Akechi-kin. CPTSD + plural + former foster youth. Sorta Jirai. Going through it. Stray cat of life. I'm getting into making playlists and art edits, feel free to send asks! Likes'll come from my main blog rip
Hello, you can call me Karasu or Crow or Akechi (And if you want, you can call me nothing at all) and welcome to my blog!
Here you will find an eclectic mix of my own thoughts (personal or opinions on the world), various image edits and playlists, and a mix of persona 5 reblogs and themed posts. Trigger warnings for potential heavy topics mentioned, though I will put tags with "tw [insert trigger here]" on those posts. Mostly.
We are plural with 2 who will post mainly on here. These posts will not always be tagged with who is who, but if you wish to avoid heavier topics simply block "CROW messages" and "CROW approved," as CROW is the more jirai-aligned one out of us all (Kogoro being the less jirai-aligned).
As a general warning, though we'll delete such rants, I would like to clarify that this blog is as much of an experiment of self-expression as it is a persona-themed blog, and therefore we will not adhere to a polished facade. I do not believe in the concept of "a perfect victim," loath I to use such language, and hold much critique of humanity as a whole.
MORE ABOUT ME:
I'm in my early-ish 20s, use he/him or it/its, and I would prefer those under 18 to, if you must, interact in a limited degree as a general boundary
I have a strong interest in phenomenology, psychology, sociology, and philosophy! I greatly enjoy discussions around these topics and they will occasionally pop up here. Please, do feel free to send asks about any of those topics, even if it's random!
I enjoy reading and you may find posts about what I've read recently too. If you have questions or wish to discuss these books, do feel free to do so.
I also like writing, and tend to be verbose. CROW less so.
Yes, I was in fostercare and I will talk about that at times. It sucked. I'm an orphan. Whilst not diagnosed with anything specific, 4 therapists have dropped me on the basis that "I am too complex / incomprehensible" and said standard therapy would not work for me, so do with that as you will. I've also been told I'm better than others my age (at least, before graduating college), so also do with that as you will. While strange to admit, it certainly will colour the way I act here.
I am nilsexual (aka I do not have a sexuality) and aromantic, although not against some form of life-partner (aka, the soul is what matters most).
I like to make edit images but I'm still new to it. I made everything for this blog (minus, of course, the actual resources which I found elsewhere)
Persona 5 Royal is indeed my favourite game and is very special to me (and why this is persona 5 themed!)
Yes, I kin Akechi. Though this blog is not entirely dedicated to that, our lives are rather similar in many aspects which could blur that line at times (excluding, of course, everything to do with the world of personas. Or meeting my equivalent of Akira/Ren (someday it could happen, maybe....?). Or making friends such as the phantom thieves. Or being a detective/cop, as I would never limit myself to such a restrictive role)
Jiraiblr, yanblr, mental health struggles, or just going through it, I don't judge. I myself drift close to the jiraiblr community but am not fully part of it, I think? I'm not sure there, I'm still learning though I tag a lot in it
I am always, always open for asks!! Of whatever variety your heart may desire!
Likes come from my main blog rip
ANONS:
- 🃏 (A joker card, I'm a fan of this choice)
- 🎭 (Masks, I like this choice too)
- 🌠 (A shooting star, very neat. So far all of these remind me of persona 5)
-🧸(A teddy bear, technically not an anon but I keep track of them that way. They're the only teddy bear here)
-🐇 (Same as above, I may have tagged an ask from them with this?)
I don't have any other anons right now, but I'll update this if/when more start visiting ^u^
I'll get a list of tags up at some point for better navigation, and a more comprehensive list of likes perhaps too? Otherwise thank you for reading this!
My little list of Kaomojis for my own personal reference:
CROW shouldn't listen to music so loudly. I'll handle whatever it is he posted later, but he should not be allowed to play music so loudly. Our head hurts =_=
Song rec. Highly recommend checking out Moonwalker's discography if topical political messages/critiques (while not always, but is a strong theme of his latest album) aren't too much. Not my favourite of his but still a good song that doesn't get enough appreciation!
do u think a fangsmith cld do a bicuspid fang? not a fang 4 ur bicuspid bt a fang 2 turn a tooth in2 a bicuspid! they stol our fuckin teeth i want them back!!!!!
^soundtrack 4 2day
FANGS!! The only thing that would be better than having claws would be having fangs and claws!!! Biology is stupid and limits me for no reason and is a fucking mistake, why the hell can't I have claws and fangs? Rude!! My metaverse outfit would have claws and fangs and a sick ass serrated sword!!!!
Also yes! They can!! And it is cool as fuck!! Do not underestimate the power of fangsmiths!!! A lot of them focus on fangs because fangs are objectively pretty fucking awesome but! They'll span out to all sorts of teeth, like this fangsmith has a page specially dedicated to "problem mouths" where you can see some of the non-fang teeth they've made for people. Very sick very cool!! Any fangsmith actually worth their title absolutely could do that for you!
SONG OF THE DAY FUCK YEAH LET THE BODIES DROP LIKE DEAD FLIES THEY WILL ALL HIT THE FLOOR!!!!!!!!!! ALSO RECOMMENDING THIS SONG!!!!
CROW RANT!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE TODAY IS SO FUCKING NORMAL!!!!!!!! I hate injustice a normal amount I've been around a normal amount of injustice I do not contain rage against the systems of power why would you think that.
YES this is about the fucking pieces of shit """"adoptive parents"""" again because they are being fucking creepy with the whole "we want to know more about what you're doing. Tell us about your life tell us about what you're doing send us pictures do more to update us keep us in the loop :)))))"
<- FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF!!!!!!!! They're the sort of people that the fucking second a sister I once had with them acted out in a way that was "too much for them" they went from being DAYS!! LITERALLY DAYS!!! Not months or weeks or just thinking about it but DAYS!! AWAY!! FROM!! ADOPTING!! HER!!! and went from that to calling her a devil spawn and demon and within a week sending her away!!1 And then we'd fucking DRIVE BY THE NEW HOME SHE WAS AT and they'd go "see? look! that's where she is now! she was never part of the family, isn't she so bad? Why do you want to see her? She wasn't a sister? She wasn't your family? We're your family we PICKEd you the world gave you to us, you went through shit because it was the only way to come to us"
LIKE FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF WHAT THE HELL SORT OF FUCKING PIECES OF SHIT HAVE SO LITTLE FUCKING CARE AND EMPATHY THAT THEY CAN SUPPOSEDLY FUCKING """"CARE"""" ABOUT SOMEONE FOR YEARS AND THEN DITCH THEM!!!!!!! WHERE'S THE GODDAMNED FUCKING ""EMPATHY""" THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO HAVE????
Okay sure fine she threatened to kill somewhat but grow the fucking hell up??? Who fucking cares??? OBVIOUSLY SHE WOULDN'T??? And fucking if she did who cares!!! Deserved!!! DO THE FUCKING ADULTS not take one fucking iota of a millisecond to understand that HEY!! HEY!!! KIDS IN THE SYSTEM WILL MIRROR THE BEHAVIOUR OF ADULTS IN THEIR LIVES??? HEY!! HEY!! DON'T BLAME A FUCKING CHILD WHEN THERE'S FUCKED UP ROTTEN SHITTY PEOPLE MASQUERADING AS """"PARENTS"""" AND """"NICE PEOPLE"""" THAT WILL THREATEN LIVES FOR THEIR OWN AMUSEMENT!!!
Where's the fucking justice???? Oh no, she made one mistake, who fucking doesn't??? Who doesn't make mistakes??? Well if you want to crawl your way out of fucking hell you can't make a single mistake!!! Fucking evil pieces of shit loved to hold that over our head like GUESS WHAT??? FUCK OFF???? We might have shitty ass genetics and maybe related to someone that is evil and wretched beyond belief that deserves a billion deaths over and over and over again but THAT CANNOT BE SOMETHING YOU HOLD AGAINST SOMEONE!!! FUCK OFF!!!!
PLUS why the hell do they think they can demand more of my time WHEN THEY CAN AND HAVE THROWN OUT A WHOLE FUCKING PERSON FOR NOT BEING PERFECT??? Like fuck off!!! They didn't do shit but fucking complain and whine and act like THEY are the victims for not having the most perfect fucking live possible. WHO CARES???? Fucking they didn't pay for shit!! I fucking scavanged for food so they barely even had to fucking feed me!! I paid for everything and I've LOANED THEM MONEY because they're dumbasses needed extra, like what the fuck!!!! They got fucking PAID to take me in by the goddamned fucking government, what the hell sort of ""parenting"" did they even have to do??? They love to fucking talk about how they "never had to do anything" and that I "raised myself" like it's a silly little quirk AND WHO FUCKING CARES!!!!!!! THAT'D BE FINE IF THEY WEREN'T THE FUCKING SORT OF PIECES OF SHIT TO LITERALLY THROW SOMEONE ON THE CURB WITH NOTHING BUT A GARBAGE BAG OF THE ONLY SHIT THEY WERE ALLOWED TO KEEP BECAUSE THEY WEREN'T ACTING PERFECT!!!!!!!!!! FUCKED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
They're goddamned fucking creeps that used to take a fuck ton of pictures of her too and where the fuck are those. Not like. Thinking about that because I'd rather not. But it's weird!!! Like with a professional camera and everything like what the fuck was that about. What was that about actually. Can we go back and ask them what the fuck that was about. Like yeah it was normal ""family"" shit but also why the fuck is it either "take a bunch of pictures because they're PRETTY" versus "we'll never include you in family pictures because we don't want disposable temporary children in our family album. you're not in the family :)" and like... weird ass whenever we were in family "events" they'd either put us in a basement alone or put us at a full on separate table or separate room while everyone celebrated elsewhere. And the fucking second we got along with someone they acted like we were going to fucking corrupt them or some shit. What the FUCK was that actually?? It's a side note but like!! That's weird!! That was weird!! What the hell!! What the fuck!!!
Fucking hell the only fucking """""FAMILY""""" person I was """"CLOSE""" to was someone that was being slutshamed and acted like she was going to be a fucking sex-addict because her mother had done or did (unclear) sex work and had a child young. Like then they act all "what the hell they're so evil they're so evil they are.... not good!!" when there was an OPEN FUCKING SECRET OF A FAMILY PEDOPHILE???? LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?? AND then WE get blamed for not being okay with that?? like STOP FUCKING TAKING KIDS TO THE FAMILY PEDOPHILE???????????????? WHAT IF I FUCKING KILLED HIM ACTUALLY???????? WHAT THE FUCK??????????????
ANYWAYS!!!! killing killing killing all the fucking up shitty adults that blame kids for just trying to be alive and live because the world loves to fucking treat them like second class fucking property and not people!! Fucking disgusting!!! If I had metaverse access I'd be taking revenge against A LOT OF FUCKING PEOPLE ACTUALLY!!!!!! Like fuck them fuck them fuck them they deserve every fucking shitty thing they did to others put on them a billion times over and EVEN THEN why the hell should anyone """forgive""" them!!!
Also back to the fucking """"parents""""" I got like they fucking didn't let us do shit!!!!!!!!! At all!!!!! We try going to the library and it's a month long argument when we were like 16. What the fuck!!!! Lots of shitty things said and if we showed a single fucking ounce of disagreement we'd be fucking told we're evil and horrible and goign to turn into our birth/first father <- FUCK HIM FUCK HIM FUCK HIM FUCK HIM FUCK HIM But this isn't about his EVIL PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT SELF!!!!!!!!!!!! Hell isn't bad enough for him.
like the fuck??? Why the hell would I want to speak any more than I fucking have to to people that tried controlling us to such a massive fucking degree they had fucking teachers reporting back the shit we did in school to them??? Also fucking teachers told them we seemed ""suicidal"" and they'd just tell us people like us don't live good lives so we have to buck up. Like the fuck. Fuck them!!! They can't suddenly decide they can treat us like humans NOW when they spent YEARS literally calling us inhuman in all sorts of fucking ways. FUCK!!! I don't know whether I'm glad the sister I had while with them didn't have to deal with them going fucking insane or if she went through worse hell for being thrown out. At least she had more fucking freedom!!!! Yaldabaoth fucking hell I'd unstabalize society if I could get revenge actually. Evil time. I don't fucking care. They were all corrupt anyways and I'd do it!!! Humanity is fucking rotten anyways!! Who fucking cares!!!!!
