Supergirl.

Kara Danvers 24. "I'm her."

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

“Hey, sleepy head.” Barry said downstairs in the kitchen of the West family home, and well, his home. He was making pancakes and had expected to have to wake her up (he didn’t know how long kryptonians can go without eating), but she beat him to the punch and actually woke up. He smiled big, her cousin’s death was fresh and he just wanted to help her carry on. “Hey, you found the pajamas I put out for you, looks good. And before you think that I’m really vain, know that Iris bought those for me as a joke. I have merch.” He said referring to the flash pajama pants. 

[kara-daanvers]

Kara had barely gotten any sleep that evening. When she tried to fall asleep, she twisted and turned in Barry’s bed. Flashes of death coming to mind. Seeing Krypton go to dust, the news coverage after her cousin’s death. It’d all been too much for her. So she simply sat on the porch of Barry’s home, watching the sun come up. Last night felt like a stab to the chest, but yet life continued to push on and she would have to as well. She walked into the home again when she heard Barry in the kitchen, the smell of the pancakes he was cooking were enough to make her smile. “Yeah, I did.” The smile on her face growing bigger as he complimented her. Kara hadn’t even noticed that they were flash pajamas until he pointed it out, a small laugh leaving her lips. “You have merchandise.” Not many of them could say that. But Barry, the Flash... he was incredible. It didn’t shock her that the public loved him. Who couldn’t? “Thank you, for staying with me.” She said as she sat down at the table.

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

Barry held her tighter, though he knew it wasn’t anything to a kryptonian, she was a person and knowing someone was there wasn’t a cure, but it helped a hell of a whole lot. What now? He’d had that same question when his mom died and many times afterwards, “Now, it doesn’t sound very comforting I know but you power through. We grieve him, we celebrate him, we look out for each other and we protect the planet along with other people like us and with time it’ll get better, I know you don’t want to hear that, but it will. And I’m here for you, whatever you want to do.” 

[kara-daanvers]

“Power through.” She repeated, looking up at face him. Kara’s eyes trailed down his face before they met his green ones again. She was going to have to grieve him, she suddenly thought of Clark’s mother and Lois Lane, and how he planned on proposing to her. Kara looked down at the space between them, shaking her head. “No, it’s exactly what I want to hear.” She said, softly as her hands rubbed at his shoulder blades. Things, they were dark now but they always got better. Clark, he died saving not only Gotham but the world. He’d done what he’d always set out to do, it was brave and heroic.”A brave death was it’s own reward” She said softly, almost to herself. A saying she’d remember from back home. “Right now I just want this.” She said as she placed her head back on his shoulder, letting herself be held together by the only other person she knew understood what this craziness was really like.

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

“Kara I’m so sorry…” He didn’t know if it was a good idea for him to let her out, she was grieving, but he didn’t ever want to operate on fear again, especially since it seemed how whatever went down in Gotham unfolded, and on top of that Kara was his friend, “Yeah, yeah of course.” He got up and the first thing he did was wrap his arm around her knowing good and well what it felt like to lose someone, he’d lost several at this point, and he knew family stung most of all. “Kara, I’m sorry for your loss.” 

[kara-daanvers]

Kara watched as the glass ascended and she was presented with two choices. She could allow herself to be rageful and hurt Barry but as she looked at him, she couldn’t find it in her to hate him. He was just looking out for her. It could have possibly been her as well. If her cousin passed taking that thing on, she stood no chance. No matter how strong she was, she wasn’t Superman. So she took the other option, she just let it go. She rested her face on his shoulder, allowing herself to cry. She nodded against his shoulder as she listened to him. Appreciating his presence then and there. Really, there was no one else she’d want to be with at that moment. “What’s going to happen now?” She asked, wiping at her eyes. A world without Superman, she couldn’t imagine it.

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

Barry winced at the tone in her voice, he could see why she would think he deserved that. “Nobody’s ever told you about this? It’s kryptonite? It’s the ore form of an element from your home planet, or so I’m told, Cisco might have hacked into the DOE’s databases, before we weren’t sure if they were the good gu–” Barry got word from Cisco through his ear piece, the thing was dead, but so was Kara’s cousin. Barry’s head dropped down, “Kara… I have some–Cisco just told me. It’s over, your cousin, he–he saved Gotham, the world. But…Kara I’m sorry, he didn’t make it.” 

[kara-daanvers]

“No.” She said, her voice weak. Devoid of it’s usual pep and cheerfulness. Kara looked back at him as he explained what it was, knowing that it must have come from those ships that appeared on Earth from the phantom zone eighteen months ago. “So it weakens me and him?” She asked, her head pressing against the glass that seperated them. While on Earth, she had yet to really encounter anything that could stop her. And that seemed to be a problem with many people, she saw the news. She knew what they thought about her cousin and herself. They wanted them to be controlled. And they finally got something to control them. Kara’s eyes swelled up as she heard him, the world was safe again but... her family had passed. Her only remaining family member, the only reason why she even on this planet was to ensure his safety and she hadn’t even manage that. Now she was alone. Stuck in some chamber. betrayed by the guy that she really liked. “Barry...” She said, threatening to fall down her face. “Can you let me out of here, please?” She asked.

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

God, he didn’t want to hurt her, he didn’t want to weaken him, but facts were facts and the facts were that Kara could kick his ass, except when kryptonite was in the equation. He was surprised, however to find that she didn’t know what it was. “Shh, shh save your strength okay, just… Kara I need you to trust me.” He put the kryptonite away and picked her up, carrying her and whisking her off to star labs in one of the chambers they held their metas in. “I’m here, Kara, whatever happens tonight, I’m here, and we’ll deal with tomorrow, but you can’t go there.” He sat down, on the other side of the glass, Cisco keeping him updated on what was happening in Gotham. “You have no idea how sorry I am that I had to do that.” 

[kara-daanvers]

Kara looked at the face of the man that she’d learned to trust, to admire. He was one of the best people she knew. And she truly meant that. He was up there in a league that included her family, Winn and him. She was trying to remember that, despite her anger, she had to remember he was her friend. Kara nodded slowly, she couldn’t even pick herself up. What was it that he’d just exposed her to? She nuzzled against his chest as he picked her up, knowin soon she’d find herself in one of those chambers that he’d gotten for her police department. A cell. “What was that?” She asked, speaking up for the first time since he placed her in the chamber. Why couldn’t I do anything when you exposed me to that?” She asked, her anger coming through.

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

“I know, Kara, I know what it feels like to have these powers, but to not be able to do something, but Kara I’m begging you to think about this.” He knew that if the shoe were on the other foot he wouldn’t listen, but he still had to try because she was his friend and he was thinking clearly, she, however was not.”It wasn’t the Army’s best move, but look, he survived that, Kara I need you to listen to me, I need you to just come with me, and we can try and figure something out.” Barry held his hand out, but she left, which left him no choice. He pulled his mask on and in a flash he was off and tackled her to the ground, and pulled out a small lump of Kryptonite, not enough to hurt her, but enough to weaken, “I’m sorry about this, Kara. But it’s a suicide mission.”

[kara-daanvers]

Kara couldn’t explain what just happened. One second ago, she was well on her way to Gotham. She was fine. But with just the reveal of some glowing green mineral in Barry Allen’s hand, she felt weak. She could barely breath, let alone move. She was powerless. She looked up at him, shocked and confused. What was that? Why was he doing this? Her anger towards Barry came out in tears, her eyes welling as she looked up at him. “What i-is that?” She asked, more like croaked out. She looked away from him, forward to where she was suppose to be going. She wanted so badly to push him off of her but she couldn’t. For the first time ever, she just couldn’t. She looked back at him, wiping at her tears. “H-He’s going to die”

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

Barry was seeing what was happening in Gotham along with the rest of the world while he himself was in central city, some thing pummeling Superman. Of course, Barry wanted to help, but it was a suicide mission, and getting killed wouldn’t be helping, no, if anything he would have to be the second line of defense if anything, but his time as a superhero taught him not to jump to conclusions and count someone out. His next thought was Kara, knowing that because she wasn’t removed from the situation (this was her cousin) that she wouldn’t be thinking straight, so in a Flash he was where he knew she’d go, and he wasn’t wrong, “Kara, you can’t, and yeah I probably can’t, so you have to stop yourself. Your cousin, he’s got friends on the ground and you don’t know anything about that thing, you can’t just charge in.”

[kara-daanvers]

“Barry, you can’t tell me to stand here and do nothing.” She said, clenching her fists closed in an attempt to calm herself down when really she just wanted to push Barry out of the way and make her way to Gotham. “You say that thing. He can’t beat that alone.” Kara kicked up lightly, floating in front of him. She was fast, she could just go. But she knew for certain, he’d catch up to her. He’d even stop her in her tracks. “He’s got friends? The United States army that’s just read to nuke him and that thing if needed.” She yelled at him, knowing that Clark was strong but he was not strong even to withstand a nuclear blast. “You need to let me go.” She said, feeling her eyes start to well up. It didn’t go over her hear how much Barry cared about her and had the roles been reversed, she would have been standing in his way. “I’m sorry, Barry. But I have to try.” Kara kicked off as fast as she could before he could grab onto her, making a beeline for Gotham.

[kara-daanvers]

Kara's eyes were glued onto the monitor, the battle between her cousin and that abomination playing out before her eyes and everything in her body was telling to go. To help. She could help him somehow. After all, it’d been her mission. To protect him. Kara watched as the thing only continued to pummel him. When the camera feeds went off the air, she couldn’t sit still. Sure Alex would be upset, Kal would be furious with her but better that than sitting out a fight she could very well level out. So she raced up to the roof of her building, only to hear an all too familiar whoosh. “Barry, you can’t stop me.” She said, not turning back towards her good friend. Great friend. 

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

Hey, no problem, thanks for agreeing to come. Still can’t believe that guy’s real, or you for that matter. [He chuckled at her amazement] It’s better than Bale’s Batman voice. Well why would you need one? You don’t wear a mask, ballsy by the way. [Barry nodded, he knew too well about how people opinions of heroes or vigilantes were split, it didn’t deter Barry though, people were of afraid of what they don’t understand, it was human nature] Oh yeah, there was a whole police task force to capture the flash for a while, The Arrow had it even worse and you wouldn’t believe the kinds of disasters he’s averted in Starling. [Barry sat up a little straighter, a little prouder, he never got to talk about this stuff with people, Iris a little, but he was very much still on shaky ground with her, plus Kara was totally letting him geek out, she didn’t seem to mind at all] A few I guess, there’s the Arrow, then there’s the black canary, she’s so kick ass, Cisco is like her biggest fanboy. Diggle’s not a superhero but he’s ex military and his wife apart of this secret subsection of the government, wait should I have said that? Forget I said that, but there’s this other guy Arsenal, but I think Felicity said something about him going off somewhere else and the Arrow’s sister stepping in. And the atom, his suit is badass. Back in central it’s really just me and Firestorm on the good guys’ side, and then there’s you…supergirl, so special, even in a world full of superheroes.

[kara-daanvers]

Yeah, he;s real. He’s real. [She repeated, softly. These were the moments that she could definitely say she missed her cousin. But she understood why she didn’t get to see him as often as she would have wanted. Because he was a beacon of hope. For so many, even despite what happened in Metropolis.] It’s so much better than that. I don’t know,maybe so no one recognizes who I am? Which sure, I don’t wear a mask while fighting crime... but when I’m not Supergirl, I do wear a mask. I’m Kara Danvers. Glasses and all. Maybe that’s why no one realizes it’s me? [Kara shook her head, wondering how anyone would want to hunt Barry down.] Do you think it’s always going to be this way? Do you think we’re always going to be hunted despite doing good? [She sat up a little bit straighter as well part of it to tease him,the other part because she was genuinely curious of what it was he had to day. So there was more people than just the two of them. There was a number of people actually, it only made her grin when he spoke of all the people who were making a difference.]  I’m not that special. I was born this way, technically... I would have been just like everyone else back home. You, you’re special. 

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

No, hey it’s not mean, just the truth, it’s fine [Barry laughed along with her, though his cheeks did burn a bit red] Yeah, looking back it is pretty funny, and burning rubber is a pretty nasty smell. I remember trying to hide it from Joe the first time it didn’t work, my shoes totally gave me up. He laughed too, he also laughed at my ‘voice manipulating vibrations.’[Barry vibrated his vocal chords rapidly to change his voice the way he used to when he used to talk to Iris while he was the flash] Really? They’re probably just really concerned about you, Joe supports me, so does my other dad. [’So does my mom’ he thought, briefly remembering their last few moments together when he traveled back to that night’] My dad, he pretty much figured it out on his own, and he was in prison so yeah, sometimes I’m just not that great of a liar I guess. [Thinking about who else knew his secret, Barry thought of Felicity, and as a result, Oliver] Oh! You have to meet Ol–the arrow sometime soon,and his team, they’re totally normal people with these crazy good fighting skills, like they fight better than me, they live in Starling it’s like a train ride away, or as I like to call it, 20 seconds. And oh Firestorm, well firestorm is actually two people, you remember Caitlin, one of them is her husband, Ronnie, the other is professor Stein, they’re meta, it’s a little complicated but long story short, they’re like a human transformer, except instead of a robot they transform into a flaming nuclear man. 

[kara-daanvers]

Okay... just know that I do like him though. He’s an amazing guy. One that’s really helping me with all of this. Just like you. [Kara looked down at her hands.] Thank you again, for this place. I really needed this. For so long, it’s just been me and the big guy as they call him. [Kara’s eyes went wide as he changed his voice, wondering how it was that he was doing that.] That’s so cool. You sound nothing like yourself. I should probably get something like that down. Oh I understand why they wanted me too. The world... it’s not ready for another person like me. You’ve heard of what happened in Metropolis? They don’t want me to be out there. Yeah, he gives hope to people but others, they don’t understand us. They want us gone. You’re really lucky to have all these people who support you. You deserve it too. [Kara’s eyebrow quirked up, so there was another superhero out there.] The Arrow? Okay, how many superheros do you know? Are just like the keeper of all the cool people of the world? [Not only was there an Arrow but there was also two guys that came together to make a Firestorm. This was all too awesome for her.]

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[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

“Oh… yeah, yeah I was just– I wasn’t pushing I just thought maybe you were thinking about it and, I know what harboring a crush is like so I guess I jumped the gun, sorry about that.Of course you’re not thinking about dating, this is an exciting time, so many other things happening right now.” After moving on from the subject, Barry raised his hand playfully, “I know I wouldn’t, super embarrassment wouldn’t be something that stopped captain cold. It does, right? We’re living in the age of something that’s going to be in the history books, Kara. It’s really cool when you think about it.” He shrugged, “Yeah, I’m not great at it, “Yeah I do, well did. I’m getting better with my speed and harnessing the speedforce all the time I’m pretty good at controlling it these days, but the first month or so…yikes.” He shot, “Pretty much whenever Iris says, “We need to go shopping, Barry, somehow it’s always long overdue. So your family, they know what you are? They must be cool.” 

[kara-daanvers]

“You were just looking out for me and Cisco, I get it. And had I been into him in that sense, then that would have worked out perfectly, you know. But I’m not and I feel so bad saying that like that cause he’s such a good guy and maybe I should, but right now I’m not. Who knows, maybe something will grow there? Who knows?” Kara nodded slowly, he was right. Things were happening, things that were going to change the world forever. It was amazing to think that they’d both play a part in that. “It is really cool....” The blonde laughed, imaging him burning off his clothes as he ran. Not that she didn’t come with her struggles when she was learning to harness his powers. “I’m so sorry for laughing. I’m so sorry, that’s not cool... but-” She laughed again, forcing herself to put on a straight face. “Yeah... they know. My cousin, he placed me in their care. They knew from the moment they met me that I wasn’t like everyone else, but they loved me... even if they didn’t want this life for me. They wanted me to supress my powers.”  

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

“No, I was just wondering if maybe you’re…it sounds so stupid to say, don’t make me.” Barry said ducking his head, a blush creeping up his neck, this was for sure a foot in the mouth moment for him, “Just we’ve talked about Cisco a few times and if you maybe wanted to get to know him more I just dont think it would be out of the realm of possibility because you’re–you and you are pretty great, and so is he. I can stop, in fact I’m going to stop because I’m rambling and–Barry was gone in a flash and back with two bowls of ice cream and held one out to Kara, "I didn’t know what you liked so I got a little of everything. "Barry choked on his outfit slightly when she mentioned something that would be in Maxim or something, not that he read Maxim, or checked it out on the news racks…"Glad you found something you’re comfortable working in.” Barry gave the blonde a small smile, used to the sympathy from people, and on the sympathy scale that wasn’t a whole lot which Barry was greatful for.

The flash crossed his legs, an amazed smile on his face, processing, “It’s crazy, I mean aliens, metahumans, before the lightning none of this really seemed possible and now…well now here we are.” He chuckled, somtimes while Kara spoke he’d finished all of his food, ice cream included, “All the lying, I am really bad at lying sometimes. And I’ve burned so many of my favorite shirts by mistake.”

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Kara furrowed her eyebrows as he begun to spoke, wondering what it was that he was trying to get out. He brought up Cisco and then herself and while Kara wasn’t a genius, it wasn’t hard to figure out what it was that he was trying to say. He was giving her the okay to make a move on one of his friends. She instantly shook her head, well not with too much eagerness because Cisco was still a friend. “Uh-Uhm, thank you so much for that compliment. I-I th-think Cisco is an ama-amazing guy b-but I’m n-not into him l-like that. He’s just a r-really great friend.... And you’re gone.” Kara sighed as she watched him blur away. “Like I was s-saying, no. I don’t like him, like him.” She looked down at her bowl of ice cream, thanking him. “As am I, who wants to fight evil doers in basically nothing?” She said with a small laugh, knowing the fanboys wouldn’t mind it but she was more than her looks. She was a savior.

“Oh yeah, it seems like the world just got turned on his head.” She took another bite of her pizza. “You’re bad at lying? Well that makes two of us. Oh man, that sounds like it sucks. So... like when you run really fast in your regular clothes, you burn them off?” She asked, looking him over. “How often do you go shopping?”

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

“I like to think so.” Barry watched, amused, Kara taking a page from his book while he himself ate more of his pizza, and he chuckled seeing her having a bit of a hard time, “It probably would have been easier if you started with two whole slices and not one half eaten ones, but hey you get points for going for it like you did.” Barry put his pizza down and handed a napkin to her to help her out, “Yeah? If the suit’s working for you, I’m sure he would, there’s some science behind that suit. Hey uh…no nevermind.” Barry shook his head, “You have my vote for the cape. Yeah, Cisco’s made a few suit prototypes for me, the one I’m wearing now is the third, I think, he’s a genius, STAR labs wouldn’t be the same without him.” Barry noticed her physical cues of discomfort, “No, it’s—it is what it is. It made me what I am today.” Barry was maybe the only person in the world who could say that and know it for sure. Barry tilted his head, “The urban legend from Metropolis? That’s real, he’s real and he’s your cousin? Two of you in the whole world… you’re really special. I’m glad you and your cousin aren’t evil, like really glad.” Barry clapped his hands together and rubbed them briefly, “Okay, let’s get into it. Downside of your powers. I’ll go first, I can’t get drunk anymore.”

[kara-daanvers]

“Probably.” She said, taking a big bite out of the uneaten slice. She gave him a small thanks as she grabbed the napkins he’d held out towards her, wondering just how dorky she looked in that moment. “Oh no, no. You were going to say something, so say it.” She said, wondering what it was that he’d wanted to say. “At least I have one vote for the cape. You too? Okay, we went through a ton of choices. One of them-” She remembered the cropped t-shirt and boy shorts ensemble, shaking her head. “One of them was just obscene, I looked like I was going to pose for those male magazines rather than saving people.” Despite what he said, Kara reached over and squeezed his shoulder. That might be true but losing a parent was never easy on someone. But if he was right, he definitely made the best of a horrible situation. “Yeah, the urban legend from Metropolis. That’s... that’s my cousin. Oh, I assure you, he’s real.” Her smile only grew, happy that not everyone thought of them as a curse or a danger. Some people, they enjoyed knowing they were around. It made her hopeful that one day, she wouldn’t have to hide in the shadows. That one day, people would embrace her and know that she was one of them. “Oh man, hugs. That’s the downside for sure.” She nodded slowly. “Sometimes I forget that I could crush a car if I wanted to.”

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

Barry stopped mid-chew when Kara pointed out is pizza sandwich, then swallowed and nodded sheepishly, “Yeah, uh…no, that’s pretty much it, yeah. It’s uh…twice the pizza in my stomach in the time I could eat one. But hey, it’s a solid movie yeah. Plus, as far as Meryl Streep movies go, you got a good one for your life to be like I mean it could have been like Sophie’s Choice. Plus, between you and me, the super suit is way cooler. Tell me you don’t feel awesome when you’re wearing it, i mean you have a cape and everything.” Barry had good enough sense to leave out the part where she looked amazing in her super suit. “Uh… I should have seen that question coming back around. My uh, my dad’s in prison for murdering my mom, he didn’t, he was framed but that whole part involves some time travel so I’ll skip it, but I have a great adoptive family too, Joe and Iris she’s amazing, gorgeous, smart as hell, she wants to be a journalist. She actually got a job as a reporter recently whic—so hey, that whole pretty super cousin, why do I get the feeling that was some kind of inside joke?”

[kara-daanvers]

“That’s pretty innovative.” She laughed, picking up another pizza and placing it below the one she’d already been eating. Kara laughed as she made a bit of a mess, shaking her head. “Maybe I should have left this to you?” Kara cringed as he mentioned Sophie’s Choice. That definitely was not the movie that she wanted her life to be like. “Thank you, my friend, he made it for me actually. Cisco would really like him. I’m going to make sure to bring him around next time. He’d love this place.” She looked back at her cape. “I know, the Incredible said, no capes... but I could resist. I needed the cape. And yours, yours is so cool. How it withstands all of that friction and running, it’s a work of art really.” Kara sat up straighter, wondering if this was a touchy subject. If it was, she didn’t want to bother him or make him sad, but he decided to tell her anyways. “Oh my god.” She whispered, her lips instantly pouting some. “I’m so sorry about that.” Kara flashed him a small smile, despite knowing it wouldn’t do much but maybe it’d make him feel better. As he spoke of his adopted family, she noticed how he described Iris... and it made her curious. It sounded he might have had feelings for her. “It’s-” Kara bit her lip, knowing he was going to find out sooner or later who Superman was. “My cousin, he’s... Superman. Yeah. He and I, we’re the last two remaining members of our race.”

[friendlyneighborhoodflash]

“I’m sure, it’s not a problem.” What Kara had said about Cisco made Barry think that maybe there was some interest there on her part for his best friend. Barry already knew Cisco had pretty good taste in women (golden glider not withstanding), so someone as cute as Kara who was as nice as she was, Cisco had to have an interest as well, alien or not. “Yeah well so are you, so you two already have something in common.” After Kara took a slice a pizza, Barry took one, then put another on top, making a sort of pizza sandwich and took a bite, smiling as he chewed and listened, “Like the Devil Wears Prada? Except not a fashion publishing I guess. You’re Anne Hathaway! I love that mov–Uh Iris, Iris loves that movie.” To stop himself from rambling, Barry ate more of his pizza, and laughed once he was asked about himself, “A lawyer? No, no way. I work at the central city PD. I’m not a cop though, I’m a CSI. I have a lab down at the station, I could show you sometime, nowhere near as nice as this but it’s mine.. What about family?” 

[kara-daanvers]

“Okay. If you say so.” She took another bite of her pizza, biting the side of her cheek to stop herself from smiling like a huge idiot. Did he have to be so cute and nice at the same time? She continued to eat, well that was until her dinner companion decided to stack one pizza on top of another. She looked at him in amusement. “Do you do often? Make pizza sandwiches?” Kara asked, yeah, he was definitely cute. “It’s exactly like The Devil wears Prada. My life is actually a Meryl Streep movie, expect I didn’t get a closet full of designer clothes. I just got this supersuit. And it’s okay for you to like the movie, Barry. It’s a good movie. Whoever says otherwise... they can’t really be trusted.” Kara nodded, impressed. So he did have a super smart job. So cute, smart and nice... and he was still single? If Barry couldn’t find someone, she definitely wasn’t going to have any luck. “Adopted family. Father, mother, older sister. Oh-” Kara smirked, remembering one extra part of her family. “A cousin. He’s pretty super. You?”