◞ ྀི◟𓏵 ׁ₍ꕤᐢ..ᐢ₎ . . ❝ Pen - ❞ But he was already TEARING away from any chance of her touching him again ; recoiling from her as though she were an INFECTION, glaring her down as though she were a gnat waiting to be squashed under heel. To be on the end of that DISDAIN was a knife to the heart, a sensation only worsened by the ACIDIC spiel he proceeded to unleash on her. Elara could only stand there in that hallway -- tears cascading in an ONSLAUGHT down her bruised, grimy cheeks ( unable to restrain her growing despair any further ).
HOW had it come to this? Mere months ago her heart had only seized with DISGUST at the very notion of encountering him ; now he was the cause of a pain she had NEVER experienced before, which only begged the question -- just how deeply had she allowed herself to fall if THIS was the agony she was experiencing?
Right now, it was like It was holding her beating heart in its palm -- with the power to CRUSH it at any given moment.
And with what was happening right now, she feared he would.
DELUSIONAL PESTS. A broken gasp in response was all she could emit when that familiar, clown face sneered down at her ; her hands now quivering at her sides ( oh, how she wished he hadn't let her go ). Her entire body was shaking, really, with how the temperature SANK to a level of ice - cold that was unnatural -- all of it permeating from the WRATH that coursed through him. Burning fury internally, a harsh, icy exterior meant to silence her.
❝ I-I thought - ❞ CHOKED breath in her attempt to speak and her gaze ( agonised, shocked ) flicked to the RAMPANT motions of those claws. ❝ I thought that...maybe... ❞
She tried to dismiss the stirring of DOUBT but how could she? WOULD he harm her, after everything?
When her attention moved back to him and how CLOSE he was -- snarling right into her face & in such proximity she could smell the flesh of the man he had TORN to pieces less than an hour ago. Plush lips parted to breathe a shaky sigh. ❝ I thought I was more to you. ❞ And THERE it was. ❝ Yes, I thought about living my life with you. Yes, I even dared to dream what it would...w-what it would be like to have you in - ❞ GOD, this was so hard. She was laying her very SOUL out before him whilst he shredded it with those talons. All by DESIGN? Well, if that was the case, then surely this was all KNOWN to him already. ❝ - i-in the way I've found myself wanting. I shouldn't but I do. ❞
Her smile, corners twitching, was PAIN - FILLED.
❝ I started to believe that I w-wasn't just...meat..to you, that I mattered. I started seeing beyond the monster, the GOD, and just - I - Fuck, I just wanted you. It doesn't matter, though, does it? You're never going to accept it. ❞ OR HER.