#midnight feels

[mali-safi]

In my feels but we stay cute 🫠

[5music-is-life5]

Just thought I'd let my random music tumbler know I am falling asleep to some fire beats we have Olivia Rodrigo, Conan Gray, Noah Kahan, Lexi Jayde, Sadie Jean, Nessa Barrett, Lauren Spencer Smith and more on the line up tonight like every night.

Cause I play the same playlist to fall asleep to every single night.

My Playlist is called midnight feels because it has mostly sad slow songs and I usually listen to it around midnight just so you know.

👍

[ninichii-xcix]

It was never silence that she needed; it was warmth. It was never space that she yearned for, but presence. Because she isn’t the type of person who’d crave the punishments she grew up with that still haunt her to this day. She doesn’t want silence, because it reminds her of the deafening coldness from her father whenever she does something wrong. She doesn’t want space, because it’s a cruel reminder of how her mother would go on for days, weeks without talking to her, just because she couldn’t be the perfect daughter. She fell in love to finally have the warmth and love she couldn’t receive back then when she was a mere child. She fell in love so she could finally have company, someone who chooses her the way she chooses others without hesitation. She didn’t fall in love to have the same gnawing loneliness pull her into the void she once desperately tried to crawl out of.

[thisismyrgatroyd]

any point betwixt 1-3am feels cold but so warm.

its that point where you feel full but starving.

music is overwhelming but its just the right thing for you right now.

people have lied to your face but they have also loved you.

inspiration flows so freely but putting pen to paper makes your fingers cramp up.

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i really want a peanut butter sandwhich.

[thewitchofdeath]

Part 2

Take away a part of me,

A curse to feel everything deeply,

Let me return to nothing,

Let my heart go cold,

End my suffering now,

Take away my very soul,

And I shall lie here waiting,

A smile faded in night air

Waiting for fate to take me,

Wherever it may lead.

Picture credit-

https://twitter.com/Draculasswife?s=09

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Photography by Nona Kommen.

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[tea-drinking-bitch]

I'm probably gonna regret this in the morning, but I need to share with someone and what's better than tumblr where nobody follows me anyway?

Whenever I think about having a crush (which I might or might not have) I just tell myself no, you don't, you have too many issues, don't add romance to it too and then I don't think about it. And I know I'm right, and if I allowed myself to have a crush it would end horribly for me, but I have never felt any sort of romantic feeling and while I know being aromantic is fine, I can't help but think what if the reason is that I never allowed myself those feelings?

The fact that whenever I think about being in a relationship or having my first kiss I think about her and only her is also not helping. I have all the symptoms of having crush, but I always ignore it so I actually don't know if I really have a crush or not.

The thing is I don't have many close relationships outside of my family. Like yes, there are some friends, but I'm always their second choice and I don't know how to act around them. She makes it easier. When I see people talking about their friends and its so obvious from the way they are talking about them that they love them I wish to feel that way about someone too. And I don't know whether the thing I'm looking for is romantic love or platonic, either way I don't have it and it hurts.

I have trouble being myself in front of people, i mean I'm always myself, i just hide the parts I think the person I'm talking to would hate. I don't know how to have a normal conversation and I can't trust people. I don't know why. It's not like I had some bad experience, i just think that they will see me as me and won't like it so I don't tell people personal things.

But with her it's easier. I think I understand her. She makes every conversation fun, maybe because she is funny and smart and really amazing and I'm not, but when I'm around her i feel like myself. And I don't know if that's because I like her or because she is just like that. And I don't know if I actually like her or if I just want to be her friend.

And I will never know because I won't allow myself to explore these feelings.

[pretenxiouspsyche]

not to sound suicidal or anything but....why the fuck do I have to live in this unforgiving world where the only thing that gives me hope is to somehow escape into another one?

[indigomillennias]

My personality does not match my selfies...but let me be your dream girl for a night.