Bwaby Bear

 Aspec. They/them Life blogging my panic attacks as therapy The vibe here oscillates viciously

[killjoy-james]

Most days I don’t want to be alive anymore; I don’t know if the brief honeymoons are worth all this hurt.

[killjoy-james]

It’s never for attention but at the same time I wish someone fucking cared. Why couldn’t you just hold me? Am I asking for too much? Am I beyond help? Did I get what I wanted?

They just always want you for your body, and I should know by now. Once you stop putting out no one is coming to care for you at your hospital bed. They don’t care if you lose consciousness in bed. she cried at my cuts before beating me blue. How could you do this to yourself when your mine to ruin?

[fenster6ank]

Every wound I gave myself learned to soften, learned to fade. But the ones you left behind stare back at me every damn day. I try to bury them beneath new scars, try to forget but I fail. Your wounds remain, still fresh, still sharp, still mine to carry.

[rosiesdeath]

the only 3 things that keep me alive are...

1.Sex

2.Starving

3.Selfharm

The SSS <3

[mimilovesnumetal]

im almost 2 months clean from sh if anyone cares tho..

[happyending95]

[happyending95]

[killjoy-james]

I might be sniffling and sneezing but at least I don’t have a bloody nose

[cr4ving]

[444livingdeadgirl]

Drug abuse? I would never. I love drugs!

[emotionaleating]

i just wish you met me before all these bad things happened to me

[emotionaleating]

i feel like no one really talks about how this all is a permanent condition, the sadness never really goes away it just brews in the back of your head. no matter what you’ll always be reminded that it’s always lingering. sometimes i can’t accept it’s always going to be like this. i swear i’m fun and chill i just have this irrevocable ache inside of me. it’s a part of me now and i don’t think i ever wanna let it go. oh i wish to be a normal girl. what is wrong with me?.

[anniesonxannys]

[eldritchbauble]

*Guy who just woke up milliseconds ago voice* this feels like a good time to abuse substances.

[caloricangel]

Top 5 worst experiences

[killjoy-james]

I miss you…sometimes I’m thankful for the last 11 years and other times I wish I never lived in a world without you

[hpdamechan]

i hate how everything my abusers did to me have almost completely shaped me as a person. they wanted me this way. they shapes my interests, my dislikes, my fears, my personality. it feels like there’s no part of me that has free will anymore. i want free. i can’t take it.