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She tried to say this was ok but I’m the only person here lol. I feel so… fuck.

I just want to be happy and for someone to genuinely be happy to interact with me. I want them to care bout me and to show it.

I think my issue is id put my bare tits on your back as long as you cared me. I want to hold you and for you to hold me and for nothing to be between us.

I don’t know the diff between friend love and regular love it’s all love and love is hard for me to feel so if I feel it and can define it as such I mean it.

#saddness #lone wanderer #i love you and i don't know why #love me

It doesn’t matter how much I care about them how much I do they’ll never give me back that level of effort.

#sad thoughts #depression

It hard to explain being the kid no matter the situation. I feel so behind in life — the people I work with are married. They did it right and found someone to be with. I can’t even introduce a significant other. They talk about kids at all ages. Trips with family. All these things I can’t even wish for. I wish I could have been normal. Able to be loved too. It seems like that part of my life will always be me playing pretend.

I’m so fucking pissed my life always falls apart when I’m trying to take time off and enjoy myself. I’ve got to stop trying to enjoy anything.

#depression #angry as fuck #mentally tired #mentally drained

In some ways I think TikTok is worse than Facebook. FB was people you knew most of the time, I’ve been to those homes seen these folks and know them so seeing them thrive is one thing. Seeing strangers- people whom say they lived on a F-150 car seat and never had parents making 7 figures because they made a witty one liner or took a free course on YouTube and made it big. It fucking hurts. You can work forever and never get lucky never get seen.

#depression #you may not succeed #tiktok #TikTok depression #social media

I need money. I check OF every week. I really don’t know what to do anymore. I need a new job but I can’t get hired. I need a second job but I’m so stressed from the first one I can’t concentrate. I legit spend the week in a trance. I can’t enjoy stuff I like because I’m too tired. I hate living and I keep saying it and there is nothing anyone can do to help. I wish I could just take my blanket and lay in Telegrapgh and go to sleep forever. I don’t see a future of anything but pain and loneliness. Extremely stressed because i may not be able to go on my own Black Friday trip. First year I couldn’t buy my presents in advance and not sure if I’ll be able to get anything. I hate each morning I wake up and realize I’m alive.

#depression #depressing shit #suicudal #send me money #money slave #i hate it so much #angry as fuck #pissedoff

I wish I could say that I went away and it got better. Some things did improve. But as more things fell into place others got messed up. Some stuff that never got addressed grew mold as it spoiled in the back of my head. I don’t have the same dreams anymore.

#return #sad thoughts #depression

Well I guess I better knock the dust off this thing

The internet gives me a void to silently scream into.

If the void wants to respond it can.

If not at least I’m not screaming myself hoarse/breaking things and waking the neighbors.

#depression #internet #scream

zoe56

#seeyouspacecowboy #galaticbadass #chicago #detroitinthehouse #colorcrew #lollapalooza #lollapalooza2017 Met a lot of beautiful chill people. Made some great memories! It was wonderful and I would love to return next year! (at Lollapalooza)

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