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I never would’ve believed you

if three years ago, you told me I’d be here

writing this song

I want to write about the things and feelings I felt too guilty to write about before. The times I felt broken, the times I felt I didn’t get what I deserved. But I didn’t want to admit it. Not to myself, not to anyone else. It’s okay to admit people aren’t perfect...it’s okay to let them go. I knew, if I admitted all these things, I’d have to face reality. That the people I love and adore, the reality of who they are is not equal to my opinion of them. I didn’t want to say that before, I wouldn’t even let myself think it. But I want to grow and mature, thrive, become the person I want to be. And I can’t do that if I can’t even be honest with myself.

MK Ireland #274 : guilty thoughts

I watched the sun rise

saw the light hit your eyes

and smiled at your beauty

I saw you stumble out of bed

so many thoughts in your head

and go about your day

I watched you walk back in

your hand on my chin

and you kissed me hello

I saw the moon shine

more reflection in your eyes

I smiled, this is home.

MK Ireland #273 : untitled 2

And I stood in the tall grass

that lined the beach

looking at the depth before me

The expanse of ocean

and its movement

I watched the waves meet the shore

with force

I wondered what it meant to be so sure of yourself

I wondered what it meant to be vulnerable

to let others see my fury

my sorrow

and my power

and to not be afraid they would leave me

I wondered what it meant to be secure

I’d never known that feeling

MK Ireland #272 : untitled

You stay because you love them.

And they tell you they love you.

Because you want to believe it’s somewhere deep in there— and maybe it is.

But not enough.

Not in the way you need.

-MK Ireland #271 : 12/24/2019

I found a person who’s able to carry my love, without it spilling over. I found someone who can hold me.

- MK Ireland #270 : i found you

So I guess this is our new destiny: a connection fated to walk in parallel lines, never touching.

MK Ireland #269 : intersection

I don’t know how to hold you as anything other than my everything.

So we settled for nothing instead.

MK Ireland #268 : what we lack

You are the hole in my head

You are the space in my bed

You are the silence in between

What I thought

And what I said⚡️

You are peace and gratitude. You are all things calm and comforting. You are a light rain on a sunny day, tapping against my window. You are the calm, not the storm.

MK Ireland #267 : choose peace