Bacteria have been the rulers of the planet for most of the Earth’s history – and they are still the rulers of the planet. They still govern the movements of chemicals all around the world. They are in every possible habitat. They are omnipresent, and they are hugely influential. In many ways, our bodies, the bodies of every other animal, or our cities that we are so proud of, all of these are just more habitats for bacteria and other microbes to inhabit.
Every photographer with a simple point-and-shoot camera can make very good snowflake photos. For this type of photography, patience, persistence and luck mean much more than any expensive photo technique. It is necessary to wait for good snowfalls, which brings a large number of interesting and beautiful snowflakes. They happen not so often (at least, in Moscow), but one lucky day can give you lots of wonderful photographs, worth weeks of waiting and capturing only non-interesting crystals. [via]
Made an Ikea trip an got most of what I still need for my room, most importantly curtains.
My Wednesday lecture was cancelled, giving me most of the day to use how I pleased.
Got a “tip” for tutoring Wed., 5€ more per hour.
Somehow got my butt out to run 3 times.
Despite being a very long and frustrating day, my birthday ended on a positive note: Glühwein with a friend, a surprise birthday brownie (+ dulce de leche), and a good secret santa gift at the work Christmas party.
I’ve been encompassed in a thick cloud of negativity lately. There are many things that are / have been contributing - some big, some small, some minute; some external and some internal. Lots of anxiety, lots of stress. I’m exhausted, have extremely tense neck and shoulders, have had several tension headaches, and it seems I can feel my immune system weakening.
There are moments where I feel completely overwhelmed and frustrated. And when I’m not completely freaking out about something I feel foggy...heavy...sad... empty.
My stress coping strategies (breathing, running) aren’t helping - mainly because I’m not really doing them. My fault, I know. But It’s that heaviness, sadness, emptiness (and partly the mountain of shit I have to do) that makes me feel I can’t do these things, that there’s no time (running) or that it’s pointless (breathing).
With all this negativity, I feel like I am teetering on a dangerous edge. Frustration and anger, self-deprecating thoughts, anxiety, self-hate, apathy, self-hate, binge-eating, self-hate ... an all too-familiar and very dangerous cycle.
So, in an effort to steer myself away from the edge... I’ll reflect on a few positive things from this week.
My wardrobe is finally reassembled - now I can get all my clothes out of boxes and suitcases.
Have my first tutoring client and am going to be paid a little more than I was going to ask.
Finally bought good tea and unexpectedly got 10% off.
Got out for a relatively spontaneous run once ... better than nothing?
Had some delicious mulled wine at my friend’s little Christmas market after a hard, long day waitressing.
Listing these 5 things don’t really make me less frustrated or less anxious about all the stuff going on. It was hard to think of / remember these things. And right away I was flooded with negative thoughts. I can think of a negative thing to say about each of those things right now. I’m not a huge fan of of the “just think positive” attitude, at least as a solution to problems; it does have it’s place. But some things just suck. And it’s OK that they suck; that’s life. But maybe if I do this again regularly, I can at least cope a little better and regain a sense of control and purpose.
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