Day 654. Resolve
I know I've hit the pause button for a long while on this blog (although the counting continues) but today's experience required recording: It was a hectic, behind-the-eight-ball Monday morning, but I managed to get an appointment at the RE's (for GYN purposes only this time) to address the recurring infection I've had since stopping IVF. (Oh, the things they don't tell you...) Of course, they were an hour behind schedule, as usual, but I waited patiently. It was awkward seeing her again (the RE), and she wasn't as familiar with me (her face was tense), but she gave me the prescriptions I needed to clear this up, which in the end, is all that matters. "Just the facts, ma'am." Although she did not attribute it directly to getting off the hormone cocktails I'd been on for the previous six months, she did confirm that it's an imbalance. She prescribed some suppositories, a cream and said I should take acidophilus supplements. It was hard to be in that office again, but one thing came out of it, at least: I know I don't want to get on the IVF bandwagon again. I'm done with that path. (Don't get me wrong, I'm not knocking it for others, I just know it's no longer for me.) Motherhood will have to appear in a different form. Right now I need to continue (as I have for the last 2 months) focusing on other aspects of my life. For those continuing on your ART-ful journeys, I wish you all the best of good fortune! We all have to find our own ways through this struggle called infertility, and I honor you all. And on that note, I hit the pause button again. To be continued at a much later date ...

















