Lonely Lost Soul

[karsid29]

In a reverie of broken dreams,

Bokeh photos and funny scenes,

Distant echoes in my mind,

I see you from time to time.

I visit each day,

To the person I was,

To the person I could be,

And the person I am now,

And how my fortunes have changed,

With each minute details changing my tale,

And how I’ve grown to love myself through this,

That I’ve changed myself forever,

Without changing you in it…

[karsid29]

Love as deep as crimson red,

Strung together thread after thread,

Together forever like the unknown universe,

Living together,

Singing verse after verse,

In my hands I hold yours too,

In my heart there will always be a memory of you….

[karsid29]

Be gentle on yourself dear mind,

Please don't keep me in your confines,

The things that bring me down are back,

So many thoughts,

Stack after stack.

Should I trust others this time again?

Should I meet you in the confines again?

I think I'm tough,

And I know it for a fact,

But it's me against me,

And no matter who wins,

I've to remain intact.

[karsid29]

I know a place in the darkness,

Where I gently retreat when I’m down.

There’s no one else to comfort,

When the most important person isn’t around.

There’s only one person in my heart,

At any given time.

I lay here in my own darkness.

In my own gentle confines…

[poetryandthesea]

Blueberries.

[karsid29]

Memories

Sometimes you never know,

What the last words of a man could be,

They leave at a moments notice,

And In the blind you lay and can’t see,

As the days outnumber your memories,

It gets harder for you to see,

You remain blind forever,

Floating in a dark blind sea.

[karsid29]

Let me burn In Your deepest desires,

Let me change like the embers of fire,

Let me cleanse everything impure,

Let me love,

Bring me ashore.

[karsid29]

For every seventh day,

There came a deadly sin,

Born from chaos buried deep within.

For every seventh day,

There came a divine gift,

Born from the kindness sown beneath the brim.

For every seventh day,

They fought battles against each other,

The sins versus the gifts,

To see which would outdo the other.

For every seventh day,

The carousel would go on,

Never stopping a moment,

These demons linger on.

Until there came a day,

On the dawn of the seventh night,

When all the sins vanished,

And the gifts removed the blight.

That’s when you came,

Out into the world,

Being born to not achieve greatness,

But becoming greatness itself

[karsid29]

Some words just touch you so deep...A kind of depth that you never knew existed.

#Postsecrets #Words

[quotemadness]

“How in the hell could a man enjoy being awakened at 8:30 a.m. by an alarm clock, leap out of bed, dress, force-feed, shit, piss, brush teeth and hair, and fight traffic to get to a place where essentially you made lots of money for somebody else and were asked to be grateful for the opportunity to do so?”

— Charles Bukowski

[karsid29]

I am without a form,
Without a face,
Without a feeling,
Without a race,
Without a notion,
For an emotion,
When I created the oceans,
And it’s vast space. I am without a purpose,
Without measure,
Despite anything that you treasure,
Even at your leisure,
You’re indisposed,
For a seizure called life. I am without judgment,
Without hate,
Without traces of any form of sate,
It’s been too late,
Since I’ve become formless,
An unidentifiable identity that some worship,
And some now hate

[karsid29]

You start dying slowly, As you come of age, First goes your innocence, And then your pristine image. 
You start dying slowly, As you make sense of time, Everything seems fine at first, Then you lose your shine. 
You start dying slowly, When you give up against odds, Relying less on yourself, And on others more. 
You start dying slowly, With every emotion you kill, Struggle after struggle, Until you lose your will. 
You start dying slowly, When you don’t stand up for yourself, Cause you’re the first person you’ve to stand up to, And then the rest are well.

[karsid29]

I’m at the ledge of life, Staring into the far outreach, Looking ahead, Into what I might learn and what I could teach.

I’m at the ledge of life, everytime Im at an impasse, Unable to learn how to unlearn, Unable to burn the damning memories.

I’m to you, what, water is to a fish, Ubiquitous and fluid, Sometimes amiss. Unaware of my thoughts, Deeper in my mind, In the recess of the battles I fought, I retreat to a corner confined.

[karsid29]

People just come and go,
And I’m just a transit stop,
With the wind in the speed,
I watch them go,
A part of me gone with the ticking clock. No reason,no strength,no resolve,no more,
I just hold onto my silhouette tight,
People just come and go,
And now It just doesn’t feel right.

[karsid29]

I'm setting the world on fire tonight, To watch it in hues of red, As my blood runs deeper and cerise, I watch it glimmer instead. With all the traffic of the people who come and go, With all of their voices echoing inside, With all this noise turning me sore, I watch the fumes rise above my head..... Deeper than blood and darker than black, My nights are long and I'm awake, Pondering about the burning world outside, Wondering if I should save it, Or watch it all burn away...

[karsid29]

I was bereft of words, When you had nothing to say, I don’t know now, If my heart was ever occupied, Or has been missing someone in it till today…

I had preconceived notions, And random thoughts, Each sinking into me, As I fought.

Each motion, Each moment, All taking me back, I’m wondering now, If your silence was a tact.

If I was your chaos and you were my storm, Would you settle?, For anyone else, If I were gone…

[karsid29]

As my soul looked at your soul, It recognised you, But over the years it took a toll, Through the eyes and through the smiles, Through the secrets of a strife, Through all the dreams and the screams, I’ll write poems of off reams…

From life to death, Cycling through motions, Through a deceptive world of notions, I’ll be near and you’ll have me, You can hold onto me like a tree, I’ll be here and you’ll have me, I’m your storm and you’re my sea.