A 14-year old human being who's insightful and breathes in words mixed with pixie dust. She dreams a lot during the night, and sleeps her way through the sunlight. To cut it short: she's relatively strange and an undeniable lover of Pudge.
This “2016″ has been such a wonderful year, what with all the surprises of ups and downs along the way. I can therefore say I’m blessed, indeed, for the entire duration of it never lulled me into the depths of abyss. Those have shaped me into what I am now: a sucker for 2017.
I’ve never really imagined myself ending a year with a long post of acknowledgement for everyone who have stayed despite the many hurdles encountered. For this time, however, I chose to be that person.
With all that I have experienced last year, I learned how to dream bigger and aspire for greater things without even thinking of the negativities in life. At least for now, that is how I feel. I have realized that the guidance of the Lord will always be my guiding spirit in all that I shall do; with Him, I am never going astray. Besides that, it’s also noteworthy to become humble and appreciative all the time. Giving time for family, friends and prioritizing prioritize-able things should always be number 1. These things are what I wish to become better at for 2017. It’s not entirely your typical New Year’s Resolution, but I wish to never have myself forget all these. Such are fundamentals to have a better ride for what is ahead: good or bad, goals or not.
I’m not sure how 2017 will go; however, I will keep my heads up and that is for sure. I will never let 2016 down by being loose on this year that it has brought me into. Thank you for the cries, laughs, joys, blessings and whatnots, 2016. You are forever my game changer. ❀
Ice cream has never been my comfort food, simply because I was not allowed to eat it anytime. I am only given the approval to do so like once in three months, perhaps, so I grew up as someone who has limited preferences for ice cream flavors. But you know what? I realized that the joy of eating ice cream is: when you eat it with loved ones, when you share the love of food with people close to your heart, and when you just let its coldness freeze all your worries and bring you renewed guidance. I've never felt more empowered than ever by a cone of freezing food served with pure taste of bliss. Thank you, Magnolia! 😂
I’ve been holding back for the past months, but now is the time to speak up and voice out.
A lot of things occupy my mind, and the list goes from here to there because:
I don’t have it in me to belittle our policemen, who are one of the most admired personalities in the country, but I will never be able to accept what some of them had done. Running over the people (USING A CAR) who were there for a rally, really? The supposed protectors of our dear Philippines, the people whom we have always looked up to, and the individuals who have always been given much importance…. they were the ones who dared to step on the line. The rally-ists may have caused trouble, but it is never justifiable to just run over them using a police vehicle! That car is even tattooed with your logo. What a freaking shame.
I’ve always been interested in Philippine politics, but the issues that continue to arise are so overwhelming to the point that it’s already exhausting — mentally, emotionally and morally. The daily news of corruption, fraud, deception, killings and unjust practices leave me into a state of calamity: unsafe, unsecured and scared.
How can I know who to trust? Among the politicians who are giving us different versions of “truth”, who shall be deemed honest? Who among these public (supposedly) servants are really leaders?
Late Sen. Miriam Defensor-Santiago was never given the presidency, even after three attempts to lead the whole nation. And when she passed away, you had the guts to say that she’s the “best president we never had.” Well, no shiz, Sherlock, she was there: selfless and all ready to offer service… but you failed her. We failed her. The saddest thing now is that: without MDS, to what extent could we sustain the societal problems brought by the “cancer ng bayan” — politicians? HOW? Tell me, because I’m so lost and unsure.
From disputes over certain properties and safety problems, we are now faced with military issues, economic status, international relations and even morality. ANO BALAK NIYO @//pamahalaan
I’m so stressed about all these and I’m so young and I feel UNSTABLE. Kung atom ba ako, will you donate your electrons for me to become stable? @/USA/China. Syempre oo, pero may kapalit. We should both benefit, ‘di pwedeng ako lang kasi masakit kapag one-sided. So anong plano, bes? Tell me more. PM me your number @/Du30 nang magkalinawan tayo! If I was H, what will you be: my Cl or K? Or maybe both, but if not, then maybe one of you would have to change something to be able to step up.
Ang ayos sana ni de Lima, kaso ang gulo pa rin talaga. I cannot fathom everything and it’s annoying. She was one of those admirable personalities in the government, and to see her crawl her way back to her credibility is a nightmare. It’s very disappointing that she just had to be so, whatever she is. Proven guilty or not, her personality now screams doubtful to me.
Nakakairita talaga that everyday I just come across political issues like they are naturally occurring calamities. It hurts to know that this situation brings me to a point of wanting to go somewhere else that’s peaceful, unlike PH.
I’m not yet sleepy although I’m running on a zero sleep (I’ve only had a power nap of an hour and a half). My thoughts about our twisted government keep me awake, searching for probable solutions, and it sucks to wake up everyday to the reality of all this mess we are faced with. I think sleeping is better than opening your eyes if this is the daily scenario.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN in advance but bad news is that: the government feels like an everyday halloween party. Two-faces niggas with hidden agenda for their personal sake. You guys are the real cancer cells in the country. Sucks, big time.
Can you be my public servant/leader in this world full of politicians? I’d die early; please save me.
How I wish Duterte’s “putangina” and other curses could be the potential end to all these, pero hindi, e.
It’s been weeks since I have finished this book, but the feelings it has inscribed in me still lingers.
What with its “New York Times Bestseller” title has made it so different from all the others?
I don’t really know, but it’s exceptionally beautiful even with the heart-shattering and mind-boggling events that happened all at once; in just one seating, my world has turned upside down.
Although it’s both emotionally exhausting and satisfying, I take pride in being a reader of one of the world’s finest literary pieces yet. Something about its realistic approach and unafraid narration will forever be the remnant of a life well-lived.
And yes, I’m scared to watch the movie. But in time, I will heal; and I will once again see those two people who have changed my life even in the most heartbreaking way possible.
Thank you for sharing your brilliance, Jojo Moyes. Like your story “Me Before You,” I hope you’ll never fade out into the horizon without a taste of hope and true love.
All of us are worth something, anything... and maybe, even everything. We are all precious human beings whose every part is delicate. Like diamonds and crystals, we are substantial representations of value and importance.
When I was merely eight years old, I thought the world was only a mile (or two) bigger than the place where I grew up. Back then, I thought I already knew every route and dead-end that leads to somewhere.... and nowhere.
However, growing up, I’ve come to adhere to the ideology that no matter how much hard work you put into things, it may not be enough for others. It may seem shallow and useless to them. Hence, they fail to acknowledge our efforts; they see those as inconsequential variables in life.
Their failure to appreciate our good intentions (for them) then leads us to a self-doubting question: “Am I not enough?”
This one particular interrogative sentence is a sign of how other people’s feedback affects our mental and emotional state. Just merely asking ourselves if we are enough is an actual proof that we have come down to the point of doubting ourselves.
Doubts are like needles that pierce right through our emotions. When they multiply and reproduce, they will leave extensive and more severe damage. Thus, we are left with nothing but despair and melancholy.
DESPAIR - We lose hope that people will one day see our worth and recognize our efforts for them. This feeling penetrates our souls and fills our minds with negativity; at the end, the only choice we will see is to just give up.
MELANCHOLY - Such hopelessness inside of us guides us to the way of severe sadness, up to the point that we would no longer know the reason why our loneliness keeps on elevating. On nights, we may even cry ourselves to sleep and wake up feeling that heavy load in our hearts.
Doubts, indeed, are inflictors of pain; vulnerability/fragility: and more so, they are detractors that haunt our personal characters. If this is the case, then we will never be able to develop positively; rather, just make ourselves suffer from our misery and inability to believe in our capabilities.
KNOW THY WORTH because if you do, no strongest earthquake could ever shake your love and trust in yourself. Neither hurtful remarks nor recognition failures could ever break you. KNOW THY WORTH no matter what the circumstances are; let not your value be put to waste like memories forgotten and melodies unsung. KNOW THY WORTH because if you do, then you will never cry yourself to sleep at night, silently wishing for a better life.
And somehow, as I step ahead, I still find myself wanting to come back to the good, old days, to the memories of the past, and the feeling of being brought back to before.
It was a one-day sort of get-together with 12 (out of 44) of my batchmates during elementary. Since we’ve been brought apart by our school preferences for junior high school, we rarely get to see each other, making it even harder for us to bond.
Amidst all of those, I’m thankful that I got to spend a day with them that’s full of laughters, smiles, and even more memories as we grow up to be beautiful *wink* and handsome girls and boys, respectively. :)
Basically we did pay a visit to our alma mater, shared stories and of course, ate our hearts out! Watch our VLOG to have a peek of what happened. Click here!
Oftentimes, I am a living turmoil - one that’s always uncertain and anxious. There are bricks of doubts that cloud up my mind; there are walls of paranoia that surround my existence.
As things come and go, however, I have realized that letting this turmoil get the best of me is only a form of self-destruction. Hence, it could break me into bits and pieces, leaving me crawling my way back to the supposed version of myself that is productive, free-spirited, and happy.
It was a daily dose of anxiety that I had to live with. Moreover, it was a battle that I could not defend myself from. It had the power over me and no matter how hard I tried to break free, the only resolve that was left to me was to cry, and worse, even give up. To put it out there, I was so much of an emotional wreck.
A perfect depiction of how I am is someone who was always unsure and puzzled… until He came. With His presence, I prayed every night; I talked it all out. It took all of the courage in my being but it felt good to have confessed to Him.
And somehow, with that, I found the perfect medication for my condition. I continued the process of conversing with Him; and unlike before, I did not only listen, but I also tried and did put the resolution into action.
I wouldn’t say that I am completely healed, though. But surely, something in me twitched. I’ve been imprisoned in a labyrinth of emotions, but as I came up to my savior, He readily sat down with me and listened to my never-ending confessions. It was then that I became mentally and emotionally healthier because I freed myself from everything that I’ve kept inside.
As I look up in the sky, I paint a thousandfold of emotions: a smile of gratitude, a sigh of relief, a grin of development, and a tear of everything mixed upon the knowledge that He was and is my constant who never failed me.. and that he will always be.
Dear Lord, thank You. As I look up to You in the sky, I dearly reminisce our precious silent exchanges and all the spiritual lessons You have always shared to me, with a smile that you oh-so patiently plastered on my face, in the hopes to heal my scars. Thank You po, my forever and my always! ♥︎
FOOTNOTE: Free yourself. Let go and let God.
(A longer and deeper writing related to this one which I also wrote can be found here!)
WBC 4/5: Strengthening the LDR bond through an exploration in places and historical landmarks featuring Ilocos Sur.
We may have been caught up with our busy schedules and the differences in our learning environment, but we make sure to meet up and hang out once in a while in order to keep the fire burning.
Our friendship is a perfect example of how one should make time for priorities, and is a living testimony to the saying: “Distance means so little when someone means so much.”
All the love goes out to my girl squad! Shoutout as well to WBC’s 5/5, @cristinejanna: see you the soonest. Can’t wait to see what’s ahead of us as a complete girl group. LDR? Fighting! ❤️
Summer has been pretty good, so far. With all the interests for digital diaries and readings, everything has been going well. But then, a little mix of harmonies would be a really great companion for one to be freed from worries and also to ease boredom.
On days wherein I feel a little exhausted from just surfing the internet and stumbling upon some irrelevant posts, I listen to the melodies of life. Here goes my not-so-special-but-really-it-is playlist for summer!
Secret Love Song - Little Mix ft. Jason Derulo
Black Magic - Little Mix
A Whole New World - Lea Salonga & Brad Kane
Stay - Kristel Fulgar
Wildest Dreams - Taylor Swift
Everything Has Changed - Taylor Swift ft. Ed Sheeran
All of the Stars - Ed Sheeran
Always - Yoon Mi Rae
One Call Away - Charlie Puth
Pillow Talk - Zayn Malik
Be My Lady - Jason Dy's version
Photograph - Ed Sheeran
Like I'm Gonna Lose You - Meghan Trainor
Love Yourself - Justin Bieber
Sad Song - We The Kings ft. Elena Coats
Marvin Gaye - CJ Navato & Kristel Fulgar
Have a music-filled life and enjoy its delight! :)
It’s been more than a month since my summer vacation started, and I have to say that it started off quite productive, at least. I haven’t gotten any getaway or some escapade yet, but I’d like to believe that it’ll come pretty much soon enough. So while we’re at it, here are some highlights of my life lately!
It’s a five-day long summer youth camp which was held in our school, and its main aim was to hone our skills and further broaden our knowledge on the aspects of Math, Science and Journalism. It was my second time to join this event; although I felt hesitant to join at first, I enjoyed the camp so in the end, I had no regrets.
We, campers, were grouped into eight sub-camps: Archimedes, Galileo, Rutherford, Newton, Dalton, Lavoisier, Einstein and Mendel. We had several experimental activities, investigations, sessions and lectures, and also debates headed by our teachers and some guest speakers. Fortunately, my camp, Rutherford, went home as the over-all champion for the summer youth camp. Other than the awards, it was the bond established that made all the sessions worthwhile; and the learning that made the event a memorable experience.
Here am I with some campmates - SupWal Club!
2. Blogging on WordPress
Well, it’s been more than a week since I established my personal blog on WordPress - krcscribbles. I really had a fun time going on over its functionality, and I must say that I sort of developed a deeper appreciation for blogging because of it. It contains my opinions regarding societal issues and also reflections on certain experiences. You can say that it’s a more “formal” blog because of the posts, and it’s where I’ll share most of my writings. However, I’ll still be active here. Just extending my social circle, that’s all! :)
3. YouTube madness
I love watching videos on YouTube, like seriously random ones. But specifically, I’ve been a tambay on Kristel Fulgar’s and Janina Vela’s channels! Both are really my stress-reliever.
On Kristel: I love how she covers a song and delivers it with such uniqueness. I’ve been LSS-ed by her version of Secret Love Song with CJ Navato. The girl really has a potential, and I’m hoping that she continues to practice for her to improve.
On Janina: She’s really something else! I really appreciate how she films her vlogs - from the lighting, workplace, sequences and way of talking. She seems very organized as a person (well, close to choleric, maybe). Also, she does not fail to entertain me whenever I’m bored. I just go to her channel and boom, marathon! You guys should definitely check out her channel because she deserves all the love, tbh.
4. Halalan 2016 preparations (campaigns and all)
Only a few days left until the national elections, and still, there are so many issues circling around the country. I couldn’t quite comprehend why there is such hypocrisy from these problems rising, but then again I just hope people would be smart enough to know what to do. On another note, I am thankful for this time in the lives of Filipinos for it is very informative, and well, interesting. My only prayer now is for this country to have honest and true leaders.
You can also read my thoughts about #PiliPinas here.
5. Footprints
This one’s a book, specifically a collection of real-life stories with biblical verses to serve as explanations. I love how its content strengthened my beliefs in God and life, especially my inspiration tank. Whenever I feel down and lost, I seek for comfort from this book. It’s a reminder that every struggle in life should be equivalent to a stronger version of one’s self.
Here’s a preview of its cover! And oh, the book’s pages are really of good quality - glossy and smooth. Perfect for a reading buddy!
6. Binge-watching Descendants of the Sun (DOTS)
Simply, it’s just the bomb with all the FEELS! I got hooked with this Korean Drama series because other than Dr. Kang and Captain’s undeniable and palpable chemistry, I cannot deny that its story has the depth everyone would surely love as much as I did. More than just the daily imaginations about them and me-not-getting-over-their-tandem, I love how it showcased the sides of people and their professions. Honestly, I don’t think I can still last a day without thinking of them. I even like chinitos now, oh my!
Bonus fact: I’ve gotten less than 8 hours of sleep in two consecutive days just to finish it. No regrets, though!
Nothing extravagant happened for the past few weeks of my life, but though it’s somehow monotonous - like wake up and surf the net - I have to say that it’s still satisfying. I’m that girl, after all.
From April 6 to 8, 2016, I was at Tagaytay, Philippines to take part in the seminar workshop on Free Being Me which is spearheaded by the Girl Scouts of the Philippines, World Association of Girl Guides and Girl Scouts and Dove.
For three days, we have been sheltered in Helena Z. Benitez National Program and Training Center, inkling with us girl scouts the differentiation of our cultures, practices and personal backgrounds that seem to be liabilities for us to come closer to each other.
This program, the Free Being Me which is in collaboration with the WAGGGS and Dove, focused more on developing our inner persona and indeed, it entailed a deeper meaning of beauty within our minds and hearts.
In my opinion, Free Being Me has two visions: first, the development and improvement of body confidence.
Aminin man natin o hindi, lahat tayo may insecurities sa ating pagkatao. We all come to that point in our lives wherein we question why we do not have those features that people would really die for.
Through Free Being Me, we, attendees, realized that these ideals are not the basis that would gauge whether or not we are beautiful. We have disregarded those fairytale-like and mountainous standards that we set for ourselves, and eventually, little by little, we have come to be honest of our flaws, yet also accepted them with open hearts and with wide smiles.
Having that stated, we have developed our socialization skills with people, and that for me is the second vision of this Free Being Me program.
Since we have already set aside our insecurities, we have been more sociable and interactive with the people around us. We are no longer the type of people who just sat at a corner and watched people do their own thing. We came out of our shells and we have bloomed into the beautiful flowers that we are, bearing with us the values of acceptance and humility.
With all those activities, we did not only listen to the presentations but further engaged ourselves into something that seemed like a fragile topic for us, our flaws, but with the help of this Free Being Me program, we learned how to be confident enough.
To my fellow girl scouts, thank you for the newfound friendship that I have made with you. We may or may not have talked a lot or just communicated once because of the Human Bingo, but deep inside, we all know that we have the connection that seemed like the force to converge us into one. For all the stories, chitchats and compliments, let us thank each other for the moments that we shared.
Patrol 1: Be-YOU-tiful. Coming from different councils and yet with the help of the Free Being Me program, we were able to cross paths and be part of each other’s lives.
Of course, special thanks as well to those whom I have stumbled upon and exchanged a few words with! You guys may have remembered me as the Andrea Brillantes from the press conference who answered queries about beauty, but I thank you, still, for letting me feel comfortable even though we weren’t, in any way, acquainted with each other. May we see each other again somewhere as #ConfidentlyBeautiful girls of our country. Hugs and kisses, fellow girl scouts!
As an end note, I’d like to quote this: “For life is laced upon with flawed perfection and chaotic beauty.” Regardless of that, we are all beautiful in our littlest ways.
I thank God for this wonderful experience that made me realize my worth as a person. No to Image Myth, yes to being real, and yes to being me!
Friendly reminder:
Girls, know your worth. It takes acceptance and contentment to be really beautiful. Be grateful for everything, and by then you’ll experience happiness of all sorts. ❤️😄 I love you and your flaws, please remember that.
Okay so… it’s the first Sunday of my summer vacation! Yay for that! I’m really thrilled because I know that the end of the school year 2015-2016 means more time for blogging, and of course, more stress-free days.
R E A D I N G the comments on Philippine politics-related videos on YouTube. I’m kind of curious as to who will people vote as the President and Vice President. I’d also like to know their thoughts regarding the dilemmas that the Philippines has been facing for the past years.
W R I T I N G the second entry for this blog link-up.
L I S T E N I N G to the machines as they print out pictures; and the voices of random people here in our shop. Glad they aren’t that noisy, anyway, ‘cause I don’t think I can handle any more noise pollution!
T H I N K I N G about the medicines I have to take. Phew, if only every single tablet would help me become taller, then I’d gladly take them. EL OH EL
S M E L L I N G the aroma of food! This is seriously better than anything else.
W I S H I N G that I’ll feel better from this day on. I’m really getting bored ‘cause I’m just stuck on the bed or any resting place. This is not how my summer is supposed to be. *sigh*
H O P I N G for better opportunities in life! I have a lot of dreams, actually. Well, who doesn’t? I’m thankful for every blessing, but I’d like to enlarge those and make use of my capabilities!
W E A R I N G a shirt that contradicts the heat! It’s a blue casual t-shirt paired with leggings. (Now you understand why it is in contrary with the weather) I’m always like this, hehe.
L O V I N G the applications I get to use on my phone! Seriously, I’ve been more creative ever since and that’s all thanks to these apps for introducing me to artsy-ness.
W A N T I N G to go for a photoshoot, with me as the photographer and/or my cousin and/or friends as the model/s! My camera is waiting….
N E E D I N G lots of fun times so I could ease the boredom. And by fun times I mean sick-free days, photoshoots, pig-out sessions and blogging time. My idea of fun may be different but I’m not ashamed for it.
F E E L I N G the need to speak out for my thoughts are really pushing me to. I’ll stick to my principle, though. There’s time for everything.
C L I C K I N G on the buttons of Tumblr and YouTube. I’m enjoying the features and services.
I’ll end it with this: Take good care of yourself and enjoy your free time. Share your story and join The Sunday Currently link-up!
