KHANAMBANO

Constantly under pressure. like a damn diamond..boi!

[metamorphesque]

― Clarice Lispector

[khanambano]

The pivot to estrangement from a life once so dear to you hurts so deeply. Whatever the circumstance that led you to make that decision; be it a person or event or even accident, suddenly you find yourself in a new space – where you must salvage what is left and rebuild in a new mental and physical space. It hurts.

Year(s) past, you will be sitting amid your colleagues so far removed from that cataclysmic event and your mind wanders to the hurt.

How could they! They were family. You gave them your whole heart and they didn’t so much as ask if you were ok. They left you alone in your misery.

The passage of time, the distance, the estrangement should heal that wound or at least it’s supposed to, right?

Then why do tears swell up and your chest start to constrict just the same as it did when you first realized how little you meant these people. How do you heal from this betrayal?

People say in order to heal, you must forgive others for their shortcomings. But the pain of knowing, even after forgiveness you still have to grieve a family lost. The sting of betrayal will never go away. The trust in their humanity will not be restored. Betrayal leads you to build protective walls and that wall will not be lowered.

In the best of scenarios, my forgiveness leads them to act in a way that will restore my trust in them. They actively participate in the process of reacceptance, rebuilding what we once have, and we can get to where we are comfortable with each other like we once were.

But who is to say everyone will be committed to participate in that? What about other human errors that can lead to further destruction?

People take so much for granted in the good times. They believe it's natural that we get along, we disregard small flaws of each other and that we are happy with each other’s company. Nature always lets us have that first shot; nature is not responsible for us fucking that up completely. It doesn’t help us rebuild it. That’s on us and it's difficult; near impossible.

[khanambano]

I am less then one month away from being married. It just hit me to document this while i sit on a chair in Planet Fitness watching other people workout.

[khanambano]

A few days away from my first anniversary

[khanambano]

Almost at my 3 year mark

[raveezus]

When you are a pure soul you dont lose people, people lose you.

[h0odrich]

I love seeing people carrying flowers bc they look so happy and u kno they’re gonna make someone else mad happy

[khanambano]

Follow me on Instagram at @khanambano and please leave a comment under my recent pic letting me know you came from tumblr!! 😘

[anxietyproblem]

[khanambano]

Yup

[khanambano]

Follow me on Instagram at @khanambano and please leave a comment under my recent pic letting me know you came from tumblr!! 😘

[h0odrich]

I love seeing people carrying flowers bc they look so happy and u kno they’re gonna make someone else mad happy

[khanambano]

Day of disappointments: didn’t get the job that I interviewed for last month.

Inshallah for the better.

[khanambano]

Passed over for promotion to a man.

[thelovejournals]

There is more to life than chasing after someone who does not want to be in yours.

Bianca Sparacino  (via thelovejournals)

[loviely]

i really break my own heart

[19863]

you never think youll become one of those people who goes to restaurants alone and eats alone and drives 4 hours to go chill by a lake in the middle of nowhere alone but then you do

[raveezus]

When you are a pure soul you dont lose people, people lose you.

[kingjaffejoffer]

Check out the zoom on a Nikon P900 camera. 

[reibeibei]

In love……

[vibesygal]

I remember when I had this camera and the zoom shots were the best shots

[tsoki]

I thought this was fucking fake but ?????

what in gods name ………. 

[miss-azura-deactivated20170724]

APPARENTLY THEY CAN ZOOM INTO SATURN TOO WITH THIS THING????

[scaliefox]

I thought it was going to be hilariously expensive, but oddly it’s only $600 (not much more than my Rebel T3 kit that was $450)

http://www.nikonusa.com/en/nikon-products/product/compact-digital-cameras/coolpix-p900.html

The lens is apparently equivalent to 2000mm telephoto.

[hzs-modblog]

What can the macro lens do?

[ghostymcspooky-blog]

WHAT THE FUCK

[krykky]

I have a Nikon Coolpix L820, and I use it to play voyeur with insects.

[lizthefangirl]

I GOT THAT COOLPIX TOO DAWG

[3828281493392929-deactivated201]

i’m buying this tomorrow

[jahmocha]

This is too much power for a single human being to wield….

[khanambano]

I am less then one month away from being married. It just hit me to document this while i sit on a chair in Planet Fitness watching other people workout.

[khanambano]

A few days away from my first anniversary