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I was going to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich but we don’t have much left and I’m pretty sure that’s all my mom is taking to work for lunch.

My next thought was maybe have some summer sausage and crackers but we only have one single serve thingy of crackers and I don’t want to take those from my mom because I’m sure that after the peanut butter rubs out that’s her next option.

Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to be an addict. To have something that frees you of your pain however temporarily. What a feeling that must be.

End of my sad gal era : )

Over the past few years Ive gone through a lot and also overcome a lot. With such a busy schedule it's been hard to allow myself the time and space that I needed to heal from various experiences.

I wont say that im fixed or totally in the clear but ive grown and I can recognize that im better equipped. My campus has a few triggers and its challenging to stay focused but I think instead of just barely keeping my head above water, that ill be able to take a leisurely laps this semester.

Stressed, but controlled. <3 I'm finally okay

#A #academicdepression #sad but true #inspiration #college #don’t forget to tell someone you love them #progress #degree #growth #change is coming #new semester

Venting: literally 24 hrs ago I was with this really sweet guy that I’ve been talking to. Our first date was so nice and he made me feel like a deserve to be loved and I’ve never asked for too much

I know it probably sounds corny but as a chubby girl I found the old me settling for a speck above the bare minimum.

I usually have to ask them to show that they care or beg them to tell me how they feel about us but I never had to do that with him it was all so genuine there was nothing for me to question. He’s a passionate and intimate man I love that about him.

We laughed and spent hours together , even after that we were on ft all night. I’ve never felt so close to someone so fast I could really see a nice relationship for us in the future.

BUT

He got sum terrible news this morning and he needs time to deal with it. I completely understand that but it hurts me to see someone so kind and overly affectionate suddenly be so sad and standoffish. I want nothing more than to make sure that he gets through this and to do that I have to give him space. Right?

You can’t put a time on the grieving process and I’m only home for a little under two months not to mention my love language is quality time and physical touch. 😔

I really like this man and I just want his smile to come back, you should see the way he looks at me 🥹.

#griefrecovery #i miss him #imightlovehim #don’t forget to tell someone you love them #college #new muse #hold me #babe

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It is deeply embarrassing, i think, to be truly earnest about your feelings but it’s also the most important thing in the world

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“Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes.”

— Maggie Kuhn (via quotefeeling)

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Or you stutter cause I been stuttering lately 🥲

My life was spiraling and for some reason I was fine.

I was suspended from school after spring of last semester. There was lot going on with me and ultimately because of depression my gpa suffered greatly.

I was able to come back thankfully for fall bc someone was looking out for me and saw that I was in need of help.

The fall semester started and I was in a college restoration program with sup using my a lot of other people, the whole going to college at the peak of a pandemic thing really beat our asses. fuck ass zoom classes 🙄

The program showed me that there are a lot more people rooting for me than there against me. I have support and I don’t have to sit in the corner of a dark room alone thinking that I’ll never be good enough.

There was a time when it felt like I couldn’t control anything in my life and I thought I wouldn’t be able to academically recover from the spring semester even though I gave the fall semester all that I had.

Because of the people that I got to know the restoration program, I was able to gain acceptance into a new major and I’ll finally be able to let all of my baggage go. I’m literally free , all of the pain and trauma that I had has been overcome. Whatever the circumstances of your situation, pls don’t give up on yourself. Don’t walk away from the life that you see yourself living. Im so much closer to being able to live out my dreams and I can’t believe how far I’ve come. Im so grateful.

When you think everyone around you sees the worst in you , it’s really just you.

You deserve a chance to be happy and live.

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“Sometimes you change your mind about a person. Or your feelings for them change, or they change, or, I don’t know, you just want to make a different decision. And that’s always okay. You don’t owe anyone anything.”

— Emily Henry, The Love That Split the World

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“Sometimes suffering is just suffering. It doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t build character. It only hurts.”

— Kate Jacobs; Comfort Food

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Click here if you had a bad day

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Its safe to click ♡

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This kinda made my day. Felling a lot better now. Thanks for that. ❤️

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I was pretty sure I was gonna get rickrolled but I guess not

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Safe to reblog! 😊❤

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“To attract attractive people, you must be attractive. To attract powerful people, you must be powerful. To attract committed people, you must be committed. Instead of going to work on them, you go to work on yourself. If you become, you can attract.”

— Jim Rohn