Unconquerable Soul

I'm Lauren and I'm arting my way through recovery from anorexia, depression, PTSD, anxiety, and self-harm. Hi. (I hold no belief that I am some sort of talented artist. These are just feelings.)

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Started TMS today

Trying to be hopeful but scared to be hopeful.

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Disparate

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Self-portrait (ish)

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Guess who’s making art again!

Working through recovery, hating every second of it, but trying, trying, trying.

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Art journal page for A Klingon Christmas Carol

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I got the quote wrong, should be “it’s impossible to remember a color you have not seen.” Anyway. Some art about hope.

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Something I want to scream

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Trying to fight relapse 18 November 2017

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Trying to fight the lack of creativity by starting a new art journal in which I’ll just paint a daily mood (maybe with some found poetry if the words lend themselves). It’s simple — I just have to paint a color or make a gradient that matches how I feel. I’m hoping that if I just get back into painting daily, the creativity will come back. I just want to have art back. So here is today’s.

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The Ashen Ruin

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Thrive

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Unfortunately, the paper in my new art journal isn’t as sturdy as my old one, so when I tear tape off after painting, it rips the page, so what this was supposed to say: “little faith steadily downhill I may die. If it depends on me, the grass will not grow.”

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Feelings, found poetry. “destined to fail already familiar”

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Fun with gouache.

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Frustration.

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I love flowers. I love being a geek. I love combining them.

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I’ve been feeling totally indifferent and unable to make art, and my therapist asked me to paint it. So this is the grey hole that is indifference.