long hot summer just passed me by

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- maude, she/her, uk, twenty

- I love music especially post punk, 80s-2000s uk alternative across subgenres, new wave, folk rock, classic rock, soul and lots more! I like music history as well as music journalism and magazines. I also love radio and music tv. I have what can only be referred to as a diseased relationship with bob geldof of live aid fame

- my favourite tv show is peep show and i also post about other britsh sitcoms a lot my favourites are this country, stath lets flats, the young ones and dads army, as well as uk panel shows and comedians such as mock the week and elis james and john robins.

- my favourite films ever are heat (1995) and harold and maude (1971), and im also a really big fan of 70s new hollywood especially elaine may and john cassavettes as well as german new wave. im trying to get back into film watching so will always take recs!

- I also love tudor history and travelling around the uk (i am a bit nerdy about motorways for some reason)

please dont follow if you are under 16. courtney love, hip hop and beatles haters do not follow we will not get along. I love britpop but do not follow if you are one of those weird oasis fans (yk the ones), leave my page and never return. I do post about my mental health issues and im pretty candid about my struggles with self harm and suicidal ideation, as well as immense shame and guilt and paranoia. I hate myself and let people know about essentially. so be wary if you follow :)

discord: adesignformaude

apple music: anewleaf1971

letterboxd with 1 film logged so far: stathletsflatss

[hagenlastkiss]

Sade

📷 Peter Anderson

[frostedmagnolias]

Afternoon Dress

c. 1889

by House of Worth

The Metropolitan Museum of Art

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I cant cut myself on my legs and arms bcs its summer and my family will see so I want to cut my chest like richey did but he was lucky enough to not have boobs and they sort of get in the way of my plan

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Possum at a store in my town

ADORABLE he is so sleepy

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he knows something we dont

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some bird pictures from the avery thats in my local park 🦜

[elgreytea]

What are you reading rn, why are you reading it, and what format are you reading it in (physical book, ereader, on your phone etc)

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it would be a form of medicinal self harm if i stoped taking my tablets but then again andy partridge made english settlement after major valium withdrawal so

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listening to that new transmission live performance that has been released and now more than ever I want to save him

[didalexiabreakupwitholgaisback]

as the world cup continues in north america, we should not turn a blind eye to what continues to happen in plain sight of the entire world as we are supposed to be "celebrating" football 😤

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sort of have to come to terms with the fact that I will never forgive myself for the misdeeds I have committed across my teen years and that they will ultimately be the death of me

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"such a perfect day you made me forget myself i thought I was someone else someone good" is like one of the most gut wrenching lyrics to be in a song that popular it genuinely rips into my heart like thats how it feels to be distracted by something and then for it to come crushing back that you are horrible and its so much worse bcs you have had that absence idk if thats what lou intended but does make listening to that song audio self harm for those of us weighed down by guilt. youre going to reap just what you sow.

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im feeling horrible again like I did last year just mixed with this horrible paranoia I want to cry but I dont even deserve that i dont know what to do

[nesmamomen]

WTF FUCK FUCK FUCK There is absolutely no mercy. My sister cries all day long, her body is covered in sores, and she's become unable to move. When I asked the doctor for help, he told me the hospital pharmacy didn't have any free medication. My sister is still crying from the intense pain I urgently need to buy four boxes of smallpox medication for her. I trust you won't let her down.

[katsadlers]

at uni months ago there was a 2000s band night and it didnt go bcs nobody i know irl likes 2000s uk indie other than my siblings and I really wanted to go :( hopefully they do it again and maybe in my new modules I will meet someone else who has a vehement love of 2000s indie hits the way i do like I take it so seriously I see liking idk blooming lets dance to joy division as a major part of my life bcs I like that era so much 😭😭

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