But it’s so Hard! (no, not that!)
I want so desperately to be content. And that about goes toward every aspect of life. Don’t you find that difficult? For me, whether it’s money, job, knowledge, talent, material possessions, appreciation, or even the number of girly tennis shoes in my closet, contentment is tough. How hard indeed to be content with who you are, with what you’ve got, in the place where you are!
Clearly, contentment doesn’t stifle progress. It’s doesn’t have to be static or lazy. Contentment creates peace with where you are and with who you are. So, perhaps contentment make progress more attainable and joyful? I’m sure I need to learn.
I consider my girliness to be quite challenging. Shaving my legs, wearing panties, my girly shoes or jeans, the occasional girl top, or the sporadic days that call for a sports bra under my boy shirt, are all delights that make me feel more like a girl. Slathering my body with a floral lotion, sculpting my short fingernails to a subtle oval, plucking a few eyebrows, painting toenails, or permitting myself to have more feminine mannerisms, are subtle things that can make me happy. It’s all challenging because, whereas I adore being feminine, I also like being a man. And I guess that this is where I must be content to be a feminine boy–to not be a girl, but to be girly as a boy.
For many of you, this meandering simply doesn’t apply. You won’t be content until you’re all girl. For others of you, you really don’t want to be feminine or girly or “swishy” even–you just like your sissy moments. That is fine and I’m proud of you for being you. But, for those like myself, perhaps we will find more peace for ourselves by forging on in our femininity without an end goal of losing our bits or growing new bits. And I think that’s okay, even if I find that tough to believe. Maybe, that’s contentment in being a feminine boy.
I need to hear this as much as it needs to be said: There’s only one of you. That means that you are unique. Respect you for who you are and how that might mean something special for who you will be sometime and somewhere in the future.
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