Frida's Journal

[el-kral]

Y pude soltarte, me sentí libre.

Pero no feliz.

[volandoenimaginaciones-deactiva]

"Escribir te libera. Te lean o no te lean".

Autor desconocido.

[thehopefulquotes]

““There is no need of any competition with anybody. You are yourself, and as you are, you are perfectly good. Accept yourself.””

— Osho

[kaposo27]

september went by, and a lover didn’t stayed… again. well he doesn’t leave and i don’t make him leave either, i’ve been trying to understand why… because i keep thinking about him. and sometimes im confused, and i know it’s not meant to be, because im confused, and everything in me wants to not be confused, but that means, taking a step i don’t want to, taking a step i should’ve taken a few weeks ago.

instead i’m going to turn my back on the situation, because i don’t think it’s worth it.

[kaposo27]

once again november 16th is coming, i’m not ready to remember that we lost you 2 years ago. i’m not ready, but ive been living a life where you’re not in it, and it feels like you are missing out and so much stuff that’s been happening, all the achievements my cousins, my siblings and myself have been accomplishing.

i know and i hope that you are celebrating with us, from far away.

i miss you so fucking much.

i miss seeing you at the house every time i went there.

i miss your voice and your hugs. and specially holding your hand.

i miss you.

[thehopefulquotes]

“I am not lucky. You know what I am? I am smart. I am talented. I take advantage of the opportunities that come my way, and I work really, really hard. Don’t call me lucky. Call me a badass.”

— Shonda Rimes

[kaposo27]

a new September has gone by, and i’ve come to realize that every September brings new people to my life, but it also takes some in the process.

i’m not sad anymore about the ones that had to leave, and i’m still figuring out how i feel about the new ones in this new chapter.

every September, from what i remember brings a lover or a story that’s unfolding… 2019 was the guy who seemed so out of my league, just to realize i was the one out of his league and he was a complete douchebag.

2020 was the year of the pandemic, a lot of guys came into my life but none that matter, although i did lost my grandfather on october, leaving me all sad in my favorite month.

2021 i had the exciting and short lived story of the aviator, oh man how i felt about him was insane, showed me that i still had bad taste in men.

2022 i was already living a fairytale, but now with other eyes and perspective, i was just loving being loved.

2023 we rekindle the flame after breaking up, not my best idea and definitely not my best September.

2024 comes with a dazzling guy who i like, and not just enjoy being liked, hoping that whatever is being built here can work out in the end, for as long as it needs to be lived.

[minimalistquotes]

Better to admit you walked through the wrong door than spend your life in the wrong room.

[kaposo27]

i hope that it works out, because i had a great time with you. and im ready, ready to give my heart

[thereadmind]

what's meant for you will always feel natural, calm and clear, not forced, chaotic and confusing.

[perfectfeelings]

“I can’t think of any better representation of beauty than someone who is unafraid to be herself.”

— Unknown

[vexikk13]

{ i guess raspberries meant for you pretty much the same thing pomegranates meant for me.

today i picked up the raspberries from my garden and they stained my hands the same way pomegranates stained yours.

maybe that's what we're supposed to do. To stain in order to leave a mark.

u left your mark(i thought about u while eating raspberries)

here's mine (may the other pomegranates u ever peel to never spill their juice again)

*i don't eat raspberries anymore, they taste sour and i want something sweet this time

m.13

[kaposo27]

the fact that we both avoid places we know we could find the other, makes happy and makes me sad all at the same time.

because, for me, that’s one of the greatest ways to show respect towards what we had.

i don’t know if you’ve been avoiding places like i’ve done it, but at least i have avoided places where i could find you, to not disturb you, to not make you feel uncomfortable.

[kaposo27]

i’m pretty sure i’ll always care for you becaus i couldn’t delete our pictures, or the ones from your beautiful pittie maya, our your sisters pictures, i just couldn’t… maybe some day later on, in a few years. but not today.

enough time has passed that i won’t stumble up on them on my gallery, so i unhide them, but i think i will end up hiding them again, it ached a bit…

i know breaking up with you was the right thing to do, but i cannot shake the feeling that maybe in another life we worked it out

but you were not feeling my pain as yours, and you started disrespecting me in little ways i hadn’t notice before, and now i realize i was not happy if i was crying every single day.

i’m happy now, genuine and whole heartedly happy.

[resqectable]

“I’ve wasted a lot of time in my life. I’ve thought too much about what people will say or what they’re gonna think. And sometimes it’s over silly things like going to the grocery store or going to the post office. But there have been times when I really stopped myself from doing something special. All because I was scared someone might look at me and decide I wasn’t good enough. But you don’t have to bother with that nonsense. I wasted all that time so you don’t have to.”

— Julie Murphy, Dumplin’

[poetryforall]

[kaposo27]

and you will never know, that i once kissed other lips while i was with you. that i had no regrets of it, and that i still spoke to taut person daily