âWell I am leaving for good so I would love to hear your real feelings for once and not just some random growls. Or you just wanna watch me go?â, she asked, fighting her own tears now. Ace should know this, should know that Kingston wouldnât tell her shit. Wouldnât make her feel loved or adored or anything at all, he wouldnât even pretend to care. âWhen you talk like that all I hear that you donât care about me even as a friend. Itâs whataver, Ace will leaveâ, she shrugged, stepping back and now not really caring if she was crying or not.Â
âA competition? I fucking wish It was a competition cause I do well on that shit. But you guys keep saying it, keep saying that everyone is number one, but when I were number one King? When I was something but the girl you fucked this past year?â, stepping into his direction, both of her hands were on his chest, clunching his shirt, pulling him closer, showing that she meant it. Ace was trying to dig for something, anything that meant that he cared, but he giving her nothing. âThatâs bulshit. You wish me gone cause that would make shit easier for you. Cause this way you wouldnât have to admit that you fucking love me just as muchâ, letting go of his shirt, she dediced. There was no way she would leave without the words.
Kingston felt his stomach churn. Guilt rolling over him and anger boiling his blood, making him curl his hands in fists, tightly enough to leave indents into the palms from his nails. A muscle in his jaw twitched. âYou must be fucking joking,â he gritted out, âyou want me to give you a fucking congratulations for ditching me forever speech,â spat out. âWell, congratu-fucking-lation, Ace, you finally got out!â he couldnât help scream the words.Â
Raising his hands to his neck, he grasped it in hopes heâll manintain his cool and not loose it. A mock laughter crawled out of his throat. A hollow joyless noise. The noise got cut off short by Aceâs next words and a deep, dark frown twisted on his features. Glaring dark eyes fixated on her. âDo not blame this on me, Iâm not the one leaving.â His voice betrayed nothing but cold-steel determination, even if fire crackled in his gaze.Â
âAnd Iâve never, ever meant for you to leave. But why would you even believe that? Even if I fucking mean it. You wonât. And itâs fair. So what? You want to see me beg you to stay? Crawl on my knees and ask your forgivness.â He sighed, suddenly so tired. Tears rushed back in his eyes and he cringed, squeezing his eyes to stop them. âOf course that wonât be enough, because thatâs all Iâve been doing for the past year, but all you got from it was - Iâm just fucking you,â he shruged and gritted his teeth, biting harshly on his inner cheek to feel something else than the storm in his chest, the heavy weight pulling at his insides, tearing him open. Fight it. Donât open up. Instincts kicked in, telling him to not let his walls down. For anything. Because once they were down, there was no bulding them back up. Heâll be a wreck. âI canât give you what you want.âÂ















