killing-the-writer

[killing-the-writer]

And I sit still and think of all the things I want to tell you.

[extramadness]

[depressingxthings]

[bloodonthehorizon]

I never will

[valentina-poem]

[suicide-hesitation]

[teenagecrush]

[bargainbarbi3]

one day you wake up and they’re not the first thought on your mind and you can finally breathe again

[wishing-for-deathx]

You don’t want to talk to me anymore. My phone screen lights up and it’s never you. You aren’t excited to see me anymore. I’m trying to get used to the fact that it will never be the same again.

But that tiny ray of hope of the old you coming back, makes it impossible.

[radiantquotes]

“Once you’re in a relationship you think it’s going to last forever. But in reality, it only lasts as long as you’re working for it. If one of the person stops working, it falls apart.”

[haleyincarnate]

Boundless, Cynthia Hand

[wishing-for-deathx]

“I can’t make you love me or miss me. And I can’t stop loving you or missing you.”

— I’m in hell

[imissyoumorethanirememberyou]

“I miss you caring about me. I miss you saying good morning and goodnight and hugging me when I’m sad and checking to make sure I get home safe. Now all we have is glances across the room and unsaid words in our minds. I guess I just miss knowing that I meant something to you.”

-i wish you still cared

[wishing-for-deathx]

“It’s so fucking painful, the thought of them together. I have never been a possessive person but the idea of him being with her just makes me feel a kind of pain I haven’t felt before.”

— why her and not me

[vodkakilledtheteen]

“Let me tell you what’s going to happen, the day after you find out he slept with someone else. 1. You’re going to wake up with last nights makeup still on your face and you’re going to want to stay all day in bed. 2. Your body is going to feel weak because your heart is going to feel like it’s gone. 3. You’re going to get out of bed when you really need to use the bathroom. Then you’re going to stare at your reflection in the bathroom mirror. Then your reflection is going to make you rationalize with his decision. 4. At 5 pm you’re going to realize that you haven’t fed yourself all day. You’ll walk over to the kitchen and grab the blueberries in the fridge, and you’ll remember that he was the one who got those blueberries a week ago. You’re going to stare at the blueberries, and wonder if he got those because blueberries are blue and black, and maybe he was trying to warn you that he was going to hurt you. 5. People are going to write to you and call you but you’ll ignore all of the text messages and calls. 6. You’re going to realize that you still haven’t fed yourself because when you tried to, you realized you didn’t have an appetite. 7. Your room is going to be dark and you’re going to be in bed scrolling through his Instagram or Facebook. You’re going to look through his followers and look at the people who’ve liked his pictures. You want to find a clue, and when you do you’re going to think about how stupid you were and you’re going to wonder why you didn’t do this before. 8. You’re going to get up from the bed and collect all of the things he gave you. You’re going to grab a laundry basket and put everything in there, and tomorrow you’ll go donate it to your nearest thrift store. 9. You’ll go back to bed and block him on all of your social media accounts. 10. You’ll think everything is going to be okay, but the next morning you wake up and you realize that you miss him. You unblock him. You remove everything you were going to donate from the laundry basket. You put everything back where it was. You walk to the kitchen and open the fridge and you eat those blueberries he left and they bruise your lips and soul even more.”

— Alexa Evangelista, the book i’ll never finish writing

[loveserum]

texts

[live-throughwords]

you’ll find another

they said

but I don’t want another

I thought