Katelynn Anne☯️

[katelynntheyogi]

Oh brown dog.

So this is it. We are at the end of our journey together. For the last 6 years it’s been you and I every single day. Through all of the shitty men, terrible choice in booze, and a lot of dance parties. You have been my girl. Words will never describe how much I have to thank you for. You were sent to me to be by my side until I found out where I needed to be.

I hoped I would have more time. More dance parties and more memories. I hoped you see me get married and give you a brother or sister with only two legs. I hoped you could have gone on more truck rides and ice cream runs. It’s okay that you can’t. I’ll always remember you regardless. I’m sorry that you might have been in pain for some time. I hope you know I tried to make this choice at the right time. Not a day too late. If I waited too long I hope you know I’m sorry.

Through all of it there is no other pooch I would want by my side. (Even if you ignored me half the time). You will never be replaced. Never be forgotten. Never not be loved.

As I say goodbye to you in this life tomorrow know that I will find you after my time ends. I hope to find you swimming and playing without any pain. I hope you’re running around and talking shit to all the other dogs. I’d like you to have bows in your hair, but you’d hate that so I won’t hold you to that one.

So here it is babe. Goodbye. I love you. There will never be another brown dog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart all the way to the top.

See you when I see you Luna Tuna Bamboona Schumschuma Savannah Hunt. ❤️

[echoesoftheinfinite]

I want someone who admires me with the same intensity as they admire the moon and the stars.

[remanence-of-love]

[shinhati]

cemeteries aren’t creepy they’re actually devoted to memory and rest and love and humanity

[authenticity2025]

[katelynntheyogi]

This is a talent that I never wanted.

[remanence-of-love]

[black-inked-soul]

No one is hotter than someone who longs for your soul more than your body.

[gqandw]

[katelynntheyogi]

Oh babygirl,

First off, do you shit with that ass?

Anyways, LMFAO.

Please read this when you need some kind words. I’m going to talk to you the way I would talk to Sara. So like. Do with that what you will.

You feel like a loser. A grade A piece of shit. You aren’t. You are doing okay. So what if you can’t carry in a FULL ASS couch BY YOURSELF. That does not make you less of a woman. Or less independent. Or less strong. You are fucking strong. You broke off your engagement 3 MONTHS ago. Not 3 years. ( and not that time defines where you need to be, but its fresh) You are literally on your own and navigating life just fine. Is it messy? Fuck yes. Does that make you less of a person? Absolutely not! Why do you keep holding yourself to the standards that you know are not achievable but you’re so determined to maintain? You are doing OK you are OK you’re taking good care of your animals, you still have a social life you still find some thing every single day to be thankful for, just let yourself breathe. Who cares if that guy ghosted you? He was probably a piece of shit then. if he ghosted you now why do you want him to stay in your life later? How many people have to tell you that you’re doing a good job before you just fucking listen to them? How many times do people have to tell you to give yourself a break before you finally do? You are running your self into the ground and for what? You literally had people last night tell you they would pay for somebody to mow your lawn just to give yourself a fucking break. You don’t find people like that; those are the people that you want to hold onto. Not these assholes that come into your life make you feel pretty for a week and then leave. Who gives a fuck about those guys? I’ll tell you who- NOT YOU. Leave those idiots for the rest of the women in this world who don’t think that they’re good enough for whatever reason because they’re not where you’re at. You have your own house. You have your own job you have your own animals that you take care of all by yourself and do a damn good job at. You get a wake up every single morning and drink coffee or tea on your back porch and listen to the birds and watch the sun come up. you did this. You made this life for yourself and it did not come easy so then why are you gonna let some mediocre white man come into it and try to fuck it up? Katelynn, you are better than this. You are more than a nice set of tits and ass if somebody doesn’t see that the first time they even talk to you; then we don’t give a fuck about them. I don’t care if he drives the biggest fucking truck in the county or has the nicest tattoos or the nicest truck; we do not give a fuck about them. Stop comparing what you have to what other people have because they are not you. They are not living this life with you. You’re trying to hard to be perfect at everything and you’re sucking at all of it. So, stop trying so fucking hard.

You are a beautiful soul. If a man doesn’t know this then he’s not the man for you.

So stop being fucking ridiculous and ask for help. Call fucking Nancy. She will always pick up, well maybe not, but you have people that love you and will help you so stop trying to do this all by yourself. Just because your dad told you that you have to be able to do these things does not mean that he was even able to do these things.

Your dad was not able to do all of these things that he put onto you. That’s why he put them onto you.

Yanno did you ever stop to think about maybe you’re stronger than you ever give yourself credit for?

Stronger than your mom and dad?

Fuck babygirl, you made it. 

[katelynntheyogi]

Hey you,

I hope you’re doing well. Honestly. How’s your dad? Is his knee doing okay? I know the rain and weather can really cause some pain. Is your mom still hating her job? Has Sandy been going to PT often? I’m sure her arm is slowly, but surely getting better. How’s work been? Is the clinic busy? I bet Jacqueline is still being a bitch. Any conferences planned for the year? I know you like to travel, but you do miss home when you’re gone too long. How’s Doggo and Aiofe? Are they adjusting well in wherever you are? Is Doggo still on his meds every day? Does Aiofe still like her buttons? Car still running good? I’m happy for you.

How am I?

Oh I’m good! Yeah. I have been staying busy as I’m sure you can imagine. I never knew how to stop moving & still don’t. The kids are all good. Franklin is doing really well now actually. I have been keeping up on the house just fine. Changed a few things since you left. They came out really good. You know I was always good at making a house a home. Ratchet is actually a really sweet cat and I’m glad that I kept him. He makes the hard days a little bit better. Luna and I have been managing the heat really well and we are staying pretty cool. You know that was always a worry when we first moved in. It is really nice out here. I’m glad I stayed. How’s my family? Oh they’re good! Sara and Carter have been really great. I don’t know what I wold do without them. (I’d lie here) And my parents? They are good too! I’ve gotten dinner with them a few times and they came over to see my house. They liked it (end lie). I’ve been making a lot of yummy recipes that I have the time to try now. None that you would have liked I’m sure.

I wrote something for you.

Andrew asked about what my first dance song would be and I told you I didn’t know. Then you asked if I could pick any song regardless of the person what would it be? It was supposed to be all your’n. I was supposed to hold you and dance to a song about loving you, and till my lungs give out, but now I don’t waste of breath on your name.

He asked me about an open bar at the wedding. We were supposed to have an open bar for four hours. We both would’ve had a signature drink just for us.

I gave all of me to you. I broke down every wall. Every bridge. Every single thing that I had put up to protect myself. And I let them all down for you. I love you so honestly and beautifully and for what? You didn’t see it. You didn’t see any of it. I reached into my chest and pulled out my heart for you to look at it and tell me it was damaged.

“ you need therapy”

“ you need medication”

Were you wrong? No.

But I changed my ways. I grew. I replace those old habits with new ones while you sat there and kept doing the same cycles that you always did. I watched you stop trying with yourself. I watched you stop trying with me.

We were supposed to get married. We were supposed to be in love forever. You were supposed to hold me at all the bad days and good days. You were supposed to be there when I fell. You weren’t.

I broke. And you were in bed. I was hyperventilating and you were sleeping. I was standing in front of you begging for something and you told me I was cheating on you.

I think that nights are so hard because it reminds me of the miles I would drive to see you. Craving you. Loving you.

As fast as I fell in love, I fell out I know I shouldn’t have even done it in the first place, but I regret nothing I don’t think in any lifetime we would’ve worked.

Did I think your love was never really true?

Maybe I do.

Keegan we had it all. We had the house, the ring, the family, and I thought the love. When I stopped to look at what we really had; it was nothing. No connection. No love. You were my best friend and I think that maybe that was all we ever could have been. That’s ok. It really is. You’re not a nice person. You took advantage of me and my heart. That’s not okay. That’s why I’m bitter. That’s why I’m mad. You will know just how not okay this was soon. I promise because, unlike you, I’m a woman of my word. I’m more of a man then you will ever be.

I wish you the best, truthfully, just after I make you regret hurting me.

Goodbye Keegan Kalies

Kate

[free-my-mindd]

Someone said, “The reason you isolate when you’re struggling is because you were left alone as a child to deal with your emotions” and I felt that.

[pareisakti]

Oh...

[succulentsiren]

Things women should never feel ashamed of:

• Orgasms

• Receiving money

• Receiving compliments

• Pretty privilege

• Being smart

• Dressing up

• Menstrual cycles

• Emotions and being sensitive

• Expressing our sexuality

• Resting and relaxation

• Asserting our sexual needs

• Maintaining our standards

• Saying No

• Wanting or having children

• Choosing to be childfree

• Our body count

• Our nude body

• Wearing makeup or not wearing makeup

• Having boundaries and protecting ourselves

• Our spiritual practices

• Using witchcraft

• Being ambitious

• Going to college

• Being a housewife or stay at home mom

• Loving who and what we love

[katelynntheyogi]

I don’t think I should be this okay.

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I’ve been trying to stir something up. Only a little. Just to test the waters of my emotions. I only hear quiet. I only hear peace.

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How is it that 3 months ago I was going to marry you. I was going to settle down with you and spend out my days being your wife. I feel like I woke up from this slumber. This slumber of 3 years where I thought I was where I need to be. And maybe it was where I needed to be, but I feel like I woke up and realized I needed to leave.

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I am not saying that I’m in love- because I’m very much not. But the way you look at me is so soft. The way you smile at me across the room when I’m belong cute. Idk. I know I can’t give myself to you. Not yet. I have to keep doing this because I need to be out there. Not in here with you. Watching a stupid scary movie. I wish things were different and maybe they will be someday. If our paths never align, just know that you are a good man. And a great dad.

And you. Fuck you. You have officially played me. You’ve acted so immature at I don’t think I can even believe you’re older than me. What do you think you’re doing? You do want to be alone. Selfish.

Maybe it’s the name. Maybe it’s me to blame. I told you that I missed you. You can’t trust the things I do. I thought you held my heart. You can’t hold on to something you’ve ripped apart. It’s okay. Maybe in another lifetime it’ll be our turn. Otherwise you’re just another picture to burn.

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And lastly, you. Good god. I thought pound town was an imaginary place, but after last night it's better then I ever thought.

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Anyways, it's fun. You only smile like that when you're drinking. i wish i didn't but i do; remember every moment on the nights with you.

[katelynntheyogi]

To the woman/man that loves you next:

Well. You have to fold his boxers the right way. He doesn’t like them done any other way. And he probably won’t eat dinner but if you make something he might. Only if it smells good enough for him. He likes to work on things- especially landscapes- but he has to be okay. If he’s not okay, make him tea and let him be alone. For awhile. He does not like to be overwhelmed with talking or touching. If you make him mad just walk away. He won’t communicate with you if he thinks you’re going to defend yourself. He likes to have his back rubbed, but not scratched. His socks also have to be folded a certain way too. He doesn’t like to do laundry, but will do other chores if you ask him 20 times. He might like adventures in the beginning, but he gets tired easily. So plan to do things alone. He thinks that he knows any and all things and will remind you if you forget.

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If you’re this far then I want to tell you something else. He might be there for you. In the beginning, but as he finds things in his life that are more important, he will leave you to fend for yourself. I think most of the time he means well, but he will hurt your feelings. He will project struggles of his own on to you and if you aren’t strong you’ll fall with him. When he’s sick- he’s a little bitch. It takes him 3 months to recover from a common cold. He is the first to tell you to go to therapy but refuses to go for himself. He’s entitled. I think he might love you, but you’ll never know. His family doesn’t believe anything is permanent so have fun with that one.

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I loved him with all I had. I gave up my home. My family. My life. My safety. All to be with him. It still wasn’t good enough. I still needed to do more.

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I’m tired. Absolutely exhausted. He took the last that I think I had to give. Maybe someday I will have more. I hope. I gave him my most sincere side. He didn’t care. He might have in the beginning, but like everything for him, it fades. I want the best for him. I do. But he doesn’t love himself to really see and love anyone else.

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I wish you both luck. You can have the luck I didn’t get with him. He hurt me in the worst way. Slow. Painfully. Drained me.

[katelynntheyogi]

Here it is. The day that you finally showed me who you are. The man you will be. You stood behind me for three years while I had my world ripped apart. I had it broken into a million pieces and I couldn’t even put them back together by myself. I trusted you. I trusted you with my heart. With apart of my soul. And for what? For you to disrespect me. Hurt me. Manipulate me. Degrade me. You can tell the story that you’re the victim. You’re the one who was betrayed, but the truth is- it doesn’t matter. You told me forever and you lied. You held my heart in your hands and you broke it. I loved you. I really did. But that love is gone. It’s never coming back and if you think that I will allow you to stay in my life- you’re wrong. I’m done. You taught me what I needed to learn, but we are done. You’re a pussy. The sex wasn’t good after the first 6 months, & you need therapy to work thru whatever it is you are going thru. I tried to be there for you. I tried to support you and love you and remind you it was okay. But you’re not okay. I loved you too innocently. Not again. Keegan Casey Kalies, you were another chapter in my book that has ended. I will love again. And he will be the most wonderful man. He’ll love me and take care of me. It’ll be home. He’ll be my home. You lost me. But no; I didn’t cheat on you. You took for granted how deep my loyalty ran. And that’s my fault. I should’ve left you sooner.

[katelynntheyogi]

Oh hey there,

Long time no see.

I wanted to hop on and talk about some things that have happened over the past year. Yanno since you fell in love. Don’t worry. You’re still in love with Keegan Kalies.

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You lost your parents; not physically but emotionally and mentally. It’s going okay. You have days where you think it’s just fucked and you want to fix it. Then, you realize that you can’t because THEY failed you as parents. Maybe one day you will be able to repair what has happened, but as of right now it’s gone. They refuse to support you. As they have consistently done for the last 15 years. You reconnected with Papa. It’s going really well. He missed you and he loves you very much. He met Keegan. I think he likes him. You started your business- Mindful Movements. You have started the journey of healing your inner child. This has been a very sensitive process for you, but I’m proud of you for doing it. You have finally found an amazing group of people to surround yourself with that love and care for you very much. You started taking medication to help with the anxiety and depression. On a lighter note, you ran the Boilermaker 15K on July 10th.

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The whole point of this is so that you can look back and remind yourself how far you have come. What you have lost and what you have still managed to accomplish nonetheless. LIfe is a series of ups and downs, that’s ok. You don’t have to have it all figured out by 23. But you should have a good idea of the types of things you’d like to do during your time on this earth. I know that what I type on here you’ll never really listen to, but you should know something’s that are truth regardless. You are beautiful. You’re brave. You’re strong. You love things with enthusiasm. And lastly, you are in love with one patient man. He’s going to spend his days trying to help you fix the damage that those other men did. He’s never doing to hurt you when you click down the recliner. He’s never going to degrade you for taking a relaxing self care day because you need to. He’s never going to control what you do or who you see. He loves you Katelynn. I hope that you decide that his love is good enough for you. I know you’re scared of settling, but lets face it, you’re not doing that. He challenges you, holds you, saves you from yourself some times. He loves you for the anxious, wild, kind woman you are. You’re ready to start your life with him. At least as of right now, 4:04pm on Oct. 3rd, 2022. Things wont always be easy, but you know that. You’re not stupid Katelynn. You might not love him for the rest of your life, but maybe you will. I know that when he kisses you, you still get that spark. He’s good. You’re good. Allow it to be good and stop fucking it up, lol. You might think that he’s not protective enough, but look at yourself. You don’t want a man to fight your battles. You never have. If a man actually took a stand for you, you’d shut that shit down.

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You are amazing, lover. You can do anything you put your mind to.

Long time no see, maybe.

[cajunwitch101]