Words that go unheard

But we speak them anyway

[historyy]

things to normalise

- gay parents - female masturbation - guys showing emotion - they/them pronouns

[alkjira]

-periods -women in positions of power -gender neutrality -adoption

[zorrabelle]

-breast feeding

[ogsplendapapi]

-men supporting each other emotionally

[deebott]

-Body hair

[2jam4u]

-living with a mental illness -trans women -trans men -trans people -trans people -trans people -trans people!

[keepmelookingup]

Sometimes I just don’t know what to say to cute people

and then I awkwardly compliment them and hobble off. Seriously.

[tachylyte]

fun fact: just because someone doesn’t talk about their disability doesn’t mean it’s not there

[keepmelookingup]

exaaactlyyyyy

[helpmequitmydayjob]

Best thing on the internet

[keepmelookingup]

This is really just a saved picture to send as proof. Remember: 1 picture= an excuse for life.

[princess-stabbity]

you know, the best thing about ted cruz’s speech saying “vote with your conscience” is he doesn’t actually say “don’t vote for trump” like he literally let trump supporters themselves make the leap that voting for trump = not voting with your conscience

it’s exactly the kind of cunning and underhanded move one would expect from a time traveling serial killer

[keepmelookingup]

me: do i give a fuck

depression: no

anxiety: yes

me: fuck

[tastefullyoffensive]

(via lordkarnage)

[dwgif]

[keepmelookingup]

One way to start an orgy.

[keepmelookingup]

when you’re alone and there’s nothing left

I could really use a doctor. or my medications. or an apple. or a hug. 

or just to stop crying and feeling like i’m better off dead. 

[keepmelookingup]

BTW

I have crushes on so many people. It’s pretty great :) they’re all super adorable and I can’t even handle it, so I just run away. Well, hobble, I hobble.

[keepmelookingup]

Delaying

Instead of starting a movie at, I don’t know, 1:40am I’m going to list to music and write because I haven’t done that in a minute.

One thing about starving like this that people don’t see/ understand/ recognize is when I am actually given, like, a full plate of food? My eyes are much, much bigger than my stomach. This is sad and frustrating for me because I look at the full plate and think of how long I could stretch it out for. Two, three days? When you’re consuming maybe 500-800 calories a day, mostly in liquid form, to see and actually eat food is.... a privilege. I don’t even have the right word. Anyway, point is, I had food today when I saw my sister and it was delicious. We ate cole slaw and I ate pulled pork. I know, I know, my Jew guilt is so real. 

I think when I tell people I’m starving, they think I’m kidding... or somehow being facetious. Except I’m not. For instance, yesterday (Friday) I was at the point where my heart rate was at 39bpm after running up 3 flights of stairs and all I could do was let the room spin while I tried to stop sweating so profusely. If you run up 50 stairs and your heart rate immediately after the fact is 39? There’s a fuckin problem.And the problem is my body is shutting down. I know this. 

I’m trying to get a job and after tons of interviews, I’m waiting for call backs. This is why the weekend sucks- the waiting. I’m distracting myself with Marshal and beach time and I got invited (with a ride!) to the Black Lives Matter rally in Lewiston tomorrow night (Sunday.) Until I get a job and my previous job finally pays me, I am broke as fuck... thus why I’m starving. 

I’ve lost quite a bit of weight because of it and I’m trying to... I don’t know... be grateful for that? Without having it trigger my eating disorder shit. Surprisingly, that hasn’t really happened because I have absolutely nothing to restrict. Anything I eat is getting used as energy only since there are plenty of days that I go without entirely. Anyway, my starving probably seems insignificant because I’m overweight. I get that, I could afford to lose weight, but probably not by being so poor I literally can’t eat? And there are so many travelers right now, even the garbage is usually picked clean in the OP. 

You are what you eat. Some days I’m nothing, some days I’m only water, 

but I’ll be trash til the end.

[keepmelookingup]

Erik Petersen is dead

He killed himself.

I went to a Black Lives Matter protest either the day of or day after he died...

I found out he was dead after the fact from some traveler kids who were at the protest. They crashed at my place and told me this. 

Yesterday, I went to a poetry slam and so many people from the protest were there. Strangers until we shouted together. Strangers until we tried to protect Black and Brown lives and the police tossed us aside to arrest those who were being given space to grieve. 

We aren’t strangers anymore. We have faces and names, we’re activists. We know who our own are now.

It only takes one.

Spark the fire.

[keepmelookingup]

More weed, more weed, more weed!

Seriously, though, I need to get blazed as fuck and then, idk, shower probably because I’m so gross.

[keepmelookingup]

Slip C-17

When you don’t know what else to do

and you just want to die all the time

make a casual encounters ad on Craigslist

respond to every email

choose the nice guy

find out the nice guy

wants you to puke on his dick

wants to

lick your feet

suppose you don’t like that shit

and you leave

because being on a boat 

isn’t worth all that unsanitary mess

and you leave

because you’re a Virgo

and you have better things to do.

Better ways to not die than

choking on your own vomit

and some old man’s dick.

You go home and smoke some pot

think about washing the puke off

your trashy self.

Look at you, so alive

so willing to let the world

face fuck you on a boat

you would do anything to stay alive

remember that next time.

[keepmelookingup]

Apparently my hip’s been outta place a while because I just heard the very audible sound of it going back in. Now, the significant ache of a fixed joint. I’m glad I took one of the muscle relaxers, but soon my body is gonna just hurt so bad from “relaxing”. Bowl, bowl, bed probably. And cigs. 

Goodnight <3 

[just-shower-thoughts]

In the 90s, kids went outside to play. In the 2000s, kids stayed inside to play video games. As of last week, kids go outside to play video games.

[keepmelookingup]

We’re all kids here. 

[boxesofpepe]

Karen Walker GIFs 7/∞