK, AND WISHED HE WOULD JUST LET ME KNOW HE WAS OKAY.

GUYS.

HE FUCKING CALLED ME 20 MINUTES LATER

20 FUCKNG. MINUTES. LATER.

GOOD THINGS DO HAPPEN. AND ITS IN THIS POST.

[juststrokemyglabella]

I wish for someone to leave something in my ask.

[tako-je-sudjeno]

❤

[all-you-own-is-yourself]

🍀

[kaokolfild]

🍀

[kaokolfild]

☺

[kaokolfild]

☺

[sj0]

you have been visited by the seven magic dragon balls your biggest wish will be granted but only if you reblog

[hersheyhipster]

Couldn’t risk it.

[justjengie]

didn’t realize they change colors. now I know o gotta wish.

[pinayputa]

THIS SHIT IS REAL I GOT THE JOB I WAS NUTS ABOUT BC I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY maybe it’s a coinkidink but it okay just take the necessary steps to achieve what you’re wishing for and YOU CAN DO IT

[perspektivno]

“Postoji još mnogo toga što mora zacijeliti: moje vlastito samouništenje i zlo, moja prošlost i sjećanja.”

Chelsea Wolfe

[tisisvestodruganecebit]

I ako se ikada dogodi da je oko tebe potpuna tama, ako ti svega bude dosta, ako ostaneš bez volje i snage, obećaj mi da ćeš me pozvati. Meni ne treba svjetlo da te pronađem i odvedem kući.

[inritum]

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

[ghostdog07]

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

[deathklaue]

YOOOOOOO

I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS

LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL

IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

[doryishness]

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS. 

[victoriaringsinyourears]

I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT 

[lenshade]

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

[themixedbagofwhat]

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

[wodkat]

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

[acstiel]

THE BOY I FELL I LOVE WITH LEFT TO TRAVEL THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD AND HAS BEEN GONE NOW FOR 3 MONTHS. WE HAVENT SPOKEN SINCE BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO MAKE HIM FEEL TRAPPED TO ME AND NOT ENJOY HIS TIME SO I WAITED FOR HIM TO CONTACT ME FIRST. I SAW THIS ON A PARTICULARLY LOW DAY WHEN I WAS MISSING HIM SO MUCH I CRIED FROM THE PAIN, GUYS I REALLY LOVE HIM, SO I THOUGHT MEH WHAT THE FUCK, AND WISHED HE WOULD JUST LET ME KNOW HE WAS OKAY.

GUYS.

HE FUCKING CALLED ME 20 MINUTES LATER

20 FUCKNG. MINUTES. LATER.

GOOD THINGS DO HAPPEN. AND ITS IN THIS POST.

[juststrokemyglabella]

I wish for someone to leave something in my ask.

[tako-je-sudjeno]

❤

[all-you-own-is-yourself]

🍀

[kaokolfild]

🍀

[kaokolfild]

☺

[perrfectly]

[nepar]

Da sutra bude lijep dan.

[svemirska-sila]

Da mi mozak ne razmišlja ovoliko.

[saamodasimitu]

Da prestanem osecati.

[julisedmi-deactivated20180501]

Da polozim ispit.

[obojena-zutom-bojom]

Da budem sretna.

[kontemplativna]

Da budem bolja osoba.

[zbogom-sretan-put]

Da napokon napišem završni rad.

[crybabyy4-deactivated20210106]

Da pozitivnija budem

[sa-tobom-bilo-gdje]

Da bude mrvicu lakse.

[krecava]

Da budem.

[dusoomoja]

da me voli

[lostley-deactivated20230210]

da prebolim

[jedem-spavam-jedem]

Da se skontam

[becarefulwithmee-deactivated201]

Da sve bude u redu.

[plavokosa07-deactivated20180822]

Da izdržim

[samoprijateljski]

Da odem.

[blesajunior]

Da konacno izdam knjigu.

[upside-down10-99]

Da crknete svi❤

[wasted--times]

Da mi konačno krene u životu.

[silencekamila]

Da zaboravim

[zpekic5]

Da me ne boli vise

[kolikojevolim-blog]

Da traje💛

[zamenazaljubav-blog]

Da se vrati♍

[ultravioletna1]

Da odgovori i da se vrati…

[let-it-go-like-elsa-did-blog]

Da ponovo bude kao pre. ♉

[kaokolfild]

Da se vrati♉