WORMS AROUND

Khon Fiction is the playground I will be silly in [ it/him/their ]

[khonworm]

Vent comic of a for sure singlet

It’s just easier this way

[khonworm]

Questions for the plural community from a someone, aggressively talking with themself that they are a singlet, who may or may not have been questioning themself seeing some plurality posts that has them reviewing some of their own experiences some years ago but have just went to Just Do Not Think About It mode again but is now Thinking Again

Is there a connection between DID and plurality? Do you have to have the former to be the latter? Or can they be separate matters that have a correlation?

After about a decade of Shutting Myself Up, I think it is time to just listen and learn more. So any recommendations on where I can be pointed to learn more about the subjects will be much appreciated. And it will be nice to hear about your own experiences in the tags or somewhere

[khonworm]

Happy Pride to the four of them

[khonworm]

And if I say Zoey’s the most unhealthy one out of Huntrix when it comes to emotions? How her line of always being on Rumi’s side is actually just another show of her people pleasing? How Zoey’s “For the world” line says a lot about her character? In this essay, I will—

Seriously, I’ve been having these thoughts ever since I’ve first watched the movie months ago and maybe it’s because I do not engage with people in fandom but I have not seen anyone talking about this at all

Even in a lot of fics, which is kinda whatever since characters are devices to use to tell a story and if it involves Zoey being competent when it comes to emotions then you go do that because fanon is a playground we all partake in—but damn canon Zoey is so far off from that

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

100% this!! I've been thinking about it since I realized the same people who make Mira the avoidant/bad communicator usually make Zoey the one that starts all the hard conversations or the one who knows what must be done and like... Just like you say, fandom is a playground and we can all use our toys whatever way we want to, but canon Zoey would not be the healthy communicator!

That woman is a People pleaser, canon itself spells it out to us. You know what people pleasing does to you? It makes you avoid hard conversations because you don't want to upset the status quo, even to your own well being's detriment! It makes you try to juggle everyone's needs and comfort zones even when some of them clash or need to be re-evaluated! Even when you can't keep everyone happy, you will try and fail to do it and then keep trying.

It will literally make you believe that everything is fine or can be fine if you just shut up and endure the uncomfortable aura a little longer! Just as Zoey herself says after the train fight "it doesn't matter. We just need to get through this."

Speaking as people pleaser myself: we are definitely not good at communicating, specially communicating our own needs and wants, and we are usually pretty bad at dealing with direct conflict. Honestly I admire Mira so much because while yeah, maybe she pushed too hard sometimes and clashed too hard with Rumi (unavoidable when directly confronting Fight vs Flight conflict responses) she was actively trying to fix things! I would 100% had been like Zoey and just stayed in my line trying to cling to the normalcy in hopes it resolved on its own with enough time lol. I also love Zoey dearly she's mah little freak <3

[khonworm]

It was actually Mira who said along those lines after the train fight, just a little correction!

Zoey’s line was “You know I’m always on your side, but it’s really hard to understand this time.” Before the “but” line, that is the only instance I could think about that Zoey actually pushed back against Rumi, and expressed disagreement, but even then, it wasnt a full reveal of whatever she may be feeling and she made sure to keep it gentle in her delivery by saying that “You know I’m always on your side.” People pleasing until the end

And she didnt push back earlier on that when Rumi clarified that the whole song was the problem. We see Zoey’s frustration, yes, but she just accepts the answer and goes try to rip out her notebook instead of vocalizing similar thoughts that Mira did as she was trying to tear her notebook

Both Mira and Zoey are observant of the fact that something is going with Rumi, the only difference is that Mira is proactive and will voice out her feelings and frustrations and will approach, while Zoey is avoidant. She tries her best not to rock anything or intrude or ruin things by adding in her own cents and instead gives them ideas that could be solutions

Zoey takes the more analytical, pragmatic approach to things and it makes so much sense when you look at her people pleasing and the line she said during their huddle at the ideal awards

“For the world.” Going back to the train scene, Zoey was still quiet as Rumi and Mira continued to argue and only stepping in, telling them to stop when their fighting is compromising their abilities to be Hunters, their focus to get the job done. But besides that? We dont even get to know how Zoey felt about Rumi and Mira fighting

There is something to be said about Zoey being the lyricist of Huntrix, as well

The way that “Too much and not enough” comes into play here as well. Zoey gives what she can, her words and ideas and energy to the group, but steps back from letting anyone know what she may be feeling, all those “colors stuck in her head”

Also there is something to be said about Zoey’s hopeful yet pragmatic attitude, Rumi’s stubbornness and empathy and Mira being direct yet hesitancy on matters

This is a mess of thoughts, I will be shutting up now

But yes, I LOVE HUNTRIX. I LOVE THEM BEING A MESS

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

Fuck fuck fuck YOU'RE RIGHT!!!

I feel like I failed my girls bu remembering that wrong 😭😭 that's what I get for writting while sleep deprived and in the middle of an axiety crisis lmao.

But yeah rest of my points still stand AND specially with everything you added. I always think about Zoey immediatly trying to go into changing her lyrics because I can imagine how painful that moment was for her. Like... She has a clear ADHD coding and I can't help but headcanon her with heavy RSD and to hear that the lyrics she worked so hard on are not well recieved? Yikes.

And still she pushes down her feelings to try and fix things for Rumi and Mira and keep the barely there balance they have going.

Zoey is really a wild card in the conflict because she doesn't give us much in terms of opinions and stances and that really says a lot about her and her tendency to 'hide her true colors' and fuck now I get more of why my gf believes I'm a Zoey lmao.

And while yeah, Mira definitely still has a lot to learn and unlearn too, I think what really makes her be a step ahead of Zoey and Rumi in this Is the fact that she knows what her issues are. She's the first one to address where she's coming from and she doesn't really need Han to "diagnose" her in that one scene because anything he could've said to her is something she already knew (I think that's very clever writting on the movie's part btw, we learn so much about the characters in what they don't say or let to be said!). While they are all taking baby steps, Mira clearly has done a little bit more walking by this point.

They trully are all a mess when it comes to share their fears and problems (we should at least partially thank Celine for that! (I also love that disaster of a woman but Jesus fucking Christ she's so lucky those girls didn't turn out any worse lol)) but in the end is what makes their relationship so interesting to navigate and makes it so rewarding when they finally make it.

[amjustanobserver]

Okay. I wrote several posts with "Zoey is the most emotionally mature of the three of them" node in mind, and...

I think you guys are right, and I have been wrong.

In my defence, I can bring this whole scene:

Rumi is crumbling like a house of cards. That's understandable, but still.

Mira is crumbling. She is observably shocked and acting almost on autopilot.

Zoey is functioning. Zoey is acting, questioning, and trying to assess the situation.

And even later, when Rumi already fled, Zoey is still trying to do her best. She is asking questions; she is looking for the right course of action. Only to be smashed into Mira's "There is no we, Zoey!"

She was clearly processing all of that way better than Mira and Rumi. It's not the same as navigating the relationship, but she processes her own emotion pretty well, at least.

[khonworm]

I could definitely see why you would think so but that scene, for me at least, is just another showcase of Zoey’s analytical and pragmatic attitude

But just because Zoey has that attitude does not mean she is emotionally mature or emotionally competent. It’s more accurate to say that she is pushing what she feels aside

Because what she feels is lesser—always lesser—than what is at stake, than her duty, than what others feel. So Zoey acts and sticks by the person that also has been lied to. She questions what should they do, what actions could they take. She assesses the situation they are in, pointing out that all their songs are three part harmonies and that they essentially cannot do this without Rumi [something she also said in the aftermath of the train scene] and, to me, not really taking in completely that Mira is just in quiet shock—not because Zoey does not care but right now, the world is ending around them so Zoey is putting her energy into focusing at the matters at hand

Zoey is effectively not allowing herself to feel the weight of the emotions and process them. She cannot do that yet, she is not going to. She has to stay firm because they have a duty to stick by

Only for her to finally be stopped, for Gwi-ma to take a hold of her and get in her head, when Mira said “There is no we, Zoey”

Because what becomes of Zoey now when the two people who made her feel she is something just basically leave her?

But no, it’s not their fault at all. How could it be?

Maybe it was just because she was too much and not enough for them

[khonworm]

And if I say Zoey’s the most unhealthy one out of Huntrix when it comes to emotions? How her line of always being on Rumi’s side is actually just another show of her people pleasing? How Zoey’s “For the world” line says a lot about her character? In this essay, I will—

Seriously, I’ve been having these thoughts ever since I’ve first watched the movie months ago and maybe it’s because I do not engage with people in fandom but I have not seen anyone talking about this at all

Even in a lot of fics, which is kinda whatever since characters are devices to use to tell a story and if it involves Zoey being competent when it comes to emotions then you go do that because fanon is a playground we all partake in—but damn canon Zoey is so far off from that

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

100% this!! I've been thinking about it since I realized the same people who make Mira the avoidant/bad communicator usually make Zoey the one that starts all the hard conversations or the one who knows what must be done and like... Just like you say, fandom is a playground and we can all use our toys whatever way we want to, but canon Zoey would not be the healthy communicator!

That woman is a People pleaser, canon itself spells it out to us. You know what people pleasing does to you? It makes you avoid hard conversations because you don't want to upset the status quo, even to your own well being's detriment! It makes you try to juggle everyone's needs and comfort zones even when some of them clash or need to be re-evaluated! Even when you can't keep everyone happy, you will try and fail to do it and then keep trying.

It will literally make you believe that everything is fine or can be fine if you just shut up and endure the uncomfortable aura a little longer! Just as Zoey herself says after the train fight "it doesn't matter. We just need to get through this."

Speaking as people pleaser myself: we are definitely not good at communicating, specially communicating our own needs and wants, and we are usually pretty bad at dealing with direct conflict. Honestly I admire Mira so much because while yeah, maybe she pushed too hard sometimes and clashed too hard with Rumi (unavoidable when directly confronting Fight vs Flight conflict responses) she was actively trying to fix things! I would 100% had been like Zoey and just stayed in my line trying to cling to the normalcy in hopes it resolved on its own with enough time lol. I also love Zoey dearly she's mah little freak <3

[khonworm]

It was actually Mira who said along those lines after the train fight, just a little correction!

Zoey’s line was “You know I’m always on your side, but it’s really hard to understand this time.” Before the “but” line, that is the only instance I could think about that Zoey actually pushed back against Rumi, and expressed disagreement, but even then, it wasnt a full reveal of whatever she may be feeling and she made sure to keep it gentle in her delivery by saying that “You know I’m always on your side.” People pleasing until the end

And she didnt push back earlier on that when Rumi clarified that the whole song was the problem. We see Zoey’s frustration, yes, but she just accepts the answer and goes try to rip out her notebook instead of vocalizing similar thoughts that Mira did as she was trying to tear her notebook

Both Mira and Zoey are observant of the fact that something is going with Rumi, the only difference is that Mira is proactive and will voice out her feelings and frustrations and will approach, while Zoey is avoidant. She tries her best not to rock anything or intrude or ruin things by adding in her own cents and instead gives them ideas that could be solutions

Zoey takes the more analytical, pragmatic approach to things and it makes so much sense when you look at her people pleasing and the line she said during their huddle at the ideal awards

“For the world.” Going back to the train scene, Zoey was still quiet as Rumi and Mira continued to argue and only stepping in, telling them to stop when their fighting is compromising their abilities to be Hunters, their focus to get the job done. But besides that? We dont even get to know how Zoey felt about Rumi and Mira fighting

There is something to be said about Zoey being the lyricist of Huntrix, as well

The way that “Too much and not enough” comes into play here as well. Zoey gives what she can, her words and ideas and energy to the group, but steps back from letting anyone know what she may be feeling, all those “colors stuck in her head”

Also there is something to be said about Zoey’s hopeful yet pragmatic attitude, Rumi’s stubbornness and empathy and Mira being direct yet hesitancy on matters

This is a mess of thoughts, I will be shutting up now

But yes, I LOVE HUNTRIX. I LOVE THEM BEING A MESS

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

Fuck fuck fuck YOU'RE RIGHT!!!

I feel like I failed my girls bu remembering that wrong 😭😭 that's what I get for writting while sleep deprived and in the middle of an axiety crisis lmao.

But yeah rest of my points still stand AND specially with everything you added. I always think about Zoey immediatly trying to go into changing her lyrics because I can imagine how painful that moment was for her. Like... She has a clear ADHD coding and I can't help but headcanon her with heavy RSD and to hear that the lyrics she worked so hard on are not well recieved? Yikes.

And still she pushes down her feelings to try and fix things for Rumi and Mira and keep the barely there balance they have going.

Zoey is really a wild card in the conflict because she doesn't give us much in terms of opinions and stances and that really says a lot about her and her tendency to 'hide her true colors' and fuck now I get more of why my gf believes I'm a Zoey lmao.

And while yeah, Mira definitely still has a lot to learn and unlearn too, I think what really makes her be a step ahead of Zoey and Rumi in this Is the fact that she knows what her issues are. She's the first one to address where she's coming from and she doesn't really need Han to "diagnose" her in that one scene because anything he could've said to her is something she already knew (I think that's very clever writting on the movie's part btw, we learn so much about the characters in what they don't say or let to be said!). While they are all taking baby steps, Mira clearly has done a little bit more walking by this point.

They trully are all a mess when it comes to share their fears and problems (we should at least partially thank Celine for that! (I also love that disaster of a woman but Jesus fucking Christ she's so lucky those girls didn't turn out any worse lol)) but in the end is what makes their relationship so interesting to navigate and makes it so rewarding when they finally make it.

[khonworm]

I’m only going to say this because I am very confident that I will talk about this continuously if I do not stop myself but I love the fact that it’s their bond with each other, that the people who support them, all that love had saved the day. Just the message of starting over again [the Honmoon] not from fear, not from shame but acceptance of imperfection and the faults that they have. “When darkness meets the light.” Learning to accept yourself—colors, jagged pieces and patterns and all

[khonworm]

This talk also aligns with their weapons by the way. I dont know if it’s a coincidence or not BUT I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT IT

[khonworm]

And if I say Zoey’s the most unhealthy one out of Huntrix when it comes to emotions? How her line of always being on Rumi’s side is actually just another show of her people pleasing? How Zoey’s “For the world” line says a lot about her character? In this essay, I will—

Seriously, I’ve been having these thoughts ever since I’ve first watched the movie months ago and maybe it’s because I do not engage with people in fandom but I have not seen anyone talking about this at all

Even in a lot of fics, which is kinda whatever since characters are devices to use to tell a story and if it involves Zoey being competent when it comes to emotions then you go do that because fanon is a playground we all partake in—but damn canon Zoey is so far off from that

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

100% this!! I've been thinking about it since I realized the same people who make Mira the avoidant/bad communicator usually make Zoey the one that starts all the hard conversations or the one who knows what must be done and like... Just like you say, fandom is a playground and we can all use our toys whatever way we want to, but canon Zoey would not be the healthy communicator!

That woman is a People pleaser, canon itself spells it out to us. You know what people pleasing does to you? It makes you avoid hard conversations because you don't want to upset the status quo, even to your own well being's detriment! It makes you try to juggle everyone's needs and comfort zones even when some of them clash or need to be re-evaluated! Even when you can't keep everyone happy, you will try and fail to do it and then keep trying.

It will literally make you believe that everything is fine or can be fine if you just shut up and endure the uncomfortable aura a little longer! Just as Zoey herself says after the train fight "it doesn't matter. We just need to get through this."

Speaking as people pleaser myself: we are definitely not good at communicating, specially communicating our own needs and wants, and we are usually pretty bad at dealing with direct conflict. Honestly I admire Mira so much because while yeah, maybe she pushed too hard sometimes and clashed too hard with Rumi (unavoidable when directly confronting Fight vs Flight conflict responses) she was actively trying to fix things! I would 100% had been like Zoey and just stayed in my line trying to cling to the normalcy in hopes it resolved on its own with enough time lol. I also love Zoey dearly she's mah little freak <3

[khonworm]

It was actually Mira who said along those lines after the train fight, just a little correction!

Zoey’s line was “You know I’m always on your side, but it’s really hard to understand this time.” Before the “but” line, that is the only instance I could think about that Zoey actually pushed back against Rumi, and expressed disagreement, but even then, it wasnt a full reveal of whatever she may be feeling and she made sure to keep it gentle in her delivery by saying that “You know I’m always on your side.” People pleasing until the end

And she didnt push back earlier on that when Rumi clarified that the whole song was the problem. We see Zoey’s frustration, yes, but she just accepts the answer and goes try to rip out her notebook instead of vocalizing similar thoughts that Mira did as she was trying to tear her notebook

Both Mira and Zoey are observant of the fact that something is going with Rumi, the only difference is that Mira is proactive and will voice out her feelings and frustrations and will approach, while Zoey is avoidant. She tries her best not to rock anything or intrude or ruin things by adding in her own cents and instead gives them ideas that could be solutions

Zoey takes the more analytical, pragmatic approach to things and it makes so much sense when you look at her people pleasing and the line she said during their huddle at the ideal awards

“For the world.” Going back to the train scene, Zoey was still quiet as Rumi and Mira continued to argue and only stepping in, telling them to stop when their fighting is compromising their abilities to be Hunters, their focus to get the job done. But besides that? We dont even get to know how Zoey felt about Rumi and Mira fighting

There is something to be said about Zoey being the lyricist of Huntrix, as well

The way that “Too much and not enough” comes into play here as well. Zoey gives what she can, her words and ideas and energy to the group, but steps back from letting anyone know what she may be feeling, all those “colors stuck in her head”

Also there is something to be said about Zoey’s hopeful yet pragmatic attitude, Rumi’s stubbornness and empathy and Mira being direct yet hesitancy on matters

This is a mess of thoughts, I will be shutting up now

But yes, I LOVE HUNTRIX. I LOVE THEM BEING A MESS

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

Fuck fuck fuck YOU'RE RIGHT!!!

I feel like I failed my girls bu remembering that wrong 😭😭 that's what I get for writting while sleep deprived and in the middle of an axiety crisis lmao.

But yeah rest of my points still stand AND specially with everything you added. I always think about Zoey immediatly trying to go into changing her lyrics because I can imagine how painful that moment was for her. Like... She has a clear ADHD coding and I can't help but headcanon her with heavy RSD and to hear that the lyrics she worked so hard on are not well recieved? Yikes.

And still she pushes down her feelings to try and fix things for Rumi and Mira and keep the barely there balance they have going.

Zoey is really a wild card in the conflict because she doesn't give us much in terms of opinions and stances and that really says a lot about her and her tendency to 'hide her true colors' and fuck now I get more of why my gf believes I'm a Zoey lmao.

And while yeah, Mira definitely still has a lot to learn and unlearn too, I think what really makes her be a step ahead of Zoey and Rumi in this Is the fact that she knows what her issues are. She's the first one to address where she's coming from and she doesn't really need Han to "diagnose" her in that one scene because anything he could've said to her is something she already knew (I think that's very clever writting on the movie's part btw, we learn so much about the characters in what they don't say or let to be said!). While they are all taking baby steps, Mira clearly has done a little bit more walking by this point.

They trully are all a mess when it comes to share their fears and problems (we should at least partially thank Celine for that! (I also love that disaster of a woman but Jesus fucking Christ she's so lucky those girls didn't turn out any worse lol)) but in the end is what makes their relationship so interesting to navigate and makes it so rewarding when they finally make it.

[khonworm]

I’m only going to say this because I am very confident that I will talk about this continuously if I do not stop myself but I love the fact that it’s their bond with each other, that the people who support them, all that love had saved the day. Just the message of starting over again [the Honmoon] not from fear, not from shame but acceptance of imperfection and the faults that they have. “When darkness meets the light.” Learning to accept yourself—colors, jagged pieces and patterns and all

[khonworm]

Natalie was the first [un]fortunate one to be introduced to strong Misty

[khonworm]

Drawing these before had me writing this

Still set within my Khontrix Zoekhon AU. Khon is about to get ghosted :’)

Trust that Khon will come marching into Huntrix’s tower once he stops spiralling, he would ignore Rumira’s shouting that Zoey wants to be left alone and does not want to see him. He is gonna demand both he and Zoey talk after almost a month of getting left alone

[khonworm]

And if I say Zoey’s the most unhealthy one out of Huntrix when it comes to emotions? How her line of always being on Rumi’s side is actually just another show of her people pleasing? How Zoey’s “For the world” line says a lot about her character? In this essay, I will—

Seriously, I’ve been having these thoughts ever since I’ve first watched the movie months ago and maybe it’s because I do not engage with people in fandom but I have not seen anyone talking about this at all

Even in a lot of fics, which is kinda whatever since characters are devices to use to tell a story and if it involves Zoey being competent when it comes to emotions then you go do that because fanon is a playground we all partake in—but damn canon Zoey is so far off from that

[thelastbraincellofthehive]

100% this!! I've been thinking about it since I realized the same people who make Mira the avoidant/bad communicator usually make Zoey the one that starts all the hard conversations or the one who knows what must be done and like... Just like you say, fandom is a playground and we can all use our toys whatever way we want to, but canon Zoey would not be the healthy communicator!

That woman is a People pleaser, canon itself spells it out to us. You know what people pleasing does to you? It makes you avoid hard conversations because you don't want to upset the status quo, even to your own well being's detriment! It makes you try to juggle everyone's needs and comfort zones even when some of them clash or need to be re-evaluated! Even when you can't keep everyone happy, you will try and fail to do it and then keep trying.

It will literally make you believe that everything is fine or can be fine if you just shut up and endure the uncomfortable aura a little longer! Just as Zoey herself says after the train fight "it doesn't matter. We just need to get through this."

Speaking as people pleaser myself: we are definitely not good at communicating, specially communicating our own needs and wants, and we are usually pretty bad at dealing with direct conflict. Honestly I admire Mira so much because while yeah, maybe she pushed too hard sometimes and clashed too hard with Rumi (unavoidable when directly confronting Fight vs Flight conflict responses) she was actively trying to fix things! I would 100% had been like Zoey and just stayed in my line trying to cling to the normalcy in hopes it resolved on its own with enough time lol. I also love Zoey dearly she's mah little freak <3

[khonworm]

It was actually Mira who said along those lines after the train fight, just a little correction!

Zoey’s line was “You know I’m always on your side, but it’s really hard to understand this time.” Before the “but” line, that is the only instance I could think about that Zoey actually pushed back against Rumi, and expressed disagreement, but even then, it wasnt a full reveal of whatever she may be feeling and she made sure to keep it gentle in her delivery by saying that “You know I’m always on your side.” People pleasing until the end

And she didnt push back earlier on that when Rumi clarified that the whole song was the problem. We see Zoey’s frustration, yes, but she just accepts the answer and goes try to rip out her notebook instead of vocalizing similar thoughts that Mira did as she was trying to tear her notebook

Both Mira and Zoey are observant of the fact that something is going with Rumi, the only difference is that Mira is proactive and will voice out her feelings and frustrations and will approach, while Zoey is avoidant. She tries her best not to rock anything or intrude or ruin things by adding in her own cents and instead gives them ideas that could be solutions

Zoey takes the more analytical, pragmatic approach to things and it makes so much sense when you look at her people pleasing and the line she said during their huddle at the ideal awards

“For the world.” Going back to the train scene, Zoey was still quiet as Rumi and Mira continued to argue and only stepping in, telling them to stop when their fighting is compromising their abilities to be Hunters, their focus to get the job done. But besides that? We dont even get to know how Zoey felt about Rumi and Mira fighting

There is something to be said about Zoey being the lyricist of Huntrix, as well

The way that “Too much and not enough” comes into play here as well. Zoey gives what she can, her words and ideas and energy to the group, but steps back from letting anyone know what she may be feeling, all those “colors stuck in her head”

Also there is something to be said about Zoey’s hopeful yet pragmatic attitude, Rumi’s stubbornness and empathy and Mira being direct yet hesitancy on matters

This is a mess of thoughts, I will be shutting up now

But yes, I LOVE HUNTRIX. I LOVE THEM BEING A MESS

[khonworm]

Continuation of this post

Kind of forgot I was dumping my selfship stuff here. Anyway this started off small when I wrote it before, it actually ended with Zoey running after Khon but I had decided that she got texted instead to not come

But—

It’s the start of Khontrix / Zoerumirakhon hangout!

This is missing a huge piece of context as to why Khon is sad on his birthday but this Khontrix AU is part of Resident Worlds, just the After Events

It’s another selfshipping thing with RE8 women. To keep it brief, it’s a series of AUs / lives that happened before this one with Khon being the only few who Remembers Everything™ and Actors AU was the last life where everyone finally dies without any of them getting renewed but somehow, he still got reborn

This specific Khontrix AU is set three lives after Resident Worlds and Khon is still dealing with the loss but he is fine. Yup. BETTER THAN HIS FIRST LIFE

[khonworm]

And if I say Zoey’s the most unhealthy one out of Huntrix when it comes to emotions? How her line of always being on Rumi’s side is actually just another show of her people pleasing? How Zoey’s “For the world” line says a lot about her character? In this essay, I will—

Seriously, I’ve been having these thoughts ever since I’ve first watched the movie months ago and maybe it’s because I do not engage with people in fandom but I have not seen anyone talking about this at all

Even in a lot of fics, which is kinda whatever since characters are devices to use to tell a story and if it involves Zoey being competent when it comes to emotions then you go do that because fanon is a playground we all partake in—but damn canon Zoey is so far off from that

[khonworm]

This is the other AU I made back in August besides my Polytrix Selkie AU

Polytrix Beauty[ies] and the Beast AU with 3 twists

Zoey was cursed because both her parents were assholes to the Enchantress, who turned up to their house hidden in the forest during a horrible, stormy night. The Enchantress could see their relationship was doomed with all the building resentment and anger the two have

“If you two could learn to love one another, and learn to love your child like this by the time the last petal fell, then the spell would be broken. If not, your daughter would be doomed to remain a beast for all time”

They werent turn to objects. Only Zoey is the one turned into a beast in this dumb AU of mine

After a few years of continued arguments and not being able to handle the responsibility that comes with having to raise Zoey as she was, they both soon just fucked off and left

Zoey is affected by this more than the curse. She had hoped that regardless whether her parents learned to love each other in time or not to break the curse, that they would still stay and love her anyway, even if they did not love each other

But they didnt stay and that hurt more than this curse ever couldve. Lonely Zoey :((

Anyway, skip to both Celine and Rumi making their way through the forest another few years later

Celine was fearful of this big, sad creature. Zoey wanted to convince them to stay for a week at most to finally have company. She has been trying to do this for a while now but people just keep running away screaming

Rumi, who listened and understood that Zoey just wanted company not in a permanent way, took advantage of Celine misunderstanding of the situation because she wanted to take a break from Celine’s pressure and overprotectiveness so she offered to stay and for Celine to “be set free”

Celine, thinking that Rumi will be kept in that house forever, rushed to the town but wasnt given help because people know Rumi is Smart and that Celine is most likely misunderstanding the situation

“Take a chill pill, Celine” -The Entire Town

Then there is Mira. Always butted heads with Rumi and got into little arguments. Mira is actually flirting but she herself doesnt know she is. Got too used to the dynamic to realize that Oh. I like her. Rumi is the the same

Essentially, this is a crack AU where Rumi and Mira are idiots in love with each other but dont know it. Zoey is making them Feel Things too

Zoey is very aware she Has Feelings for them

She also quietly figured out that the only way to break the curse is through the poly route because it hinged on two other people learning to genuinely love the other and love Zoey as she is as the Beast

So Zoey to herself was like “Yeah, parents were a no go. With them? Poly will break this curse.” THIS is the first twist

The second? Zoey actually loves being a Beast, her [redacted] is fun too so she kind of doesnt want to be changed back. Cue Zoey trying not to be such a big puppy and loveable dork because it has Rumira down bad for her, just until the last petal falls, but also trying to get Rumira together because those oblivious idiots need the help

It ends up with Rumira finally realizing their feelings with said help. Like THAT happened a second before the last petal fell

And much to Zoey’s disappointment, as she began to float and shine, she found out that Rumira actually realized their feelings for Zoey way before they had for each other

The third twist, fourth if you were to ask me, is the Enchantress coming back to the house to check up on the Assholes with the Sweet Child after she felt the curse breaking, only to see two woman who arent the Assholes gawking at a pouting Zoey

Zoey’s short now WHAT THE FUCK

But she is so cute and also hot even in her human form so they are not actually complaining. Just whiplashed from having to crane their necks to look up at Zoey before to now having to look down

AU ends with Enchantress deciding to grant Zoey a wish, because wow pretty messed up you cursed a child just to punish her parents, like who really was the asshole there

And Zoey just wished for the ability to shift between both forms. Polytrix achieved and Zoey gives Rumira backshots [that was the redacted if you were curious]

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Continuation of this post

Rumira's answers to Zoey are like [+ still oblivious]: "We just miss you" "We're all still adjusting" "We just want you to be careful, we're worried"

Zoey, still upset but took their concern seriously, during the next hangout: "Khon, can you strip?"

And Khon did strip after Zoekhon had a small argument and all that Zoey found out is that Khon is actually tatted and just decided to hide the tattoos

Things between them are okay. They went out and Zoey stayed over and they ended up cuddling. And then they talked a lot about Khon’s tattoos the next morning and about whatever

Also here are some other fun little things I did for Zoekhon

Zoey posting on her personal Twitter account and having the Internet question who this Khon person is

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Zoey, although not wanting to intrude on Rumira’s relationship, is slowly being convinced by Khon to try and make Polytrix happen but has to ask for some advice after unsuccessful attempts

This one happens further into the future of the AU, when Rumi and Mira are chill with Khon

And little sketch I did after doing this

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Polytrix AU with marine biologist Zoey / fisherman Zoey—I've been thinking about dad fashion Zoey a lot lately—just by the ocean, doing a beach clean up then finding these two strange.. coats? hidden behind rocks and mostly buried in the sand. They were pretty. Why would anyone throw these away? Their loss

Zoey took them home, she lived pretty nearby. Next day, knocking came to her door and she was greeted by the two most beautiful women she has ever seen in her life. Theyre her wives now? Shes their husband?? SELKIES ARE REAL????

Every selkie knew, from the history of encounters, that humans were to never be trusted. As early as them being pups, every selkie knew of the stories of the unfortunate selkies that were forced to leave their pods behind because of a human's greed. If there is anything each of the selkie pods in the world followed, it's these instructions:

If you go Surface, hide your pelt properly. Do NOT let a human find your skin. If it’s found, say your goodbyes to the sea

NEVER trust a human, they will ALWAYS be greedy

Rumi and Mira knew of these rules. Theyve always been so careful of making sure their pelts were hidden away whenever they Surface to know and learn of the human world throughout the years, both of them curious about it despite the risk of Surfacing poses. Theyve always been a little too daring, too curious to really let the stories get to them too much. And after years of Surfacing, with no close calls of a human ever finding their precious skins, theyve become too comfortable

They were both gone

"Oh shit" as humans say

Theyve been told how these stories go. Theyve said goodbye to the sea. But NOW theyre confused—their fear, sadness, anger feeling muted—when the pelts were draped back over their shoulders. The human woman—their husband, ex husband??—frantically apologizing and bowing

Rumi and Mira were just free to go? They wont be kept prisoned? They can go back to the sea? The human doesnt want a wife, two wives? Not trusting all of this to not be just a trick, the two ran while the human was still blurting out apologies

The two watched from the sea, as the human cleaned the beach the next day. Their curiosity was nagging at them again. So they left their coats in an easier spot to be found, not even halfway buried in the sand

Rumi and Mira, back in human forms, watched from a distance as the woman found them. Panicked expression, head snapping left to right and not finding the ones who possessed these coats. They observed all of that. They also observe hands digging into the sand until a considerably deep hole was made and those hands delivered the coats inside and brushed the sand back in place. Then the human continued with her clean up

Rumi and Mira decided to keep doing this. And every time, besides that very first, the human never took their coats. Always hiding it in the sand for them properly, making sure they were placed delicately. This is not how the stories went. Why??

Theeen after two weeks of this, Rumi and Mira just came as Zoey was digging, asking "Why dont you want us?"

Zoey's very confused, and trying to hold back from throwing questions at them that shes been thinking about for weeks because she is a nerd wowowow SELKIES ARE REAL. "What? Werent you two the ones who literally said you dont want a human husband last time? That youre together?"

Really, this is just a silly AU I thought about. Selkie, human cautious, Rumira ending up being endeared to marine biologist, who could also be fisherman why not, Zoey and them actually wanting to be her wives and for her to be their husband

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Okay whatever. Just gonna post my dumb little writings of one of my Khontrix AUs here because yay to selfshipping

I have three “main” Khontrix AUs. All of them have an established relationship. Polytrix WILL happen but Khontrix is endgame

Also these writings are all within the “Rumira AU” because I have Zoekhon brainworms. I arranged them chronologically but keep in mind that there are stuff that still occurs in between some and things dont happen right away between each writing

I do not consider myself as a writer so do not expect these to be Good. I’m just someone who is very indulgent to the point of attempting to write

Zoekhon’s early beginnings in their friendship and them being the ridiculous pair that they are + bonus Polytrix but it’s actually Rumira sulking and the beginning of a speculation that doesnt go anywhere

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This is what I actually first wrote for this whole thing. Established Rumira and with how I see both of them, they do NOT deal with jealousy well AND they are so clueless about how they feel for Zoey so it becomes this unwarranted hostility and instant dislike towards Khon

This happens about two months after the speculation started and they always refused to hang out, much to Zoey and Khon’s disappointment

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This is how Rumi and Mira find out they are in love with Zoey

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The unfortunate thing of having never hoped and actively wished against living for this long is that I have never thought about what I wanted to do in the future and I'm still clueless I've had and still do have wants but I dont know how to make them happen