MY PERSPECTIVE

Mind your own. This is all my insights. I don't care if don't deal with them. WEAK. FRAGILE. ⚠️

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Pag (h/t) anga 😊

May magagandang bagay pa rin na nangyayari nang hindi mo inaasahan. Masaya pagkat hindi mo inaasahan. Hindi mo inaasahan sapagkat ang alam mo e hanggang dun lang sa hindi mo inaasahan. Hanggang dun lang ang alam mo dahil hindi mo talaga inaasahan. Maaring paulit ulit pero ito ang aking nararamdaman. Pero sana, maulit muli ang bagay na iyon na hindi ko talaga inaasahan. Sa parehong pagkakataon tayo nagkakilala at sa tulong niyon ay lumago kahit konti ang ating pagsasama. Pero sana, hindi pa dito matatapos ang lahat. Mabait ka, alam ko. Nakikita ko. Nararamdaman ko. Maliban na lang kung dahil lasing ka o dahil may espesyal na tao kang kasama. Pero okay lang. Natutuwa akong makita kang tumawa dahil ko. Masarap sa pakiramdam, sa totoo lang. Ang hindi lang masarap sa pakiramdam ay ang hindi ka makita kahit isang araw pa lang ang nakakaraan. Oo, may paghanga ako. Pero paumanhin kung ganito ako humanga. Malala. Alam kong masasaktan lang ako kung hihingin ko ang mas malalim na relasyon dahil alam kong hindi mo ito maiibigay. Nung isang araw ko pa itong nararamdamn pero inip na akong makita kang muli. At mas naiinip akong maglaho ang paghangang ito. Nakakainip pagkat kung magpapatuloy pa ito, mas masakit. Mas mahirap pakawalan. Mas mahirap bumitaw. Hinihiling kong maglaho ito para pag nagkita tayong muli, ang mamimiss ko lang ay ang iyong pagbati sa akin, ang ating mga usapan bilang magkaibigan. Yun lang. Wala na ang mas malalim na nararamdaman.

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Bigla ko lang naalala ang T3.

Ang ganda ng hangarin ng Tulfo Brothers sa pagbibigay serbisyo sa ibang tao. Natutulungan yung mga naagrabyadong mamamayan na hindi makalban sa mga may kapangyarihan sapagkat sila ay normal lang na mamamayan. Mas nagiging madali ang pagresolba ng mga problema sa tulong ng aknilang agapang pagresponde.

Ngunit napansin ko lang na, oo matapang nga sila. Matapang in a way na kaya nilang prankahang kausapin ang ibang tao (tulad ng mga kapitan ng barangay at iba pang taong nanunugkulan). Pero minsan ang kanilang pagmamatapang ay bahgyang nakakabastos sa kausap sapagkat parang inaalisan nila ng dignidad ang mga taong sangkot at nasasangkot sa ilang iskandalo sa ilang barangay. Isa pang punto, ay yung sinabi nila pakisaksak na lang dun sa isang tao (di ko tanda ang ngalan at kung anung nagawang masama na taliwas sa kanilang paningin) kung makikita nila. 

Ang sa akin naman. Hindi masamang tumulong sa ibang tao. Maganda ang hangarin pero dun naman tayo sa mas maganda at paraang alam nating pantay at hindi lubos na negatibong makakaapekto sa mga manonood lalo na sa mga bata. 

Tanong ko lang. Antagal na nila tong ginagawa ngunit parang hindi pa sila na nakukwestiyon ng mga taga-MTRCB. Yung ibang network, mas mababaw ang mga kasalanan kumpara sa  ginagawa ng T3 tapos minsan, suspendido kaagad ang palabas.

Wag sanang ganon, ano? May pagkakapantay-pantay sana. Ito naman ay opinyon ko lamang. Pakisabi po sa akin kung mali ang punto ko. Salamat :)

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Silence makes you think.

It doesn’t mean that you are weak.

Silence makes you human.

It is the sleep that nourishes wisdom.

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Smile.

Though life offers you such troubles.

Be contented.

Be delightful.

Because you only live once,

And thank God for that chance.

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Withered.

Unlike my affection for you, still existing.

Wrinkled.

But you will remain in this life

That I am living.

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Coping Up

I have never expected that it would be this complicated for me to survive in a society where so much criticisms exist—the way you make-up and dress yourself, the way you talk and walk and even the sexual preference you are belong with. This is the humanity that I have woke up with. And this is where my whole life rotates in my many years of existence. It was summer vacation before I enter fifth grade in primary school. The hot, sizzling season was frozen by a request of a community leader. I was inquired to join the volleyball league in our sitio. Except of having a capability of playing it, I had no idea why I was chosen to be one of the players. And oh! It was like this. Every team should have to have a gay player. My world has just stopped in a bit. I didn’t know what I should feel that time. I didn’t know if it should be happiness that I can play one of my favorite games, shyness because I was not known in the society in a way that one particular gay should be or fear—fear of those persons who might possible tease over me and the fear that the treatment of my close friends more importantly my family will change. But the league ended that was never teased by somebody. I can’t help but to smile that I conquered those concerns and uncertainties. I was overwhelmed when one of my co-players told me that I was a good player. That paid the negativities that I felt that time. I considered it as very good compliment. But maybe those persons only treated me that way because they know that I was that young to suffer the consequences of having this preference. Many years had passed. Same routines. Same experiences. Same approach. But all of these had changed when I entered third year in secondary school. I really knew my true preference at that time. What I want. What I enjoy most of the times. What preference that I admire. I had so much laughter with my girl classmates. Many instances like I was going out of the room, I want to have a girl company and if it would be a boy, I would choose the handsome one that I will enjoy the moment with. I was that chatty that is not normal for a boy. These instances ignited more of my understanding of what preference I do have. In doing these things, I experienced so much tease. Majority of the mankind always made me feel different. They used to under-estimate my abilities. When there were forums discussing sexual preference, I have nothing to do but to put myself away from them because I know that I won’t be a help to them and I will be only discriminated which I hate most. There were also instances that most of my boy classmates always telling me, “Ikaw nama’y bakla”! Though I know in myself the real me, it’s still hard for me to accept those painful criticisms. Most of my friends always asking me if I do not have any problem because they used to know me as happy to be with person. They didn’t know that in spite of those punch lines, there was a hidden loneliness that I used to not let them know when I’m with them. I can’t help but to keep silent and always hoping that everything would be okay at the right time though there were sleepless night thinking those instances that pulled me down and lonely nights that were filled of anger and thoughts of discrimination. But these made me stronger and molded the new me. I admit that I had a fault of why this happened to me. I was never true to myself. I wasn’t able to introduce myself for who I am. I was not prepared enough to face those problems. And up to now, I can’t find time to tell my parents my true preference. Though they knew already when I was selected to be one of the volleyball players, it’s important if it would come from you—more personal, more truthful and the more emotion you spend, the more understanding they would have. Of all those bitter happenings in my life, it’s time for me now to be me. I learned to have more understanding. I uplifted myself from varied criticisms. I overcame the discriminations that once made me cry. There is nothing wrong of being true to yourself. As you are doing this, you can feel the acceptance and realization of why the unexpected things happen. It feels better when you are with yourself and eventually, you will find different feeling of satisfaction. Somehow, I’m happy now having this preference. I have the abilities that others do not have. I have the talents that I can be proud of. I have my inspiration that always lightens my day. I have my friends whom I spend laughter with. And above all, I have my family whom I know can accept me for who I am, make me feel free and will never make me feel that I am different. I cannot have these things if I relinquish. I still believe that for to live fully is to live with pain. Exactly of what life is all about.

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BULLLLLSHYIIIT.

You can’t stop the feelings you have for someone. You can’t lie to yourself either. Your heart knows the truth all too well.It’s easy to deny what you feel, and lie about your feelings. But to convince yourself you’re over it, actually isn’t so easy…When you lie, the worst person you can convince is yourself. When you start to believe in your own lies, you know you’re astray.

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If this isn't love, Tell me what it is. :))

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WALANG MAY SALA

Hindi kita pag-aari ngunit bakit ganoon ako masaktan,

Pag may ibang tao nang katulad ko rin ang nararamdaman,

Walang titulo ang ating relasyon ni hindi pa magkaibigan,

Bakit nga ba kayhirap tanggapin ang katotohanan?

Kaysarap isipin ang mga posibilidad na maaaring mangyari,

'Yung tipong ikaw at ako'y magkasama palagi,

Walang sinasayang na sandali,

At ikaw lang ang tanging dahilan ng aking mga ngiti.

Sino nga ba ako upang magmay-ari ng iyong puso,

Isa lang akong hamak na taong may paghanga sa iyo,

Sa iyo na ang tulad ko ay maaaring walang puwang sa iyong puso,

Ngunit umaasa pa rin na kahit pagkatao ko'y matanggap mo.

Hindi ko kasalanan kung bakit ko ito nararamdaman,

Lalo na ang mga taong ikaw rin ang hinahangaan,

Natural lang siguro ito sa taong tulad kong

Minsan nang namaliit sa lipunan.

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LOVE begins with ATTRACTION.

--TheMistress

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I can't end my day without hearing this inspiring song. :))

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Ang Pag-Ibig Ay Parang Dagat

Maalat man, habang nakababad ka dito, mas madaling maghilom ang mga sugat mo. Sugat sa iyong katawan. Minsan sugat na dulot ng mapait na nakaraan. Ang pag-ibig ay parang dagat. Kahit di ka marunong lumangoy, kapag nanatili ka ng matagal dito, matututo ka din kung pano sumunod sa daloy nito. Ika’y makakaahon sa kabila ng mga malalakas na alon; alon ng buhay na minsan ay lulunod sa’yo.

Dahil ang pag-ibig ay parang dagat.

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