Katanakiwi

Avid reblogger, aspiring artist, fanfic writer and is not immune to the good times | he/him | theme by themesbypale | fanfic account: @katanakiwiwrites | pfp art by fallowfoot header art by deadhunbrew

[katanakiwionline]

i recommend checking out my ao3 focused (and also usually my current hyperfix focused) account for any actual content! i use this blog for interacting and reblogging <3 check it out here: @katanakiwiwrites

[katanakiwiwrites]

fumbling to get out of my writer’s block, send me your bloodloathing prompt/au ideas in my askbox and i’ll try to write a little snippet of your idea in return :)

[itsjustdigit]

scott and legs hand size comparison I s'pose

[itsjustdigit]

cuddle that large sad man right now

[redstonebug]

which variant of legundo do u think would be the most entertaining to throw against a wall in plushie form

Analysis of c!Legundos based on how good I think they'd make as a plushie to chuck across a room:

Flightgundo: Legally required to have a squeaker in it, which would probably be satisfying to hear as it hits something. Probably small, ergo easier to throw like a baseball. Really get some force behind it. Also the name makes it funnier. Flight indeed. Only downside is if he's small he might not have enough heft to him to be satisfying. Perhaps a weighted plushie. He's heavier cause of the iron.

Doc: VERY throwable. Absolute dogtoy of a character. That plushie would be suffering and it'd be very cathartic. Also from a practical standpoint, very basic outfit for plushie purposes.

Eight: He just feels chuckable. I don't know how to describe it. That's a chuckable little self-aware NPC. If he has solid goggles on his plushie it'd probably make either a satisfying or mildly startling clunk when he hits the wall, which could be a perk. 100/10 I would like to throw him to the tune of circus music.

100dmv: World's most haggard pathetic man. Type of plushie you find fallen in the road half in a puddle covered in mud. You should throw him against the wall just to put him in more situations.

CCSMP: Needs to have a motion-activated internal speaker that just plays the "WE'RE BLASTING OFF AGAINNNNN" Team Rocket audio clip whenever you throw him.

Ix: I think if you actually threw Ix he'd just enjoy it. That's enrichment for him. He might also just blow up or something. I think even in plushie form he'd be combustible. I'm picturing the standard makeship plushie size and tbh that's probably close enough to accurate height.

Christmas Vibes SMP: Either he has a snuffle in his arms or a knife, and either way I think that would block him from hitting the wall with as much force as he could. Would be fun to bury him in a snowbank, though.

[katanakiwionline]

every day i dont get out of my writer’s block i will make bullshit of them until i do

[katanakiwionline]

DISEASE—LADY GAGA

or: i made another bloodloathing edit because i miss them and im in a writer’s block so this is all i can do. also if you saw this post twice no you didnt i think tumblr ate it :(

[katanakiwionline]

i tried to post my bloodloathing edit and tumblr crashed wow i didnt know a browser could crash but it did

[wyvernwings07]

“What’s the issue, Doc?”

Redraw of an old Bloodloathing art from ages ago 🥰🥰🥰

[katanakiwionline]

after four years I've finally changed my tumblr profile

[katanakiwionline]

I'm here to feed the five coldwelding/coldiron duo fans

[katanakiwiwrites]

WRITING MASTERPOST!!! (updated!)

about the author:

finally updating this...hi I'm katanakiwi better known as katanakiwi! I've been writing fanfic for about five years and am currently very oriented towards MCYT content (especially Vampires SMP)! You probably know me as that bloodloathing guy, that legundo guy, or the guy who made that fanfic rubber ducking post (which you can find under #kiwi's duck tweet)

masterposts for my fanfics:

Bloodloathing Central here

MCYT misc here

HSR here

Anything else here

ANDDDD HERE ARE MY TAGS:

#kiwi speaks - basically anything i post normally or when i talk about my favs

#kiwi reblogs - all of my reblogs!

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#kiwi strawpage - all about my strawpage gimmicks! you can send me stuff on my strawpage here

#dwp!bloodloathing yuri au - it's alllll in the name, buddy

#kiwi's vsmp modern au - all about my modern bloodloathing au, although as the series progresses I will talk about other characters within it

my main account is @katanakiwionline

my ao3 account

You can also find me on Twitter (katanakiwi) (im super active there) or on Twitch (katanakiwi_)

[vampostingtime]

jackdaw really just said "doc getting possessed by louis" and now I'm thinking about doc slowly losing himself to a ghost that uses his body and life to be with owen and doc is trapped inside himself and even if he wants his life back part of him, or even eventually most of him, calls that want selfish because this is just another way to be useful, right?

[vampostingtime]

everyone's having really great thoughts/writings about this and for that I thank you because then I get to read awesome stuff and grin evilly about it. additional musings for this idea but I like how people kind of have their own spins on it

owen is 100% on board with this. he gets louis back. that's all that matters. however he fits doc into this, pick your Owen Justification™ from his plentiful supply. doc deserves to get possessed for xyz reason (this one works especially if the full possession happens post divorce), this is actually a favor to doc and doc should be thanking owen and louis, etc.

for my own amusement legs can't mentally communicate with louis. I think he can still push through into his body at points, but it becomes harder, and eventually it's only bursts of involuntary control. this happens a lot with crying specifically because I like making him cry 👍

owen is not losing louis again. he is going to turn legs's body. depending on how morally questionable you like your louis, he can have a range of reactions to this, but he wants to be a vampire again. and why wouldn't legs want to live forever? any downsides are louis's problem now, not legs, so there's really nothing for legs to worry about!

this is where my semi-headcanon-semi-implicitly-canon love for doc having intense hunger pangs as a vampire can come in. louis wouldn't be bothered by them, he's an older vampire and it just doesn't register as a problem. but legs is not used to them

working in other characters is difficult when there's no plot but I need cleo to get involved in this.

[qwerty-queer]

i just woke up what is HAPPEBING

people are obviously going to notice that there's sonething very very different about the doc he doesnt act the same he doesnt talk the same he doesnt even move the same

cleo shows up at docs turning again except doc is so very chill about it all and thats when she knows theres something very wrong going on and “doc” just insists that he's fine he WANTED to get turned and part of her believes it because there was the possibility of her turning him before but his behavior is suddenly altered and going all in on vampirism because he really wants to? that doesnt seem right. she tries to confront Owen but he denies anything being wrong

later on if legs gets control only to cry and cry and cry and he cant stop and depending who is around thats soooo juicy. the range of reactions is great:

Owen who would always comfort louis but he knows this is doc right now and not louis so he pulls away instead and just watches. cleo who immediately starts trying to ask questions but doc is sobbing so hard he cant even formulate responses so shes just more frustrated now. scott who doesnt really care and tells him to keep it together like a soldier would (really twisting the knife in). avid who believes doc is with the vampires now and tries to awkwardly comfort him

[vampostingtime]

YESSSSSSSSSS make that old man cry and force him to know people are reacting to him crying 😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈

[vampostingtime]

JACKDAW YOUR MINDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

[the-bittern-cold]

vampirism is a gift :) Louis can feel all those nasty human aches and pains Doc’s body experiences and it would fix those right up :) Legs is letting him use his body, so surely Louis should do his best to preserve it and keep it safe, right? and it’s not like Legs will actually have to deal with any of the rockier parts of the change because Louis is here to be experienced and smooth those out :) he’ll get to live forever :) it's a gift, who would say no to that?

[jackdaw-sprite]

via @crystalline-fragmentation

[vampostingtime]

@mytoomanybookstoread you're my hero

[lightblueglazedterracotta]

Obsessed with both the horror of being in a body that's not your own as well as the horror of your body changing to not be your own.

Cleo and Apo watching from an outside perspective and watching their friends body be changed in a way they don't recognise him anymore. The practical short hair of the doctor being grown out, the old combat boots swapped to eometh less practical.

Cleo holding the docs hands in one of his few present moments and realising the callouses that told of hard labour had been filled off and softened. The reminders of all the work Legs has done, of the constant pressure of needle pressing against fingers as they sewed life back into people gone, replaced with this softness he only ever had internally before.

Wouldn't that be disturbing. Someone working to remove all the physical signs of the life your friend lived.

[jackdaw-sprite]

@lightblueglazedterracotta oh god, yeah.

As I've gotten older, I've gotten more comfortable with my body and found more ways to make it mine. At Doc's age, I imagine body image issues are one of the things he doesn't have.

His old injuries hurt and he'd prefer they not, but it's an old familiar friend at this point. It's part of him, just like his muscles, and his scars, and the start of the spotting of his skin. The graying hair along his arms is his.

Before all this, it wouldn't have occurred to him that it feels like home, but that's something of the feeling. He's settled in his bones and in his skin, now, and all the ravages time and conflict and stress have made of it.

And the callouses specifically!!! Oh, that's so good. Because they're evidence of the work that he uses to weigh his worth. When he's feeling horrifically low he can look down and see the hands of a working man, who has saved hundreds or even thousands of lives.*

They're evidence of the work he's doing to mend what damage he can. They're evidence of his changes, of everything that makes him worthwhile in his own eyes.

And to see them gone--

Oh, ow. That might hurt more than all the other dressings of his person combined.

* He has been at this 20 years, and even if 7 of those were schooling, there are ~4750 days in 13 years. He's a surgeon, and he probably sees more than one person a day. He's hardly the only person saving those lives, but he's helped a lot of people by now.

[jackdaw-sprite]

Great news everyone! I figured out how to make this worse!

Scott says his tier 1 vampire form is basically frozen forever at the day he was turned, including the hair dye he'd applied...days prior? If I remember correctly?

So: Louis filing the calluses off of Doc's hands to prepare for Owen turning him.

And then he's turned, and Doc will never get those back.

This also means if he's say moisturizing Doc's hands because they're dry from washing them so regularly, then Doc will never get that wear back on his hands again, either. He will never again have hands that bear the marks of his profession and penance and worth.

[jackdaw-sprite]

# CONGRATS JACKDAW I LEFT FOR 6 HOURS AND YOU DID IN FACT MAKE IT WORSE I AM KDBDIDBSKSNDJBSKD

(really though glazed terracotta with the masterstroke of the calluses...)

# There's such such a balance to how Owen's disdain and Louis' kindness are both cruelties inflicted on legs here # And that in an of itself reinforced the yikes factor of the entire setup # Louis didn't know Legundo so he's being kind to him like he'd be kind to himself or Owen but because he doesn't know who he is as a person # aside from the places where they've started blurring together and so much of that end up being the misery legs feels about the whole ordeal # (eventually amplified by the turning and the fledgeling bond) Louis can't actually respond to any of the Doc's wants and needs. # They're (in his head and in leg's cracked and crumbling worldview) the same as his own so he responds to them in kind even tho it wrecks do # Owen's disdain and indifference are very different knives here as well # He's slotting in kind of comfortably into that classic whumper role here but there's layers to it again # For one there the bloodletting classic breach of what was at one point a beautiful bond of trust flourishing against all odds # And oh boy is that one worsened here: owen decidinge to let this happen might be one thing- him encouraging it completely another # but with Louis potentially on the line I cannot see him giving this anything less than his 110% and that carries with it a flood of other # smaller betrayals with it. And it all stings personally bc he knows the doctor - arguably the best (tied w cleo) of anyone here # He weaponized their closeness to make this happen. how many times did he gaslight the man? how much of his priviledge info did he leverag # to make legs get to a point where he wouldn't fight anymore? how much did he feed into the man's guilt and shame to convince him to just # give in and basically let his suicidal ideation win? or that he was never meant to exist in the first place and is now just naturally # ceding the body to the one it was meant for all along # And ironically through all this it's him as an outside observer and someone who was already scrutinizing their similarities and differences # (bc legs couldnt simply be a good man he had to be lying he had to-) that would be most capable of actually distinguishing the two of them # as they start blending. Louis is kind like he refuses to contemplate there being another option-the doctor is kind like practiced motion a # muscle he keeps using like he's afraid he'll forget how to. The doctor's sadness used to be a quiet and solemn thing always shrouding him i # full- he's still quiet but there's a helplessness to t now owen pretends it doesnt bother him doesn't nibble the back of his mind sometimes # when louis is quietly sharing in comfort with him and suddenly his entire self falls like the weight of grief could drag him straight back # to the depth of hell on it's own. Sometimes Louis will square his shoulders or clench his jaw in a way that screams Doc but he'll look hi # in the eyes and know its truly his beloved and one more body on his conscience shouldn’t matter after so many. Not when it got him the only # one that's ever mattered back. But sometimes he lies awake alone and remembers a man throwing his trusty axe away like the thought of using # it burned him and wonders about things he shouldn't. Unbidden he feels the weight of Cleo's hatred directed at him the rage she never holds # back finding purchase in the quiet of dusk - he breathes though he does not need to and pushes it down. # The living can't be mourned anyway.

via @mytoomanybookstoread

You are making me gnaw on the bars of my enclosure oh my god

[katanakiwiwrites]

god i love bloodloathing im still in the vsmp trenches here have my edit

[scarymonsters-andsupercreeps]

I’ve had enough

[katanakiwionline]

ME AND MY FRIEND'S DEBRIEF OF THE FLIGHT SMP TODAY

aka: coming to the conclusion that we are doomed

[luuxxart]

it was really important that I draw this instead of doing homework [orig]